Solitude Times

Katakan Tidak!

2012-02-05T14:45:00.004+07:00

Mengenai hidup ini. Hidup saya. Hidupmu. Singkatnya kita semua.

... Saya membayangkan, seseorang yang terlanjur 'kecemplung dalam sumur', berbuat yang tidak semestinya, mungkin awalnya karena ikut tergiur, dipikirnya itu hal biasa. Karena seperti ketika saat seseorang dilingkupi suasana yang 'mengizinkan', kadang ia bisa saja lupa dengan hati nurani. Lupa dengan norma yang sudah capek-capek dia tanamkan ke dalam mindset.

Atau bisa juga, ia ternyata terjebak dan terancam di tengah kondisi yang mana lingkungannya mewajibkan dia untuk menjadi sama. Solidaritas. Misalnya saja pemuda yang masuk dalam lingkungan pergaulan yang salah. Ternyata lingkungan itu memaksanya mencicipi narkotika.

Kesalahan. Orang berimanpun bisa saja jatuh ketika imannya goyah. Goyah dengan tipu-tipu daya. Kalau dalam bahasa alkitab, tipu muslihat iblis. Jadi pergaulan juga tidak selamanya baik hati untuk masa depan kita.

Terus.. kita hindari saja pergaulan itu? Jika sudah menunjukkan indikasi yang merusak sikap baik kita, (yang sudah capek-capek kita tanamkan ke dalam kebiasaan), menurut saya lebih baik dijauhkan. Mungkin tetap berinteraksi tanpa harus terlalu dekat.

Namun begitu, itupun bukannya jaminan kita akan nyaman terus. Karena ada kalanya Tuhanlah yang menghendaki kita untuk bisa hidup dan justru makin kuat dan bijak di tengah suasana yang tidak bersahabat.

Hmm.. repot ya, hidup dalam iman itu? Yah, kira-kira begitu.. Tapi dengan kasih akan Tuhan, bahasa gaulnya dengan cinta, apapun dijalani, kan? :) Yang penting selalu berusaha untuk setia dan... katakan tidak pada setiap hal yang tidak berkenan di hadapan Tuhan.

So, happy sunday and take care yourself, guys! Tetap semangat dalam Tuhan! :)

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All My Days

2012-01-21T20:57:00.001+07:00

RUTH SAHANAYA (THE TRUE WORSHIPPERS)

Give me a heart to worship You
Give me a heart to love You
Teach me Lord to number my days
That I may please Your heart
In all my days

For You are worthy
To You my life I yield
I will bless You all my days
I lift my hands to You
My life is Yours to use
A living sacrifice
Be acceptable to You

Happy New Year!

2012-01-06T07:15:00.000+07:00

Maaf telat. Tapi masih bisa, kan? Masih tanggal 5, koq. #Alasan :D
Memang, kita jangan lagi mencari-cari alasan untuk menghalalkan kemalasan, keengganan. Hmm.. bisakah? (ngomong sih gampang). Sukses memang bisa diraih. Namun itu semua juga memerlukan kesadaran diri sendiri untuk berusaha. Nggak cuma doa.

Baiklah.. Jangan patah semangat!

Selamat tahun baru 2012, teman. Selamat memulai program baru. Semoga sukses, dan...
Tuhan memberkati!

Hadapi Saja!

2011-12-02T22:27:00.003+07:00

Pelajaran yang mau tak mau saya ambil beberapa hari terakhir, di saat saya tidak bisa menghindar. Sebetulnya saya tidak suka. Ya.

Tentang apa?

Tentang sesuatu, yang... sesuatu banget, gitu deh. Hehe.. terpaksa meminjam istilah Syahrini. Jadi, karena tak bisa "kabur", saya selama ini jadi bersikap malas-malasan.

Eh, ini soal bisnis itu?

Bukan juga, sii... Kalau toh iya, itu ya gara-gara kena imbasnya. Tapi intinya bukan itu. Singkatnya, saya mendapati segalanya jadi tidak maksimal lantaran saya menghadapi sikon yang tak mendukung saya itu dengan sangat terpaksa. Ya hasil pekerjaan, ya proses yang jadinya amit-amit, makin ngga enak banget. Dan kesehatan saya pun agak memburuk. Stres, migrain kambuh. Bahkan minum obat sakit kepalapun sembuhnya sebentar saja. Duh, jadi curcol deh. Tapi ngga apa-apa yaa, ini kan memang kesempatan saya.

