soundwave

Linkin Park

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Wed, 05 Oct 2011 17:24:00 +0000

It’s amazing to hear them play. Their songs, the beats that comes from it, Chester’s voice, Mike’s raps, Rob’s drumming’, Brad’s strumming, Joe’s scratching’ and Phoenix’s bass – they are the epitome of what I call music sensation.

What set’s them so different is that how they experiment their music, and try to evolve. I’ve been listening to them since their Hybrid Theory days, still got their cassette, and I like where they are going now. Some people laments that their music does not connect to the fans anymore. I digress. It connects in many ways that the normal way we think it would. The band, to me, is trying to connect their world and their perspective to the fan. They make it more gratifying to with their music.

Their music has come long ways, and it never bores me. It has been together wit me in good and bad days of my life, and it gives me strength in times in need. I wish I could one day go to their concert and see them with own eyes. It’s been a long time wish, I always had to do something during their concert. I await the day I’d go to their concert.

I just re-watched the Road to Revolution, Live at Milton Keynes 2008 concert, and I must say: IT’S FUCKING AWESOME. Especially Part 2 of it. Man, I love how No More Sorrow starts. It starts so subtle, then changing into a more clearer and defined sound, and then it goes up and up with a hefty beat, caching up to the climax, and bam, Chester comes in.

No one can beat them in term of showmanship, as far as I know. I know for sure the band is a talented one. Seeing them play, their dedication, its like an art by itself. I t always gives me inspiration to do something. I wish all the best for the band. I await their next album.

And I hope I can hear more from Joe Hahn. I wish he could do something like Daft Punk kinda thing.

Hail!

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Wed, 21 Sep 2011 19:47:00 +0000

Those who want to live, let them fight, and those who do not want to fight in this world of eternal struggle do not deserve to live.
Adolf Hitler

To be or not to be?

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Mon, 12 Sep 2011 12:29:00 +0000

Had a talk with my lecturer, and he gave me a lot of stuff to think about.

How do I want my future to be? To be among the crowd? Or to have something that makes me stand out. Do I want to live in a boring cycle of doing work, go back home and sleep cycle? No. I want to something new. Something fun, something innovating. Something that can be a contribution, to me, to the people perhaps, or to anyone. In a good sense.

To achieve it is no simple task. I need to be aware of what my weakness and strengths is. I need to know what can be my point to stand out from the crowd. To do that I need to learn more, and see more things in the world. Not confined as he says it.

I wonder if I can do it? I’ll definitely need to struggle more.

The Dying Swan

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Mon, 05 Sep 2011 20:15:00 +0000

The wild swan's death-hymn took the soul

Of that waste place with joy

Hidden in sorrow: at first to the ear

The warble was low, and full and clear; ...

But anon her awful jubilant voice,

With a music strange and manifold,

Flow’d forth on a carol free and bold;

As when a mighty people rejoice

With shawms, and with cymbals, and harps of gold...

I think it is time to break the wall and build a new one.

Letting Go.

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Wed, 24 Aug 2011 16:31:00 +0000

I’ve finally said it. Finally I told her what my feeling is, this new feeling that I am uncomfortable with. Hopefully everything will be as normal after this. It may take a while for this lingering feeling to be gone from me. Hopefully it will be a fast process. Loving you is not what I expected, although I do love you, a lot as a friend.

Getting into romantic relationship is not something I can bear right now. Not to mention that being in one with you can seriously jeopardize our friendship.

I wish you all the happiness in life.

Love. Life. Solitary.

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Wed, 06 Jul 2011 21:54:00 +0000

First of let us see the definition of these 3 words.

Love:
1. Have a great affection or liking for
2. Derive or receive pleasure from; get enjoyment from; take pleasure in
3. Be enamored or in love with
4. A strong positive emotion of regard and affection

Life:
1. A characteristic state or mode of living
2. The experience of being alive; the course of human events and activities
3. The course of existence of an individual; the actions and events that occur in living

Solitary
1. Characterized by or preferring solitude
2. Lacking companions or companionship

The issue in hand is, does living in solitude is good enough in living? Or do we actually need love to live our life? This is an ongoing question that many of us, especially the singles, kept asking. Singles might say they don’t care, or some maybe don’t want to be committed. But is it what they want?

