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Chinese New Year in L.A.

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Tue, 31 Jan 2012 02:52:00 +0000

This past Sunday, I got to continue my year of firsts by going to Chinatown (located in Downtown L.A) to celebrate the Chinese New Year. Although I missed the parade (boo) I did still have a great time walking around the busy streets and taking in the sights and sounds. There was so much action and I spotted quite a few Dragons which totally made my day. :D If you would like to visit Chinatown in Los Angeles, click HERE they have all kinds of things to enjoy throughout the year. The rest of this post is in pictures. Hope you like them, enjoy!

We're ready!

These students were so festive. I got my Dragon parade after all...

Got Tony this cool hat for only 3 bucks!

The most beautiful Asian flute sound.... she was great.

Celebratory dance with romance and fight scenes!!

A most elaborate and lovely shrine. Beautiful...

A great day, a fun time. It doesn't matter how much money you have. Chinatown can be done your way at any time of the year. Hope you enjoyed coming with me to some of the Chinese Year of the Dragon New Year festivities. Until the next adventure..... BIG hugs.

DJing For Vestax, NAMM 2012

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Sat, 28 Jan 2012 01:12:00 +0000

Hello friends and fellow music lovers!! I recently had the opportunity to DJ for Vestax at the NAMM Show in Anaheim. This was great for two major reasons, I usually use my turntables, so, I had my first foray into DJing digital style since Vestax had wanted me to utilize their new midi controller, the VCI-400.

The second reason this was so great, was because the NAMM Show is the largest musical convention in the United Staes. Music lovers, producers, musicians, DJs, basically everyone that utilizes equipment come to view the new offerings from all suppliers both large and small. It's a place to not only view equipment, but to hear and see major music players demo products and give talks sharing their tips and tricks. The atmosphere is dizzying!! It's very electric, there are all kinds of sights and sounds. I definitely brought you with me every day and took pictures to share the vibe with you. This "convention" happens twice a year, and the only way to visit is via invitation. So you see, we all just got to go to the most exclusive all encompassing musical convention! Hope you enjoy, the Namm Show:

Get your ticket and I.D. out!!

Celeb sightings:

Rapper / Hip Hop Producer Arabian Prince

DJ Icy Ice www.icyicemusic.com

Hulk Hogan's son, Nick Hogan

Music LEGEND Stevie Wonder www.steviewonder.net

Actor / Comedian T.K. Carter www.tkcarter.com

Musical offerings:

Some of the first "rockers"?? LOL

Do I heart this cordless mic? Yes, I do.

The ability to make beats with this device, the "screen" is an iPAD!!

One of the many new Monster Headphone styles coming out. Thought these were intergalactic.

These guys are "the man" at NAMM. ;)

How we got down at the Vestax booth:

Tony J. getting his mix on. www.tonyjworld.com

Music Producer Nonagon showcasing Ableton on the VCI-400 www.nonagon.net

Getting interviewed for Stacks TV www.stackstv.net

All the demo stations full...

NAMM Style:

Check her out at www.josielovesjvalentine.com

Check him out at www.conquistador.net

And then, four days later, it was a wrap......

Hope you had fun with me at NAMM!! Wishing you lots of peace, love, and beats..... xo

Do Good For Others, Do Good For Yourself

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Wed, 11 Jan 2012 21:41:00 +0000

Hi friends! Hope things are stellar in your world today. No matter what the state of things, I know of something that can usher good in immediately!! Ready for it? Helping someone else. I know it may seem hard to even think of this if you are very busy, have limited resources, or find yourself not feeling very well. If that is the case for you, I'm sending you a BIG digital hug right now! But I assure you, that I have compiled a list of ways you can do good for someone else no matter what your situation may be. So take a look and see if anything here strikes your fancy...

Give a free mammogram with a click of your mouse

Play multiple choice crossword games online for charity

Shop online through this site & a percentage gets donated to your charity of choice. Some stores offer coupons too!

Be a video mentor to a child in Africa

Already a volunteer? Give your charity kudos and share your experience with others here

Come up with ways to give and see what transforms for you, by taking a 29 Day Giving Challenge

Doing good for others can bring immediate feelings of joy and can help to bring the blessings you wish for. For what we give, we also receive. Multiplied abundantly. I hope you liked the offerings listed above.

Here is one more idea for giving back....