Baiklah... saya pikir, sayalah yang harus mulai mengubah mindset saya, terhadap suatu keadaan. Kalau kemarin saya sudah merasakan bahwa apapun sesungguhnya dapat saya hadapi bersama Tuhan, sekarang saya perlu mulai menata hati dan strategi baru. Merealisasikan kata-kata saya itu. Memang akan ada yang dikorbankan dalam sebuah perencanaan. Tapi saya harus belajar ikhlas. Supaya korbannya jangan bertambah satu lagi, yaitu perasaan.

Hadapi saja.. Optimis saja.. Percaya saja.. Dan... Bangkitkan semangat! Bersama Tuhan, saya sanggup. Amen!

Happy December Note

2011-12-01T22:49:00.001+07:00

Dear my Lord,
Thanks to remind me about one thing.
That I can not live without You.

Thanks to teach me about life.
That You are the master of break-through.
These are all because of You, the inventor of my life.
Not because of me.

Bless me, Lord for what I have done.
Thank You,

me.

Beginning The New Biz

2011-11-16T21:55:00.002+07:00

Thank God. It's been the middle of November 2011. It's been almost one month since I got a business channel last October. Yup, as I mentioned in last entry. And it's Oriflame of Indonesia. Wow!

Simply, I joined a local network built by Ms. Nadia Meutia and Ms. Dini Shanti, two successful leaders from Indonesia, names dBC Network. fortunately, they showed me it's solid team. We get in touch mostly through internet, and we make the time management just flexibly. Sounds so friendly. ;)

I need to spread a network too to hire the others joining the group. It's of course, for my own goodness too, beside for the upline and downline whom I hire to join. ;)

How did I feel after joining? Actually it's more than just happy feeling. It's a challenge for me to gain downline and then make a good team with them. There will be important things to do. Let's underline "important things to do". Honestly it's a bit harder for a choleric like me [choleric melancholic?]. I got confused for a few days, because I almost ruined the order by my careless trait. Ooh...Well, nobody saw that because I did it at home meanwhile my upline was far over there, in the different city :D

The problem's solved? Thank God, it's been solved. By that experience I know that I have to make a good management as my habit and lifestyle, then I can try to be a good leader for the others. It's normal. Everything need process, right? I believe, the others before me did the same, although I know, we need different time to adapt with the situation. ;)

Pray for me, guys! And... wanna join? ;)

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Not The Final Yet

2011-10-18T23:23:00.000+07:00

Is this the final? Not yet. I need to proof to myself about this all. By the way, thinking of it reminds me about marriage. Once you commit to your spouse, it will change your life forever.

Hum.. Marriage? Wow...I know, after the wedding party it will be the true life you have to enter. And you will find new family members whom you didn't know before. And they could make you happy and love your days, or the opposite one, sad or angry. Mysterious?

Well, just be wise. Always trust Him for everything before doing the task.

Right, it's still about that MLM network. Go for it if you like! :))

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Thinking of a Thing

2011-10-12T22:57:00.000+07:00

Keputusan.
Saya rindu keputusan. Memutuskan sesuatu yang penting. Meskipun sederhana.

Langkah.
Saya menyukai langkah. Terdiri dari tiga tahap, yang konsisten, yaitu pra melangkah, proses, dan sesudah itu. Yang telah lalu, saat ini, dan nanti. Sejarah, saat yang sedang dihadapi, dan misteri.

Keteraturan.
Saya tahu, konsistensi itu penting. Prioritas itu bagiannya. Tapi melakukannya tidak semudah bicara. Siapkah saya? Bukan, kali ini saya sedang memikirkan sebuah keputusan menjadi member sebuah MLM. Iya, MLM. Setidaknya saya berusaha mendapatkan ilmu dan pertemanan, selain dari keuntungan financial.
Hehehe…
Tumben.

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Ku Takkan Menyerah

2011-09-15T07:02:00.000+07:00

(Jonathan Prawira)

Dalam s'gala perkara
Tuhan punya rencana
Yang lebih besar dari
Semua yang terpikirkan
Apapun yang Kau perbuat
Tak ada maksud jahat
S'bab itu kulakukan Semua dengan-Mu Tuhan

Reff :

Ku tak akan menyerah pada apapun juga
Sebelum ku coba, semua yang ku bisa
Tetapi ku berserah kepada kehendak-Mu
Hatiku percaya Tuhan punya rencana

Books Review

2011-07-21T20:46:00.000+07:00

What would you feel if someday you review a novel you think that's good? May be you'll be happy because that's what you want to do. May be you'll post it on your personal blog with no doubt, because without too much critical opinion the writer has been known as a good writer with many published book.

But what would you feel if it turns out that the novel has too much similar character with a book of another writer, which you didn't know before?

