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M.I.A

2012-02-06T21:38:00.002+08:00

Hello my lovely peeps!

Okay I know I've been M.I.A recently.

Fyi, I'll still continue to be M.I.A for the next few months cause my A level final exam is around the corner.

Sem 3's life is tough and super busy. There are tons of homework everyday.

I can't be lazy anymore, I need to save myself.

I'm facing a decisions-making period recently.

I've made some decisions already but there are still a lot of things waiting for me to decide.

Honestly, I don't know whether I'm doing the right thing.

I don't know whether I've made the right decision.

But I put my faith in God and trust that He will open a way for me if i really work very hard for what I want.

I've nothing much to write today, just feel that I should write something since my last update was like more than 1 month ago.

I might abandon my dearly bloggie for quite a long time.

Sacrificing is needed in order to get what I want.

Till then. Gotta do homework now.

I'll be back in no time.

XOXO.

2011, I'm Thankful.

2012-01-01T03:30:00.000+08:00

It feels like I just graduated from high school and prepared to start my college life.

Whoa, there gone a year! Time flies! *tsk tsk tsk*

2011 had been quite an amazing year.

It was also a year which had so much differences compared to the years before.

2011 was a year which I was no longer a secondary school student and I didn't have to wear school uniform anymore.

2011 was a year which I started my new study life at Sunway College JB, and met a lot of awesome new friends who came from different background.

2011 was a year which so many unexpected changes occurred and I used to think I almost couldn't handle it. *But I thank God for giving me strength and courage and sending me so many angels to be in my life.*

Sure, losing and gaining happened throughout the whole year.

Tears and sadness, disappointment and depress for a very long period.

BUT, because of all of that, I got to understand the true meaning of happiness.

Because of that, I got to realize how blessed I'm to have so many amazing people by my side.

Actually I've so much to say about my 2011, but I decided to let bygones be bygones.

I'll try my best to let what happened in 2011 left in 2011, I'm not gonna bring it to my 2012 to ruin my year.

To me, 2012 is a brand new start.

2012 is a new journey, new hope.

We should welcome it with a joyful heart and look forward to all the good things that God has planned for us.

So, whatever it is in your heart or mind that you can't let go in 2011, it is about time to move on, let go and get over it.

Don't torture yourself by anything that happened in the past.

Don't torture yourself by holding on things that you can't control.

There's a saying in Chinese, "人算不如天算".

So, why not let God to take fully control of everything for He already told us "Don't worry about anything, instead pray about everything. For He knows the plans He has for us, plans to prosper us and not to harm us, plans to give us hope and a future."

I've decided to move on I've decided to let go, I've decided to get over it.

I've also decided not to worry anymore about the matter that bothered me for so many months.

Since I can't do anything to change anything, I'll just put my faith in God and let God to take control.

Okay, I know something not-so-good happened in my 2011, but it definitely has some good memories!!!!!!

I'm really really thankful to every single friend of mine who made my year 2011 a great one!

I'm genuinely thankful to every single good memory that you all gave me.

2011, I'm thankful for memories like this...

(Singapore Science Centre CSI Roadshow!)

And these...(Chinese New Year!!!)

And this..(Sunway JB Freshie' Night!)

And this...(Lilian's Farewell party!)

And this..(Sunway JB Earth Day)

And this..(Steamboat gathering with Pn.Chang!!)

And this..(GB Gathering @ Monstar Cafe)

And this..(Bestie slept over at my place! :D)

And this...(Desaru Trip with Dian Yi!!!!)

And this...(Relax Gathering with Ms.Leong, Ms.Yeo, Ruyi and JinEe)

And this...(Shopping for Sunway JB Annual Ball with my girls!)

And this...(Sunway JB Annual Ball!)

And this...(Sunway JB Christmas Party!!)

And this...(Sunway JB Christmas Caroling by Sunway JB CF!!)

And this..(Super drama Maths classes with the super drama superman aka Mr.Lim!)

And of course THIS!! (Kukup Trip with the dearest Dian Yi)

And this...(Christmas Caroling and Countdown party with church people. :D)

And THIS!!! (Stayed over at bestie's house!!! <3 )

And this...(Singapore Trip with the bestie and her family!)

And this...(Ignite event @ Holy Light Church)

And lastly, I'm thankful for memories like THIS!!!!

(New Year Countdown Party at Qi Sheng's place!!!)