They can fling and do a one night stand whenever they want, but when it comes to needing someone, I wonder if they can have that companion. I wonder also, how they feel when they are alone. I’d feel lonely. Sometimes I even long the touch of people.

But how to get love? That’s another big question. I truly wonder whether the word love has a meaning in this kind of world anymore. People keep talking about materialistic love, but is that what love is? I know money is very important, but, to cheat and to dump someone because of it. That’s a bit harsh. It makes me wonder, what are they thinking.

Workaholic.

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Mon, 04 Jul 2011 17:11:00 +0000

Sometimes I wonder if I am a workaholic. Workaholic is a person with a compulsive need to work. I ‘m not sure if I really have a compulsive disorder or what but I seem to notice that I am usually thinking a lot about work. I wonder what is it that makes me that way.

Is it because to turn away my attention from something I dislike? Or is it because I love working? All I know I have a “you-think-too-much” compulsive disorder. Sometimes I wonder how actually I survive.

Being a workaholic is not really a good thing. It creates a cold atmosphere around you. And somehow, you’ll be far away from connecting with people. And then you’ll get cold in dealing with people. For instance, imagine someone dealing with a kid like a grownup. Giving him tasks and responsibilities he couldn’t take; or having a high expectation they can do something that people at their age shouldn’t do.

I think I am in control of it now, barely I guess. But I need to do something to fix this problem. Sooner or later, I’m going to have problems if I keep going at it.

In the Future

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Mon, 16 May 2011 18:28:00 +0000

I’ve been thinking and done a lot. Mostly related to what I want to do in the future. My lecturers helped me a lot in searching my direction. Now it is up to me to experience and work it out. Had I not meet them I think I still might be hanging not knowing how to progress. Therefore I am thankful to them.

Life, is a journey. Some say it is a battle. Well, I’d say it is a self-discovery. It’s about making peace with your self, the Maker, the people around us, and the environment. I think life is fulfilling when you are on that route. We won’t get to deep to the material life, but near to the after life. I’d say, I’m quite happy with the road I am going through. For now at least.

I hope that I can progress faster and make more meaningful actions to give my self my personality. I want to remove the persona I have – break it down and just show my self to the world. Not sure if I can, but I’ll try.

I hope that the day will come soon.

Decisions is killing me.

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Thu, 24 Mar 2011 16:38:00 +0000

Making up decision is hard, especially of it relates to life changing situations. I just had this one experience. My heart swayed from one choice to another, and it was a horrible experience. The worse thing is when it happens it slows down everything you do. And it won’t ever help you to decide also. Note to self after this: Never stop doing what you need to do when the time comes.

The dilemma I am facing is whether to skip to degree or to continue to diploma. Both has it’s own merits and demerits. My first choice is to not go to degree. My lecturers and other friends tell me to go. At one point I wanted to go, but when I stop and assess things, I think I am not ready for degree. I think I can manage when it comes to certain aspects, but I don’t think I can manage when it comes to manual rendering.

I think I need to gain more knowledge and experience, and when I do get into degree I can do it with ease and comfort. The challenge is quite a big difference, and I wonder if I can really manage.

My senior said to me, going through Semester 6 is the biggest burden you will find, and if you can manage through it; you can manage through anything. I also believe that what I am pursuing is not certificates, but the knowledge. I think I can miss a lot of basics knowledge if I skip. Not to mention the difference in standard. I rather take my time and learn rather than rushing to learn everything. After all, I am not a prodigy or whatsoever. I’m just a normal student who likes to learn.

That’s for now I guess. There’s a lot to think after this, and again note to self: Take one step at a time.

