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purposefully confused

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 16:11:00 +0000

I constantly tried to impress everybody else and try to be noticed,
whereas I tried to be happy at the same time.
But I found the realization that it's never gonna work.
I envy others. I am a hypocrite. I am selfish.
Now, I try to be happy and write my story
and definitely people will remember me.
I will not go wrong.

just wanna say this

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Wed, 08 Dec 2010 14:50:00 +0000

Love really came in an unexpected way in my life. I've felt how love went in and open my heart. He came all of a sudden. In my plain and my dull days. And he brought everything I've ever dare to dream, even more. I am proudly taken by this most amazingly extraordinary guy. Someone who can fill my days and make me as a whole person. My Davin Wiratama :)
He's the only person who can raise up my spirit when I'm down, with his simple words and sweet smile. He can put a smile on my face immediately, with his simple text messages, his voice, and whenever he shows up in my doorway. He can cheer me up in every condition. He can wipe away my tears with his tender touch. He can make my tears fall with his frowns. He's the only guy who can treat me well.
I would give everything he wants. Everything. Because the way he cares for me is addictive. The way he holds me close to him is hypnotizing. And the way he loves me really like no one will ever replace that feeling.
When he hugs me, I feel warm, safe, and secure. When he pours out his magical words or falls down his tears, it makes me feel like I am the luckiest girl on this whole earth to have his heart in mine. Just being near him makes everything seem so peaceful and better.
I love to watch him sleep, just because. I love to hear him snores while he sleeps. I love to hear his heartbeat on his warm chest. Everything about him revolves around my mind.
Every thought, breath, and feeling of mine is saying "I love you". I always feel like I run out of time whenever I'm with him. Because spending time with him is the most incredibly priceless moments ever. Time goes by too fast when he's around. When he's near, my focus is all over on him.
How pure, selfless, and sincere this love I feel towards him.
How I see the real Davin Wiratama in my eyes is just so perfect. I'm in love. I'm in love. I'm deeply in love!
I would rather be miserable as long as I have you in my arms.
This I promise you, love. Won't ever go far from you.
Take my words, take my heart, take my all. It's yours to keep :)

Baby, I love you ♥

what i know

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Sat, 06 Nov 2010 11:20:00 +0000

in secret we meet,
in silence i cry
for missing you so

in joy we smile,
in sunshine i thank
for God's precious gift

you are the image i see
when i feel and love

sharing thoughts
and emotions
together

the wonder that keeping us one
is always selfless

because when i love
you're all i know

mela.110610.

i'm blessed

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Sat, 06 Nov 2010 11:06:00 +0000

"Take time to think about those people you love,
how you appreciate them, and thank them while you can"
-@TheLoveStories

***
thanks love
:)

this i promise you

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Sun, 17 Oct 2010 04:58:00 +0000

"And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you"

This I Promise You - N'Sync

you

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Sat, 16 Oct 2010 14:44:00 +0000

a problem-solver. a heart-warmer. a joker.
a sun. a moon. rain. clouds.
a boyfriend. a lover. a best friend.
a blessing. a gift. a miracle.
an angel.

it's you.

♥

24 or 25 or 26

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Sat, 16 Oct 2010 14:39:00 +0000

cant wait for 2014
or 2015
or 2016

:)

*just wanna say it*

time

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Sat, 16 Oct 2010 06:45:00 +0000

"time"

this 4 letters word makes me think so much these days.
why does time important?

i know everything has to be done within a certain period of time.
everything needs time.
again, everything.

examples.
you go to college and hoping you'll finish it in 4 years.
you eat, for breakfast, lunch, and dinner.
you try to finish your work by the time limit or deadline.
you sleep, you count it by hours or minutes.

even sometimes,
people count unseen things with time.
how many years you've been living at your current house that you wanted to settle up?
or how many times you've watched that movie that you finally understood the storyline?
how often do you go swimming that you feel you're keeping fit?
how long have you known her that you know she's not good to be friends with?
do you regularly hang out with your friends that you can call them best friends?
how long you've known her that you can say she's your best friends?
do you spend more of time with your friends or lover?

sometimes the thing about time bugs me a lot.
why?
because I'm too selfish.
I realize that I wanna spend time with certain person (read: lover)
more than with other people.
I want to have all the time in the world in my hands
and just spend my time with the guy I believe will be holding onto me until "that" day.