Okay, I don't know whether I've left out anything, but these are the photos that I found.
Honestly, I'm really really glad that I'm surrounded by so many amazing friends.
I think I'm really really lucky to have such awesome high school mates like Dian Yi.
I'm really proud to say that we're still very close to each other though we've already graduated one year!
And remember, YOU GUYS ARE IRREPLACEABLE AND I LOVE YOU GUYS TO THE MAX!!! <3
There's no one can ever replace you guys cause we've too many good memories together since Form 1 or Form 2.

I'm also really really happy to know all the Sunway fellows.
It's really glad to know all the A levels students and all the aus-some Ausmatians!
And of course, it's also really nice to know some very cute and friendly and nice lecturers like Ms.Meera, Mr.Lim, Ms.Angelina, Mr,Sathis, Ms.Eng, Ms.Amy and Mr.Alan.
I'm also very very very happy to know some close friends in college like Anne, XiaoQiao, Tracy, Cheryl, Vanessa, Yen Huay, Wee Teng, Yen Wei, Shun Qi, Jia Ying and so on.
Thank you all for making my first year of college life such a wonderful one! :D

I'm really really thankful and really really grateful to each and everyone of you who made an effort to be a part of my life.
I'm really looking forward to my new life in year 2012!
I gotta feeling that it's gonna be an amazing year! Woooots!!!!!
Alright, I think I'm done now.
Going to bed in a good good mood tonight. Good night, poeple!
HAPPY NEW YEARRRRR!!!!!! :D

New Hobby : Doodling

2011-12-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

Helloooo peeps!
I'm so in a good good mood now.
As I told you all, this week is a great week to me, cause I've so many exciting activities going on this week!
I'm going to Kukup with my dearest high school mates tomorrow! Yeeeaaaahhhhh!! :DDDDD
Another exciting activity is Christmas Caroling!
This coming Saturday is the very first time for me to join the Christmas Caroling.
I've always love Christmas since young, though I didn't know the actual meaning of Christmas.
But now I know the actual meaning of Christmas, and I love Christmas even more!
Okay, I think I should back to topic.
I'm being too excited for the coming activities. Hahaha.

So, recently I've a new hobby.
I started to like doodling on book whenever I'm bored.
I think I'm inspired by the blog The Notebook Doodles.
I've always been loving the blogger's doodles since years ago!

So I started this new hobby two months ago.
I'm really really jealous of people who can doodle in a very very nice way.
I wonder when can my doodles as nice as theirs?
Another thing I like about doodling is that I can note down the phrases/sentences/lyrics/quotes that I saw on internet.
Some of them are really inspiring and motivating.
Some of them can really knock sense into me and make me realize something.

So, these are some phrases/sentences/lyrics/quotes that I really really like.
Fyi, I myself really love the word "Determination".
The most satisfied doodle of mine. hahaha.

Okay, I gotta off to pack now.
Going to Kukup tomorrow 8.30am.
Yeah Yeah YEAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holidays

2011-12-21T20:47:00.002+08:00

Hello people!
Ummm. yeah, I know I've been ignoring my blog for a month. -.-
I realised something about myself : When I deactivated my Facebook and Twitter account, I tend to blog more often.
Maybe it's because I've no other website to go whenever I turn on computer?

Or maybe it's because I need a space to vent out all my stress, disappointment, frustration and so on whenever I'm sitting for important exam?
Okay, whatever, it doesn't really matter though. Haha.

So, I'm enjoying my love one-month holidays now.
My holiday is kinda boring but relaxing.
I've been enjoy reading English and Chinese novels since the very first day of my holiday.
I'm proud to say that I've finished reading 5 novels already!
This is such a huge achievement to me you know?!
I can't even finish one novel in 6 months cause I'm always lazy to read it or I've more important things (~~like Biology, Chemistry blah blah blah~~) to read.
I'm so happy that I finally have time to read all the novels that I always wanted to read!!!
Ohya, tell you what, I tend to like Cecelia Ahern's novels more and more every time I finished reading her novel.
Thank you Ms.Leong for lending me "Where Rainbows End", I seriously LOVEEEEE it!!!!! <3
I'm gonna read all Cecelia Ahern's books!!!!