Life goes on…

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Mon, 14 Feb 2011 19:18:00 +0000

Life goes on, and waits for no one. That’s something I learned the hard way. There’s no need to spend to much time on something trivial and make so much fuss on it. I learned that it is better to face the problem and face it and save time.

When I watch back the past I can see what I have done wrong in the past - I spend too much time and too much thought solving something so trivial; and I lost many times and sometimes, precious things in the process. I think it is better to use the time better for something else, for example learning something new or meeting someone new. All this can help us in the future and create new possibilities. When we run away from problems we are not moving forward but instead we are actually stalling time to let the problem go and in some cases we are actually moving backwards because of the problem.

This remind me a story my lecturer told me on how things that we do can affect one another – like a Domino. One good deeds will come back in many other good form, and vice versa. It is this thing that I want to search. I think I have experience something similar, as what Islam have said, everything that has and is going to happen has a meaning behind it. It is us who need to find the meaning behind it and unravels the knowledge we can get behind it.

Winter 2011

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Sat, 11 Dec 2010 18:19:00 +0000

Can’t wait for many new anime this coming season. =D

Source

Here’s a list of what I want to watch (Red = Will watch, Blue= Not sure):

1. Kimi ni Todoke: Of course, I’ve been reading the manga and watching the first season and I enjoy seeing Sadako, eh no, Sawako doing her thing. Can’t wait for this.

2. IS Infinite Stratos: Girls + Mecha = WIN. Of course not all would be so, but heck, by the looks of it, it seems quite interesting.

3. Gosick: Mysteries FTW. Loli FTW. Which reminds me I still haven’t watch Kuroshitsuji Season 2…

4. Freezing: I read the manhwa/manga, but I wonder if I should watch the anime. It’s promising but…its quite brutal; for girls at least. I don’t really like atching girls getting beaten up and bloodied.

5. Beelzebub: This series is awesome.

6. Dragon Crisis: Cute girls FTW.

7. Kore wa Zombie Desuka: Cute girls FTW.

8. Fractale: I'm not so sure whether to watch this or not… But at least I’ll watch the first episode.

9. Yumekui Merry: Same with Fractale.

10. Houkago no Pladeis: This anime original looks very promising. I quite enjoy watching anime originals, they tend to be much more interesting. Perhaps because we wouldn’t compare it to the original.

There goes my bandwidth. Let’s say I download the XVID version which is usually around 195MB. Times the number of series, which I really want to watch for now, 5. And then times 4 weeks. That would be around 3900MB. That’s half of my bandwidth… Oh well, anything for anime.
How I wish I can get streamyx, or Maxis upgrades their bandwidth to a larger capacity.

Upgrade List

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Wed, 08 Dec 2010 11:42:00 +0000

My target upgrade for my PC:
1. Cooler Master Elite 430

2. Cooler Master Hyper N520

3. Western Digital Caviar Green 1TB

4. Corsair Dominator 1600 4GB

5. Samsung P2370HD 23”

I’m quite happy with my processor (AMD Phenom II X4 925) and my graphic card (Sapphire AMD 5750 1GB DDR5). Maybe sometime later I’ll change my mother board too? Still searching for a good one.

I truly wonder.

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Tue, 30 Nov 2010 18:07:00 +0000

I truly wonder if Malaysia can recover from this stupidity.

I truly wonder if Malaysia can change into a country that has no petty conflict.

I truly wonder if the leaders of Malaysia can change to be better.

I truly wonder if the Malays can change themselves to be better.

I truly wonder if the Malays can let go of their pride for the sake of peace.

I truly wonder if I can see the Chinese, the Malays, the Indians and other races to be together in harmony?

Nature and Architecture

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Tue, 19 Oct 2010 16:21:00 +0000

One of my writings during my foundation years.

Architecture has many influences to and from many aspects. People, culture, and nature is some of the examples. One could say that architecture exists because it has those aspects, as well as other. Good or bad, architecture is something that always revolving at a certain point of which contains many subjective reasons.

How architecture affects the surroundings and how the surroundings affects architecture is usually a two ways or one way relationship. But what if some of the connections are not important? Do we leave it as it is, or we should just continue? Let us take a look in the connection between nature and architecture.

