{dress & tank from target, leggings H&M}

How far along? 20w2d

Maternity clothes? Yes! The babies’ belly is now too round for non-maternity tops. & I’m loving that I now comfortably fit in maternity leggings {best things ever created}.

Weight Gain? I haven’t weighted myself in a week or so. Probably up a little more than 20 pounds. Should know for sure after tomorrow’s appointment.

Stretch Marks? none yet.

Sleep? Ok. Still have a little trouble falling back asleep after the 5 am pee. But getting better at relaxing my mind & not worrying about squashing baby A.

Movement? This weekend was so busy {lots of posts to come on it!} that I didn’t stop moving enough to really feel them, but baby C’s been saying hello with little kicks & turns while I’m at my desk today.

Genders? A is a boy & C is a girl.

What I Miss? Baby B always. I’ve also kinda missed being able to wear heels this past week. I’ve loved living in flat boots & shoes but I do miss fun, funky heels.

Food cravings? I’ve been loving cupcakes this past week or so. After a couple of Gigi’s splurges, I went cheap & bought store mades ones. Not nearly as good. Luckily for me, I was able to bring home all the leftover cupcakes from Sunday’s shower!

Food aversion? Still don’t love the Mexican restaurant idea but it’s not as gross sounding as before.

Labor signs? No, thankfully.

Belly button in or out? Still an innie.

What I’m Looking Forward to? Getting the nursery put together. More babies showers in the coming weeks. Seeing the babies on the ultrasound tomorrow.

Weekly Wisdom? If others want to spoil your babies, let them! I just keep humbly saying “thank you”!

Milestones? Most definitely more than halfway through this up & down pregnancy. According to the Baby Center app, the babes are starting to make their first poop, are about 10 inches from head to feet, & around 10.5 ounces.

Next thing I know, it’s a week later & I’m staying up until 2a {like I was a teenager!} because I just HAD to know what happened at the end.

Set in Minnesota, Brazil & an unknown Amazon rain forest location, it’s a medical research based novel focusing on two researchers, a doctor & their boss. While the premise might sound strange, give it a chance. While there’s not a ton of in-depth character development, it’s very action packed. The locations & situations in the book were so foreign to me that it kept me on the edge of my seat. As someone who’s dealt with infertility, that research aspect really interested me.

State of Wonder brings up a lot of medical discussion questions that were great for book club conversation: how old is too old to have children? What would you do ~ how far would you go for medical science? When does consent come into play with human subjects? How much Western “help” should you provide to an indigenous culture just because you’re there & you can? Would you eat random mushrooms? Let people steal your clothes? Can you handle bugs?

We also talked about what we thought was the craziest or scariest or most painful part of State of Wonder. Without giving much away, there were a lot. We talked shoes, bugs, children, man-eating tribes, snakes.

If you’ve read State of Wonder, I’d love to hear your thoughts. If you haven’t & are into pushing yourself a little with your next book, I’d recommend it. I also think it’d make for a great movie. & if you hear there’s going to be a sequel, let me know.

I put in 1-50 in random.org & the winner was…

# 39!

Congratulations to Kristin for your comment {it was actually your first one that did it}!

Kristin, check your email & I will put you in touch with Kelly Wels for your FuzziBunz cloth diaper.

Thanks again to Kelly Wels for sending me Changing Diapers which has helped encourage me & my family into cloth diapering multiples & thanks too for sponsoring this cloth diaper giveaway.

Friends, I’m hoping as I get more into cloth diapers & other baby products, that I’ll have more baby product reviews & giveaway heading your way!

Maternity clothes? yes. I had a few more given to me this week & a bought a few new {on sale} Target long sleeve tops.

Weight Gain? I weighed myself after a big dinner with friends Thursday night & I’m up 20 lbs from pre-pregnancy.

Stretch Marks? none yet.

Sleep? Ok. Wed-Fri mornings I woke up around 430 to pee & had a lot of trouble stopping my mind from racing in order to go back to sleep. Saturday night was tough for sleep too. Now that I know baby A is all along my right side, I stress that I’m squishing him sleeping on that side even though my brain knows it & he are okay.