Okay, so here's a good news!!
After waiting for 6 months, I finally have enough money to buy a new guitar!!!!!!! *Woooooowww*
I'm really really excited about it, my new guitar is now my new love! haha.
I swear I'll have very strong determination to learn it online.
I really hope that I'll become an awesome guitarist one day. haha.
But I need to pay the price for learning guitar though.
My fingers are super ugly now, like very very very very ugly.
But anyway, I believe it's worth it. :)

Say Hi to my new love! :)

So, many of my friends addicted to nails art.
Since everyone's doing nails art, I tried to do it too.
But apparently, I'm so FAILED.
Fyi, the blue colour nails are iPod.
I dunno why only 5 people knew what it is. Sigh.
Fail fail fail. :(

I try to braid my hair by myself and I did it!!!

I was so happy cause I seriously suck at doing hair but my Mom said I looked like acting cute. -.-

Okay. I think I'm done of what I wanna write today.
Gotta off to re-read "PS, I Love You" by Cecelia Ahern.
Good night, people.
This week's gonna be a good good week! ♥

Dear Chemistry

2011-11-18T23:13:00.002+08:00

Dear Chemistry,

I know you and I don't seem to get along very well however much I love you.

I used to think that you were my favourite, I used to love you more than anything else.

But apparently, you just don't feel the same way.

But still, I hope that you'll still be good to me.

Look, I've been spending so much time on you ever since I was sixteen.

I've been sacrificing a lot just because of you.

I've been struggling and dealing with all kind of disappointments which seriously brought me down and caused me wondering whether you're suitable for me.

But you know, after all, I'm still not gonna give up on you.

I'll not give up, yet.

Please, my dearest Chemistry, please be good to me, for I've been loving you so much since 2 years ago.

Please don't fail on me.

Please try to love me back too, can you?

Yours sincerely, Eunice.

Okay I know I'm like super duper crazy and abnormal.

In fact, Chemistry paper 1 really drives me crazy.

Why is it soooo tough?!

I left only 3 more days but I still got like 20 sets of past year papers haven't done.

I've no enough time already!!!!!!!!!

FMLTTM.

Idiot

2011-11-14T12:10:00.002+08:00

Why?
I've already tried my best to study everything.
I've already tried my best to do all the past years papers.
From year May/June 2001 until May/June 2011, I've completed 22 sets of past year paper.
1 year. I only left out 1 year.
The only past year papers that I didn't do is year 2010.

How can you came out with TWO similar questions until everyone who did the 2010 past year papers can answer the questions without even the need to think.
Why? Why I completed every single set of past year papers but I didn't do year 2010 past year papers?
I swear I've tried my best to study.
It's not that I didn't know how to do, but I've no enough time to complete.

Tan Ai Jia you're such an idiot.
Everybody can finish all questions but why you can't?
It's actually an easy paper you know?
How wasted that you can't finish the question?!
Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit.
The more efforts you put in, the more you care.
I really put a lot of efforts in Chemistry paper 2.
Dang it.
I hate myself so much right now.
I really can go and bang the wall or jump sea right now.
I'm the stupidest person on earth.

What can I do now to make myself feel better?
What can I do now to stop me keep thinking about how I screwed up my Chemistry paper 2 and focus on the coming papers.
What can I do. YOU TELL ME.

But right now I wish you were here.
A warm hug from YOU is extremely needed.

11.11.11

2011-11-11T22:53:00.003+08:00

11.11.11

I heard a lot of people said we must make a wish today at 11:11am and the wish that we made will come true. Really?

Anyway, I totally forgot about this, apparently I didn't make any wishes at all.

Have been mugging for Biology and Chemistry this few days.

Seriously, I slacked too much last week, and I'm so regret now.

I've no enough time to finish all the past year papers already.

I really don't think I can finish 11 years of Pure Maths and Chemistry P1 past year papers.

Shit. I hate my much so much right now.

I always say "I swear I won't slack next time" but obviously I just couldn't get rid of this stupid bad habit which will drive me crazy someday.

Now is 11.11.11 11:11pm, allow me make a simple wish.

All I ever wanted is that my efforts will be rewarded in my results slip.

I don't want to repeat the history for my SPM results.

I really can't deal with the extreme disappointment anymore which seriously make me feel like I'm so useless and worthless and good at nothing.

I'm scared, I'm so worried.

Next week's gonna be a very tough week.

Hang in there, Eunice!

2 more weeks to holidays!

读生物和化学读到我要哭了

做历年考卷做到我想呕了

我真的很怕很担心，怎么办.

I've Tried My Best.

2011-11-07T11:00:00.004+08:00

"If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone." -Romans 12:18

I think this time I've really done my part.

I now dare to say that I've already tried my best to do everything that I should do.