If we look closely, how architecture affects the nature could show many flaws for us as a human. One common effects of architecture to nature is the demolition of forests or green lands for the sake of advancement. More than 20 hectare of forest worldwide is cleared out every single year to build new buildings. While the human population has grown a lot especially after the start of the globalization era, more people means more demands, and more demands mean more work there is to do. Many new facilities need to be built and new housing areas are also need to be build as immigration occurs as well as localized growth of populace. The usage of woods and many other natural resources in order to construct is also a crucial problem. Trees play a major role in the biodiversity chain, and we have lost and disrupt the chain quite a lot. Plus, trees are the biggest carbon recyclers; one could say forests are the heart in regulating the Earth climate.

In addition to that, solid waste of construction and demolition are also playing a major role in polluting the environment, in many ways. Total annual U.S. construction and demolition waste generation: 13,000,000 tons; number of US commercial buildings demolished annually: 44,000; number of US housing units demolished annually: 245,000; portion of U.S .annual landfill waste stream associated with construction and demolition: 10-30%that is only for U.S. imagine how other countries like China’s and Russia’s statistic. China is the world top polluter last year and the year before. Most of the wastes are not properly treated, not to mention the synthetics material and many other biodegradable substances are left unattended.

We can control this kind of problem that is for sure, but we need to reform our mindset completely. We should try to research and do something so that architecture and nature can exist together without being a 'parasite' to one another, though in this case we are the one being the parasite. Then again there will be a problem in humanity as a whole or perhaps certain part of it in the process of the revolution. Do we need to pursue advancement and ingenuity and forget about the nature? We can choose one of it and we can also choose both – with a price that is which is effort, ideas and a bit of sacrifice in many things such as time, money and power.

Louis Kahn had once said, “It is my feeling that living things and non-living things are dichotomous. But I feel that if all living plants and creatures were to disappear, the sun would still shine and the rain still fall. We need Nature; But Nature does not need us.” Once we are gone nature will just go and takes its course, for an example we can see it in Chernobyl. Even after the disastrous nuclear explosion nature still finds its way to spring to life. The man made marvels that is made there experience many damage mainly because of plants. We can also take a look on how the London Bridge or the Eiffel Tower on how many engineers and workers needed to maintain the bridge which is facing constant danger due to nature, such as rusting, wind corrosion and many other factors. If we leave the Eiffel Tower unmaintained, it would take around 10 years or so for it to collapse. Two years of labors and the many thousand dollars spend in making and maintaining the tower would be to waste.

How nature would affect manmade marvels and how architecture is a wonder. In many aspects nature could influence us. Building materials, building planning, construction methods as well as a few more other aspects can be the example. Some of the architecture has invented many buildings in regards to this, like how a hurricane house is made in order to withstand the force of a hurricane; or perhaps the ingenious floating island, that is made from plastics bottles and recycled items. These kinds of ideas should be made wide, and valued as we cannot continue on neglecting the nature.

We can also learn many things from nature. Some of the greatest marvels of architecture in the world are greatly influenced by nature and its components. We can take for an example the Plank House. Using the materials such as the Cedar trees and making a nice home is that easy, plus the time the technology or the knowledge of building something in harmony with nature has existed for quite a long time already – perhaps during the first civilization occurs? So why we cannot do something like this now, in addition with our advance technology we can do something much better by combining the nature and the technology. This in turn can make us live better. Advancement without planning can only retard the growth of a populace, we should never do that.

Nature also provides us with many materials, like steel, copper and many compounds. We also modified some of it to become more and more useful in order to build or make something that can last long. Take iron for example; add carbon for durability or add steel for flexibility. Research in order to make a more advanced or higher grade material is always on the go, but the objectives are rarely to be ‘to live with nature.’