I dont see why I have to give an exact reason,
but I believe this passionate feeling isnt just for someone melancholic like me.
it's for everyone who is currently in love.
for real.

I feel
I always run out of time,
or think that I need more time.
And I am willing to give all of my time for him.

whether this post is too mellow or not,
I hope you understand.

time does not stand for those who cant appreciate it.
and I'm aware that I havent appreciated time well.
because I love this selfishness of mine about time.
I love to steal time even just a minute, to be together with him.
and bail out from my friends.
I dont know if it's good or not in others' eyes.
but for me, it's good.
yes, i'm sorry i'm bad.
but it's still good for me.

"Don't let the noise of others opinions drown out your inner voice"
-Steve Jobs

This quote depicts me well.
I really dont want to change what is true for me, just for the pleasure of others.
I can make my own decisions.
I'm mature enough to know what's not and what's it.
I'm addicted, I'm head over heels, and I'm deeply falling in.

I can appreciate time,
whenever I'm with you.
:)

"The most valuable commodity is time"
-Gordon Gekko, Wallstreet: Money Never Sleeps

One more saying about time I found in weheartit , dont know whose (unknown):
"Time will not sleep. It will not slow down and it will not stop.
When time feels like running out, you have all the time in the world.
You can watch the clock hoping that
the minute hand will come to a stop, but it's not going to.
It's never going to.
You can count the seconds until it's a new day or a new month or a new year,
but you'll be counting forever.
You can count the moment until we see each other again,
but it will never be the same.
It'll never be the same."

***

that's why, i just simply want to spend more time with you.
is it a sin?

hugging you

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Tue, 21 Sep 2010 15:24:00 +0000

i love hugging you from behind,
in the rain.

:)

nothing is going to change

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Wed, 15 Sep 2010 13:44:00 +0000

"If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh, so clearly
I might have been in love before,
But it never felt this strong.
You oughta know by now how much I love you.
One thing you can be sure of
I’ll never ask for more than your love.
The world may change my whole life through
but nothing’s gonna change my love for you.
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us like a guiding star
I’ll be there for you if you should need me
You don’t have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are."

George Benson - Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You

***
"Life and love I dwell upon, so beautiful and true;
to learn the meaning of forever,
and spending it with you."

hear ye, hear ye

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Wed, 15 Sep 2010 13:25:00 +0000

dear all my ~~loyal~~ blog readers,
if you dont like my posts' topic that have been so monotonous,
feel free to leave.
i'm just spilling out what's on my mind
according to my current condition and mood.
and this is my current condition:
head over heels in love.

:)

for.ever

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Wed, 15 Sep 2010 13:20:00 +0000

too naive?
nuh'uh.
♥

mouth

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Wed, 15 Sep 2010 12:30:00 +0000

oftentimes, i find that my mouth is very useless.

i rarely succeed in uttering what's on my mind.
i speak through my mind, with myself.
but what i'm feeling or how i'm feeling i cant speak it out.

whenever i talk to God,
hundreds of words conveyed to Him through this mind and heart.
but when i try to speak or spill out what's on my mind - with this mouth of mine,
it's barely worked out.
:(

Especially when i'm with you.
lots of things, feelings, words i want to tell you so bad,
but in the end it is all left unsaid.
i want you to know how i really feel, verbally.
however, i show my feelings to you through how i act.
how i caress your hair or cheek.
how i hug you tightly.
how i hold your hands and play with your fingers.
how i tuck you to sleep.
how i accompany you and just be at your side.
how i search for you whenever your with your friends.
how i wait for your class to finish just to see your face.
how i wanna make you smile.
how i cry whenever you're hurt.
how i look into your eyes and tell you silently, "I'm always here for you"

but at times, i understand that you're tired with my silence.
i want to change.
i need to change.
i have to change.

***

I. L. D

choices

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Wed, 15 Sep 2010 12:12:00 +0000

i've taken some choices.
i've chosen the choices.
i understand the risks.
i have to bravely work through it all.

:)

twitpic testing

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Tue, 14 Sep 2010 04:29:00 +0000

An assignment had just been done with Astro
In today's Communication Technology Development Class,
we tried to use twitpic

We had to interview one of the lecturers in our beloved university.
At first, we tried to find our own department's lecturers to be interviewed
but unfortunately, we got preceded by other students
so then, we decided to find the lecturer from our neighbor's department,
English Department.