Movement? I’m feeling both A & C pretty regularly now that I know where they are.

Genders? A is a boy & C is a girl.

What I Miss? Baby B. Feeling A & C is so reassuring yet makes it that more obvious that there’s nothing to be felt on the lower right side.

Food cravings? We bought strawberries at the store Tuesday evening. I’ve been topping strawberry ice cream with the strawberries at night & it’s been awesome.

Food aversion? Still not gone to a Mexican restaurant, but I enjoyed another trip to Moe’s last week & had queso & chips with friends Friday for lunch.

Labor signs? No, thankfully.

Belly button in or out? Still an innie.

What I’m Looking Forward to? Husband’s mom & sister, my parents & my grandparents are coming in town this weekend for a shower. I’m really looking forward to everyone being together celebrating the babies.

Weekly Wisdom? Try everything you can to get sleep. I’m pretty sure my lack of sleep has led to an annoying little head cold.

Milestones? Baby Center says the babies are having a sensory explosion this week. So I’m going to try to let them hear our voices a lot this week. The app also says the babies will be 8 oz & 6 inches long ~ the appointment told us though that A was already 9 oz & B was over 8 oz last Tuesday.

We still sold my small SUV this week in planning to get a bigger SUV to handle our expanding family. I’m still thankful & loving the hand-me-downs from friends. I’m still looking forward to celebrating the babies at our first shower next weekend.

My parents had the third crib still in a box at their house {we’d picked it up from a Walmart up there & didn’t have room to carry it home}. With a copy of the receipt, Mom will be taking that back next week. The crib set she’d bought for us as the third, she was going to take back as well but then we decided she could set it up in a crib she had already put in our at home bedroom for our visits.

We haven’t started setting up the nursery yet, but it’ll still be green & neutral & owl-filled. I now think we’ll now have room for a bigger glider/rocker & maybe a book case.

We now have an extra car seat & extra bases, but with two, our parents’ & my grandparents’ cars will be able to fit them when visiting. I’ve updated our Target & Buy Buy Baby registries switching all 3′s of items of 2′s of items. But as I was saying on twitter last night, I’ m still attached to & registered for too many of a few things like hooded towels & baby crib sheets {but they’re so cute!}.

My doctor told us Tuesday that our new delivery goal is 36+ weeks & that I’d be able to continue working for longer if not the whole time. He said he’d induce me if I’m still pregnant at 38 weeks. My MFM even said vaginal delivery could be an option if they’re in the right positions. I asked if I needed to change anything from what I’m currently doing & he said no.

I’m still planning to attend my first local mom’s of twins & triplets meeting on Thursday night. I’m looking forward to meeting local multiples mommas, but I’m not sure what to call myself now.

I’m still sad. I’m not over the loss of baby B & that “triplets” won’t be what the outside world will think when they see my future outside babies. I can’t use the word “twins” yet but am realizing that’s what family are already starting to do. I didn’t correct my aunt & the Target lady yesterday when “I’m having two babies” became “Twins! That’s awesome”. I won’t correct everyone, but yesterday I was fighting back inside my head yelling “no, it should be triplets”.

But I’m staying busy, focusing on the positives & babies A & C. And 99% of the time {nights & early mornings are a lil tough}, I’m doing great.

The shock we were feeling after hearing about baby B meant I was almost too out of it for the scans of babies A & C. Almost. But they’re so cute & getting so big that I couldn’t help but be happy to see them. In short, babies A & C are doing great. Baby A is head down, legs up vertically along the right side of my tummy. Baby A’s feet are right next to Baby C’s head. Baby C is horizontal above my belly button & right under my ribs. They measure right on schedule & all body parts are there & accounted for.

Speaking of body parts, my MFM’s suspected guess from our 15 week ultrasound was correct. Baby A is a BOY! & the now not-so-elusive baby C is a GIRL! I cried when I heard; I was so happy to have a healthy one of each.

