To say that I am honoured to be able to share this family’s journey with you guys is an understatement. I have been there since day 1 of their family beginning.  When big brother Teddy was born, I was able to photograph his mummy’s maternity images, his birth and his newborn session. 2 weeks ago, I got to capture his little brother Sebastian entering the world and last week, his newborn photos too. So far, I have been there to capture one pregnancy, two birth stories, and two beautiful newborn sessions for this family.  What a blessing!

Here are some shots of his big brother and his mummy a bit over 2 years ago when we first met.  I even entered one into the Qld Professional Photography Awards:

And now, I am so so grateful that I have been permitted to share the next part of their journey with you. The gifts that I get to give my clients and the memories that I capture for them is something that has given me so much joy over the past 17 years as a photographer. I may struggle a bit to make ends meet at times, and things can be tough, but honestly, being able to do this for people and to be trusted to share such intimate moments is something that money just can’t buy. I was so blessed the day I picked up a camera. I hope that I never have to put it down.

And most of the time, I get to see them a week or so later for gorgeous cuddles and reminiscing about the birth during their newborn portrait session too!  Here are the highlights from little Sebastians session, 11 days after I met him at his birth.

tan.x.

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Upon stumbling across all of this stuff this week, I realised that actually, I’ve been doing personal brand photography over the years for many of my clients.  My own brand is all about being personal – duh, it’s my name, yo!   But also, since kicking off Tanya Love Creative, this aspect has grown for me.  My journey through this year has emphasised this even more, and I will write more about it when I launch my Tanya Love Creative website (I just have to finish building the thing first, you know, like if there was another 10 hours in each day).

My businesses were all established during the “appear bigger than you are” era.  Over the years, I have marketed in that direction, on and off, however, I have always struggled when doing this, and so have my businesses.  2 years ago, when I began working with my then partner (which went totally pear-shaped – read: never, EVER work with somebody you lovely deeply), and chose to pretty much abandon my own brand to work on our joint brand, Pixelove, I was effectively abandoning who I was.

I struggled so much over those years both on a personal and business level.  I wanted more than anything to make it work.  I had this romantic vision of us becoming an industry “power couple”, and I had so so much respect for him and his approach that I took on everything he suggested.  I became known to our clients as “Tanya from Pixelove”,  where I used to be “oh, that’s Tan, our family’s photographer”.

I wasn’t being authentic.  Not one bit.  The dynamic in our studio was tense most of the time.  I felt like a fish out of water.  I adored our environment and the changes we made to it.  We were working in a high end facility with everything I had ever dreamed of in terms of a studio, at my fingertips.  Two big cycloramas, lots of different scenes and backdrops, a custom build bedroom setting, an awesome makeup and change room area.  It was so cool.  But I wasn’t.  I was chasing “leads” to convert clients, which I had never had to do before.  I was “selling”.  Even worse, I was UP selling.  *shudders*.  I was shooting glamour, and making people feel great, which I did love, but our company needed a huge volume of client turnover, and a huge volume of sales for us to be successful. This meant sacrificing the very personal connection and touches that I had always been known for and were what I loved so much about my career. It was killing me.

I was also learning at an astronomical rate.  It was the biggest and fastest learning curve I have ever been on.  In that 2 years, thanks to my then partner being such a great teacher,  I mastered lighting and shooting techniques that I had never even thought of.  I learned to run marketing and lead generation campaigns that were highly successful in bringing in the kinds of numbers that we needed.  The styling techniques that I had learned over the years and become comfortable with were turned on their head.  I learned to never judge a book by its cover, and I learned to SELL, and I mean SELL.  I rock sales.  And I freaking hate it.

Selling is not me.  Glamour is not me.  Cold calling, lead generation.  Nope, sooooo not me.  I felt constant anxiety doing that stuff, and I felt guilty that I was so good at it after such a short time.  I felt like I was lying to people and deceiving them.  Of course, I wasn’t, but just for the fact that I wasn’t being true to myself, I developed anxiety that left me feeling this way.  My anxiety grew to a point where I could barely pick up the phone and so our bookings dwindled and our business started to die.  I have a very dear friend who was struggling with the same thing at the very same time.  We had both adopted business plans that simply were not “us”.  And we both failed.  We hung on for way too long, never wanting to give up, because so many in the industry were (apparently) succeeding with this business model and we’d been told that “this was the way to do it”. In reality though, we were just digging ourselves further into the ground.

