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My Nightmare

Broken_Hearted80631 — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 08:40:43 +0000

Death

In the darkness

I find peace

Sweet sleep

No more voices

No more fear

No more pain

My lonliness is so overwhelming

That I pray for sweet release

Let my children find the happiness

They so richly deserve

That I don't seem able

To provide

They are so young

And they have seen so much

They have scars just like me

But their scars are not visible

To the untrained eye

Their scars are internal

Buried deep in their memories

Memories of fear as their

Mother was beaten

Memories of the tears

I cried that they try so desperately

To stop

Their angelic faces were my only

Escape

And now they're gone

GOD, please release me

From the nightmare

The terror my life has become

Jordan

Angel Miki — Sat, 19 Nov 2011 19:49:39 +0000

Watashi no oji...
You're a handsome man.
You treated me like I was anata no ohime...
I love you so much...

Are you still out there, my Prince?
Are you still waiting for me?
Please tell me you're okay.
Please tell me you're alive.
Because I'm so worried for you...

Watashi no shugo...
You're an amazing man.
I would've acted like I'm anata no tenshi...
I love you so much...

Are you still out there, my Guardian?
Are you still waiting for me?
Please tell me you're okay.
Please tell me you're alive.
Because I'm so worried for you...

I don't want you to be gone.
I want you in my arms.
I don't want you to be in Hell...
If there is a God...
You don't deserve to burn in Hell,
But you don't deserve to deal with them either.
Why couldn't you have come to me?
I would've done anything I could,
To protect you and love you,
Forever.

Are you still out there, my Prince?
Are you still waiting for me?
Please tell me you're okay.
Please tell me you're alive.
Because I'm so worried for you...

Are you still out there, my Guardian?
Are you still waiting for me?
Please tell me you're okay.
Please tell me you're alive.
Because I'm so worried for you... Read more »

A Story With No End

Angel Miki — Sat, 19 Nov 2011 19:48:11 +0000

A black tunnel.
A pure white dress.
A few blue tears.
A lonely girl.
A few loud steps.
Someone's strong hand.
I turn to you.
You are lost, too.

You twine your fingers with my cold digits.
I look up at you as your love by a heart reveals.
I start to feel warmth from something,
In this Godforsaken, darkened tunnel.

We walk through this tunnel,
Hand in hand.
We guide ourselves through black,
Hand in hand.
We face hard obstacles,
Holding hands.
We search for the gold end,
Holding hands.

Then you start to fall and I can just watch.
I cry out to you as my vision by tears funnels.
I start to feel love for someone,
In this Godforsaken, broken tunnel.

The story hasn't stopped.
I don't want it to.
I won't let you go,
because I love you.
I'll pick you up,
And keep us moving.
We will find happiness.
With this song, I'll keep singing.

When you feel too weak,
I'll give you all my strength.
When you cannot speak,
I'll give you my whole voice.
I want to find happiness with you.

We walk through this tunnel,
Hand in hand.
We guide ourselves through black,
Hand in hand.
We face hard obstacles,
Holding hands.
We search for the gold end,
Holding hands.

How does this story end? Read more »

Look at me

WolfieScars — Mon, 31 Oct 2011 00:43:40 +0000

For some reason I don't yet understand, I still tell myself you care.
I pretend you love me and everything is still right in my world.
Yet Sometimes when I pretend, its hard to tell where reality starts and our relationship ends.

Its like a song I already know the lyrics to, a movie I've seen to many times, but I can't help but hope the outcome will be different. Consequences set on repeating themselves like a history that can never be corrected.

Tonight I'm going to do something I'll regret.

And Then Their Worlds Were None

MizzSolitary Val — Sat, 01 Oct 2011 12:08:19 +0000

I tend to wonder if he hates,
Oh why does he hate me?
I wonder if he’ll steal much more,
How selfish can he be?

He pulled them off this place called earth,
Their time was more than done.
He pulled them from their lawful lives,
Their battle he had won.

I ask myself if it were true,
Am I the reason why?
Their worlds no longer turn at night,
They now no longer cry.

When the moon does not rise a night,
And the stars do go out.
Our eyes will close, and we will sleep,
And never stir about.

The more I feel, the more I hate,
I wonder if he knows.
Whenever they cross through my mind,
It’s only him I loath.

