tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861Fri, 24 Jul 2026 06:03:02 +0000The damsel in distressRambling nonsensemedia junquelifebugssomesayMoving feastshittyshittybangbangthe citytentang seseorangadieu VictoriaLilkaayenchantmentphoto musewupazzHarry Pottercelebyu mosh-pitwalking dejavugoodreadsDamsel in distressfoodismhttp://schizilly.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.com (schizilly)Blogger876125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-5713333643678540234Thu, 18 Apr 2013 03:38:00 +00002013-04-18T10:38:07.315+07:00Damsel in distresslifebugsAn interesting topic arises during dinner with a new friend last night. We're the thirty-something single women in Jakarta who were very fortunate to sipped overseas life during our childhood/adolescent years. There were we, having our sushi treats, discussing about culture shock in our country, tolerance, and partnership. I guess, if we were back to London or Melbourne, thirty-something is yourhttp://schizilly.blogspot.com/2013/04/on-partnership-and-being-lonely.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-2649456689537045833Wed, 13 Feb 2013 07:41:00 +00002013-02-13T14:41:22.625+07:00Damsel in distresslifebugsso, the ending 2012 was a&nbsp; ...... blessing in disguise. my spiritual journey has just begun from that day on, despite all the 'gift' Allah has given me, I understood the purpose of it all. Believing greatness will come out of this, was&nbsp; very difficult to digest at the beginning. Now I believe, eventually, slowly, I will be there. Of all the secrets I carry&nbsp; about his past, withhttp://schizilly.blogspot.com/2013/02/a-new-perspective-from-here-on-end.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-5354659819350171191Thu, 15 Nov 2012 09:34:00 +00002012-11-26T21:14:05.131+07:00tentang seseorangYou know that movie Love Actually? I always remember that movie's monologue. The scene at the airport, it was past 9-11. Hugh Grant narrated: everywhere you see at the airport, people smiling or laughing seeing their friends/relatives/loved ones arriving or departing. people hugging and kissing. you will see that love is actually all around. That bit of the story was true in my case. 29th http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2012/11/4th-november-2012.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-8212520019452241883Mon, 12 Nov 2012 02:49:00 +00002012-11-12T09:49:29.184+07:00tentang seseorangThe damsel in distressSiapa bilang lebih baik sakit gigi daripada sakit hati? Meggy Z pasti gak kenal ponstan. gak punya dokter gigi. Sakit hati? cuma ada waktu. Sakit? ya terus aja sakit.&nbsp; http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2012/11/closure.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-935979965985580419Fri, 28 Sep 2012 03:27:00 +00002012-09-28T10:29:00.933+07:00somesay"Biarkan cinta bicara dengan logika. Tidak seseru saat jatuh cinta memang. Tapi dalam hidup terkadang tidak seru itu perlu." @HilbramDunar http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2012/09/ketika-memilih.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-9206544265044151930Sat, 18 Aug 2012 01:22:00 +00002012-09-16T21:00:38.538+07:00Damsel in distresshaving just noticed today is the last day Ramadhan. I am most grateful that I just had the most fulfilling final day sahur. nothing i can ask for more. spent the night before takbir, just the two of us, iftar and sahur with the family. I'm happy as I can be. Alhamdulillah for the wonderful, yet rocky, road we've had and will have. til we meet to another Ramadhan. Insha Allah, together http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2012/08/the-best-to-end-ramadhan-2012.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-4239635796099478183Wed, 02 May 2012 17:03:00 +00002012-05-03T13:13:03.650+07:00Damsel in distressEnd of last month, decision was made. Us, to walk on the same path towards one beginning. Insyaallah it's the best for the both of us. Regardless worries, concerns and doubts. Can i move on with this plan? I'll make my best effort to work this out, together. Yes you, let's walk this road hand-in-hand, dream the same reality. Just, you and i. <3 http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2012/05/we-aiming-same-goal.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-1537304006239287516Wed, 11 Apr 2012 12:42:00 +00002012-04-11T20:09:25.395+07:00lifebugsThe damsel in distressThis afternoon I suddenly reminded of my old dream.The dream long forgotten.Back in the glory of Melbourne, my life was simple.Days gone by with one purpose in life, seeking happiness.My ultimate goal.That simple goal seems forgotten while I'm busy scrapping through chaotic Jakarta.Then, he happened to appear out of nowhere as well.Never say love cures all madness and happiness is a given. Nope, http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2012/04/does-happiness-just-around-corner.