Now that I know where A & C are located, I’ve realized I’m feeling them all the time. What I had *thought* were baby movements for the last few weeks are baby A punches! Baby C is actually moving around kicking me as I type this right now. My MFM offered for us to come back in later this week or next week for another ultrasound to hear & see the babies for reassurance. But these punches & kicks are fabulous & just what I need.

Our MFM/ultrasound tech I guess didn’t see absolutely everything for babies A & C, so they want to have us do another high resolution scan. He said it’s very normal for multiples & I think they knew we wanted to run away. We are just going to keep the appointment we already had scheduled at that location for two weeks from Tuesday {Valentine’s Day}. I’m looking forward to seeing A & C again soon. {by the way, we’re working on names now & I’ll reveal when we know for sure.}

At our 18 week high resolution scan yesterday, the ultrasound tech first spotted babies A & B. She went initially to baby B, searched for a second, said the words that I can’t forget “I can’t seem to find a heartbeat”. Silly, naive me thought, look harder, baby B can be shy! She measured baby A’s head then went back to baby B & measured it’s head too. Then she told us while baby A’s measured over 18 weeks, baby B stopped growing around 15 weeks 4 days. She tried finding any blood flow in or out & there was none.

She moved on to the scans of babies A & C; I was too in shock & too scared to say anything but Jason asked the question I was afraid to: what was going on with baby B?! She said something along the lines of it didn’t make it. I asked & she told us that baby B had been a girl.

She left the room {so I could change for her to check my cervix} & I just clung to husband & sobbed. She came back & then the doctor came in & he too seemed a bit in shock but was so awesome that I like him even more than before. To answer the question everyone seems to have, baby B’s small body is still there & will remain for the rest of this pregnancy.

So that’s the short of it. Our triplets are no longer triplets & I’m sad & for one of the first times ever, I’m kinda speechless.

I do want to thank my twitter friends for all their support yesterday {& today & everyday really}. It was amazing & so sweet to find 150+ replies after I tweeted about the loss of baby B. Y’all, love from family & friends, & the strength of prayer as well as babies A & C are helping us cope with this new turn of events.

Tomorrow, I’ll bring a treat {actually two!} back to Suz’s Treats & share photos & the sexes of our babies.

Yes, you read that right. No disposables {or very few} in our house. Cloth Diapers. But not your grandma’s cloth diapers. Modern cloth diapers are cute & fun & create the most precious fluffy baby butts!

I made my cloth diaper decision over a year ago entering & winning a few cloth diapers on blog giveaways, but Jason wasn’t really on board. Then I went to San Diego, met a lot more cloth diapering ladies & came home with a bunch more cloth diapers {thanks to the Haute Green party}. It was also at the Haute Green party that I met Kelly Wels & heard more about her website & her new book. Her marketing team sent me a copy of Changing Diapers shortly after I found out I was pregnant, but it’s taken me a little while {hello triplets!} to post.Changing Diapers breaks down the cloth diaper basics for those totally new to CDing but still has enough great information for those already using cloth. It even has a cloth diapering multiples section which helped {along with the $$$ factor} win Jason over into using cloth for our babes. I love the break down in the middle over every kind of cloth diaper & the most popular brands. Kelly includes beautiful photos & while she discusses brands & quotes real-life cloth diaper users, she doesn’t push one brand over another. Changing Diapers even has a blank chart in the back so you can keep track of the types, brands, sizes of cloth diapers you own.

A few of my favorite pages: the multiples chapter, diaper covers, prefolds & snappis.

In case you’re wondering, our plan is to use cloth from the beginning {well as soon as they’re home from the hospital}. My triplet momma guru Jenny has graciously handed me down their newborn & size one prefolds. I’m working my way to building up my stash of diaper covers & snappis. Since prefolds appear a little more tricky, I’m excited to have ten or so AIOs {all in ones} & pocket diapers that are more grandparent-friendly as they look very similar to disposables {I’ve overheard my mom & aunt telling family how cute those are!}.