In a previous post, I mentioned my love for magazines. Then I got a great idea! A couple months ago while driving I noticed a Dialysis Center. I realized that the people that go there do so regularly and for extended periods of time. So I figured, I could go and drop off my magazines once I'd read them and spice up the experience a bit for people with fun and current things to read. I have been doing this once a month for the past two months and have actually compiled a small stack for January.

I just pop in with my stack of magazines and put them in the magazine rack in the lobby. The reception is always thankful and it only takes a minute to do.

Let's go get our give on! Cheers to giving and receiving life's treasures. xo xo xo

Year of Firsts Baby!

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Sun, 08 Jan 2012 07:10:00 +0000

In my last post I briefly mentioned "Year of Firsts" which is my motto for this year. Instead of having a list of resolutions, I like to come up with a motto for my year and this year, "Year of Firsts" is it. Having a motto is easy and fun because unlike a resolution list, this one line can color your whole year! It can influence the choices you make and the attitude you carry. I have found it to be wonderful and this year is no exception! To illustrate how this has already started working, I'd like to tell you about a BIG first for me and that was DJing The Rose Bowl!!

Just a year ago, on New Year's Day, my motto was to be a yes woman. I had just watched Jim Carrey's "Yes Man" movie and was so inspired by it, I decided I would adopt that philosophy for myself and this allowed me to experience 2010's New Year's Eve without having a single drink. I even went to bed early so that I would wake up early (5:30 am) to go see the Rose Parade live for the 1st time.

And now, just a year later, I found myself DJing in The Rose Bowl for the New Year celebration!! This was a first I was proud to be a part of. Another first was who I was DJing for, some of you may have heard of them ;) , the fine folks at Dell! Naturally, they requested I use a Dell and with my motto in mind, even though I have previously only utilized a Mac to DJ, I absolutely agreed to this first. What ensued was a day of sheer magic.....

I met, spoke with, and took photos with Football Hall of Famer Marcus Allen

and NBA Champion, Actor, and Talk Show Host, John Salley.

I received many compliments on my DJing and got to meet a lot of wonderful people. I had fun and enjoyed beautiful surroundings, and then, there were the additional blessings..... After DJing, the wonderful Dell representatives, Lisa and Sarah surprised me by giving me the beautiful brand new 15 inch Dell XPS laptop I had used to DJ! They also surprised me with tickets to the Rose Bowl game. I was humbled, grateful, and amazed. I had expected to return the computer I used, and I had never been to a Rose Bowl game before! Wow, Year of Firsts indeed.

Friends, there is magic all around us. I believe that everything we dream for ourselves is possible. Whether you create a resolution list, a motto, a vision board, or hold a secret wish in your heart, believe in it and do all you can to leave every channel open for your blessings to come. Then stand back and let it happen. Goodness will make it's way to you if you let it. Below are some pictures of my Year of Firsts kick off. I hope you like them. Feel free to tell me what you plan for this year. I'd love to send you good vibes towards it ok? Until the next time, peace, love, and happiness. xo

Early morning, let's go!

Credentials.. :)

The Stealth Bomber signaling the start of the game.

Over 90,000 in attendance!

Tony and I happy to be at our seats :D

A Blue Moon toast to a good game and Year of Firsts!

The Oregon Ducks took it!! Confetti and players covered the field.

The Badger's band rocked it way after the end. What spirit!

YAY! That was fun.

New Year's Eve 2011

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Wed, 04 Jan 2012 00:10:00 +0000

If you read my last post, you know I did not plan anything for New Year's Eve and that resulted in some pressure. But, I resolved to go with the flow and follow my gut. So what happened? How did it all turn out? Quite well.

Hubby and I enjoyed a meal at our favorite Mexican restaurant. All the while we were discussing what we had learned throughout the year and what we were planning to go into this new year with. Intention is very important and it felt good to share ours with each other and put things into perspective.

We had come up with a plan to go to one of our favorite hiking spots. It allows for a magnificent view. The clearing is really beautiful, you could see nature and city... We were all packed up with folding chairs, a bottle of wine, and other goodies, then headed off. Once there, it turned out to be quite an experience as we reminded ourselves that coyotes roam the area at night!! : O Deciding to still give it a go, we trudged on, flashlights in hand, light, due to leaving our packed goodies behind. We didn't make it all the way but we enjoyed every minute of our trek. We pushed past our limits and left the place feeling triumphant and energized. Ha!! It was great.