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-613633575524231329Wed, 14 Mar 2012 05:32:00 +00002012-03-14T12:53:48.231+07:00lifebugsThe damsel in distress6 months.it's nothing compared to what others have walked through.the beginning was harmless. innocent. complicated.as the road becomes long and winding, so is the journey.we're heading towards the same aim, but when the road will end, I am not too sure.This is when complicated becomes uncertain.When the path ends, another journey will begin.Am I ready to be on that journey?with him, all of him.http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2012/03/when-complicated-becomes-uncertain.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-3476137619910219855Fri, 30 Dec 2011 03:59:00 +00002011-12-30T11:25:21.248+07:00lifebugsThe damsel in distressJust few hours approaching to 2012.Prophecy said it's the end of the world.So what can we expect when the clock countdown to 00.00?Are we still preparing any 2012 resolutions?I do.I didn't really remember the prophecy. So for this once, I envisioned my future plan, believing this could be it. The one that is proposed to me, for my future. InsyaAllah, that is.Everything seems at its' place.Having http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/12/2012-is-around-corner.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-1724700574301885799Mon, 12 Dec 2011 15:23:00 +00002011-12-12T22:29:09.693+07:00When things got beserk and the other guy comes in to lighten the mood. Just because he is the bestfriend and not the boyfriend.Heart matters aint for the faint heart. I grew tired of tears. Could the bestfriend become good boyfriend? Maybe not.http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/12/aku-kamu-dan-dia.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-8657376439731303462Sun, 04 Dec 2011 10:41:00 +00002011-12-04T17:51:07.421+07:00lifebugstentang seseorangThe damsel in distress2011 is coming to its end.Before we say farewell, a recap wouldnt be much harmful, would it?2011 played a roller coaster emotion in my life. Learning all kinds of emotion. The closure on a dear loved one is the beginning of another enormous feeling i have never experienced before. My plans... Ah, screw them. 2011.. is unexpectedly a year full of self-reflect. I bid goodbye to melbourne this year.http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/12/then-there-is-us.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-8794619721411450462Fri, 28 Oct 2011 17:11:00 +00002012-05-12T19:05:33.286+07:00It took us 5 months planning this trip to Derawan. Busybees crew are myself, Natsu and Mel. I have always wanted to go to Derawan, knowing only for its' Kakaban jellyfish. Dragged my 2 traveling buddies, quite easily. :) Then persuade 7 other friends and cousins to fill up the tour quota. Initial idea was set on May. We decided to go with a local Event Organizer called Zebaoth EO, lead by mas http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/10/derawan-my-story.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-2876965662085040157Tue, 18 Oct 2011 14:21:00 +00002011-10-18T21:25:36.039+07:00lifebugsThe damsel in distressand I'm broke.Seriously.After Melbourne on September.Derawan on October.And I've JUST decided for Gili on November.Thinking Bali for December.I might need life support from my Dad after this.hahaha..That's okay. Since I need to enjoy life.Getting away from EVERYTHING.Work. Love. Family. Reality.Be with the sea and fresh air.Away from routines.To keep my sanity intact, my bank balance is crying.http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/10/coming-to-end-of-2011.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-6866573709222175576Fri, 30 Sep 2011 13:11:00 +00002011-09-30T20:17:10.861+07:00lifebugstentang seseorangThe damsel in distressYou can care without Love.but you can't love without care.Haha!I can so define whom the first and the latter.Thanks to my Chinese twin!You rawk.http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/09/she-said.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-1313575355082184267Fri, 30 Sep 2011 13:06:00 +00002011-09-30T20:08:43.128+07:00adieu VictorialifebugsThe damsel in distressA peaceful and sweet closureSo here i am on a 109 tram going to an old friend's home.2 days remain before i fly out to where i belong.Home. In Jakarta.Finally i can make peace with self on saying it. I've settled on where home is.Melbourne was my happy adolescence, finding identity.Jakarta is where i will settle my adulthood.My mind, body and soul have in-sync this time round.Melbourne will http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/09/on-15-september-i-wrote.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-7140499489959207169Thu, 29 Sep 2011 05:38:00 +00002011-09-29T12:41:59.386+07:00lifebugsThe damsel in distressBut the questions persist. What feelings I am feeling? What will I be when loosing the other person? or THIS person? I chose to walk it through. Seeing things. Learning things. Feeling things. That's allowed, right?http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/09/giving-errr-love-try.