I have no idea what's going to happen, I don't know whether the message that I sent will make any changes.

However, I'm really glad that I finally found peace in my heart as I've finally done something that I should've done months ago.

I meant what I said, it took a lot of courage to send that message to you actually.
It's time to let nature take its course and allow God to make the decision.

So, the only thing that I can do now is to hand over this whole situation to God's hand and keep praying.

Remember, "Anger becomes dangerous when it is mishandled."

TODAY.

2011-11-06T20:58:00.003+08:00

After struggling for so long, it's like...finally.

It's really a huge decision for me to do this.

I don't know what they will think about me, but I decided to follow my heart.

I'm feeling so happy right now.

The feeling is super awesomely great when you finally took the one step forward that you always wanted to take but you fear to do it.

I really don't know why but I'm so happy for myself. :)

I really wish to share my joy with you, you, you and you, but too bad I know you'll never understand.

But thank God I still have you, I know you'll always support me and stand by me no matter what I do, no matter what decision I've made.

This is what I called it as "soul-mate", you're super duper mega extremely important to me and I love you so much. <3

Okay, I'm really really glad that I finally did this. I'm totally in a good good mood right now. :)))))

I'm also very very glad that some of you sent a message to me and told me that you're so happy for me, at least I know I still have someone to share my joy with.

In case you don't know, getting to know you guys is one of the best parts of my life because you guys are always being so nice and warm to me and I'm so thankful to you guys. :)

TODAY is such a special day to me. :)

Happy Day! :D

2011-11-03T12:12:00.002+08:00

Hello people
Looks like I'm kinda active on updating my blog recently huh?
Kay, I know I shouldn't be so active as I'm still having my AS final exam.
But I tell you what, 2 weeks break can really make people slack.
I don't want to be like this also, I can't help but keep slacking and procrastinating.
Sigh. Slap me please!!!
Or is there any medicine can cure laziness? I NEED IT!!!!! :(

Today is a good good day.
Know why?
Cause I received the cheque from Nuffnang already!!!
Although it is not a huge amount of money, (fine, only RM50. -.-) it still made my day!
Now I finally believe that blogging can earn money! Hahaha. :D

Ohya, I switched to become a Google Chrome user recently.
I used to be a Firefox user, but now I found out that Google Chrome has so many awesome applications!
From Education, Entertainment, Games, Photography until Social and Communication etc, there are just too many choices!

I just used the apps "BeFunky Photo Editor" on Google Chrome to edit photos below.
It has so many special effect which makes me totally in love with this app! lol

Happy Halloween people! (Well I know I'm like 3 days late. Blek. :P)

Don't you think the effect of the photos are nice?
There are still more effects which I haven't tried.
You guys should really go and try it!
My current favourite photo editor! Hahaha.

So, I've been searching for Taylor Swift's wallpaper for like months but I always can't find a nice one which fix my screen.
Finally, I found a super nice wallpaper which exactly fix my screen!!!!!
I'm so happy about it! Hahaha.
Look, don't you think my princess Taylor has a pair of attractive blue eyes?

Okay, before I go, I'd like to share a video of my current favourite song.
I totally love some part of the lyric of this song! Hahaha.
Okay, if you're my friends, I'll bet you know why.
I'm a person who freaking LOVES those blue-eyes American angmo and New York has always been my dream!!!! HAHAHAHA.

Okay, I think I should go now.
I must finish some Bio and Chem past year papers today else I'll have to treat my friend a Sushi King meal.
Seriously, I don't think I can finish as I slacked too much last few days.
Omg! Eunice Tan, why you always like to do last-minute work?
Can you please learn from you classmates?
What the hell are you doing when others are busy doing revision?
I hate you being like this!!!
AS is a big deal, WAKE UP and start doing something can you?
You hopeless lazy bud! :'(

Such a coward who doesn't even dare to start doing past year papers

because she scared those past year papers will make her in depress.

