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Me.

storyofmylife — Wed, 08 Feb 2012 19:47:51 +0000

Basic Info

Name:

Becca

About Me:

I'm 15. I struggle with self-harm, and I will remain anonymous for my own sake. I've been struggling with this for a year now, and it's getting progressively worse instead of better.
I have a phobia of throwing up, so I don't eat.
I have OCD and severe depression, and suicidal thoughts
. I should be happy, but I'm not. I don't know why.
I feel guilty for putting my friends and family through hell. I feel guilty for being here.

Interests:

Music.

Stats

Gender:

Female

Orientation:

Straight

Birthday:

April 11

Zodiac Sign:

Aries (Mar 21-Apr 19)

all my nightmares escaped my head.

marinzzy — Wed, 08 Feb 2012 19:42:19 +0000

Stats

Gender:

Female

Orientation:

Straight

Zodiac Sign:

Libra (Sep 23-Oct 22)

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Skype:

marinzzy

Quote #2022 from Stardust by Neil Gaiman

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:51 +0000

He was painfully shy, which, as is often the manner of the painfully shy, he overcompensated for by being too loud at the wrong times.

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Who Said It?:

Neil Gaiman

Source:

Stardust

Quote #2021 from God Bless You, Dr. Kevorkian by Kurt Vonnegut

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:51 +0000

I congratulated him on what he'd said on his way to be hanged before a gleeful, jeering throng of white folks. I quote: 'This is a beautiful country.' In only five words, he had somehow encapsulated the full horror of the most hideous legal atrocities committed by a civilized nation until the Holocaust.

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Who Said It?:

Kurt Vonnegut

Source:

God Bless You, Dr. Kevorkian

Quote #2020 from Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:51 +0000

Night. Never have I experienced such agony. I would like to describe her face, her ways--and I cannot, because my own desire for her blinds me when she is near. I am not used to being with nymphets, damn it. If I close my eyes I see but an immobilized fraction of her, a cinematographic still, a sudden smooth nether loveliness, as with one knee up under her tartan skirt she sits tying her shoe.

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Who Said It?:

Vladimir Nabokov

Source:

Lolita

Quote #2019 from A Home at the End of the World by Michael Cunningham

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:51 +0000

When I was younger all my lovers had been clenched, possessive people. My husband Denny had danced six hours a day, and still despised himself for dilettantism. My lover Helene had had screaming opinions on every subject from women's rights to washing spinach. I myself had had trouble deciding whether or not to wear a hat. In my twenties I'd suspected that if you peeled away my looks and habits and half-dozen strong ideas you'd have found an empty spot where the self ought to be. It had seemed like my worst secret.

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Who Said It?:

Michael Cunningham

Source:

A Home at the End of the World

Quote #2018 from Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:51 +0000

No matter! She was not happy, had never been so. Where did it come from, this feeling of deprivation, this instantaneous decay of things in which she put her trust? ... But, if there were somewhere a strong and beautiful creature, a valiant nature full of passion and delicacy in equal measure, the heart of a poet in the figure of an angel, a lyre with strings of steel, sounding to the skies elegiac epithalamia, why should she not, fortuitously, find such a one? What an impossibility! Nothing, anyway, was worth that great quest; it was all lies! Every smile concealed the yawn of boredom, every joy a malediction, every satisfaction brought its nausea, and even the most perfect kisses only leave upon the lips a fantastical craving for supreme pleasure.

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Who Said It?:

Gustave Flaubert

Source:

Madame Bovary

Quote #2017 from Arline by Edna St. Vincent Millay

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:51 +0000

Her seeming coldness was always either one of two things -- intense repression, or passionate reserve. Never, in anything, for one instant, would she be indifferent.

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Who Said It?:

Edna St. Vincent Millay

Source:

Arline

Quote #2015 from Lullabies For Little Criminals by Heather O'Neill

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:50 +0000

Your superhuman power was to be able not to feel. Is it there inside everybody, this self that comes out while you are in captivity? You become the closest approximation of yourself that can tolerate living there.

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Who Said It?:

Heather O'Neill

Source:

Lullabies For Little Criminals

Quote #2014 from The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:50 +0000

I felt very still and very empty, the way the eye of a tornado must feel, moving dully along in the middle of the surrounding hullabaloo.

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Who Said It?:

Sylvia Plath

Source:

The Bell Jar

Quote #2013 from Lullabies For Little Criminals by Heather O'Neill

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:50 +0000

From the way that people have always talked about your heart being broken, it sort of seemed to be a one-time thing. Mine seemed to break all the time.

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Who Said It?:

Heather O'Neill

Source:

Lullabies For Little Criminals

Quote #2012 from Bloodlove by Christine Doza

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:50 +0000

I feel like we've been forgotten, I feel like we're all dying of anorexia and heartbreak and everyone--you--you just turn the other way. I read Ms., flipping through its pages like a tornado, looking for anything but what's there. I don't have a career, I don't have a husband, I don't need to know how to raise my son. I need to know what to do when I stop wanting to be an astronaut and start wanting to be Bobby's Girlfriend.

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Who Said It?:

Christine Doza

Source:

Bloodlove

Quote #2011 from The Cement Garden by Ian McEwan

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:50 +0000

Girls can wear jeans and cut their hair short and wear shirts and boots because it's okay to be a boy; for girls it's like promotion. But for a boy to look like a girl is degrading, according to you, because secretly you believe that being a girl is degrading.