In addition to this, there was also a crapload of extremely intense personal stuff going on in the background that was resulting in my partner and I being barely able to function too.  Here we had two of the most highly effective, driven and skilled people in the industry, who upon meeting, thought we could conquer the world with our combined talents.  And in a perfect world, we could have.  But, in actuality, our deep hopes of success were destroying each other and our families, both in a business sense and on a personal and emotional level.  We knew we were flailing, but we hung on to Pixelove for way too long.  We had stars in our eyes, and we wanted it to succeed SO much.  But there’s no way it ever would have.  Because neither of us were being true to ourselves, not one bit.  Throw a broken heart or two into the mix, and well, you can imagine the result there.

Finally, we went our separate ways, and I have spent the last 6 months trying to breathe life back into Tanya Love Portrait.  I have been so very blessed that there have been a number of long term clients who have encouraged and supported me through it all.  They followed me from the early days of Love Bytes, through to Tanya Love Photography, over to Pixelove, and now back to Tanya Love Portrait.   Without these guys, I would have been so so lost.  I am not sure why, but they seemed to have some faith in me where even I didn’t.  They kept reminding me of my older more creative work, of my storytelling birth photography, and of who the real “tan” is.

I realised that I am just one of those people who has to live their truth.  I simply cannot live behind a facade.  Whether it be through my business endeavours or through my personal life, I have to be myself, warts and all.  I truly am a perfect example of why a personal brand works.  I simply CANNOT appear to be someone I am not.  It just doesn’t work for me.  At all.

Of course, I can’t claim that  “my” brand has always been  purely mine here – over the years I had 2 husbands who supported me and allowed me the freedom to pursue my work with a large family to care for.  And now, I have my eldest son, and his partner, and even my youngest kids working behind the scenes.  Everybody contributes in some way – whether they are being models for a product shoot, or they are writing web code, staying at home with the younger kids as I go to shoots or meetings, or they are sticking crystals onto thank you cards on our kitchen bench- my kids all contribute in different ways to make our businesses a truly family affair.  Overall though, it is truly “us”.

HERE IS A VIDEO OF US  just before Christmas, with our little production line, all contributing to the special parcels that I sent out to my most supportive and loyal clients.  And this is some pics as we were working:

So, when it comes to personal brand photography, I guess it is only natural that would be another element I would enjoy.  Now that I have rediscovered my need to be authentic in all that I do, and with the growing rise of personal branding through-out all industries, it is a really natural thing, really.  It is simply about showing the world who you are, what you love, and how they can connect with you on a true, authentic level. 

I have really prattled on in this post, as any one who knows me will testify that is a true Tan trait that I am known for.  One minute we are capturing some gorgeous family photos, and 6 hours later I am sitting at your dinner table talking Mine Craft with your kids.   But, I HAVE to be me.  I spent the last 2 years tortured, struggling, and sometimes wondering if it was worth waking up ever again, purely because I wasn’t being me.  I was trying to be something that I thought would be successful.  Something that I pinned way too many hopes on, and something that damn near destroyed me and my family as a result.

I am going to spend at least another year, trying to recover financially and maybe even longer, on an emotional level, but I am finding so much more peace with every passing day.  My confidence in my abilities is returning.  I no longer feel like I am being deceptive or manipulative by trying to “convert leads” into clients.  I am confident that the people who “get” me, will continue in the journey, and that by being true to myself and the way I run my  business, it will continue to grow, and share light with the world.  I have even established Tanya Love Creative on this basis – helping other businesses to become truly heart-centred and to follow their “why”.

Here are some shots I have done in the past for clients – personal brand photography – where I was able to use my connection with them and their brand to tell their stories to the world.  Many of these images are still being used over and over, and all of which I realise now are exactly what I should have been doing all along. tan.x

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So let’s all just pretend that my poor little bloggity blog hasn’t actually been completely neglected for the past six months and we can move on from there. As you were.

Almost 2 years ago, I was so very blessed to be a part of a beautiful Earthside Collective gift session with Jess and Joe. Theirs was a bittersweet story that no parent should ever have to endure, as their excitement of welcoming twin babies, a sweet boy and a beautiful little girl, became sadness. Jess and Joe learned during labour, that their little boy, Harrison would be born still. His twin sister Amelie would be delivered safely into the waiting arms of her mummy and daddy.