~~FML.~~

Selina：謝謝你們愛我的每個人

2011-11-01T20:04:00.003+08:00

Selina浴火重生374天
在30歲生日及婚禮前
在邁向人生新里程之際
這首歌是送給自己的禮物
也送給每一個愛她的人

愛我的每個人

曲：林俊傑/詞：姚若龍

痛在眼中變成淚在心中變成灰

沒有什麼能安慰

怕被時間變成累被想像變成悲

希望都被粉碎

不安有時會崩潰有時會怨懟

好像怎麼對待都不對

看得出你隱藏多少的疲憊

卻還是堅持著愛不斷加倍

讓我感動也讓我愧對

謝謝你們愛我的每個人

在我的人生最像一場惡夢的旅程

陪我掙脫勇敢地去醒來

當我的護衛為我禱告心靈更強韌

謝謝你們愛我的每個人

讓我努力後可以謝謝自己很坦誠

會想不通或絕望到躲開

但你們做的總讓我想堅強負責任為了愛重生

心擺脫夜的黑往藍天而飛被陽光包圍

只為了你一句我笑得好美

我忍住了太漫長的淚

看得出你隱藏多少的疲憊

卻還是堅持著愛不斷地加倍

讓我感動也讓我愧對

认识我的人应该都知道我从大概八九岁开始就很喜欢很喜欢S.H.E。

他们的每一张专辑，从第一张专辑《女生宿舍》一直到第十二张专辑《SHERO》，甚至是演唱会的DVD，《真命天女电视原声带》，《花样少年少女电视原声带》等等的，每一张我都有收藏。

真的真的很希望S.H.E可以快快合体，快快出第十三张专辑。

她们的声音是真的真的很好听！！

尤其是她们的和声，世界上再也找不到第二个组合会有像她们三个那么完美的和声了！！
从事发到现在，也已经过了一年了。
终于！！！Selina终于唱歌了！！！
也终于！！！S.H.E终于在昨晚Selina的婚宴上第一次以S.H.E的身份合唱了她们自己的歌“爱上你”，完整版的那种！！！
真令人开心！！！ :D

看到上面那个MV，不懂为什么就有很感动的感觉。

看了MV就像是看了Selina浴火重生的艰苦的过程。

每一天都要很努力很努力地做复健，就算伤疤和新生的皮肤弄得自己很痛很痛还是不能够休息，不能够停止做复健。

看看浴火重生的Selina,也看看我朋友的好朋友，不幸患上血癌的Leonie

与我们比较起来，她们面对的才是真正的大问题。

她们都没有放弃过，没有向困难低头，没有每天怨天尤人，杞人忧天。

相反地，她们每一天都很努力地面对困难，每一天都在辛苦备战，每一天都努力让自己的身体自己的健康状况变得更好一些。

看了她们，再看看自己，我真的只能说她们真的真的好勇敢，真的真的很令人钦佩！

我好像真的应该去面壁思过，真的应该要去反省了......

I Wanna Go On A Trip.

2011-11-01T16:43:00.002+08:00

Browsing those old photos, make me feel like I wanna go on a trip after AS.

I really really want.

Bring me to somewhere, anywhere also can.

Bring me to Desaru.

Bring me to Kukup is also definitely good enough.

Bring me to anywhere as long as we can go together.

I miss The Insane Zone.

I miss my high school mates.

I miss my girls.

I miss my yum cha kaki(s).

I miss my Agus kaki(s).

I miss Pn.Chang, Pn.Goh, Pn.Lee and Cik Teo.

I miss the time when we went for KL trip together with our lovely teachers.

I miss the time when we went to Desaru together.

I miss the time when we went for Kukup trip together, enjoyed delicious seafood together, enjoyed super delicious mango ice and banana ice together, watched horror movies together in the middle of the night, played mahjong together, sang karaoke together etc.

I really wanna go on a trip together with you all again.

I miss our KL Trip.

I miss our Kukup trip.

This photo is just way too epic! lol

We went to the primary school there, took a lot of photos there as if that was our primary school. lol

We're classmates! *We even went into their classroom without asking permission. Shhh... lol*

I super duper mega extremely miss these!!!!!!!!!!

You guys are irreplaceable. ♥

♥Wonderstruck

2011-10-30T20:06:00.010+08:00

Hello people!
Do you know that my ALL-TIME-FAVOURITE singer a.k.a the pop American country singer Taylor Swift released her first perfume in October?
The perfume "Wonderstruck" was released in US on October 19, 2011.
Taylor said the name of the perfume is inspired by her own personal experience.

“I wrote the lyric, ‘I’m wonderstruck, blushing all the way home,’ for the song ‘Enchanted’ about the first time you meet someone. A fragrance can help shape someone’s first impression and memory of you. It’s exciting to think that Wonderstruck will play a role in creating some of those memories.”