We went to ILC's room and met Ma'am Flo.
We interviewed her for around 5 minutes.
and the bonus is, we had to speak in english.

From our interview, we found out that Ma'am Flo uses Nokia E63.
She's not the kind of person who follows trends.
That's why, she believes that Blackberry is no longer branded.
She agrees that Media Convergence brings simplicity to life,
especially in her work and social life.

She uses social networking, particularly Facebook,
to communicate with her friends and also her students,
it includes giving announcements, giving assignments, etc.
Sometimes, she uses her cellphone for updating her Facebook,
sending or receiving emails, and browsing.

Besides basic tools, like texting or calling,
she really utilizes the facilities in her cellphone.
She told us that her cellphone is really useful for her job as a lecturer.

After talking with her, we took her picture
and went back to media laboratory to upload her picture via twitpic.
We found some difficulties for sending the picture from Astro's email.
But a few minutes later, we succeeded!!!
We were so happy and relieved that the picture got uploaded in Astro's twitpic.
Here's the link.

:)

QR Code

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Tue, 07 Sep 2010 04:13:00 +0000

learning something new is always good.

today at communication technology development class
i learned about QR Code.

according to wikipedia,
QR code is a matrix barcode readable by QR scanners,
mobile phones with camera, and smartphones.

It consists of black modules arranged in a square pattern on white background.
The information encoded can be text, URL, or other data.
it looks like this:
Then,
Our lecturer told us to download and install the inigma code reader
to our mobile phones.
Luckily, my sweet not-so-smart Blackberry
installed the application in a few minutes only.

after installing the inigma application,
i was told to scan a QR barcode on Kompas newspaper.
That application scanned the barcode and went online.
The browser automatically opened Kompas' site
that contained the news which its barcode was the one i scanned before.

fun!

success social media story of Flickr

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Mon, 06 Sep 2010 14:31:00 +0000

flickr.
The one site that compiles aesthetics with online connection.
Flickr is a photo-sharing site, owned by Yahoo,
where users can share full-resolution images
with friends, family and the open Internet,
in a snazzy, graphically rich setting.

a screen shot of flickr's site

Caterina Fake knew she was onto something
when one of the engineers at her Vancouver, British Columbia-based online game
start-up created a cool tool to share photos and save them to a Web page while playing.

She and her programmer husband, Stewart Butterfield,
transformed the project into Flickr.
In less than two years, the photo-sharing site
— now owned by Internet giant Yahoo —
has turned into one of the Web's fastest-growing properties.

ahoo bought the company in March
for an undisclosed sum and moved the 11-person team
to Yahoo headquarters in Sunnyvale.

Since then, Flickr has been on a roll,

riding the wave of consumer fascination with digital cameras.

Shutterbugs are less likely to make many prints these days

but still want an outlet to show off their work.

How much?
The ad-supported version lets users upload 20 megabytes of photos a month free.
That's about 10 to 25 pictures, depending on the resolution.
For $24.95 a year, you get an ad-free version,
and can upload 2 gigabytes a month.

Flickr also offers Calendars, posters and DVDs of photos.
Plus, members can upload pictures and post them on their blogs.

In 2009,
Flickr announced a partnership with Getty Images
in which specially selected users could submit photographs
for stock photography usage and receive payment.
In 2010,
this was changed so that users could label images
as suitable for stock use themselves.

sources:
http://www.usatoday.com/tech/products/2006-02-27-flickr_x.htm
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flickr

tears

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Thu, 05 Aug 2010 02:56:00 +0000

Sometimes when I pray,
I selfishly ask God to dry out away all of my tears
so that i can always make you smile.
But somehow,
tears is the only way i know to response joy, pain, sorrow, cheerfulness, and longing.

i tear up each time i realize you're mine.
i tear up each time i realize you're angry at me.
i tear up each time i realize you're happy because of me.
i tear up each time i realize you're the one i need.
i tear up each time i realize we're far apart.
i tear up each time i realize you're not beside me.
i tear up each time i realize you're sad because of me.
i tear up each time i realize i disappoint you.
i tear up each time i realize how much miss you.
i tear up each time i realize i just cant stay away from you.
i tear up each time i realize our conversation is awkward.
i tear up each time i realize how stupid i am to disappoint you.
i tear up each time i realize that i'm relieved i have you.
i tear up each time i realize just how much you mean to me.
i tear up each time i realize just how much i love you.

if i could drain these tears away just to make you smile, i would do it right away.
God, wash away my tears, make it all go away..