I was approached about doing a gift session for them, and put on my thinking cap to come up with something that was both unique and personal, but would also become a family keepsake in honour of the twins. It wasn’t long before I thought of a concept that I refer to as “Pigeon Pair”.

You can read all about it, and see how the shoot came together over on the Earthside Collective blog right here: https://www.earthsidecollective.com.au/gift-session-pigeon-pair-celebrating-harrison-amelie/

Additionally, this Youtube video tells the story too:

You can imagine my surprise and elation when, mid-2016, I received a message from Jess, telling me that they were expecting another little boy!  They immediately booked me in to shoot their newborn photos and  I could not have been more excited!

And so, we booked it in, and got to work planning their shoot!

A lot of things had changed for me since our first time together.  For one, I am shooting in a nice big studio for my new company Pixelove.  The studio space gives me so much more flexibiltiy than I had previously in my very small home garage studio and lots of alternative lighting and backdrop scenarios to play with.  Even with this though, I decided to replicate the original shot that I did for Jess and Joe, and so had to try to reproduce the same lighting setup as I had in my previous small, available light filled home studio.

Again we had the beautiful Lorraine (Fairy Raine from Fairy Lane) on hand to create the perfect body art to transform Jess into our beautiful mumma bird!  And the results speak for themselves!

For some reason, I had kept everything we had used in the original shoot and we were able to reuse it all again!  Even the amazing adult sized nest that was created by David Lam (David Lam Designs) was brought back out from storage!  It was as though we had a “dream team” back together again, but with the addition of Hemi, my Pixelove business partner.

And so, here are some behind the scenes shots from little Arlo’s most very special day….

Such beautiful detail!

(and I get to have baby cuddling duties as Lorraine works her magic on Jess!)…

  Little photobomb there by me and Arlo.

And now for the final result!!

Here is the original image in all it’s glory:

And 2 years later, with the arrival of Arlo, this is what we created:

Aren’t they just the most beautiful family ever?!

Would love to hear your thoughts about this project guys!  And please leave some well wishes for Jess, Joe and their beautiful babies!

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I was so excited and quickly invited a small number of families to enjoy them with me through my lens.

This year, I am repeating the offer! I was so excited to visit my little spot the other day to discover that it is almost ready! Yes, it’s that time of year again!

And so, as of now, I am able to offer a small number of session times to those who wish to experience autumn fun and create some gorgeous images, right here in Brisbane…

Your $69 session fee includes:

• one hour photo session at Brisbane Northside location amidst a richly coloured autumn backdrop.
• photo viewing on a separate day at our Carseldine office to view and select your collection of images.
• one gorgeous medium 16×20 inch fine art print of your choice, ready to frame.
• the opportunity to purchase additional images from discounted packages exclusively offered for 2016 autumn leaf session clients.

To book, simply pop on over to the 2016 Autumn Leaf Session page.

And if you are looking for inspiration, here are a few samples from last years sessions…

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The entire shoot was actually a collaboration with the guys over at PXMX Productions and this lucky family were the recipients not only of the images that I created for them, but also a beautiful video to help them share their story and raise awareness for Bowel Cancer Australia.

I am so excited to be able to share this video with you now. The PXMX guys have done such an amazing job putting it all together and I think it will be something that the Lisa and Alan’s family will cherish for many years to come.

Here it is, aptly named “Outlook” for the bright new perspective that Lisa and Alan have for life and their family…

And as with all of my fine art commissions, I captured candid portraits of the family to showcase their connection as a family.  Here are a few from Lisa and Alan’s family…

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More and more, with every client I meet, I seem to be presented with remarkable stories that need to be told. I no longer seem to have “average” connections with my clients, and I just adore this. Lisa and Alan are a perfect example. Lisa contacted me saying that they were going to drive all the way from Roma just for a family portrait session with me. A 5 and a half hour drive just for me?! Needless to say, I thought I’d better bring my A-game with this one and create something wonderful for them!

Like many of my concepts, this one had been in my head for a long time. Well over a year in fact. I thought about it regularly, and knew that I was just waiting for the right family to bring it to life.

Aside from our direct communications, probably the most crucial part of developing a shoot for my clients, is my questionnaire. I have formulated a very specific, and sometimes confronting set of questions that I have each client answer for me, in a bid to get to know their family at an intimate level. In the images that I create, the stories are real and develop through a very organic process as I learn about my clients.