After driving around the city, we enjoyed a toast and fireworks from our rooftop. It was splendid. About a year or two ago, I started to approach each new year with a motto instead of resolutions. What I liked about that is my motto helped me be and remember my greatest intentions the whole year and seemed to color my choices at the same time. The motto for this year hit me while last year was closing... "Year of firsts." More on that, in my next post.

Love ya! Happy New Year!

Pre New Years Eve...... 2011

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Sat, 31 Dec 2011 23:08:00 +0000

Ah, the last day of 2011. People preparing for their plans, maybe last minute shopping for the perfect outfit. There are those maybe already starting the festivities, rounding friends up and making sure everything is coordinated. Then there's me and Tony. We did not make plans for New Year's Eve. There are a few things we could do, yet the indecision has paralyzed us. So now, the pressure sets in.

Why is there so much pressure surrounding this night? Will what we choose to do really call forth more or less magic than what is already meant for us? I feel like having a private New Year's Eve. Something in my heart is telling me that is the way to go and yet, it feels abnormal to choose that.

No matter what happens tonight, I know for a fact that 2012 is going to be an amazing year. Part of what I'm going through now is in preparation for that. I have laid some great groundwork for this moment (spiritually and financially) so spending hundreds of dollars to drink the night away with strangers just doesn't seem to fit right now. I know there are bigger and more important things. My heart goes out to anyone missing a loved one or anyone having health issues unable to "go through" deciding how to spend their New Year's Eve.

I still am not sure what I'm going to do tonight but I do know that if I don't stop typing and get on it, well the clock will just keep ticking :) so I guess I'll do what I've always done and just get out there, trust my instinct, and let the magic find me. After all, there's no such thing as a wrong choice when following your heart. Right???

May you and yours be surrounded by love and your magic tonight and always. Fun time wishes! xo

The Magic of Christmas, 2011

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Tue, 27 Dec 2011 09:37:00 +0000

This Christmas was absolutely amazing for me. I felt the magic all around me in the most unexpected ways... Coming out of childhood and straight into parenthood, I never strayed from the traditional ways of celebrating. You know, the lights, the decorations, the tree, the presents. These were things I have always loved, surely. This time though, none of those things were included in my experience.

You see, my babies are no longer in my home. Faced with this, and my extended family's situation (Grandma's cancer has changed the certainty of gatherings at her house) I let my heart lead me and decided to feel Christmas and be Christmas without the outer showings we usually employ.

Christmas Eve I DJ'ed for a place called Hillsides. They are a kid's home that provides everything necessary for kids that do not have family. Being with them was an absolute joy. it was nice to bond with them and focus on giving them a good time. Afterward, I had planned to go to church which is something I had never done on Christmas Eve before. Amidst the beautiful decorations, the telling of the story of Christ's birth, the singing, and the candle lighting, I was touched to the core. On the way there, I had noticed a homeless set up near the freeway on ramp. Although I didn't see the people, I immediately was touched and felt the need to give. On the way back home I left some Christmas cookies I had been given at the Hillsides party along with 5 dollars and a prayer. The thought of them coming back to a small surprise made me happy and I hope it made them happy too. Once home, hubby and I got comfy. Watching Christmas movies we'd never seen before on Netflix and eating the Christmas turkey I had made earlier that day. We even fell asleep to a digital fireplace video! It was wonderful.

The next morning we arose to a pumpkin pie & coffee breakfast. What a treat! We then took off to Disneyland which was a first for both of us as we had never been at Christmas time, let alone on Christmas Day. There was much magic there, it took only 30 minutes to arrive which is about half of normal time. Upon arriving, we were told where to buy tickets where there was no line, we were gifted a fast pass to the 1st ride we were in line for by two lovely strangers at random, we were unexpectedly given a 10% discount on lunch, we even got to see the fireworks show from right in front of the castle! It was a grand day.

My family was not left out of the equation. I spent time with my hubby's side earlier this month on the 16th at a gathering they planned. I sent every one of my family members cards and then texts on Christmas. I spoke with my daughter, and I reached out to my Dad which was big for me because I had had cut off communication with him a couple of year's ago after getting really hurt and angry at him.

Being Christmas this year, really being it in my heart has been the most profound experience. It has left me longing for Christmas to last. Now, I will look for ways to keep it going.