OK.. don't judge too quickly. That's true, there's a review which I've read about a novel, which I've said that's good. And the reviewer was disappointed because she found too much similar character with another book she's read. Wow... I didn't know how I must be after reading it. But after that, I went check the news about it in internet, and didn't find the obvious statement like that.

I thought again, I only read one novel, not the both. I could feel the same if someday I read or watch the movie (just example); disappointed too. Especially if I bought it, not borrowed. So far, I only can say that it indicate that I don't read many books yet, like the lady criticized it.

Grateful!

2011-07-17T09:20:00.000+07:00

Dear Lord Jesus,

Thank You for everything. Such as for helping us finding the good things in life, for the blessings, lessons of life, for the process to learn how we must be, and many others.

And mostly, thank You for the perfect redemption we have in You only by faith.

Amen.

July!

2011-07-14T18:42:00.000+07:00

Ha ha! Ya, this is finally the middle of July. Wow... I remember again how often I've posted here. Too rare, definitely.

Something happened made me loss internet access. Ooh, right, My PC's got error. But, no. I can't stay until the situation get well, if I want to connect to internet soon, right? :) So for temporary (I hope), I have to go to an internet shop. Internet shop.. what's the bad? Nothing. It's ok. I just need to arrange time better to prevent the calling from my parents: 'Go home!' Ha ha! Shame on me :p

OK. So, this is again the first post in month like some latest entries. If a friend advised me not to matter about how rare I post, I hope this is the beginning of my return to blogging intensively. Sure, by doing it I'll feel like a few years ago; finding my own world. My place to express my mind. Feels like going home? May be. :)

Pribadi Yang Mengenal Hatiku

2011-06-09T06:19:00.020+07:00

S'perti rusa yang haus rindu aliran sungai-Mu
Hatiku tak tahan menunggu-MU
Bagai padang gersang menanti datangnya hujan
Begitu pun jiwaku Tuhan

Hanya Engkau pribadi yang mengenal hatiku
Tiada yang tersembunyi bagi-Mu
s'luruh isi hatiku Kau tahu
Dan bawaku 'tuk lebih dekat lagi pada-Mu
Tinggal dalam indahnya dekapan kasih-Mu

(Lyric source: kidung.com)

Happy June 3

2011-06-03T07:11:00.000+07:00

Good Morning!

I'm so glad to post here again after long enough hiatus. And honestly it's a late posting, because I wanted to start this at June 1. But it's fine. I prefer to post it lately than to get my head in worse condition. Right, I had to take rest after working. No internet connection, so no facebook and twitter updates. :D

One thing I would like to thank my God, since yesterday the internet connection through my phone cell was broken. I had to use the expensive one. *ouch!* but I realize, it was my opportunity to relax my eyes, my hand and of course my brain.

Thinking of Him more seriously, before thinking of my own dream.

All right, tweeps.. oh, facebookers, oh.. I mean everyone who read this, have a beautiful journey in this June! And I hope, I won't get the unpleasant migrain anymore.. ;)

An Entry of April - Almost May

2011-04-27T22:55:00.000+07:00

It is April, almost May. Many things happened in this month, either the good or the bad ones. People learn from failure. And so do I. But wait... Did I learn from things happened? I just... ah, forget it!

I want (and someday will really need) new situation out of my ordinary life. That's why I need to keep learning. It's like missing and finding opportunity at the same time.

It is April, almost May. A part of my life has become such home works, for the life time before has left questions and asked for solutions. But some times I can not answer them by myself except let it flow until the time answer.

Bentuk

2011-03-22T07:07:00.002+07:00

"Justru saat sekarang inilah kita dibentuk.”

Grateful Sunday

2011-03-13T17:23:00.008+07:00

Thank you for everything happened today, God. For the endless lessons of life You provide me everyday. For the wisdom, to understand others with Your way. To the choice You put in my mind. For finally I realize, that to understand others sometimes I only need a new paradigm which is from You.

That to remove some subjectivity and judging others mind means sometimes I need to learn more, how to look into myself objectively. That to hate others means I'll need another process to turn back and that need time. I don't like. I need to grow, not only turning around the wasteful circle.

And today I'm grateful for the correct choice. I choose to be a good disciples. Although it's just for a day. I think it's such a small probation, because tomorrow and after I can try again. For I have to realize that to be grateful should be practiced everyday.

Thank You, my God!


Let it grow!

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First In March

2011-03-08T07:14:00.001+07:00

Welcome to march of 2011! *So long time no posting!* :)

I thank God for many possibilities in my life. Although there are many difficulties, but God also provide us helps. This time I got lesson again. Time goes on. More than it, sometimes it runs so fast. Even faster; it flies. Time doesn't wait us. It will leave everybody behind. It never expect anyone to follow.