Now that they no longer need me,
My time is almost near.
Everyone who helped me right by,
Is now my biggest fear.

Here I stand, in solemn darkness,
Cursing at the night sky.
I cannot stand to hear of them,
I have stopped asking why.

When the moon does not rise at night,
And the stars do go out.
Our eyes will close, and we will sleep.
And never stir about.

Their faces I’ll no longer see,
His voice I will not hear.
My heart has begun to slow down,
The end is almost near.

For one last beat—I am sorry.
This time is meant to be.
My mind is set, my breaths are done,
It’s time to die, you see? Read more »

Make It Go Away

Anonymous — Fri, 05 Aug 2011 11:09:36 +0000

(A song about my anxiety disorder and how it makes me feel)

So this is what I get
For being an outsider,
invisible Ignored and alone
Then again, what’s new?

Nobody cares, I suppose
But why should they?
I’m not their responsibility
But a burden, if anything

Chorus:
I wonder when this feeling
Will ever go away
Will it go away?
I’m trapped, can’t you see that
It’s bad enough
Without being an outcast
Please don’t make me go away
Just make this go away

Its uncontrollable, this fear
This horror that’s part of me
So limiting and controlling
I just want some freedom, for once

It doesn’t help when I feel so lost
To be shunned and then put down
When nobody sees, no one understands
That this isn’t me, it isn’t me

(chorus)

Bridge:
Its part of me, it controls my life
But that doesn’t make it any better
Debilitating, such a heavy weight
I don’t want this to define me
Please just make it go away

(chorus)

Love and Hate

StormPraiser1991 — Tue, 05 Jul 2011 04:12:25 +0000

"Do you hate me?" I asked.

“No,” she told me. Her lips brushed against my cheek, extinguishing a single tear.

I knew that she would be well within her rights to hate me; I’d done it again. I’d given in and let the demons overpower me. And yet she held me tenderly in the aftermath, hiding the anguish she felt inside. Despair welled within her every time she dutifully wrapped my forearms in clean white gauze, but she never let it show. Seeing the crimson blood and broken flesh pained her; she was ill at the sight of what I had done. But nothing tore her apart more than imagining what depths of agony must have compelled me to do this to myself again.

She could never comprehend the brokenness, the abject madness that churned inside of me each time I fell from grace, each time I surrendered to the depraved and twisted beauty of that glistening blade. Nor did she pretend to understand. She just knew that I needed someone to break that fall. I needed someone to sit with me as the blood and shame spilled out of me and stained the cold tile floor. I needed someone to love me in spite of it all. She was my single anchor in sanity, the hand that struggled to hold me just a hair’s breadth above the point of no return. By all rights, she should have hated me for every twisted coil of darkness she drew out of me and bore as her own.

“I don’t hate you,” she reassured me again, in a voice soft as a breath. “I could never, ever hate you.”

“Why not?”

“Because I love you.”

Too little too late

Pheonixx — Mon, 13 Jun 2011 01:18:08 +0000

How long can we pretend were not falling apart, ripping at the seams. You only say things that trigger more screams, but you don't know. I cant have my emotions show. When I try, you turn me away. Making me feel so out of place. I just want things to be okay, but they cant go back that way.
It's too late now. Let's go our seprate ways. Maybe when we're older, our feelings will change and we'll throw our resent away. But baby, for now, we have to just let go. We're only hurting eachother, but our pain doesnt show. That's why I wrote this song to let you know. I can't keep doing this, I'm burning myself out. I'll always love you, but how much longer can I shout? You don't even care. And everyday, my heart seems to tear. Read more »

me.

Anonymous — Tue, 24 May 2011 13:24:17 +0000

the one mistake i made all those years ago

has me trapped

how i long for it so.

it causes many problems

this strange addiction

relationships ruined

in my mind a confliction

that urge i get

that shaky feeling

my mind switches off

it all gets blocked out

my main concern - i hope no one finds out.

hes so disappointed

i did it again

this time i really mean it

even though i know the truth

the cycle can never end

ASKING TO BURN

misswritten — Tue, 15 Mar 2011 17:38:54 +0000

sorry for the caps..i was bored when I was typing it that day..so yeh (:

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