-Taylor Swift

The fragrance composition is described as a charming gourmand–floral with sparkling fruity tones on a wooden background.
The top notes are raspberry, dewberry, green tea, freesia and apple blossom.
The heart features sweet vanilla along with sun-drenched honeysuckle and white hibiscus. Notes of golden amber, musk, sandalwood and peach are in the base.

If you read my blog or if know me in person, I'll bet you'd definitely know that I loveeeee Taylor Swift's music soooo much and her song 'Enchanted' has always been my favourite!
Seriously, I'm really gonna get this Wonderstruck perfume when it's on sale in Malaysia.
I checked it online and found out the price is around USD50-USD60, which is more or less the same price as Anna Sui perfume.
Oh gosh!! I really can't wait for it to arrive Malaysia!!!!
Dear friends, you guys can consider this as my 19th birthday present, I'd love to have it! Muahahahaha. :P

Check out the videos below to watch Wonderstruck Commercial Teaser by Taylor Swift and see how gorgeous my princess Taylor is! Haha.

Okay, I gotta admit I'm so unproductive today.
I've only done a few sets of Statistics past year paper.
I swear I'm gonna finish May/June 2003 and Oct/Nov/2003 papers before I go to bed.
I think I've done quite many sets of the past year papers, from year 2003 to year 2011, total 19 sets.
I really hope I can do well tomorrow. I want an A in Mathematics.
May God bless me to pass with flying colour.
Gotta off to do Statistics past year!
Bye, peeps!
Nighty Night! :)

Omg. Taylor Swift is LOVED. ♥

This made my day. :)

2011-10-30T16:30:00.005+08:00

Helloooo, peeps!
It's Sunday! Which means one more day to Monday. Sigh..
Tomorrow is my statistics paper, after that the next paper is on 14 of Nov.
I've got like two weeks to study for those heavy subjects like Bio and Chem.
I must really really spend time wisely during the two weeks break.

Tell you what, one of my favourite hobbies is watching videos on Youtube when I'm bored.
I like to watch The Ellen Show.
I like Ellen very very much. She's so funny and hilarious!
I always like the questions that she asks all the artists who went to her show.
All her videos can totally make me LMAO! Hahahaha.

So, I just watched a video of The Ellen Show on Youtube.
It's about two cute little girls who are only 5 and 8 years old.
One of the girl can actually rap the song "Super Bass" by Nicki Minaj!
And she really has a good voice!!!
She's so amazing, like seriously, she's awesome!
If you don't believe me, watch the videos below.
You'll be amazed by how awesome she is.

When the cute little girls went to The Ellen Show, Ellen gave them a huge surprise by inviting Nicki Minaj to come to the show to sing "Super Bass" together with the two girls.
You really gotta watch the video below, the girls' face expression and reaction are so cute, she made me laughing non-stop, really!

Omg.This two little girls just made my day.
Hahahaha. :D

Bad Day

2011-10-28T19:01:00.002+08:00

I got into an car accident today.
I don't feel like describing how it happened.
Even though it was not my fault, I still feel so bad.
I still can't understand why the guy stopped in the middle of the road, it seemed like he was talking to the other guy.
This accident totally affected my study mood.
Dang it!
I need to be calm, I need to be focus.
I must concentrate on doing statistics.
I still have a paper on Monday know?
Oh Lord, please calm me down, please comfort my heart.

I feel so bad.

I miss...

2011-10-25T00:48:00.003+08:00

Yes, I really do.

I Hate GP!

2011-10-17T19:08:00.003+08:00

Okay. Fine. I screwed up my GP paper.
Seriously, who the hell on earth will expect this kind of questions come out in the exam?
I studied for education, culture and tradition, crime and punishment, music, tourism, fashion, superstitious and beliefs, health science, nuclear energy and so on, none of them came out in the exam.
Out of 15 questions, there's no one which I have confident to write.
Shit. That was the real exam, Eunice!
See what you did! Don't you know that you need a good grade in GP in order to do psychology in university?
Stupid bom bom! Sigh.....

The next paper is on Thursday, which is Bio paper 3.
I'm not very scared for that paper, as paper 3 is about practical work.
Hope I'll do well for that paper. :)

Okay. Just feel like blogging recently as I've already deactivated my Facebook and Twitter account.
Thank God I'm not addicted to blogger, as blogger account can't be deactivated. lol
Okay, I think I gotta go now.
It's time to prepare myself for getting into depress cause I'm gonna do Chemistry past year papers which will seriously make me cry.