In the end, nature still holds the greatest influence in this relationship, not to forgetting some other organism are losing or gaining some benefits from this relationship. We are not alone in this world; it is time to think about the world as a whole. Not just for us. Maybe one day we could build a building that can use the simple nature laws, or a building that can have a good effect on the surroundings. Planned urbanism is a must if we want to live in a nice area with a healthy atmosphere. Perhaps we could one day see a city with lush green and all of the buildings are eco-friendly and somehow contributing something back to the environment. Although this is a dream or an idea for now maybe one day we could see something like this.

By:

Mohd Asyrani b Rosani, 1000819525

Foundation in Architecture, UCSI

References

Web Links

http://www.onesmallproject.com/pagesinformation/factsstats.html

http://www.sustainableabc.com/naa.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Plank_House

http://findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_m3575/is_n1185_v198/ai_17936306

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eiffel_Tower

Documentary

National Geographic Channel

· Earth Day Special – Earth Report

· Mega-structures

Discovery Channel

· All You Need To Know – Steel, Diamond, Tornadoes

· Manmade Marvels

History Channel

· What Happens after Humans?

Books

Paul-Alan Johnson, (1994). The Theory of Architecture: Concepts, Themes and Practices

Emilio Ambasz. The "Green" Over the "Gray" - Architecture and Nature: Towards a Pact of Reconciliation.

Daniel Giralt. Nature in Architecture.

Sandy Stannard. Thesis Proposal “re:THINK: Architecture + Nature” Sandy Stannard

Rajif C. Shah. How Architecture Regulates

The End

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Thu, 14 Oct 2010 19:07:00 +0000

This semester is almost finished. Just a few more stuff to do and I could be declared as a free man. I could never imagined that this semester would be a new experience to me. Everything I knew almost changed. Not to mention how I work, how I manage my life daily and many others. I’d say this semester is an eye opener for me. A lot has happened. Can’t say that I am happy with everything. Some stuff that happened is quite, well, heartbreaking. Luckily there’s a silver lining in every storm (is that how it goes?). For now I just want to sit back and relax and do my normal stuff. But..sooner or later my ‘normal’ stuff would be changed also into something ‘un-normal’. Maybe. Who knows. I just get the feeling something going to change.

Tomorrow would be the last day of classes. Oh wait, tomorrow? It's already tomorrow. here’s the thing about Architecture -

Night is when you stay up late doing projects, and Day means going to class. Sleep is where you have no project anymore.

One of my friends suggested me to make a Facebook group relating this, a Architecture Country. I wonder if I should? Haha~

P/S: Note to self: Do a PC cleanup. PLEAZ

Holiday

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Sun, 10 Oct 2010 16:13:00 +0000

Holiday never been better with sleep and food around the clock. Sadly my holiday for no I s finished. Now I need to focus on getting all the other work done, getting more sticker for next semester college and lastly focus on my exam. =\ Not so interesting but at least I wouldn’t have much to do. So I could relax and do stuff all day. Though I reckon I would do the same thing always.

This holiday I plan to do something productive, though I have not planned anything yet. I wonder what. My initial thought was to learn 3d Max, though I’m not so sure if I would do it…

Games are piling up, I wonder if I can finish it all I the one months plus holiday. Not to mention all the other stuff I am going to do. Sigh…

Here’s my work for my final. This is my layout plan. Designing an office is as hard as working in it I guess? Haha… rendering is fun but very hard, damn I wish I could better. The plan is as big as A2 without the label and all. So much money was used to make this a success.

This project took me about 1 month plus to finish. Many stuff happened in between, luckily everyone managed to finish it.

Here’s the section and the model. The model is lacking many of its cabinet. Too little time and too many to do.

I guess that’s all for today… Time to sleep!

Almost There…

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Sun, 26 Sep 2010 23:10:00 +0000

Been a long time since I posted something here. Probably because I ~~was~~, am too busy with my assignments. It’s pretty much sleepless night over and over again. I imagine new assignments keep stacking up each other. Imagine the me, who, during secondary school year did almost nothing of his schoolwork – now trying to do everything, and extra.

