The Romancing Venus Saga

Black & Blue

2008-03-31T01:03:00.000-07:00

Black & Blue

Gusto ko mambugbog ng tao saka magmura. Bakit? Trip ko lang. I'll take on volunteers. lmao.

Guess Who's Back Bitch

2008-03-28T23:32:00.000-07:00

Guess Who's Back Bitch

Tada! I have reincarnated from the ashes like a phoenix. Ok maybe not.

I have snapped out from an unworldly blogging comatose and I've spent 3 hours of my precious time browsing through my friends' friendster accounts (how redundant) and poking my nose into their lives. Yes, I admit. I have been a very bad friend and I am clueless as to what most of them have been up to. Andaming nagtatampo! I am really so sorry lalo na sa mga kabarkada ko. The million dollar question: "Cory, anong nangyari sa'yo?"

Short answer: "Eto, naglahong parang bula st sumulpot na parang kabuti."

Long answer: "Eto nagdepres-depressan. Nawalan ng coping mechanism sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko. Nagpaka walang kwenta. Nagpaka adik (no illegal substance included here). Naging instant single... Bumagsak sa nclex, nadepress lalo."

I guess that's the main reason why I hibernated for so long and why I lost touch with my friends. Nahiya lang ako kasi I felt such a failure. Feeling ko kasi na feeling na mga tao sa paligid ko na ang tali-talino ko pero I messed up. Na we were picture perfect ni Dani but we had to part because of the friggin distance. These past months have all been a teary blur and here I am, blogging about my not-so-graceful life in the land of the free and the home of the brave. Alleluia to that.

But thank God I'm kinda back to my old perky self again. I may have fucked up with my test, may have felt like shit before but now I'm rejuvenated and am determined not to give up. I'm not jobless and definitely not hopeless.

I have tons of things to blog about but right now I have to catch some sleep.

Toodles.

Isang Thorzine Ka Lang!

2007-10-01T01:05:00.000-07:00

Isang Thorazine Ka Lang!

So ok, it's 1:00am and I am freezing cold. I'm wearing a hoodie and a pair of socks yet still I feel like I'm trapped in an igloo or something. I'm currently taking my break from my (ulk) review. I decided to post some gibberish here since Friendster (my usual break thing) is on maintenance.

People often ask me how my review is going and all I can say is namamaga na utak ko, I swear. Someone please paki pasakan ako ng line ng Mannitol. Sukang suka na pati ako sa mga gamot at sa mga side effects kaya please kindly hand me some Phenergan. Kaasar! Ang hirap imemorize ng mga gamot!!! Magkaka alta presyon na ata ako at kailangan ko na uminom ng Capoten. I like Pharma but sadly it doesn't like me back at itong subject na to ang lowest ko in college ( that was Junior year). I got an 84 in Pharmacology (Yes, St. Paul schools don't use 1, 2, 3...that kinda thingamajigy grading. Instead we use old school-high school grading in percentage). Not true that I flunked on most of the tests but I did miss some of the quizzes which automatically ay bagsak ako. Oh did I mention that I got suspended in college for 5 days? Long story. I'll just post about it in the future.

Moving on, I wish I had powers na I would put my hand on top a book and magically be able to memorize its contents at once. That would be sweet. That would mean that I don't need to read and reread stuff about medication for ten times. Memorizing pa naman is not my strong point. Come to think of it, I have no strong point! Just kidding. Analysis siguro (uy feeling!). haha but stupid me, I have to know which is which first before I analyze anything right?

Plus I hate studying alone. I always get motivated when I have someone with me who's doing a similar task. Albeit I admit that I'm not a studious person, when I do decide to study lagi akong may kasama. That's why I liked it in the dorm kasi alam ko na pag sa bahay ako tatamadin lang ako unlike sa there mahihiya ako sa mga classmate ko na nag-aaral tapos ako pabanjing-banjing lang or sila nagpupuyat tapos ako knock-out na. Although kadalasan nakikipagdate pa din ako kahit na maraming test at requirement at pakalat kalat sa RP. Kailangan laging masaya and may time for fun! Arriba sa lovelife! haha.

And to top it all off, mahirap mag-aral ng hindi inspired! Haay buhay!

If I get through this and I pass, I promise na I would be a better daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend, citizen (pati ito kasama haha). Lord, PLEASE let me pass and I swear that I would be forever indebted... Now that's what I call bargaining!!! haha. Kaya kayo, people who are reading this, kindly be good friends and pray for me that I pass the nclex. I'm getting all jittery now.

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For all those who left tags, I will get back to you after my so-called Hiatus. Till then, au revoir.

In Hiatus

2007-09-15T08:15:00.000-07:00

In Hiatus

Friends I just hafta take a much needed break from going online. The geek in me takes over when I'm in front of a computer that my brain goes on hyperdrive that at the end of the day I find myself too lazy to even open my NCLEX reviewer. I won't post here for a month or so but I'll still visit my favorite blogs. Don't delete me on your blogroll! haha and please pray for me on my upcoming licensure exam.

Wish me all the luck!

We Got Whooped

2007-09-04T02:31:00.000-07:00

We Got Whooped

Ang mga trip nga naman ng mga Pinoy na iset na record...kung hindi sa breastfeeding eh sa kissing (well atleast hindi katulad ng mga Jap na ang trip eh couples having sex at the same time). But sad to say kasi like what my post's title says, we got our asses whooped again and this time the Hungarians made sure na malayo layo ang dapat habulin ng mga organizer ng Lovapalooza because from the previous record of 6,613 smooching couples, they distanced it to 7,451 pairs of lip-lockers this time around. Can the Filipino people save up all their saliva till next February? Pagdasal nyo lang na sana mas madaming tamabay at jologs ang pumunta sa Lovapalooza at mas maraming lalake ang magpropose next year at the said event. Oh and more bands won't hurt either.

we be whooping them asses come February

I've gone to Lovapalooza once. Twas a great memory since I went there with some friends and Dani (no we didn't kiss, I had to go back sa dorm early cause of the curfew). Fun din naman siya kaso super daming tao. Well depende naman kasi yan sa trip nyo. I bet it'll be in MOA next year since Mayor Lim made chupe all the stalls and restos in baywalk (ang KJ nya). If nasa Pinas ako baka pumunta ako but I don't think I'd be home then so I'll just watch it in the news. I'll go look for your faces na lang. lol. Go beat those Hungarians!