I've a simple request.
I want you to be a part of my life like what you do now.
I want you to stay in my life even after we graduate and separate from each other.
I want you to be my sister-for-life.
Would you?

In case you don't know, your messages meant a lot to me.
Thanks for simply everything. :)

A Simple Message Made My Day. :)

2011-10-16T00:20:00.002+08:00

Yeah, I totally agree with that.
I'm proud to say that I've this kind of sweet friends. :)

Sometimes, a short yet warm message can make my day.
Sometimes, a phone call can make my day.
Thanks to all my friends who texted me to encourage me and give me spiritual support.
A special thanks to you who sent two very long and encouraging messages to me.
What you said really knocked some sense into me.
I'll just try my best and do not be fear. :)

I really feel like giving up General Paper.
Oh nah, I shouldn't say "give up", I'm willing to study for it if only there's something for me to study.
It's just...I really have no idea what to study.
What I do now is, pick and choose some random topics, which I totally have no idea whether it will come out in exam, and try to read through essays that are related to that particular topics.
May God bless me so that what I studied will come out in exam.

Seriously, who isn't a fan of Chuck and Blair if he/she is a fan of Gossip Girl?
I simply love their love story. :)
Season 5 is out. I watched the first episode already.
I really wanted to watch episode 2 and 3 but I need to prohibit myself from watching it.
7 more weeks to go.
I need to wait for 7 weeks then only can watch Gossip Girl. Omg.

Okay, gotta continue to read those GP essays.
Please please please pray for me and wish me luck so that what I studied will come out in exam.
Stupid GP, I hate you to the max!

God Gave Me You(s)

2011-10-14T21:26:00.004+08:00

Yes I know my bloggie tends to become very emo and very grey this few weeks.
I can't be like this anymore.
I need to think positively, I need to be positive, so that I can attract positive energy and dispel negative energy.
Like what my high school Bio teacher said, "BE POSITIVE!"
I need to gain a lot of positive energy, I seriously need it to help me to prepare for my As final exam.

In order to let myself become a positive person, I keep telling and convincing myself to think some good things around me.
I believe that by thinking the good things, it can chase your emo-ness and bad bad mood away, really. :)

I asked God for an angel, and He gave me all of you.

Thanks for always being so nice so sweet and so warm to me and also to everyone around you.
This is what I need to learn from you all — treating every single person around you kindly and warmly.
I really wanna thank God for giving me a chance to know you all, so that I got a chance to learn from you all.
I really wanna thank God for giving me a chance to know you all, so that I know and understand what love and care are.
I really wanna thank God for giving me a chance to know you all, so that I know how to treat people around me in the best way.
I really wanna thank God for giving me a chance to know you all, and to fill my life and heart with lotsa loves and cares.
God is really awesome.
He always gives me the best thing on earth.
Thank you, Lord.

Last but not least, I wanna end my post by sharing a photo and a song with lyrics which are oh-so-true.
After all, my life isn't that bad actually.
I've grown up a lot and become more matured since I met you all and since I know Him.
I've also become more thankful to everything that happened in my life.
This is a good sign, I suppose? :)

Cause God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
And for when I think I lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you.

3 more days to As Final Exam.
O.M.F.G!!!!
Wish me luck people!
xoxo.

Always tell yourself to be rejoice,
because nothing is greater than the things God can do. :D

Silence.

2011-10-12T22:07:00.004+08:00

I seriously need to try my best to stop the stupid emo-ness that keep disturbing me and bothering me.
Somebody slap me please.
Wake me up and tell me that my A Level final exam is on next Monday.
What the hell am I doing now when others are busy studying?!
Shit. I hate myself so much right now.

A WARM HUG IS EXTREMELY NEEDED THAN ANYTHING ELSE.

I miss my high school life so much.
I miss my high school mates so much.
I miss my high school teachers so much.

I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how,
I've never heard silence quite this loud.

Give Me Some Time.

2011-10-11T21:10:00.002+08:00

What she said was right.

I really couldn't agree more.

It's definitely not worthy if it ends like this.

However, I think now is not a good time to talk about this as everyone is busy with the final exam.

Give me some time.

I want to rescue this.

I don't know whether you'll read this but I hope you do b'cos this is the only way that I can tell you something.

Honestly, I never really live happily for even one day after that.

What I told you on the phone was really came out from the bottom of my heart.

I've so many things to say but whenever it comes to a face-to-face conversation, I seriously don't know why all the words just couldn't come out from my mouth.