Every completed questionnaire that I receive is unique, not just in the answers themselves but even in the way the answers are written. It really helps me to “see” my clients, their family dynamic and more. There is always one thing in every questionnaire that jumps out at me – like a lightbulb moment where I read it and think “oh, I know exactly what to do for these guys”. Lisa and Alan were no different and when the moment hit, I knew that they were the family I had been waiting for to bring this concept to life.

There was this:
“We are so proud of Allan and so lucky to have him. He is a bowel cancer survivor (we spent last year doing the cancer thing) and apart from that he is the sunshine in my life. Al says it makes him smile to see me (Lisa) enjoying life.”

And this:
“Christian is just SO CUTE and cuddly and chatty that you can’t help but smile. He was a very unexpected miracle- we found out about him the same day we got Al’s cancer diagnosis and were lucky to hang on to him. We had many trips to fetal medicine specialists for him, and there were all sorts of dire fears for him, so now we look at him- huge, happy and healthy- and feel pretty dang blessed.”

And this:
“We are ‘that family’ that watch the sun set every chance we get, and the sun rise when we are crazy enough.”

As the time for our session drew near, I telephoned Lisa for some more details and clarity. I was just totally swept up in our conversation and the love that burst forth from every word she said to me. This lady ADORES her husband. This is a family that just oozes love from every pore of their being. I had to show this in their images – that was my top priority. I learned too, that whilst the bowel cancer struggle they had endured this past 18 months had taken it’s toll on them, this family was stoic and embraced life with both hands and humor and joy.

Some additional facts that will explain our concept to you further:
Lisa – Mum – a teacher with a passion for teaching children to read.
Alan – Dad – an engineer who loves sport.
Alexander – 5 yo – serious and introverted. Loves to read and tell stories.
Gracie – 3yo – lots of fun with an exuberant and affectionate personality. Completely cheeky and loves to give her big brother cuddles.
Christian – 8 months – a BIG boy at 13kg and with the nickname “Fat Baby” – adores his mummy and is the cuddliest little man you will ever meet. Lisa and Alan discovered that they were expecting Christian on the very same day that they received Alan’s bowel cancer diagnosis. A lot to take in for one family.

So, my concept was simple – a family dressed in newspaper, in a newspaper boat to show the link to Lisa’s passion for reading – plus it would help to appease my need to be creative. The parents would be watching on as the kids paddled their boat out to see off to find adventure. Alexander would be looking out through a spy glass, quietly taking in the scene before them, and Grace would be excited and giggling at what lay ahead.

One evening, I was excitedly chatting to Hemi, from PXMX Productions about my concept. I am like a kid at Christmas when I am developing these shoots – my friend Sara says I am like a nutty professor as the chaos in my head spills over. I bounce around like a puppy with nervous energy and anticipation. Apparently, my excitement is contagious.

Hemi decided that he wanted to be involved and so together, we developed the concept even further. We decided that the family needed to be looking out toward a brighter future, with a dark stormy sky behind them. Rays of light would be reaching down to them to signify their Christian beliefs that have helped them through such a difficult time. Baby Christian needed to be with Mummy and Daddy – as he has managed to beat the odds too. There would be a message in a bottle in the foreground – their message of hope. Gracie would be “driving” with her positivity and cheekiness creating an uplifting feel to the final image. Introvert Alexander would be looking ahead through a spy glass, in his own quiet, observant way.

Hemi also went a step further, and offered for the team at PXMX Productions to create an amazing video to document the family’s story and their experience during our time together. This really got the creative juices flowing for me and increased my usual excitement even more. I have wanted for so long to collaborate with other creatives and just knew the result would be amazing. And it was!

My original vision was to have a boat that looked exactly as though it had been folded from newspaper in origami style. It soon became apparent that it wouldn’t work though, and I had to let it evolve into something a bit different. So just how do you make a newspaper boat anyways? It took a bit of working out, but after some brainstorming with Hemi, many hours, 35 newspapers and 7 rolls of sticky tape, and clear contact, I managed to pull it together…
By 4am on shoot day, I had finally finished covering everything in newspaper…

I had hoped for an overcast day to help me achieve the atmospheric feel that I wanted for the session. Mother nature kindly obliged. We even had storm clouds, alleviating the need for me to composite them in. Here, you see my big girl Molly-Rose helping me with initial lighting tests…
Despite the perfect lighting conditions, we did have to work with a bit of wind and rain, which wasn’t ideal, and made for some wardrobe adjustments along the way…

We decided it would be fun to warn passers by just what was going on on this very public beach in Caloundra. Thanks so much to Molly-Rose for snapping these for us. That’s me on the left, working with the family, and the PXMX Production team on the right looking on.