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Info and Image from Yahoonews.

Ate's Big Day, 1st Times and More

2007-09-02T12:19:00.000-07:00

Ate's Big Day, 1st Times and More

Since I'm in my tamad mood to study again lulubusin ko na. lol. Consecutive kasi ang mga occasion - my eldest ate's 2-day birthday celebration (twas her birthday last Aug. 31, she's 28 na!) with our house celeb last friday where I cooked spaghetti then we bought cake, the so-called Ultimate Chocolate Cake over at Raley's (na pangalan pa lang pamatay na). Yey! Tapos today ate's boyfriend treated us at Applebee's. Twas sweet of him nga. Uy first time ko dun! haha! Sorta like a Friday's, Chilli's kinda thing going on. Oh yeah and tomorrow we're going to San Leandro for a Filipino Fiesta there. 1st time again! lol.

Moving on, we went malling after para magpababa ng kinain at kasi madaming sale ngayon since malapit na ang Labor Day. Super mura! The other day nga kuya went to JC Penney tapos nakabili si kuya ng rubber shoes na Nike na $15 lang! wahaha! biruin mo yun Php660 lang! Parang Greenhills Class A price! Papasalubong daw nya kung kanino man, as if naman uuwi na. Ako napabili ako kahit na I'm trying to be super frugal since wala pa kong work. I bought a pair too kanina. Twas only 20 bucks (Php800) at super ganda pa. Not bad! Not bad talaga! Kahit pa 3rd pair of rubber shoes ko na yun dito. haha. Kasi early this year bumili din ako ng white pair (sa Rob Place pa yun) tapos ate gave me another pair na gray. Ang masasabi ko lang: a girl cannot have enough shoes and bags! Wuhoooo!

At saka magagamit ko naman yun. Bakit? Oh kasi eto na I'm trying to lose weight na talaga. Tama na ang pagpapakawala with an excuse na "I wanna try this and that," since every food here is new to my virgin Pinoy tastebuds. I swear I gained weight talaga! Sorry Lord! Taga sa bato I won't pig out anymore. Sabi nila pag bago ka sa States tataba ka talaga. Yung kabarkada ko when she went here for a vacation last June, she gained 15 lbs for her short 3 week stay. Anyway, nung bago ako dito, hala! Hindi nawawalan ng ice cream sa freezer and I super super heart ice cream! As in uber sweet tooth talaga ako kaya nga ang ending ang ice cream hindi nagtatagal ng 2 days, feeling ko kasi every meal should end with a cup of it! Kaya ayun, ubos agad! lol. Tapos kuya would buy cakes pa and I would be the one to choose pa the flavor. Tsk. But in fairness, hindi na ngayon! I have control na. Ang ice cream nagtatagal na ng 2 weeks. I also asked kuya to stop buying cakes. No more round two na din when eating for me.

But as you all know, cutting down on food will not work by itself. You hafta exercise as well to burn calories and hype your metabolism. I've been telling my ate na if I have work na that I'll enroll myself in a gym with her. Recently she transferred her membership to the newly built 24 Hour Fitness gym that's about 10 minutes away from our place. Sinama nya ko kanina since it was her 1st day. 1st time again na makapasok sa 24 Hour Fitness! lol. Oh and just so you know, that gym is like the McDonald's of health buffs, sikat madami and big. It has 370 clubs nationwide and it's the gym that sponsors The Biggest Loser show. Ang counterpart nya: sorta like Fitness First sa Pinas. And I tell you, today's a saturday and 8:30 kami ngpunta but I swear nagulat ako sa sobrang daming tao. Walang sinabi ang dami ng tao sa Fitness First sa RP! Wala sa kalahati even. Extremes talaga dito sa states, sobrang daming obese at syempre madami ding weight conscious. I liked the gym, especially the pool and the sauna!!! That I really like. I promise to enroll talaga when I have work na but in the mean time working out sa bahay will do.

Haha todo na to! Pag hindi pa ko pumayat aba ewan ko na lang.

Near Death XP

2007-08-30T01:53:00.000-07:00

Near Death XP

I had the worst kind of headache last night. It was the meanest, most bad-ass physical pain I've experienced in my entire life. I cried again for a number of hours last night while I was talking to Dani over at ym (long story - am in no mood to divulge). I mean I didn't bawl or anything, I just sniffed a lot and blew my nose now and then plus the added stress must've caused some tension too overwhelming for me to take. Yes I know I should know better and I know I should've taken some pain meds but I was in no mood to eat either (NSAIDS are to be taken with food) and besides it was 3am by then ayoko din bangungutin (nightmares translated medically as Acute Pancreatitis).

I lay there in my bed for an hour or so thinking, pondering, musing (which all made my head hurt even more). I put all my pillows below my head (feeling ko lang may IICP ako haha) and although I wasn't vomiting nor was I losing consciousness, I really thought that hindi na ko magigising. Cerebral aneurysm ang drama nito! lol. I swear. I'm not over exaggerating. I really thought that I wouldn't be able to see the light of day anymore. I thought of how people would react to my death and how sad people who are close to me will be. I thought of my future and of Dani and of my friends and family. I couldn't think straight anymore. The pain was killing me even as I thought of demise. But I couldn't die now, I thought, I still had so many things I wanted to do with my life and besides, I had no suicidal tendencies and I can't die because of some stupid headache brought about by some heartache.

Then everything went blank.

By the time I opened my eyes, sunshine was already pouring through the window in the bedroom and the headache was gone. Thank God I'm alive, I said to myself, I'm too young to die. I got up from bed, made coffee and everything was back to normal - another study day for me. (not until I saw Willie making drama about Joey De Leon on TFC, oh but that's another story...)