Why do I think so? I just remember the unfinished things which I think, actually I could finish them if I moved faster and knew the right way to do it. Hm.. yeah. Can I? Answering that question means answering this one: can I move faster and change my way to the right one? More than it, may God do the rest. *Please help, God!* :)

February Letter

2011-02-10T20:45:00.000+07:00

Heavenly Father,

This month we got bad news about a politician died in too young age. I was shocked, surprised. Well, although he wasn't a follower of Jesus, the news about his death was able to remind me about how precious our lifetime is.

This time I'm not in very good condition. Condition like this made me thinking to correct all of my bad habit, to improve my lifestyle. Now I have been trying it, because I know, you want me to appreciate my life which You've given to me. Although it's still step by step, I'm glad, God.

But there is something I have to realize: that the action I choose to improve my life usually indicates the attitude of persons who want to keep their life healthy and safe. It made me asking in my heart, if there is a worry behind my choice to do that. I can not let it stay in me, because You teach me not to doubt You. Not to doubt my future in You.

I know, God, those worry and doubt, come NOT from You. They come from the outside of myself, and trying to attack my faith. Teach me, Lord, to always realize that You want us to keep faith warm, to improve our spiritual life every time. Not to let it cool.

Father in heaven,

A few days ago, You knew that a church and a christian school in Central Java were destroyed. This is my prayer, Lord. Please guide us, help us to be strong and keep calm, and may our faith in You become stronger. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Dominasi

2011-01-12T19:20:00.000+07:00

Aku menatap mereka. Segalanya tampak berbeda, dengan suasana hatiku yang berbeda. Kali ini mereka masih nampak enggan seperti beberapa waktu lalu, tapi aku dapat menguasai diriku dengan baik.

Aku merasa banyak hal terbenahi dalam hati. Meskipun belum semua, memang. Tapi yang sudah pasti, aku memperoleh banyak jawaban dari renungan, yang selama ini membuatku memilih lebih banyak diam.

Diam. Kerjakan bagianmu. Itu hanyalah sebagian kecil dari apa yang kutanam dalam hati. Sementara saat harus berhadapan dengan yang lain, aku memilih bangkit menguasai diriku sepenuhnya.

Semua terasa basi jika hanya untuk diperbincangkan. Namun kesadaranku memilih untuk bertekun, mengambil langkah-langkahku sendiri, karena aku memahami siapa aku dan medan tempat aku berusaha. Dan aku melakukannya karena hanya dengan begitulah aku memperoleh hasil.

Happy New Year 2011..!!

2011-01-03T07:37:00.000+07:00

What?...

Of course... I know it has been the third day. But this is better than not to say it, right? Fyi, for me and all of us, the greeting like that is a wish, to be the spirit booster starting our activity in the new year.

OK. This is the first day in 2011 to go working. But behind the regular work, I want to get more inspiration and idea than the usual. I know, it's the time not only sitting down and wait, but also trying to find, looking around and doing many good ways for it.

The most important I still have to keep is balance. Life can go on if we keep balance in life. No overrated stress signed by headache, messed up menstrual cycle (hi women!), and or drained spirit. I need to anticipate them all.

So, what are the plannings? I am interested with a girl in my facebook friendlist, who wrote down on her status, that she would like to change many things in herself; from the appearance to her inside – may be she meant that's her spirit or personality to be better. We should do that, I think. We need to prepare ourselves to be better everyday, because life is a struggle including combating our bad personal habit, beside effort of changing our bad condition economically, socially, psychologically, etc...

Happy new year! Do the best we can do, be the best we can be!

25 Desember

2010-12-25T11:15:00.002+07:00

Saya mengingat kembali rencana, tepatnya yang telah menjadi angan-angan saya akhir-akhir ini. Belum menunjukkan tanda yang menggembirakan. Masih berjalan sesuai kondisi sebelumnya.

Semua perlu adaptasi, hibur diri saya sendiri. Ya, saya tidak patut menyalahkan siapapun atau menuntut agar keadaan segera berubah. Mungkin memang Ia ingin saya belajar bersabar. Ehm... Tapi bukankah pelajaran hidup itu takkan ada habisnya? Saya bertanya, atas pendapat baru saja yang melintas di benak.

Tapi... ah, sudahlah. Jika memang caranya mesti demikian mau gimana lagi? Sisi batin saya tidak sepenuhnya setuju dengan cara berpikir demikian. Sudahlah? Kenapa sedikit-sedikit 'sudahlah'? Kenapa tidak diselesaikan? Segala hal jika dihadapi dengan sudahlah bukannya bertambah baik!