Maybe I'm a coward?

Maybe I'm just not brave enough to do this alone?

I know I can't act like nothing happened.

I know I can't escape it.

I know I must have the courage to face it one day.

And I'll face it.

I miss you(s).
I miss us.
I want you(s) back.
And I really meant it.

It isn't.

2011-10-11T20:21:00.002+08:00

I shouldn't know so many things at this moment.
This is too much.
AS exam is really around the corner, it's just 6 more days to go!
Keep calm, Eunice.
Let's not thinking about it first.
EXAM FIRST!!!!!

In case you don't know, it's really killing me.
In case you don't know, it makes me suffer everyday.
It's not that I walked away nor I didn't realize it was my fault.
It's not that I don't want it back.
It's not that I don't care about it at all.
Instead, I'm not sure if I still have the right to talk to you.
I'm not sure about how you think about me.
And most importantly, I'm not sure if I'm still welcomed.

I care, SO MUCH.

Why? How?

2011-10-09T17:06:00.003+08:00

"The Story Of Us"

I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us,
How we met and the sparks flew instantly,
People would say, "They're the lucky ones."
I used to know my place was a spot next to you,
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat,
'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on.

Oh, a simple complication,
Miscommunications lead to fall-out.
So many things that I wish you knew,
So many walls up I can't break through.

[Chorus:]
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

Next chapter.

How'd we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy,
And you're doing your best to avoid me.
I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us,
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here,
But you held your pride like you should've held me.

Oh, I'm scared to see the ending,
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how,
I've never heard silence quite this loud.

[Chorus:]
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

This is looking like a contest,
Of who can act like they care less,
But I liked it better when you were on my side.
The battle's in your hands now,
But I would lay my armor down
If you said you'd rather love than fight.
So many things that you wished I knew,
But the story of us might be ending soon.

[Chorus:]
Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now, now, now.
And we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate 'cause we're going down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

The end.

And I realized, sometimes,
the lyric of a love song isn't only can be applied on love stories.
For some special cases like us,
this song is actually telling my feeling.

人们常说，误会没有解释清楚，必定制造出更多的误会
问题是，大家都憋在心里不敢提起，也不知该如何启齿
怎么知道究竟我们有没有误会别人，或是有没有被他人误会呢？

If only you read this.

2011-10-08T00:42:00.003+08:00

I don't know why but I feel like I've no right to say anything or do anything.

I'm always struggling.

I keep telling myself that maybe this is good for me?

However, memories kill.

To be honest, I really feel it's a pity that this thing happened.

After everything that happened,
I actually still want you(s) in my life.
But I don't know what to do,
and I'm not sure if I'm still welcomed.

I Can Do This.

2011-10-06T21:40:00.002+08:00

Yes, I can do this.

I know I can.
Giving up is not an option.I know I'm not stupid.
I know I must have some talent in Chemistry since Chemistry was my favourite and strongest subject when I was in high school.
I still have time, though it is not much.
I still have one week before the first paper start.
Thank God I've so many kind-hearted classmates who are willing to teach me and explain to me in details when I'm facing problems.
All I need to do is to put more effort on it.
I know I can do it if I'm willing to.

I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.

Today was the last day of CF for students like me who will be sitting AS final exam soon.
I like to join CF, I really enjoy it.
I used to hate attending church and CF cause I feel that it's a waste of time.
I seriously don't know what had changed my mind, (and I really wanted to know what changed my mind) but I'm glad that I'm getting closer to Him.
I really wanna thank God for everything that happened in my life.
I wanna thank God for everything that He gave.
Though I've been through some very tough time, though I've faced the darkest days in my 18 years life, I believe that it happened for a reason.
And, I think I found the reason.
And I'm glad that it happened. If not, I won't realized so many things.
I'm so blessed.
Thank God.

♥ξυйíсё's

M.I.A

2011, I'm Thankful.

New Hobby : Doodling

Holidays

Dear Chemistry

Idiot

11.11.11

I've Tried My Best.

TODAY.

Happy Day! :D

Selina：謝謝你們 愛我的每個人

I Wanna Go On A Trip.

♥Wonderstruck

This made my day. :)

Bad Day

I miss...

I Hate GP!

A Simple Message Made My Day. :)

God Gave Me You(s)

Silence.

Give Me Some Time.

It isn't.

Why? How?

If only you read this.

I Can Do This.

Philippians 4:6-7

Selina：謝謝你們愛我的每個人