I heard the teardrop hit my pillow before I even knew I was crying.
~Terri Guillemets

sunset

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Sat, 24 Jul 2010 00:02:00 +0000

it's july 23rd.
we watched the sun set together.
and just being together in the early evening.
♥

"I love you.
Not maybe, not tomorrow, not someday,
right now - at this very moment."
-TheLoveStories

25

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Sun, 27 Jun 2010 01:15:00 +0000

25 is my new favorite number
:p

this smile just won't fade away easily.
i trust you.
and i know you'll do the same.

hundreds of thank yous will never be enough
for so much that you've given.
but, thanks :)

♥♥

be true

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Sun, 27 Jun 2010 00:36:00 +0000

"You know that in the end, it's better to say much
than to never say what you need to say again.
Even if you're hands are shaking
and your faith is broken,
even if the eyes are closing,
do it with a heart wide open, a wide heart.
Say what you need to say, say what you need to say"

John Mayer - Say

^^

The truth is rarely pure and never simple~
Truth, in matters of religion, is simply the opinion that has survived~

i can be myself

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Wed, 23 Jun 2010 00:26:00 +0000

"i knew when we collided
you're the one i have decided.
who's one of my kind.
you see, i can be myself now finally.
in fact, there's nothing i can't be"

Train - Hey, Soul Sister

ecstatic

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Tue, 22 Jun 2010 12:42:00 +0000

it's june.
i believe in so much things i should not.

***

as june comes to an end, ecstatically, i remember the days we've gone through together.
yes, it was very short and brief.
but as time flies by, it gives so much meaning for me.

as i said earlier, i've noticed you a long time ago.
and when you noticed me, i sensed the sign that it was worth to try.

i was simply startled that
you were far beyond from what i thought you were.

you put so much concern for me.
for this silly, headstrong, and stubborn girl.
i thank you for that :)

and time does pass in a very strange way.
often i heard the question:
isn't it too soon?
how come it happened so fast?
are you sure with your decision?
why don't you consider it a little bit longer?

i know, i know.

my ignorance has nothing to do when i see things through different perspectives.
especially the questions about time.

sometimes, "time" is a wall we can't destroy all at once.
we can't escape from time even a bit.
in my opinion,
we need to experience rapid changes to see things clearly.
to feel the sensation of bitter-sweet events we may encounter.

and with the principle i hold,
it doesn't really matter
whether we meet eyes to eyes today and hold hands the next two days.
the thing that really matters is we grow together and
we can make the right choices for ourselves and
talk over the things, everything, we should or need to face.
if we trust each other, everything else will be alright in the end :)

sorry if i got too melancholy all of a sudden,
but i just need to get these words out of my head.
hehe.

besides, i express myself better through hundreds of words in writing, than oral talking :p

...continuing,
we went to my church today, and pray together.
i shouldn't say this, but one of my prayer to holy Mary is:
i wish for the days to come, to be just like today.
that i have nothing to worry,
that nothing can not be given a smile,
nothing to be afraid of.

^^

i'm a mere human being.
i am not perfect.
i'm sorry if i say sorry too much.
but sometimes it's hard to say bluntly the feeling inside,
that i ended up saying the word "sorry".

along with this hesitate feeling,
i want to laugh and being laughed at.
and say thank you.
for your extraordinary honesty.
for the moments we've shared
(and moments to come, lols)
for the time you're willing to spare
to fulfill my selfish requests.
and much more.
:)

sorry.
and
thank you.
hehe.

***

"Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I had for myself"
-A Walk To Remember-

ps: ugh. i wrote in such weird phases -_-"

proverb

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Tue, 15 Jun 2010 00:16:00 +0000

falling in

noreply@blogger.com (mELaa o.O~) — Mon, 14 Jun 2010 23:47:00 +0000

the feeling i get when you say my name,
is the feeling that never feels the same.
well, maybe i've walked too close to you.
and it didn't take me too long to figure out that now
i'm falling in.

thanks :)