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Who Said It?:

Ian McEwan

Source:

The Cement Garden

Quote #2010 from Her Kind by Anne Sexton

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:50 +0000

I have ridden in your cart, driver,
waved my nude arms at villages going by,
learning the last bright routes, survivor
where your flames still bite my thigh
and my ribs crack where your wheels wind.
A woman like that is not ashamed to die.
I have been her kind..

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Who Said It?:

Anne Sexton

Source:

Her Kind

Quote #2009 from Oranges Are Not The Only Fruit by Jeanette Winterson

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:50 +0000

Time is a great deadener. People forget, get bored, grow old, go away. There was a time in England when everyone was much concerned with building wooden boats and sailing off against the Turks. When that stopped being interesting, what peasants there were left limped back to the land, and what nobles there were left plotted against each other. Of course that is not the whole story, but that is the way with stories; we make them what we will. It's a way of explaining the universe while leaving the universe unexplained, it's a way of keeping it all alive, not boxing it into time. Everyone who tells a story tells it differently, just to remind us that everybody sees it differently. Some people say there are true things to be found, some people say all kinds of things can be proved. I don't believe them. The only thing for certain is how complicated it all is, like a string full of knots. It's all there but hard to find the beginning and impossible to fathom the end. The best you can do is admire the cat's cradle, and maybe knot it up a bit more. History should be a hammock for swinging and a game for playing, the way cats play. Claw it, chew it, rearrange it and at bedtime it's still a ball of string full of knots....it's an all-purpose rainy day pursuit, this reducing of stories called history.

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Who Said It?:

Jeanette Winterson

Source:

Oranges Are Not The Only Fruit

Quote #2008 from Other Voices, Other Rooms by Truman Capote

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:50 +0000

...so few of us learn that love is tenderness, and tenderness is not, as a fair proportion suspect, pity; and still fewer know that happiness in love is not the absolute focusing of all emotion in another: one has always to love a good many things which the beloved must come to symbolize; the true beloveds of this world are in their lover's eyes lilac opening, school bells, a landscape, remembered conversations, friends, a child's Sunday, lost voices, one's favorite suit, autumn and all it's seasons, memory, yes, it being the earth and water of existence, memory.

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Who Said It?:

Truman Capote

Source:

Other Voices, Other Rooms

Quote #2007 from Other Voices, Other Rooms by Truman Capote

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:50 +0000

What we want most is to be held... and told... that everything (everything is a funny thing, is baby milk and papa's eyes, is roaring logs on a cold morning, is hoot owls and the boy who makes you cry after school, is mama's long hair, is being afraid and twisted faces on the bedroom wall)... is going to be alright.

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Who Said It?:

Truman Capote

Source:

Other Voices, Other Rooms

Quote #2006 from Other Voices, Other Rooms by Truman Capote

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:50 +0000

...all his prayers of the past had been simple concrete requests: God, give me a bicycle, a knife with seven blades, a box of oil paints. Only how, how, could you say something so indefinite, so meaningless as this: God, let me be loved

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Who Said It?:

Truman Capote

Source:

Other Voices, Other Rooms

Quote #2005 from Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead by Tom Stoppard

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:50 +0000

I'd prefer art to mirror life, if it's all the same to you.

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Who Said It?:

Tom Stoppard

Source:

Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead

Quote #2004 from The Monk Downstairs by Tim Farrington

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:49 +0000

There is a prayer that is simply seeing through yourself, seeing your own nothingness, the emptiness impervious to self-assertion. A prayer that is the end of the rope. A helplessness, fathomless and terrifying. Now matter how holy or well meaning you were when you started out, no matter how many fine experiences you had along the way, by the time you reach the point of this prayer, you want only to get out of it.

And God? God is that which will not let you out of it.

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Who Said It?:

Tim Farrington

Source:

The Monk Downstairs

Quote #2003 from The Monk Downstairs by Tim Farrington

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:49 +0000

God is the nail that splits our palm to break our grip on the world. He is an unfathomable darkness. He's not what you want to hear.

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Who Said It?:

Tim Farrington

Source:

The Monk Downstairs

Quote #2002 from The Monk Downstairs by Tim Farrington

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:49 +0000

And God is not a comfort, to be offered like Kleenex. God is a poisoned sea, with broken syringes washing up on the beach. God is shopping malls stretching to the horizon and warplanes in the sky. God is a flat tire in a rainstorm and beer cans in the ditch, a bottle shattered on a highway overpass and the taste of gunmetal in your mouth. God is dying children.

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Who Said It?:

Tim Farrington

Source:

The Monk Downstairs

Quote #2001 from Fern Hill by Dylan Thomas

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:49 +0000

Time held me green and dying
Though I sang in my chains like the sea.

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Who Said It?:

Dylan Thomas

Source:

Fern Hill

Quote #2086 from East of Eden by John Steinbeck

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:56 +0000

And this I believe: that the free, exploring mind of the individual human is the most valuable thing in the world. And this I would fight for: the freedom of the mind to take any direction it wishes, undirected.

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Who Said It?:

Kurt Vonnegut

Source:

Slaughterhouse Five

Quote #2000 from Slaughterhouse-Five by Kurt Vonnegut

Gabrielle — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:30:49 +0000

How nice--to feel nothing and still get full credit for being alive.

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Who Said It?:

Kurt Vonnegut

Source:

Slaughterhouse Five