Namun saya kembali pada pendapat semula. Hey, saya ini manusia! Ada saatnya suatu jawaban atas rasa penasaran datang dengan proses yang lama. 'Sudahlah' memang jangan selalu diartikan sebagai jawaban akhir. Tapi di situlah, manusia mesti menunggu momentum yang tidak sesegera yang diinginkan.

Dan hari ini, tepat di hari perayaan natal, saya mencoba untuk tetap realistis. Hari natal. Bagi banyak orang ini hari untuk mimpi sehari dengan Santa Claus dan pohon terang. Meskipun intinya, ini hari yang diadakan agar Sang Pencipta, yang rela menjelma sebagai manusia sederhana diingat. Karena kesetiaan-Nya hingga tuntas segala rencana, seluruh umat di dunia yang percaya dengan karya penebusan-Nya memperolehnya. Tanpa memandang dari mana asalnya.

Dan saya? Ya, saya percaya. Bahkan atas rencana saya tadi, saya percaya Ia akan wujudkan jika waktunya sudah tepat. Dan saya tahu, Ia setuju saya optimis. Amin.

Have a blessed contemplation of natal, everyone!

Baiklah, Blogger Versi Mobile. Saya Tunggu Hasil Terbaikmu

2010-12-19T11:55:00.002+07:00

Baiklah, sudah dicatat kode ?m=1 baik-baik. Beres.

Kode apa pula itu?

Gini, lho! Kode itu dapat kita tambahkan di akhir URL blog, pada saat ingin melihat halaman blogger versi mobile. Tentu saja yang dimaksud hanya blog yang menggunakan blogger.com. Coba saja test di ponsel, http://www.solitudetimes.com/?m=1 dan hasilnya proses loading postingan dapat lebih cepat. Tidak seberat biasanya, karena tidak menggunakan kode tersebut.

Hanya saya merasa kurang puas. Karena penampakannya jadi kurang asyik. Kurang centil! Blog saya kan warna-warni. Tapi mobile version-nya? Pucat begitu saja. Huu..

Tapi baiklah.. Saya akan menunggu. Beberapa teman blogger tampaknya lebih beruntung daripada saya. Penampilan mobile version mereka nampak berwarna, mirip dengan web version-nya. Hmm..

Jangan katakan hidup ini tidak adil. Ini baru permulaan. Masih ada waktu untuk yang namanya proses. :))

Tentang Tuhan

2010-12-14T18:18:00.001+07:00

Sempat terbetik di pikiran,
memikirkan Tuhan itu baik.
Tapi adakah kata terlalu,
yang mengindikasikan ketidakbaikan?

Aku sempat bertemu
beberapa pemikir di bidang ini.
Dan aku takut cara pikirku tak pantas.
Apa sebab?
Aku sempat berpendapat,
hanya memikirkan Tuhan saja
akan membuat pikiranmu sempit.

Entah kenapa.
Tapi aku hanya melihat beberapa contoh kasus.
Ya, mereka tak sadar bergerak
mengikuti pandangan sendiri.

Aku tidak bilang kita mesti menghilangkan selera
untuk merenungkan Dia.
Hanya sebaiknya tidak lupa dengan hal lain,
yang sebetulnya juga bagian realitas ini.

Ada lagi paradigma lain,
yang bilang bahwa hanya memperbincangkan-Nya
bisa mengindikasikan kapasitas pikiran kita.
Sebegitu gancilkah memahami Dia?
Oh, lepas dari pandangan ini,
Ia dapat dimengerti dan membuat bertanya-tanya
karena Ia mahabesar.

"Ia begitu besarnya
sampai bisa melindungi aku
dan begitu kecilnya
sampai bisa masuk kedalam hatiku."
Ucap seorang kanak-kanak yang tulus..

December First Entry

2010-12-01T17:18:00.003+07:00

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"Thank God!" only that I could share in my social media account. After that, only some sayings which could be described that I love this december has come. What should I think, any way? I feel time flies by like usually, without waiting for my problem get finished. I remember my planning about from last 2 years, which can not be actuated. Not because of my laziness, but time didn't make it possible to do it.

Hmm.. What's that?

Secret. A secret which I'll tell here if it's done. ;)

But this time I change my mind. I don't need time to wait for me anymore. I'll let it fly like it wants, as fast as it can, as long as everything is just all right. :) Yes, I just want to actuate what I've planned what I've dream, because it seems so possibly to do it. I just need to prepare enough braveness. Or, may be I should use Obama's presidential campaign slogan in 2008: "Yes we can"? Ah, it's so last (3) year. But it's OK, I think. :))