Big C for Congrats!

2007-08-26T12:47:00.000-07:00

Big C for Congrats!

i Love it! Top 3 ang St. Paul University Manila with a 97% passing rate for the June 2007 nursing board exam! O ha ha say nyo dun? Batch ko yan! Galing ng Notorious 92 man! Pa-add lang na top 1 ang St Paul. University Iloilo tapos top 3 naman ang Manila Campus! Shet! woot wooooot! 2 St Paul Schools in the Top 3 roster. Heavy! Congrats batchmates! RN na! Paulinian nurses rock!

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Go here for the list of names of the June 2007 Nursing Board Examination passers.

Confessions of a Pinoy TV Junkie

2007-08-14T01:45:00.002-07:00

Confessions of a Pinoy TV Junkie

I must confess. I am in love and that seeing that person is something that I really look forward to in everyday of my oh-so-boring life. When I look up unto his face, the lights seem to dim and the music starts to play and oh, I just fall for him over and over again. I sigh at the sound of his voice and my knees tremble at the sight of his countenance. Andrew has swept me off my feet and I relish every second of it. Yes, I am in love and it feels so good...

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I'm in love with Andrew Amarillo (Ryan Agoncillo of Ysabella) and Andrew Angeles (Jake Cuenca of Natutulog ba ang Diyos?). And yes, I am a reformed teleserye junkie. I used to hate ate Elsa (St. Paul Manila Residence Hall aka dorm head/keeper), for not giving us any chance to watch any show other than Pangako Sa'yo, Sa Piling Mo, Krystala and the sort at night. In truth, I found it so bakya that I didn't bother to watch TV at all. Buti kung koreanovela pa yun! It's just that when I think of Pinoy telenovelas before, a very very long and dragging plot comes to mind sort of like that of Mara Clara at ang walang patumanggang pag-aagawan sa diary at locket na umabot ng ilang taon hanggang sa nagpuberty na ko.

Never in my wildest imaginations did I think that I would watch sinseryes religiously as much as I watch them now. Call it baduy, jologs or corny but I actually couldn't care less. Fact is: they're rather entertaining and the a lot of the plot's changed. They feature lighter gists now, the story line makes more sense and they finish faster sans kidnapping and the grandiosity of exploding cars and people. My love story with teleseryes started when I arrived here in California. I tuned in to TFC and GMA Pinoy TV for most of my bum states and that includes watching ABS-CBN's Prime Time Bida. What transpired between me and Maria Flordeluna was love at first sight. I was immediately hooked and so were my ate and kuya. Kuya would always ask me to wake him up just so he can watch even if he's super tired from work. And my ate - she cried with Jo when the boat carrying Leo exploded. But hey, did Maria Flor really had to die in the end? That was just too sad.

Don't get me wrong. I too watch American shows like Grey's Anatomy, House MD and Heroes and they're really great but maganda din naman ang Filipino made. Plus you get to relate with most of the stuff that they show. So if you're still not watching you better get hold of that remote and press 2 or 7. I promise, maaliw ka din as much as naaliw ako. But like everything you still hafta be selective of what you pick to watch.

My personal favorites are Natutulog ba and Diyos? and Ysabella. The former's actually a remake of a drama film (under the same title) that starred Lorna T. Watching it would make you hate Rosanna Roces to the guts and pity and admire Roxanne Guinoo so much that you would want to put her up unto a pedestal and maybe make her a saint. The love story between Jake Cuenca and Roxanne Guinoo hasn't blossomed yet so you can still catch up with what you've missed (hindi pa huli ang lahat para sumubaybay!).

The latter's an original drama/comedy script. At in all fairness super ganda sya! It's very light and fun to watch and every episode's a definite must-see. Kudos to the writers of ABS-CBN for coming up with such an original story revolving around the love for cooking. Ok din ang love triangle nila Juday, Derek Ramsey and Ryan Agoncillo. Gina Pareno's punch lines will also leave you with a lot of kabag.

If you like Papa Piolo go ahead and watch Walang Kapalit. But warning kasi I believe mejo patapos na sya. Hands down also to Jodi Sta. Maria because I stopped watching that series because of her. I wanted to stranggle her so much because she never failed to evoke anger in me whenever. Saksakan sya ng maldita I swear! And if only may Urian and ang mga teleserye, ay wagi siya no doubt!

Don't watch Kokey. Hindi sya okey. Hindi ko nga ba alam, sana hindi na lang sya naglanding sa dos. Watching him would bring you nightmares. Believe me. Kung gusto mo bangungutin, go ahead suit yourself. It's either sa mukha ni Kokey o sa kaarethan ni Ruffa Guttierez ka magigimbal.

As for Margarita, yeah I liked the promotional photo they did. I also liked the costume but other than that I couldn't find anything else to like. Sorry Wendy and Bruce.

The last Teleserye I watched at GMA was Asian Treasures. It was good at the start but all the Datu Puti, Datu Sumakwel, Datu Dumalogdog, Datu Paduhinogan and Sudama stuff was just too much (ang hirap nila bigkasin noh?). It turned out to be a flop in the end and all the traveling to Thailand, China and Mongolia couldn't quite make up for the lack-luster story. Besides it was an Indiana Jones-Lara Croft rip-off anyway.

Matanda na kayo! Bahala na kayo kung kapuso or kapamilya ang tatangkilikin nyo basta ako ang alam ko mahal ko ang dalawang Andrew! Alien?

Alien.

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Images and some info from Wikipedia.

Raving

2007-08-07T17:26:00.001-07:00

Raving

I wanna thank everyone who made comments, left messages in my tagbox and just about everybody for their support sa amin ni Dani. Don't worry. I'll keep you posted.