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-3073950576021329036Tue, 20 Sep 2011 04:24:00 +00002011-09-29T12:36:53.662+07:00The damsel in distressSo i&#39;m home. in Jakarta that is.Blogging this from work, because I&#39;m so emotionally wrecked right now.My 10 days getaway was full of selfishness. The thought of what bringsME happiness. I thought it&#39;s common to think that, it&#39;s alright tothink that.I went to Melbourne, contemplating and reliving my early 20s. Finally,to decide I&#39;m better off in Jakarta, with many http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/09/selfishness-backfired.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-7796723433267920475Fri, 09 Sep 2011 12:53:00 +00002011-09-29T12:37:02.689+07:00adieu VictoriaThe damsel in distressUp in the sky. 4 hours to melbourne. All i can think is my next trip to derawan and bandung with my friends.And him.Does my days in melbourne will be over this time round? The thought of it isnt as sad as before. Maybe my heart has finally decide but my mind are thinking the what ifs.Im too afraid to let go melbourne, to let go my PR status. Then i wouldnt be able to find a quick getaway. Maybe ihttp://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/09/in-sky-between-kl-and-melbourne.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-543119478956150937Fri, 09 Sep 2011 04:13:00 +00002011-09-29T12:37:02.689+07:00adieu VictoriaWaiting at lcct kuala lumpur for my budget airline to arrive and fly me to my second home.Im having a seriously mixed feelings while waiting to board.The one date ive been anxiously await since 9 months ago when i bought this ticket, has finally here. But the excitement kinda washed away. Things happened during 9 months. Madre awoken me from a dream. Im lost finding home. This will be my final http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/09/8-hours-before-melbourne.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-7945015294531139335Tue, 06 Sep 2011 03:35:00 +00002011-09-06T10:41:43.640+07:00adieu VictorialifebugsThe damsel in distressYou know what,It will be exactly 2 years since last I step foot in Melbourne.The last was October 2009.Now, in mere 3 days, I'll be seeing you again.Feelings run amuck.It's like, seeing your old lover and wondering whether the feeling is still there.Am I ready to fall in love again?Will you able to make me head over heels again, Melbourne?I'm excited but also scared.Getting to you will be a http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/09/melbourne-ill-see-you-very-soon.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-8120915334894421644Sun, 04 Sep 2011 03:02:00 +00002011-09-04T16:51:48.212+07:00tentang seseorangThe damsel in distressFinally, thursday was the day to find all the answers. To open heart. It was fine. Faint of heart was collapsing. I was surrendering. Last night my eyes were open wide. We live very different lives you and i. Of you asking me to leave my friends, is one impossible request for me to do. I love who i am. I love my life. I love my friends. You can't tell me otherwise. Men will always be third in http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/09/adieu-boy.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-6845171634790661453Sat, 27 Aug 2011 12:01:00 +00002011-08-27T19:34:45.905+07:00Rambling nonsenseSo. Last night while driving home from a KungFu Panda 2 session at the cinema, iTunes gave me Chris Brown - With You. I never noticed the lyric until last night. Well, what can you do when driving alone late at night but singing your heart's out. That's what I did. Then on chorus, I just realized that this song is just one of men's bullshit. It says like this.. Together baby, There is http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/08/chris-brown-with-you.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-1996962190451625565Thu, 18 Aug 2011 11:48:00 +00002011-08-21T21:23:49.626+07:00tentang seseorangRamadhan has gone by so fast!Suddenly, lebaran only a week away. A meet-up i&#39;ve been dreading to go is approaching. I speak none of it wishing he would forget. Why do i dig my own grave? To think its Ramadhan&#39;s blessing is such a naive thought. I wish time would slow down as my beating heart run faster. *sighhttp://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/08/lebaran-is-near.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9064861.post-7084903154370743331Tue, 09 Aug 2011 13:53:00 +00002011-08-10T19:09:34.345+07:00goodreadsThe damsel in distress"saya meninggalkan Melbourne. Menetap di kota yang saya hindari. Rumah adalah tempat dimana saya dibutuhkan" Sepenggal paragraf dari Madre karya Dee lestari. Sedikit saya ubah Bali dengan Melbourne. Hanya karena di kota itu saya menjadi "freelancer", seorang yang bebas layaknya seorang Tansen. Tiket Melbourne sayapun sudah ditangan. Bertubi-tubi pertanyaan yang sama dilontarkan oleh http://schizilly.blogspot.com/2011/08/madre-by-dee.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (schizilly)0