It was great to work with Hemi and Laszlo, and to see the story come to life…
We are so excited to share the final two images that I created for Lisa and Alan.

Firstly, we have the entire family, just as I saw the image in my own imagination many months ago…

And finally, we have Gracie and Alexander, as they head towards a bright future and many adventures to come…
And for Part II, which showcases the beautiful video that PXMX Productions have created as well as the candid family portraits we captured during our time together, head over to the second post that is right here.

We hope that what we have created will be enjoyed by Lisa and Alan and family for many generations to come, and wish them a beautiful vibrant future together.
tan.x.

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I was very blessed recently to be present to capture the entrance of a beautiful little man into the world.  He was named Theodore, aka “Theo” or “Teddy” for short.

His mummy and daddy share an absolutely amazing bond, as can be seen through these images.  I felt truly privileged to be in the room to capture these special moments for them.  As a birth photographer, I truly am blessed to witness this miracle again and again in my work.

Little Theo joined us weighing in at a hefty 4.15kgs at birth and was the most chilled little man you will ever meet!

Well, 11 days after he was born, their family joined me at my studio for a wonderful newborn portrait session.  Following on from his entrance into the world, Theo was still the most chilled little man I have ever met!  Barely a peep was heard from him as we powered through our session enabling us to try lots of different set ups.

But on their arrival, Theo’s mummy and daddy had a challenge for me.  With him being affectionately known as “Teddy”, they had decided to bring along the teddies that they themselves cuddled as babies.  Of course, he also needed his very own teddy too, and why not a little set of teddybear ears to complete our fun?

And here is the result:

On Theo’s left, with a rather erm, questionable (read: MUCH loved) red “bow” is the teddy that his Dad once cuddled to sleep at night.  On Theo’s right, also a bit worse for wear is his Mummy’s precious little friend.  He looks right at home don’t you think?  Definitely, a “tale of three teddies”.

Following on with our theme, we of course, had to photograph Theo with his very own teddy as well.  Perhaps, in years to come, Theo’s first child will be able to be photographed with this very same teddy too…

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My first hurdle was trying to work out to make a “costume” that would look believable/somewhat realistic, but also be comfortable to place a newborn into, and of course safe too. Then I had an epiphany, and I got to work creating the perfect little “costume” using felting techniques that I had been teaching myself for making curly/felted layers for my “normal” newborn setups.

As with all of my crazy ideas, the possibility of this going pear-shaped was a very big reality. You see, I have learned that with me, these things tend to go one of two ways – either a dismal fail, or a freaking awesome result!  I crossed my fingers that this one would be the latter, and got out my fleece!

I took some pics on my phone to show the wet-felting process – excuse the quality, it isn’t my finest work. ?

The process is begun by laying out the wool fleece/roving into the general shape that I need.  I used what felters refer to as a “resist”, which is basically just a piece of flexible plastic to go in the middle to wrap the wool around.  The resist is later removed to create a cavity in the middle (aka the spot where the bubba would eventually go).

The process to take it from soft fluffy fleece/roving to really strong felted fabric, involves hot soapy water, bubble wrap, a huge mess in my kitchen and a really good workout for my biceps/triceps over a course of about 2-3 hours.  Here is how it “evolved”, in a nutshell:

The back of the “pod” after some initial felting and wetting down:

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Then we flip it over and the fun part of laying out the front design begins.  I already had the nesting dolls so I just referred to the biggest one to try and make it look as similar as possible.:

The “flowers” and “lace” – I used a combination of merino wool roving, silk roving, leicester curls to make these.  I later added more using needle felting techniques.  You can see here how fluffy and soft it all is to begin with.

One of the main steps in the felting process is to cover it with bubble wrap (after wetting it down with soapy water), and then rub all over it repeatedly to create agitation/friction which makes the fibres bond together.

After it is felted, the process of fulling occurs which involves more agitation and moulding to give the final shape.  Here, the pod is finished and stuffed with bubble wrap to help it to keep its shape as it dries.

Photoshoot time!  Woot!