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Oh! We watched The Simpsons the other day. It was hella funny. Umpisa pa lang mukhang gago na si Homer. It was supposed to be PG-13 but there were a lot of kids sa sinehan at f na f nila ang pagkanta sa spider pig, spider pig does whatever a spider pig does...lalala... Actually kung may anak ako hindi ko talaga sya papanuorin ng Simpsons til 13 na sya. Besides s/he won't get the jokes about Arnold and Bush anyway. Siguro makikitawa lang sya kasi everybody's laughing but no the kid won't get the punch line. Ano naman paki ng bata dun?

love em!

Awww but the movie was too short. An hour and a half lang. And even if that wasn't my first time to watch a movie here in the states, I still can't get over kung gano kalaki ang popcorn at drinks dito. Kuya got a large popcorn and I swear to God yun ang pinakamalaking popcorn na nakita ko sa buhay ko. Haha! Malaki pa sa bucket ng KFC at yung drinks namin was a medium pero I swear to God uli that it was even bigger than a Biggie drink from Wendys. Para siya sa malaking mama! Saka here the popcorn sa movies is butter flavored lang not unlike sa Philippines na madaming variety. Oh well but who am I to complain? Hindi naman ako ang bagbayad, nakidukot lang ako.

For those na hindi pa nakakapanuod ng The Simpsons and has been a big fan (like me) ever since they were kids... Watch it! Para lang maaliw kayo. Oh and by the way click here if you wanna see how you look like as a Simpson. It's pretty cool. Check it out.

About a Boy

2007-08-03T14:40:00.000-07:00

About a Boy

For those who know me and who constantly read my blog, you know that I don't usually post stuff about my very very personal life especially pag dating na sa puso. I guess it's just me. I just don't want to broadcast to the world kung ano nangyayari sakin. Mataas ang pride ko. I do not want to look like a weakling most especially when I know that some of my closest friends read my blog ritually.

Tsk! Dani and his kadramahan. Oops sa red lips at katangusan ng ilong.

Malamang hirap na hirap na siguro ako. It literally breaks my heart when I think of Dani and worst of all I have no one to talk to. I've cried buckets of tears cause of him. I could still remember vividly in my mind the days when I was still in the Philippines, nung mga panahon na malapit na ko umalis, nung mga panahon na despedida ko, when I handed him my gift para sa birthday nya. I also handed Dani a letter before I left reminding him to always stay strong and that I will be with him though not physically. I made him a list of a 100 things that I loved about him para hindi siya masyadong malungkot and so that he'll always be reminded of how much I loved him and how much I appreciated all the stuff he did for me and how much I cherished the times when we were together. We hugged so tight and for so long to last us a couple of years, for the years that I had to be in the states, for the time we had to be apart. We cried like there was no tomorrow. I had to leave on the 28th of March and his birthday was on April 1. It was sad as hell but we couldn't do anything about it. Even before we met alam ko nang I had to leave for the states after ko magcollege. It was just something that's inevitable. Out of the 4 of my siblings, 3 sa kanila also went thru long distance relationships so parang it was just natural for me to be in one as well.

holding on

Ironically at the beginning I was ok. America was so new to me that everything fascinated me and for a while nalimutan ko yung lungkot. At that time I even managed to convince myself that I was happy and that I was about to fulfill the so-called American Dream that my mom aspired for me. But after a few weeks time, the distance started to take its toll and I soon found myself crying to sleep. At dahil sa feeling strong ako lagi, I didn't tell anyone how sad I was, not my ate or kuya and most especially not Dani. All I know was that I missed him terribly. Namimiss ko yung lambing, yung lagi akong may kakampi, yung laging may kakulitan. I would playback in my head things that we used to do together only to find myself wanting to be with him more and wanting more to go back home to the Philippines. I was homesick 70% of the time because of him. But I couldn't do anything kundi maghintay sa ym hoping he'd go online and to check my friendster account for messages from him or my gmail for hopes of an e-mail. The messages were plenty at the start but the numbers soon declined as time passed by. He was busy. He had problems. I made up excuses in my head to justify for his actions. And like the good girlfriend that I was, I waited diligently night and day to the point that it almost reached a month before we had a chance to talk again.

hmm, parang jacket ko yan ah!

One thing that I would always remember about Dani is when he'd get mad when I would say na mas mahal ko siya kesa sa mas mahal niya ko (kinikilig naman ako dun kaya agree naman ako. haha). For him, he just simply loved me more. He wanted to take care of me because I was his baby. I was always happy just as long as we were together and I loved it when he would go out of his way for me. He would go to my dorm (in Malate) when he gets off from work kahit na pa he'd only be able to see me sa tapat ng dorm for 30 minutes because of the curfew. He would wait for me sa National Bookstore (at Rob Place) kahit pa lagi akong late whenever we'd meet up hanggang sa nabasa na niya ang buong series ng Pugad Baboy sa kakaantay. But I never heard na nagreklamo siya, not once. I would always remember how he'd smile and brighten up pag nakita na niya ko kahit na pa 4 hours na siya nagaantay. One of our past time eh magbolahan kung gano kami kaswerte sa isa't isa. And boy was I lucky! Not only was he tall dark and handsome (he's 5'11''), mabait at mahal na mahal pa niya ko. I literally couldn't ask for more.

However, the distance and all the waiting had severed our connection. Sobrang hindi kame naguusap and right now, we're on the rocks, the worst that we have ever been. It sucks big time. And sometimes nararamdaman ko na baliktad na, that I love him more than he loves me. I hate telling him things because I feel that it somehow mentally emasculates him pero minsan pakiramdam ko para na din akong sirang plaka - paulit ulit, nakakasawa at nakakarindi. Albeit, naka ear plugs siya and he just doesn't hear me out.