I’d say I changed a lot. In many ways. Architecture changes me. The people I met during my architectural days changes me. For better or for worse, I feel very thankful to them.

Now my final is coming up and there’s more to anticipate this week. I hope that I can manage to finish everything in time. No sleep until Thursday? I ‘ll try. So far I am going at a good pace, I guess? Haha, I don’t really know where I stand since I am doing my work in my room. 1st class room mind that. Ah, another problem here… Well better save that for another time.

Waiting for class, so for now it’s time to relax~

Life is hard, and it keeps getting harder.

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Sat, 07 Aug 2010 11:20:00 +0000

That’s what I feel right now. More assignments keep piling on top of each other. More problems coming at me. Less time to deal with it. Less motivation. Sometimes I would get into slumps, and this creates even more problem. I don’t know why this is happening. My lecturer said it’s a norm, and it can be easily countered. That is only if you have the will power. I feel like I need to be stronger and stronger. Mentally instead of physically.

Now it’s all about work in my head, I wonder if I can have a good rest when these all over.

And this is my workspace, and no it’s not me in the picture.

Windows Live Beta

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Thu, 24 Jun 2010 19:13:00 +0000

It’s already out and I am impressed. I can Facebook and MSN all in one. Plus the new features are amazing!

It makes converting to Windows 7 much worth the while.

The Beginning of A New Adventure

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Sun, 20 Jun 2010 13:42:00 +0000

It’s almost time for the holiday to end, which means no more relaxing for me. It’s going to be all about study and assignments now. Can’t say that I am looking forward to it.

Well, a bit.

I guess having a long holidays takes toll on stuff. I’ve getting more lazier, more sleepy-head, and more gluttonous. Perhaps I need to double up my exercise effort? Bah, I hope not. I prefer doing something else. Though I don’t really know what should I do actually.

Ah, I don’t know what to do to fill up this empty feeling I get.

Playing games doesn’t really fill it up. Reading, if there's a new book is ok but there’s none. Music, well, it’s something I need rather something I want.

Maybe I’ll go and sleep over sometime?

A long time has passed.

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Thu, 17 Jun 2010 12:49:00 +0000

I think I have not been on this blog for a long time, plus the spam is getting worse. What's more confusing is the spam is from Japan.

Life has been, boring. Not that I want to complain. I always wanted a relaxing time, and here I got an over relaxing one. Quite the irony. I guess the saying be careful of what you wish for is true.

Interior Design and Architecture is like siblings, both of which is hard. My plans to fill my holiday with something productive is not really going well, then again my plans never ever really worked the way I planned.

My result was okay, considering my effort. My curricular activities was the lowest scored; I reap I sow. I did to went to the meetings and such. Well, that's one lesson to learn.

I learned much from my previous semester and I don't want to commit it again.

Can't wait for the new semester.

It's amazing.

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Mon, 08 Mar 2010 20:00:00 +0000

It has been a long time. I don't know what to say. Life here at UITM is and will always be busy. I could not have one day doing nothing. But all is well. Not to mention I think I am learning many stuff.

But, too much has happened. I almost lost my self, but I managed to get a grip. I wonder, what kept me go on? Was it because I don't want to lose my chance here? Or is it because the time I have wasted here? It's a question that I would always wonder about when I don't have anything to do; which is usually everyday before sleeping.

I missed the people at UCSI, the English, the food, my home, my besties. But I think I am slowly gaining that all in UITM also. Just maybe I cannot accept it all yet. What to do? All Malays/Bumiputra - I cannot blend in properly.

My life now is all about assignments. My room is practically a mini studio while the studio is my second room. It is also amazing to note that sleep is not an essential to me anymore since the earliest I can sleep is usually around 2-3 am.

Procrastination? Perhaps but not always. The assignments just kept coming after one another and so does the time. I have just finished one rendering of a perspective, not that I am proud of it. And I still have to do an origami for submission tomorrow. Ah I wonder how I can manage all this? I can't believe myself.

Maybe I'll write more.

Change?