I set up the canvas backdrop, and the actual russian nesting dolls with the same lighting that I would use for photographing the actual little babushka.  And I captured these:

And then today, I welcomed wide-eyed little Annie into the studio, and just knew she would be the finishing touch for the shot.  She is 8 days old today, and opened her eyes just long enough for us to complete this set up!  Thanks so much for obliging Annie!

On a side note, I did attempt the shot with gorgeous baby Charlotte a couple of months ago, and she was a perfect little cherub. However, I felt that the results didn’t do the concept justice as I failed to notice that the dolls all had their eyes wide opened!  I photographed Charlotte sleeping, and whilst the final shot is super cute, it wasn’t until after putting it all together, that I realised that I needed to have her eyes open.  Doh!

Here is the original shot with darling little Charlotte:

And that’s where Annie came in!  With the magic of photoshop, and her beautifully curious wide eyes, today, I was finally able to complete the shot!

For obvious safety reasons, we could not actually photograph the babies upright in the pod, so each time, they were actually photographed being held at a slight angle by their mummies who were supporting them the entire time.  Here are some shots of Annie, from today:

With Annie needing to be awake for this shot, she was also a wee bit squirmy, so in the end to make the final image, I actually combined two shots to create her final pose.  The shot above is where I got her gorgeous little doll-like pout  and her hands from, and from the shot below, I used her eyes and the top of her head.

And the trick to achieving the perfect babushka doll pout?  Well, it’s a dummy (aka “pacifier” for the US folks)!  Leave it in till the last minute, and have mummy slide it out just before clicking the shutter and there you have it!  A perfect little dolly pout!

To give her a reaaaally “doll-like” appearance, after putting all pieces of the shot together  I did a little bit of tweaking and retouching – slightly enlarging her eyes and enhancing her little pink cheeks to match the actual dolls.  And the final result, after almost 6 months in the making, was this…

Thank you so much to both Annie and Charlotte’s families for humoring me in my ambitous pursuit of creative perfection. lol!  I am so blessed to have the most patient clients who trust me to try so many crazy things in an effort to create unique results for them.

Post-script – in the end, I chose to use a simple background instead of placing the dolls on a toy shelf as I had originally planned, as I wanted their faces to be distinctly clear and all of the details visible.  BUT, don’t be surprised if I revisit this in months to come and do a new edit on the toy shelf as originally planned. Watch this space. ?

tan.x.

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In particular, with newborn photography, it is often hard to establish when to draw the line.  Some argue that newborns are Mother Nature’s perfection and that there should be no retouching of newborn portraiture.  Others prefer things like skin discoloration caused by the birth process, flaking skin, milk pimples etc be removed, in much the same way as adults prefer their portraits to be retouched.  Some go waaaaay overboard and to the extreme where the end result is a baby who seems to have no texture to their skin at all.

Personally, I like to sit somewhere in the middle.  A photographer colleague of mine, Matt Palmer (go check out his awesome work over at Record Makers Photography), applies a rule that “if it won’t be there in a week remove it (such as pimples, scratches etc), but if it is a permanent fixture (moles, freckles, scars), then leave it.  I like this approach too.

Additionally, for me, the amount of retouch depends a lot on other factors such as the final feel I’d like the image to have, and things like how well posed the baby was and how the light was at the time of the capture.  If I am using natural light, as I usually do in a newborn photography session then this can sometimes be a major contributing factor.

So, to kick things off, here is little Lucinda Grace, on her 11th day.  This image was lit with a Paul C Buff Einstein E640 Flash Unit bounced into a Soft Silver Paul C Buff 64 inch PLM Umbrella set at about a 45 degree angle and approximately 4ft off the ground, to the left of the camera.  Captured with a Canon EOS 5D Mark II, and EF240-105mm f4 L Series lens at 28mm.  Manual exposure, ISO 200, 1/125 sec at f4, with me standing overhead on a step-ladder.

As you can see in the first image, there was obvious lens distortion due to me capturing the image with the wide 28mm focal length, so this was the first thing the I corrected in post production.  I also felt that the initial image lacked warmth – both in the respect of colour/tone, and in general feel.  I think that as parents, we all intrinsically want our babies to look safe and nurtured.  So, I chose to warm up the image, mask in additional warmth and tone to the petals of the flower, and add depth to it, as well as a slight amount of retouching of the skin.  Finally, using dodge and burn techniques, I created additional shading and contrast to specific areas to give a warm, chocolatey feel to show little Lucinda in a beautiful safe embrace.