I want to end things. He wants to give it another try. I know that I've had enough but I love Dani, yun ang problema. Akala ko wala na kong kayang iiyak pa but after we talked sobrang namugto nanaman mata ko that it left me light headed. How we are right now is so heartbreaking most especially when I think about how happy we were nung nasa Pinas pa ko. It makes me wonder if things would be any more different if only I didn't have to leave so soon and if only I had more time to spend with him. But thinking of what-ifs is just a waste of time because we are where we are, we just have to deal with it. I know he feels that I blame everything on him but the truth is I really don't. Alam kong nahihirapan siya and I should know better because I'm on the other end of the rope. Sobrang confused na ko about what to do that I just don't want to think anymore. All the hurt has left me numb to the core. Ipagpapasa-Diyos ko na lang. Siya na ang bahala. I trust Dani when he promised that he'll make it better this time. He just has to make it good. At kahit na sumama ang loob ko ng todo I still admire him because he was humble enough to admit his mistakes and to ask forgiveness for them. I'll leave it to him now to take care of the relationship and to take care of what's left of us...

Reading the Stars

2007-07-30T01:03:00.000-07:00

Reading the Stars

Do you read Horoscopes? I do from time to time. Wala lang. Masaya lang siya. I can't entirely say that I believe in them pero yung mga kumakalat sa friendster na if you're a sag you're like this and if you're an aries you're like that and so and so, hmmm... Pisces kasi ako (I'm an Edsa baby) and in fairness tumpak siya sa personality ko.

PISCES - The Addict EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationship. Talkative. Romantic. Caring.

Ooops! Sorry sa part that I'm a great kisser! haha! That I cannot confirm. Tanungin na lang mga nakahalikan ko. haha laswa! Pero true yung part that I can predict the future. Well, sorta. May pagka clairvoyant ako. I can sense (minsan) kung sino ang tumatawag and when I get to be called sa mga oral recitation. Weird nga! At higit sa lahat nasesense ko kung niloloko ako ng boyfriend ko. Inaaway ko yung 1st bf ko before just because I can sense that he's cheating on me even if I didn't have solid proof. Wala lang nasense ko lang bigla, which later turned out nga na he really was indeed cheating (huling huli sa cellphone!). Baka I'm just super intuitive. Saksakan din ako ng daldal and sa dorm where I stayed before (for 3 years when I was in college) hindi kami nakakapag aral masyado ng mga roommates ko (special mention again to Cors and Ate Fran) kasi puro kami kwentuhan. haha! Hyper ako, energetic, enthusiastic. Always alive and kicking. My classmates back in HS used to tell me na kapag absent ako ang tahimik daw ng classroom.

Anyway, my horoscope for today reads:

Pisces
February 18 - March 19
People might become a bit argumentative when it comes to romantic issues today, dear Pisces. Your instincts might be calling for you to restrain yourself and hold back while the prevailing winds of the day are urging you to strike out onto new ground. Realize that your heart may need a bit of freedom and detachment. Your sensitive nature may be causing you to read too much into the issues at hand.

What the hell does that mean? Sinyales na ba ito mula sa maykapal? It's f*ckin messing up my head again. Yun na!

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Horoscope provided by Astrocenter c/o MyMSN.

3 Things

2007-07-27T01:35:00.000-07:00

3 Things

Thanks Tami for the Tag. Eto ang aking 3 Things:

Three Things That Scare Me

1. Darkness and mumu.
2. Ipis especially pag lumilipad.
3. Chucky of Child's Play and Freddy Kreuger of Nightmare on Elm Street. Ang mga dahilan kung bakit nagpapasama ako umihi nung bata pa ko. *lol

Three People Who Make Me Laugh

1. family
2. Barx
3. roomies and superfriends: special mention to Cors and Ate Fran. Yiheee!

Three Things I Love

1. ice cream!
2. feel good songs and movies
3. kissing in the rain and stuff that leads to something else thereafter.

Three Things I Hate

1. Social climbers!
2. Mga buwaya sa gobyerno
3. Okra

Three Things I Don't Understand

1. Why a lot people think being emo/rakista/rasta is synonmymous to being cool.
2. How Filipinos discriminate one another and idolize the foreign, hence colonial mentality dagdag mo pa ang crab mentality.
3. Why Starbucks is an "in thing" considering na one tall/venti is equivalent to a day's allowance and how people claim to get to study better sa loob ng starbucks when it's crowded and noisy.

Three Things On My Desk

1. My fone
2. Glass of H2O.
3. Bank of America notepad.

Three Things I Am Doing Right Now

1. Sitting
2. Waiting
3. Wishing

Three Things I Want To Do Before I Die

1. Mag ganja ng 1 kilo (OA) sabay food trip ng ice cream.
2. Magpatattoo ng white tiger with green eyes sa bandang hips.
3. Have plenty of sex.

Three Things I Can Do

1. Magtule.
2. Magpaanak.
3. Magocho ocho.

Three Things I Can't Do

1. Tumbling sabay split.
2. Lick my elbow.
3. Speak Chinese.

Three Things I Think You Should Listen To

1. Pop Rock: The All-American Rejects, October Fall, Cute is What We Aim For, Powerspace, Paramore
2. Brit Rock: The Cinematics, Franz Ferdinand, Muse, Artic Monkeys, Keane, The Feeling, Snow Patrol, Kasabian, Radiohead, Editors, Aqualung, Razorlight
3. Emo: Funeral For a Friend, Dashboard Confessional, Fall Out Boy, Panic! At the Disco, My Chemical Romance, 30 Seconds to Mars, Taking Back Sunday, Hawthorne Heights, Senses Fail, The Starting Line, Death Cab for Cutie, Yellow Card, Boys Like Girls, Hellogoodbye, Saosin, Plain White T's, Angels and Airwaves

Three Things You Should Never Listen To

1. Emo (with all the shouting): Alexisonfire
2. Metal: Slapshock
3. Your mom nagging.

Three Things I Would Like To Learn

1. 3 more languages, namely: Spanish, Japanese and French.
2. Breaking (as in hiphop).
3. More web related stuff.