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Mon, 25 Jan 2010 17:40:00 +0000

From architecture to interior. I thought it would be less stressful compared to the latter, but no - it is the same. Or maybe even worse. I don't know. I can't say for sure. There's too many stuff to do and so little time.

That word is so common.

I wonder what will happen tomorrow? The lecturers are more strict compared to before in UCSI. Even sketches need to have their own format and standards; crazy I'd tell you. But then when I do it, it does look nice and neat.

Tomorrow, or rather in a few hours another critique session and I only done 60% of the work. That's just for one class. No, no more last minute work. More like the standards are high. Last time, 'no sleeping' is an option if we do last minute work. Now it's a necessity to complete the work.

Sadly the studio is not open. If not, we can have a party there. It's quite annoying to do it at the hostel. But heck, beggars don't choose.

Ah, I'd better do my work.

Maybe after a few minutes.

Or hours.

Damn it.

Too little time and too many things to do

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Sat, 12 Dec 2009 17:45:00 +0000

And that’s just the least I need to worry about.

2010 is going to be a junction of life of which I think will bring me to a new world. Friends are taking their own path, struggling, discovering and many more. With and/or without me. Somehow it feels sad. For more than 7 years, it has always been ‘us’ and it was fun and hectic.

I always wonder why there’s a vast road ahead of us that we can’t really go hand-in-hand together. There’s all good reason to it, I know but hey, who would not worry?

I am afraid of the new world I am venturing into that would change me. Or worse makes me loose my precious past. Yes, it is more important to cling on the present and future but the uncertainties are taking it’s toll. I rather hold on something that is certain rather than not. Who knows what could happen.

There’s a lot of uncertainties and doubts in me. It make me further vexed to know that I am not prepared to make a leap into this new world. There’s too many stuff I need to learn.

I don’t even know how to make friends. These past years all my friends were friends not because of my initiation. Rather, it was a natural grouping and what not that bonds us. I wonder if there’s a differences in friendship for those who started it and the ones who are offered.

Too many stuff to think, and little power to act. I could go crazy from this. I know some who has.

I wonder. I dream. But it does not go. I wonder what will happen? For one I hope I won’t lose my precious friends and won’t change (for the worse).

The use of megaprojects

noreply@blogger.com (shiro) — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 03:19:00 +0000

I’ve been reading the comments on Tun. Dr. Mahathir’s blog, and I am quite baffled by the comments which touch upon the subject of ‘Megaprojects is useless’.

Megaprojects brings more than physical impact on the country, even if it does not bring as much profit as it would think.

Let us take the Petronas Twin Tower.

1. The construction of the tower created opportunities of local workers to work in a advanced environment. Where else we can gain this knowledge and training for our people?

2. Exchange in technology. The technology brought in during the time of construction and in various other phases is even used today.

3. The local contracted company who worked during the times gained more revenues as well reputation. Just search for info on the glass maker. That alone can be the best evidence.

4. It stands to be our landmark in the world. After the construction of the twin tower more foreigner learned about Malaysia?

5. Direct investment is quite high comparing to other projects – even if it is not on the level we expected. Plus, who knows how much indirect investment is has caused?

6. Patriotism. I don’t know about others, but seeing the twin tower, Putrajaya and other projects makes me very proud to be a Malaysian. It gives me dreams of one day working on that project or others that gives Malaysia something to be proud of.

Let’s face it. The mega projects is not that faulty. Of course it is not perfect. Nothing can be absolute in this matter. Who could predict in 10 years time what would happen?

It is in the intention of the creator to make something for Malaysia to benefit – note that in your mind. Perhaps by at least supporting them you could help making the profit (if all what matters is just the profit) higher.

On another note, Cyberjaya for example has abundance of opportunity just that the people are not that creative and brave to venture into that sector. See how the companies now are doing?

I could go on more and more, but at least think outside the box. Don’t selfishly go and blame it all. If the logic always go as “The profit is not = or > than the initial capital is bad” we are going to be doomed. I for one vote to not live in a community where profit generation comes first rather than community benefit.