Stuart Dallas

Spring in England

Stuart — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 07:13:17 +0000

There’s a crispness about this place this time of year. A freshness that carries with it the promise of a new beginning. The sky is a magical shade of blue, with a perfectly smooth gradient towards the horizon. The sparse picture-perfect fluffy clouds sit suspended as if supported by hoards of invisible angels. The sun beams [...]

Reflections

Stuart — Sat, 27 Feb 2010 12:22:08 +0000

The self begins as a blank slate; an unblemished entity with unlimited capacity for love, harmony, and self-expression. A blank slate that’s ready to explore it’s new environment with explosive passion and unmatched enthusiasm. Then the self meets the world, and the world has a different agenda. The world chisels a comfort zone around the blank slate [...]

Fucked up

Stuart — Wed, 27 Jan 2010 21:33:36 +0000

I’m far too fucked up at the moment to write anything meaningful. My head is full of different trains of thought, all vying for my focus and I’m completely failing to prioritise them effectively. I seem to be on an emotional roller coaster. Some days I’m up; some days I’m down. Some days I’m full of [...]

Mirrored

Stuart — Sat, 16 Jan 2010 20:28:03 +0000

Have you ever looked at yourself in a mirror? I mean really looked at yourself? Really, really looked at yourself? Looked deep into your own eyes? Deep enough to see your own soul? What did you see? Did you like it? Did you love it? Did you want to get away from it? Did you feel safe? What did you feel? Why? What does it mean? Do you [...]

Goals for 2010

Stuart — Fri, 15 Jan 2010 20:15:09 +0000

Yesterday was my birthday; I turned 33. Do I feel old? No, I do not. I feel reborn. I feel like a new person. I feel like this is a new beginning for me. I feel empowered. This year is going to be different. I’ve spent most of my life with my eyes closed, going where [...]

Christmas Day, part three

Stuart — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 09:00:07 +0000

This is part three of a three part series, start with Christmas Day, part one. Jamie was sat up in his bed staring at the door. He couldn’t believe it. He had spent the past twenty minutes crying into his pillow. His beloved Santa was gone. He didn’t believe it. He couldn’t believe it. They must be [...]

Christmas Day, part two

Stuart — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 09:00:06 +0000

This is part two of a three part series, start with Christmas Day, part one. Carol quietly closed the door behind her and took a deep breath. She was wondering whether she’d done the right thing; he seemed really disappointed and she didn’t like doing that to him. She walked as quietly as she could back [...]

Christmas Day, part one

Stuart — Fri, 25 Dec 2009 09:00:00 +0000

Jamie was sat up in his bed staring at the door. He couldn’t believe it. It was 4am on Christmas morning and he’d been woken up by the sounds of someone opening his door. He had opened his eyes only to catch a glimpse of his Mum leaving his stocking at the end of his bed. His [...]

Not mine

Stuart — Sun, 06 Dec 2009 10:18:28 +0000

Words on a page Seem so strange. I only wrote them yesterday They do not feel like mine today.

And then it was gone

Stuart — Sun, 06 Dec 2009 01:48:33 +0000

Staring at a blank page The words just fail to come Emptiness stares right back at me Expectantly. The truth seemed so clear When I sat down to write But I can’t find the words Frustratingly. How does clarity turn cloudy So quickly and so often True meaning lost in transcription Disappointingly. Thoughts to words Mind to paper Essence to vapour Regrettably. The clarity remembered The message lost Everything becomes less clear Painfully.

Who are you?

Stuart — Sun, 29 Nov 2009 17:14:52 +0000

What’s your answer? If you’ve got an answer then keep that in mind but strip away everything in your life that’s not guaranteed beyond being alive. No job, no friends, no family, no home, no clothes, nothing left but your body and soul. Did you just take away your answer? If you did then it’s not [...]

Identity

Stuart — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 12:17:36 +0000

He lay in his bed staring at the light fitting on the ceiling; his mind wandered aimlessly. What a week. He let out a long deep sigh. He looked out of the window. The sky was a wispy blue and the sun was shining. It was going to be a lovely day of typical autumn weather [...]

click

Stuart — Thu, 05 Nov 2009 20:01:07 +0000

I was watching Neighbours on the gantry with the guys. You climbed up the ladder; there were no spare chairs. You sat on my lap. *click* You stood on the stage and started to sing. All I could hear was an angel. *click* After the final performance of some great acting and singing where the technical involvement had been [...]

My new plan

Stuart — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 16:22:41 +0000

Three months ago I quit my job, but I’m still here. Here’s why… When I started at my current job I was really excited. It was my second startup in a row and I was addicted to that style of working. The fast-paced, fluid environment with ever-changing requirements and the blank sheet of paper feel appeal [...]

Say no to drugs

Stuart — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 07:40:42 +0000

Please note that in this post I am not suggesting anyone should stop taking any drugs their doctor has prescribed, I’m just telling my story and what’s worked for me. It might be dangerous for you to do the same so please consult your doctor before doing anything stupid. When I moved house recently I got [...]

I miss you

Stuart — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 11:14:45 +0000

I miss the way you’d always be excited to see me. I miss the way you knew me better than I knew myself. I miss the way you knew what I needed and what I wanted. I miss the way you always knew the difference. I miss the way you smile; I miss the way you pout. I miss the [...]

Supersize sir?

Stuart — Fri, 23 Oct 2009 23:52:43 +0000

Ok, let’s not dance around the point… I’m a fat bloke. I’ve been saying yes to the above question, both out loud and in my head, for the best part of twenty years. I’ve been overweight for as long as I can remember, but I’ve seen pictures that prove it wasn’t always the case. I’ve spent [...]

Attitude

Stuart — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 15:49:53 +0000

Everything in life comes down to attitude. Live the right attitude and life will be better. The wrong attitude can be fatal. I’ve lived my life in fear of so many things that I ended up living in a hole too afraid to come out. Over the years I’ve had opportunities to spend over a year [...]