Three Favorite Foods

1. Pad Thai
2. Spicy Salmon Sushi
3. Almond Praline flavored ice cream.

Three Shows I Watched As A Kid

1. Bioman/Maskman/Masked Rider Black/Shaider (you name it)
2. Transformers/Voltron/Voltes V/Daimos
3. Dats Entertainment

The Hate

2007-07-20T09:14:00.000-07:00

The Hate

Thanks Cors for tagging me. So eto na ang kasagutan sa mga mahihiwagang katanungan:

1. Food you hate --> Okra! Why did God make such a slimy vegetable?

2. Fruits that you hate --> Dragonfruit. Weird at walang lasa.

3. Veggies that you hate --> Okra yun lang halos lahat naman kinakain ko.

4. Celebrities or people that you hate --> Binay! Abalos ! mga arroganteng tuta! saka si yasmien kurdi kasi feeling vegan activist ng peta eh to think na she just went vegan para pumayat tapos f na f nya ang animal cruelty. asus!

5. Event/Incident/Situation that you hate --> failures. saka being put in the middle.

6. TV Shows or Movies that you hate --> Asian Treasures at Impostora. Corny eh.

7. Type of Music that you hate --> Yung maingay. Hard core rock.

8. Household chore that you hate --> Plantsa and cleaning the bathroom. haha!

9. Things you hate about the world --> trapo and social climbers! colonial mentality and crab mentality.

10. Things that you hate about yourself --> na sobrang procrastinator ko.

Anyone who reads this can tag him/herself. Go ahead. Make my day.

Lucky

2007-07-19T10:45:00.000-07:00

Lucky

I'm proud of myself.

Last night when I stopped reviewing I found myself at page 208 of the thickest book I've attempted to read from cover to cover in my whole life. It's the book I'm reading for the NCLEX exam: Elsevier: Saunders Comprehensive Review for the NCLEX-RN by Linda Silvestri.

the magical book: a must read for my fellow NCLEX reviwers

It does have 1264 pages but atleast there's just about another thousand more pages to go right and roughly 57 chapters more to read. Not bad. I'm doing good with my studying but I surely can do better. Slacker pa din ako as compared to some. I'm just not the studying type kahit dati pa ako yung tipong nakikinig ng maigi sa klase at hindi nag-aaral. I would only study for big exams like midterms, periodicals and such. Pero here I am facing the biggest exam ever sa buhay ko that would either make or break my career at eto ako't nagsusumikap mag-aral. My batchmates back in the Philippines kung hindi bum eh nagwwork na mostly sa call center while waiting for the result of the local board exams. Sometimes naiinggit ako kasi sila may work na while ako still reviewing (by myself). It's as if feeling ko napag iwanan ako and sila they're having a blast and having the grandest time of their lives sa Pinas. But come to think of it, isn't that every BSN grad's dream is to go to the states and be able to work here? Well eto na ko! Walang kahirap hirap na nakarating sa Amerika. People would always tell me how lucky I am, lucky that I'm an immigrant with all its perks. Sure maswerte ako but I still think maswerte din ang mga taong nasa Pilipinas. Being here and being there has its ups and downs. It's a matter of perspective and it can be lonely here sometimes. But atleast I can already see my goal's end and just a wee bit more push would get me past the finish line. I could already taste the sweetness of victory.

Malapit na kong maging RN!

Pressure Defined

2007-07-14T11:56:00.000-07:00

Pressure Defined

Thanks for to everyone who voted for me last week at dahil 3rd place ako (not bad sa 1st time nomination) I'm still in the run for being CG's Filipino Blog of the Week but now for week 65 na! So go go go! Vote for me ROMANCINGVENUS Poll's at the sidebar. <<<<

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Ano ang pananaw mo sa salitang pressure?

Yesterday my sister-in-law, ate Charry, just received news from the California Board of Nursing that she friggin passed the NCLEX! At first take! Mind you that there's roughly only 60+% of foreign country based grads who pass that darn test for the first time as compared sa mga dito naggraduate na 80+%. Her test stopped at no. 75 (the minimum no. of test items) at pumasa sya. Pakshet! Ang galing nyaaaaaa! I'm so happy for her. Oh she cried when she called her dad to report the good news and thanked everyone for their prayers. Ano ba naman nakakapagtaka dun? Eh hello? HS valedictorian sya. UP Cum Laude pa. Scholar pa sya sa Arellano (where she earned her BSN degree, 2nd courser sya). Hinakot na nya lahat! Duguan ang kalaban.

Then she called my mom.

Ate Charry: Mommy, nurse na po ako! (sabay singit kuya ko)
Kuya: Mommy, asawa na po ako ng nurse! (they talked for a while bago pinasa sakin)
Mommy: (to me) O ikaw mag-aral ka na. Wag kang pabigat jan nurse na si ate Charry mo. Kailangan ikaw din pumasa ka at one take. Nakakahiya sa mga kapatid mo jan...

Now I can define pressure. It's not to say that I'm not happy. Sus me! Napaka sama ko namang tao kung hindi ako matutuwa at sarili ko lang ang iisipin ko pero in all honesty napressure din ako. All eyes are on me now most epecially at tapos na ang kalbaryo ni ate Charry at pumasa na siya. Ako naman ngayon. Malapit na ang September, inaantay na ko ng NCLEX. Sana ako din pagtanggap ko ng letter it would say na I passed the test. How I wish na maiyak din ako tuwa that I could exclaim to my mom, "Mommy, nurse na ko! Whoooooh!," that I could thank my friends for their support and prayers and tell them the good news, that I could hug ate, ate Charry and kuya not because I need comfort but because I want to share with them all the happiness welling up inside me.

At yan ang rason kung bakit hindi ako nakakapagpost as often as I want sa blog ko. It's because I want to make all those things happen. It's not suffice to just dream about it and wish with all my might for it to happen. Kahit pa I have no patience whatsoever sa pag-aaral kailangan ko magsumikap. Besides things like lab Values, therapeutic diets, and how to's in telemetry reading won't and will never magically pop into my head. I am pressured. Pressure sans surrender. I'm not about to give up. Pray for me.

Of Bebeng and Her Friends

2007-07-10T23:44:00.001-07:00

Of Bebeng and Her Friends

Una sa lahat gusto ko magpasalamat sa mga bumoto sakin and to take this opportunity to campaign... fellow bloggers: dear friends in real life and real friends in blog life, PLS VOTE FOR ME as FILIPINO BLOG OF THE WEEK! Poll's at the sidebar. Just click on ROMANCINGVENUS and submit. It won't take a minute off your time plus I'll be forever indebted to you. Win-win situation tayo.