I chose to alter the colour of the petals to give them a warmer feel that was more cohesive with the final image. Although the original colour that David from Island Vine Designs selected when he built the prop was very cool, I decided that it was a little too vibrant in this instance for this particular image.

The lovely cosy nesting that you see little Lucinda wrapped in can be purchased from one of my favourite prop vendors Divine Miss Ruby Designs.

I’m pretty happy with the end result, what do you guys think?

tan.x.

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Fast forward 22 years (ugh that makes me sound old!!), and I received a message from Dave, telling me that he and his lovely wife were expecting their first baby and would I be able to photograph their new little family.  Well, duh!  Of course!  I was so excited for them and couldn’t wait to create something amazing.  We exchanged a few emails, booked in their newborn session and I sent them off my standard questionnaire so that I could get to know their little family a little better to be able to personalise their shoot.

The questionnaire responses were pretty basic and I went ahead planning what one would call a “normal” newborn session.  I knew that they loved black and white imagery, and warm, earthy tones, and wanted to avoid gender stereotyping too much.  But then, an email arrived out of the blue, and put an entirely different spin on things!  I do love how, when my clients feel comfortable with me, they truly open up and how what can seem like a run-of-the-mill newborn portrait session can suddenly take on new meaning.  I have learned over the years that *everybody* has a story, and that every session I do should capture this in some way.  Of course, Dave and Bel were no different…

It turns out that like so many other couples, Dave and Bel did not have an easy journey to parenthood.  Theirs involved a lengthy period of infertility, devastating miscarriages, failed IUI and IVF attempts and of course all of the horrendous wave of emotions to accompany this.  Personally, I have been so lucky not to have experienced such difficulties in my own quest to grow my family, but I do have many close friends who have, and continue to have difficulties in the pursuit of achieving their dreams of one day becoming parents, and the pain I see them endure is just awful.

In an effort to prevent further losses, Dave and Bel resolved to have DNA testing done on the embryos that they had stored.  They wanted to ensure that their next attempt would give them the best possible chance of becoming a mummy and daddy.  They had 10 embryos tested, and it was embryo 7 that they decided to go with for their next round of IVF.  Embryo “Seven” had been their best hope, and it was little “Seven” who they were about to meet any day now!

I immediately knew that her journey to conception was something that “Seven” would hold dear for her entire life (at this stage Dave and Bel didn’t know her gender but I will refer to her as “her” because well, it sounds nicer!).  I immediately knew that I had to create *something* that would be a beautiful tribute to “Seven” and the personal journey that led Dave and Bel to parenthood.

I sat for a while thinking about what would be the perfect way to do this.  I knew that they liked neutral, natural, earthy tones.  I knew that they wanted a nice big canvas to display on their wall.  I knew that it had to be gender neutral as her gender was not yet known and they weren’t “into” traditional gender stereotypes anyways.  All of a sudden, I had the vision of “Seven” in her little petrie dish, surrounded by her “siblings”, all 9 of them, as seen under an electron microscope.  This is the kind of image I had in my head:

Now I am well aware that at no time were all 10 embryos actually in the same petrie dish, but you know, this is just how my mind works and is part of the creative process.  So, I resolved, that I somehow needed to make a “petrie dish”, and think of a way to create “embryos”, and at the same time make an image that was warm, earthy and not sterile/cold as your typical petrie dish would be. lol.

And this is what I came up with:

I found a roll of garden edging that I had in my garage, this stuff here ($26.98 from Bunnings) :

I cut a length that I thought would suit, and gaffa taped the ends together to form a circle.  I had a few rolls of meshy yarn that I’d found on sale at Spotlight a couple of years ago and wrapped it tightly around the garden edging.  The mesh is thick so when overlapped, it created the perfect soft cover for the garden edging.  This is the exact stuff that I used here (the top colour):

The “embryos” are pure wool fleece, sent to me by the amazing Ali from Divine Miss Ruby Designs, when I phoned her in a mad panic with my idea just two days before the session.  She gathered up all of the white fleece balls that she had, bagged them up and sent them to me over night.  Amazing service and I really don’t know what I’d do without such great vendors when I come up with these crazy ideas at the 11th hour!