Kelly is happy to share her love of cloth diapers to everyone in Changing Diapers. You can learn more about Kelly & cloth diapering on her website as well as pick up a copy of Changing Diapers for yourself or one of your pregnant friends.

And since we’re in the mood for giving, start your own cloth diaper stash {or feed your cloth diaper addiction!} by entering below to win a Fuzzibunz one size diaper.

Leave a comment tell me your first thought when you hear “cloth diaper”.

For a second entry, follow Kelly & I on twitter & tweet “Enter to win a Fuzzibunz #clothdiaper #giveaway from @KellyWels & @suzstreats at http://suzstreats.com/changing-diapers”. {edited to add: ok to tweet once a day. Please make an additional comment linking to your tweet.}

Good luck! I will close the giveaway & draw a winner using random.org next Tuesday February 7th at 11a EST. Can’t wait to hear what are your impressions of cloth diapers!

I was provided a copy of Changing Diapers free of charge for my honest opinion. I am an affiliate of Changing Diapers, but I was not compensated in any other way.

How far along? 18w1d

Maternity clothes? Absolutely. This week I’ve been venturing into almost all maternity tops too although I did wear a super long regular top with a normal cardigan {unbuttoned} one day this week.

Weight Gain? not sure but I’ll probably find out at the next appointment.

Stretch Marks? none yet.

Sleep? Getting more used to sleeping on my side surrounded by pillows.

Movement? I *think* I felt tiny punches from two different babies in one day while sitting at my desk at work. Haven’t really felt that much in the last few days.

Genders? Still thinking boys/girls mixture but we’ll see for sure Tuesday.

What I Miss? The ease of just grabbing an outfit from a full closet. My choices are more limited but I know I still have enough to get me through. I did break down & buy 2 more full panel pants {they’re way more comfy for the triplet belly than the low panel ones} & a new top last Sunday at Target. All three were on sale at least 50% off though & I had gift cards.

Food cravings? Still the usual~ pizza, pasta, ice cream. I mentioned my daily food favorites Friday.

Food aversion? Y’all! I ate Moe’s Monday night! My first Mexican{ish} food in months. The Joey Jr was amazing. I haven’t jumped into any more Mexican adventures but very pleased that maybe my Mexican food aversion is over?!

Labor signs? No, thankfully.

Belly button in or out? Still an innie.

What I’m Looking Forward to? Our BIG ultrasound appointment in just two days! Can’t wait to see the trips again in high resolution & find out boys/girls. I’m also looking forward to celebrating the babies in the next couple of weeks with family & friends at showers.

Weekly Wisdom? Don’t leave your only pair of maternity pjs in your bed under the covers. Your sleepy kitty might somehow bury under the comforter, cuddle in between your pillows & decide to have a snack {a silver dollar sized hole in the side of your pants}. Thank goodness for Old Navy coupons, sales, & cash back.

Milestones? Eighteen weeks means I’m more than halfway done with my pregnancy. That’s kinda bittersweet because I really love being pregnant. I also know that while it’s been pretty smooth sailing so far, things will be getting bigger, crazier, scarier from here.

The trips have grown into the size of bell peppers for week 18 ~ 5.5 in long & 7oz. The baby center app says the baby{s} are moving & I’ll be really feeling them more soon. It also says blood vessels are visible through their thin skin & the ears have moved to the final position.

Perfect Sprinkle Decorations

I ended up being the lucky winner of the guess ‘how many jelly beans in the bottle’ game after I super over-guessed & they let me vote again~ exactly 217 jellys! Those Gigis cupcakes were amazing as was the delicious food Laura & Ashley made! Thankfully Laura pinned the punch & buffalo chicken recipes~ I can’t wait to try those on my own.

Suz {at 17 weeks} & Marie {at 33.5 weeks}

So happy for my friend Marie ~ can’t wait to find out if baby J 2.0 a boy or girl in just a few weeks!