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Parating na si Bebeeeeeng!!!

Aba! Kahit nasa Amerika ako I'm still updated with the majority of what's happening in the Philippines. At yun na nga parating na si Bebeng the Bagyo!

One of my fondest memories nung bata pa ko ay yung mga times na bumabagyo. Ano pa nga ba ang pinagdadasal ng mga estudyante kundi masuspend ang klase. Admittedly I was one of those. We would tune in early either sa radio or sa TV (or both) hoping for a news announcement declaring that there weren't any classes. Sisilip kami sa bintana ng mga kapatid ko just to see if may baha na. Magtataklob ng kumot, babaluktot sa kama habang nagluluto ang mom ko ng champorado or arroz caldo. Heartbroken kapag narinig mo na ang busina ng school bus dahil sinyales na ng hindi pagdinig ng pagdadasal mo. What a classic. Aaaah pag bumabagyo nga naman. Twas definitely sweet for students! There was even a time na pinasok ang bahay namin ng baha and in the street the flood water was chest-high, but a kid as I was, I found it amusing. We even videotapped it (VHS pa nun). Believe it or not ang mga neighbor namin na mga foreigner, aba! May ngjjetski ba naman! May namamangka din! Akalain mo nga naman yun! Ginawa ba namang beach! You can just imagine how giddy I was as a child, the atmosphere was almost festive. Yun nga lang inis na inis ang mom ko kasi lumubog TV namin at kotse oh but I couldn't care less. It was a perfect excuse not to come to school.

champorado, arroz caldo anyone?

I've also had my fair share of paliligo sa ulan. When I was in elementary, my mom would join me and my ate sa park katabi ng bahay namin. We would take turns pushing each other sa swing and climbing up the slide. At kahit pa putik putik na kami, go lang ng go. After nun we would play tumbangpreso kahit pa napaka lakas ng ulan. Bata pa ko nun and for sure I couldn't do that anymore, baka kung anu-ano pa ang bumakat, kuya wouldn't approve not unless patakas. How I miss those days. Ang ulan nga naman, definitely a part of every Filipino's life.

Since I arrived here sa California, it has only rained once. It doesn't rain much here in the states. Sinama ko pa naman sa balibayan box ko ang paborito kong payong only to find out that nobody uses an umbrella here. I really miss rainy days in the Philippines...

Pag uwi ko maliligo ako sa ulan.

Something Something

2007-07-09T18:33:00.000-07:00

Something Something

I got tagged by Quincy! So in response here's 7 random somethings about me that most people don't know:

1. (The Classic Story behind my name) Ang buong ngalan ko ay Maria Corazon Victoria Chua de Guia. Ang haba noh? Anyway Edsa baby ako. Literally my mom was giving birth to me while my dad was out in the street rallying. So yun na nga...Maria for the shrine of Mary sa may Edsa, Corazon because of Cory Aquino and Victoria para manalo, for victory...In other words: pinaglaruan pangalan ko.

2. Nakasali na ko ng rap contest when I was in HS. I've also done singing contests pero laging 2nd or 3rd place, never champion.

3. I taught myself how to ride a bike. I learned how to when I was 14, stopped riding when I was 15 kasi nabunggo ako sa kotse. It was parked.

4. I'm 110% Pinoy in heart and spirit though I'm part Chinese, Spanish and Irish.

5. Inaasar akong Vincent, Hiei from Ghostfighter (Yuyu Hakusho), nung bata ako because I have a scar sa gitna ng forehead ko, parang 3rd eye.

6. I watch Ysabella because I think Judai and Ryan look good together.

7. and lastly, I dream to fly a kite in Luneta the next time I come home to the Philippines...

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In turn I'd like to tag Cors, Eden, Kc, Zack, Fionixe, Tami, and Ayel. As part of the rule, each person I tagged has to tag another seven. Keep on blogging!

Wag Kang Magreklamo

2007-07-08T14:47:00.000-07:00

Wag Kang Magreklamo

Ewan ko ba. Is it me or do people become more aware than they really are kapag umaalis sila sa bansa? It's as if nakipagbreak ka sa boyfriend mo that you realize the worth of a person kapag wala na siya. Don't get me wrong, matagal na kong aktibista sa utak ko and matagal na kong ahemm...nationalistic to the core. However, leaving the Philippines just gave me a heavier tug sa puso ko. Something gnawing at me telling me na magsumikap ako lalo.

I read a certain essay lately written by a Korean student way back '03 when she came to the Philippines. It tackled about how Filipinos lacked love for our own country. It struck me nung sinabi nya na, "Have you cried for the Philippines?" And so I ask you this time, have you? Because I certainly have countless times. I said it sa comment ko dun and I'll say it again here. Kahit ano pang puot ang lungkot ang nadadama mo, it's just not enough to complain and beat our breasts over the current situation of our country. Na kesyo ang mahal ng mga bilihin, puro naman pangungurakot, na wala naman pagbabago... Nandun na 'ko. Pero wala kang karapatang magreklamo kung wala ka namang naitutulong and besides wala namang nakakarinig sa mga hinaing mo.

Isa ka ba sa mga nagtatapon ng basura sa kalye? Nasa tamang gulang pero hindi rehistradong bumoto sa kadahilanang ikaw lamang ang may alam o baka naman rehistrado ka nga pero tinatamad ka lang bumoto? O di kaya'y hinayaang mong mabili ang boto mo? Sumasagot ka ba sa inggles kahit na kinakausap ka sa wikang Filipino para lang magmukha kang conio? Isang dosena na ba ang anak mo at inaasa mo lang ang lahat sa pamahalaan? Nandidiri ka ba sa mga mahihirap? Dineny mo na ba kahit once na Pilipino ka? Kung oo, pwes you have no right to complain at all dahil hindi mo mahal ng sapat ang bayan mo.

joining hands to campaign

But it's never too late, you can still change. Hindi na tayo pwede umasa pa sa iba. Dapat mismo sa sarili natin, even in our own little ways, tumulong tayo. Baon na baon na sa lupa ang Pilipinas at wag na natin ibaon pa.