Ali was able to send me 4 balls of fleece, and I had one here already, however, I needed 9, plus enough to make a nest for baby to rest in.  So, I grabbed a couple of cushions off my lounge and tore them apart.  (My kids no longer even raise an eyebrow when they see me doing this stuff, they just know that it is “for a shoot”).  I created 9 balls from the polyester cushion stuffing and then wrapped each one in the beautiful organic fleece, in random directions and placed them into the “dish” (aka ring of covered garden edging) that I had made.  I had hoped to create a random grouping of the balls within the circle but this proved difficult with the pressure that each pushed against the other, and I needed to keep a “spot” to place the “embryo” that would contain little “Seven” and this obviously needed to be a bit bigger so the end result was with her dead centre.  I wasn’t totally loving this though as I was worried that the end result would look like a daisy/flower.

Anyways, I went with it, and the finishing touch was a layer of white silk tops that I hand felted to create texture and a “burst” as though “Seven’s” embryo was the one that had “burst” with her growth.  I placed the silk underneath the final fleece piece and wrapped the fleece in a circle that would become a nest for the baby when placed there.  I also placed some more of the soft polyester cushion stuffing under the fleece to ensure a beautiful soft bed for her to be placed in.  Here is a (crappy iphone) pic of the finished silk felted layer:

The background that I used is artists canvas that I hand-painted myself, and which is fast becoming my go-to backdrop for almost every shoot!  I just love the warm, neutral tones and soft texture that it has.  It is just so versatile and I will do a blog post on painting your own backdrops very soon as I get so many people asking about them.

So, after all of that, I was pretty happy with the final result, and couldn’t wait to get little “Seven” into her “petrie dish”.  However, something wasn’t quite “perfect” with the concept for me, and I’ll write more on that later…

I was so excited when I received an email from Dave, simply entitled “She’s here!” and we booked our session in.  It turns out that little “Seven” was in fact a beautiful baby girl, who Dave and Bel named “Grace Lucinda” or “Gracie-Lu” as she was soon come to be known.

The day of our session arrived, and I had everything in place.  We started with the beanbag poses, and I kept in mind Dave and Bel’s preference for natural/earthy/gender neutral (which had since been updated to “not too girly”) styling.

With the best baby whisperer I know by my side to assist me (my good friend Sara from Sassi Photography), I got to work, and here is some of what we created together:

Then, we got to the “Seven” shot.  Before we started our session, I had taken Dave and Bel into my studio and shown them each of the setups that I had planned for the day.  I could barely contain my excitement when I showed them my “Petrie Dish” and upon explaining the concept to them, they returned to my lounge area and Bel whispered to Dave “Omg, I can’t believe she made a f%*!ing embryo basket!”.  When I walked out to join them and found her in tears and the both of them giggling over Bel’s comment, I knew I was onto a winner!  Such a perfect reaction (f-bomb and all!) and I instantly knew that the effort I had gone to was worth every second!

And so, we went about photographing our “embryo basket” shot.  Here, you can see Sara easing little Gracie-Lu into position as I am standing above in readiness with my camera.  That’s my purple socked toe you see peeking in there.

And now, for the final image…

Isn’t she beautiful?

Now, as I was shooting the image, it occurred to me that anyone looking in wouldn’t really understand how this shot depicts Gracie-Lu’s story.  It doesn’t really look anything like a petrie dish, and the number of “embryos” isn’t really obvious.  It doesn’t really “show” that she was the magic number “Seven”.  And I was still somewhat bothered by the similarities to a flower/daisy that the setup had.  Whilst I adore the final image, in its own right, as a storytelling image it just didn’t go far enough for me.

Soooo, I decided to try a twist to the original concept.  I lined the 10 balls of fleece up and placed the nest that Grace was in, into the 7th position.  I spread the silk layer in such a way to draw attention to her so that it looks as though her egg has “burst open” to reveal her inside.  As soon as I captured it, I *knew* that *this* was the shot!  It was a perfect celebration of a unique family with a difficult road behind them.  It was natural, and earthy, and beautiful, just as their family is.  And here it is, the final image, which I have of course, entitled “Seven”:

And here it is, hanging pride of place.  That is a huge 1m canvas that you see here, dwarfed by Dave and Bel’s gorgeous contemporary home, but looking like the perfect complimentary art piece to their decor just as it was intended:

I was so blessed to be able to create this for Dave, Bel and little Gracie-Lu, and I just know that they will cherish it as a celebration of their journey for many years to come.  Congratulations Dave and Bel, and welcome to the world to a very special little girl, Grace Lucinda aka “Seven”.

tan.x.

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