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To read the essay, click here. Follow thru the thread and participate as well in the discussions to find out ways how you can help. Image is from Milleniumcampaign.

I Just Got Nooooominated!!!

2007-07-07T12:01:00.000-07:00

I Just Got Nooooominated!!!

Your eyes aren't fooling you.

Yes, I've been nominated to CG's Filipino Blog of the Week!!! It's not a big time webby but I feel so honored na ma nominate. Anooo ba? Just when I posted yesterday that I'm to study seriously na for the NCLEX. But oh well karirin na natin to ule! Let me just say kung bakit ako dapat manalo. (Campaigning ba ito?)

Here's the criteria:

Pt 1. Design (The look of the blog, from header to divider to footer. Harmony among elements, including color blending) - 10 points

Pink is the new black. And harmony? Oh come on napaka ayos ng blog ko. My header rocks! There's blending. *wink wink What more can you ask for? haha...

Pt 2. Reading Enjoyment (What makes visitors to post comments and come back to check for new posts.) - 10 points

I'm 21. St. Paul Manila Nursing grad na bum na nasa Amerika na nanunuod ng Wowowee araw araw habang palipat lipat sa Eat Bulaga. It's my first time here in the states kaya marami akong 1st time experiences as well. Let me take you with me mula sa kamangyangan ko mag operate ng vacuum, anxiety attacks ko over the dreaded NCLEX hanggang sa inculturation ko with the so-called American dream.

Pt 3. Navigational Comfort (Easy to navigate. Elements are easily found. How fast does the page load?) - 10 points

My page is very clean. Everything you need nasa sidebar. It loads very fast kasi wala masyadong kalat.

Pt 4. Information-filled and overall impact (sports blog? entertainment blog? personal blog? Just get your message across.) - 10 points

It's a personal. And eto na nga I'm getting my message across. So pleeeeeaaase vote for me! Pwedeng advanced Xmas gift na to. haha.

FRIENDS, LOVERS, COUNTRYMEN...VOTE FOR ME (ROMANCINGVENUS)!

follow thru CG's page to vote and find out more. Vote for RomancingVenus on the poll provided @ the sidebar. Much appreciated.

Seryosohan na Talaga

2007-07-07T00:30:00.000-07:00

Seryosohan na Talaga

[Hearing: Brighter than Sunshine. *Aqualung]
[Whatup: anong petsa na??? Tatamad tamad pa din ako! Magsumikap na!]

Nakausap ko si Lea and nanghingi na din ako ng onting motivation. I'm one month behind mula sa planned ko na time table sa pagaaral. Friends, hindi na muna ako makakapag onlyn as much as I'd like. Siguro mga 3x tops per week muna ako ngayon. I really hafta study na ng seryoso. I hafta make good sa NCLEX. Please pray for me. Pretty please.

Into the Bandwagon!

2007-07-05T17:48:00.000-07:00

Into the Bandwagon!

[Hearing: Wind It Up. *Gwen Stefani]
[Whatup: sineryoso ang blogging!]

View my Technorati Profile. Went Technorati and so much more! Ulk Wala naman laman yan. Anyway, if you browse through my sidebar you'd notice I added a lot of widgets and buttons. Naka add ako jan lahat. Like I said tinodo ko na ang ka adikan ko. So I guess it's not 74% anymore. haha! I just wanna spread the word!!! Blogging is so great... Kakalagay ko lang din ng stat counter and within 12 hours about 60+ people already visited my blog. Ang saya saya!!!

ALAG

2007-07-05T17:45:00.000-07:00

onga naman. confusing eh?

4th of July

2007-07-04T23:38:00.000-07:00

4th of July

[Hearing: Here we Are. *Gloria Estefan]
[Whatup: Independence Day todaaaaay!]

I'm 21 and at this age and point in life who would've thought that I'd be in the land of the free and the home of the brave? I never did. People here seem to be more festive than Filipinos during our own independence day. Naglalagay sila ng mga flags outside their houses. They have fireworks (though it's generally illegal). They gather and celebrate. As for me, I still don't get the perks of being an American. I am a Filipino in America the only thing that basically differs between me (an immigrant) and a citizen is primarily the right of suffrage, which I don't enjoy but who cares?! I can count with my fingers kung sino lang ang kilala kong American politician which of course includes, Bush and Arnold. Yes the terminator. As compared to who I know in the Philippines which I can assure you is too many to count and too unhealthy to think about.

Anyway, I was in San Francisco yesterday. It was fun. Went around Fisherman's Wharf, Chinatown, Crookedest st. (Lombard) and the Palace of Fine Arts. Touring came a little too late don't you think? But still it's all too welcome. Then went to San Mateo, got lost and came home at 12mn. Knockout ako paguwi and still exhausted pag gising ko that I wasn't able to come (as promised) with ate to Oakland with her boyfriend to watch a baseball game. Tumawag pa sya after to say na I should come sa Water something... haha di ko na gets yung name, since it's the 4th of July. I declined. Ayos lang nagdedepress-depressan naman kasi ako ngayon...

Oh yeah and unlike sa Pinas na Celsius ang gamit, here they use Fahrenheit. I didn't know about that until nung dumating ako dito and no, hindi laging malamig sa states like what I also thought. Yesterday was 99° and today's 101°. Putik ang init. You would say na mas mainit sa Pinas right? No, 89° lang jan.

P.S. my ate just got home at may dala siyang American flag. I promised na next time sasama na talaga ako sa panunod ng baseball just so I'm in the know. Kapag may boyfriend nga naman... Promise next time hindi na ko magddrama sa lungkot.

Bloggersita Adiktus Maximus

2007-07-04T23:22:00.000-07:00

Bloggersita Adiktus Maximus

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