How was your Christmas? What was your greatest gift? Your favorite new memory? I hope to hear from you...... xo

Cancer side effects.

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Mon, 19 Dec 2011 05:31:00 +0000

This year, my Grandmother and my Mother, were both diagnosed with cancer within a couple months of each other. Grandma, multiple myeloma. Mom, throat cancer. My brothers dog died of throat cancer. My other brother's ex girlfriend was diagnosed with breast cancer. Last week, my husband got diagnosed with a basal cell carcinoma which is the most common form of skin cancer (it will be treated with surgery in January.Thank God.) Sharing this news with a girlfriend on the phone, she told me her sister was diagnosed with a basal cell about two weeks ago. Cancer, cancer, cancer. It has left my head and world spinning.

All of this has had me thinking about HEALTH. LIFE. ENERGY. GROWING OLD GRACEFULLY. It has also had me asking about our medical system, the food we eat, and the products we buy.

These have been my side effects. These questions have started to drastically change my life.

Would you like to know about natural products? How about where to buy naturally healthy food? Are you interested in natural methods of staying healthy and healing? Do you already know about this and have things to share?

As I start to implement the things I have been learning about, I will begin to share them here with you. I do not ever post or recommend anything that I have not tried personally. If you are someone experienced in natural products, healthy living, etc. Please share. I am very interested in hearing from you.

Until then, cheers to healthy, energetic, lasting lives. May we all enjoy that. Every day.

I got three letters for ya, S E X

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Mon, 19 Dec 2011 05:03:00 +0000

This morning I woke up incredibly aroused. It was the kind of feeling that occurs right before, or right after great sex. I don't remember exactly what I dreamt. All I know is I took a long time for me to leave my sleep and enter the world again, and when I did, the feeling was overwhelming.

As a married woman, sex should be no problem. It should be like water in the fridge. Available at any time and yet, that isn't always the case. This is when I thought of you, of us in general, and how we handle this stuff. I am sure we have all had moments when we were left wanting. Waiting for that release, touch, moment. Wishing for sex.

So what's the best way to go about this? The biggest problem for me is the moment it becomes cerebral. I'm a highly analytical Virgo. I think a lot about every thing. All day long. The moment I have to think about sex, I'm over it. I want to be taken away. Lead. Shown. Sex for me isn't in the brain. It's in the heart, it's in the feeel of it. It's not that I don't know what to do or how to do it. It's just that in my day to day life I call a lot of the shots. I designed it that way. Sex is one area, I'd like to relinquish control.

I think a lot of women are like me. A lot of us aren't thrown into orgasmic fits by just looking at something. A lot of us can and will rock the worlds of our partners but don't want to call the shots in bed. I mean, outside of a porn star or dominatrix, how many women have you known or spoken to that do?

Perhaps this is all too much. Too personal. I apologize in advance if it seems left field but Tee-riffic is about living our best life and the various paths taken in experiencing that. I'll be damned if sex is not part of it. I wondered, how many other women feel like me? How many men?

This morning, I tried to convey my aroused state to my hubby. I told him. He then seemed perplexed and more concerned at what I could've dreamt about. It was like an episode of "Up All Night." Real. Mundane. Comical. Slightly frustrating.

What could I have done differently? What is a way, we can convey what we like or want without running the whole session? Hurting our partners feelings? Or turning it into, GASP, a chat session?

In all fairness, I am sure there have been many times I have left my husband wanting. This is not about him being a problem. This is about starting a dialogue about what we like and what we want. So then we could start to get it.

Sexy dream or not.

Museum fun. L.A. Culture.

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Tue, 13 Dec 2011 01:24:00 +0000

In my last L.A. Culture post, I told you about some great things you could do, and had expressed there were a couple more things I would write about once I'd visited them. Well here they are! During this holiday season, you may be concerned about spending extra money to go out or you may find yourself overwhelmed by the holiday to-do's. Hopefully neither of those is the case for you, but if so, you can rest assured that outings to these locations will not only be easy on your wallet but they will be easy on your time schedule as well.

The first is The Skirball Center:
What attracted my attention was their "Women hold Up Half The Sky" exhibit. I had passed by Skirball many times but finally had my first visit recently when this exhibit peaked my interest. I really loved the whole museum especially their method of creating the exhibits. So fun! I loved being taken away to the times and places depicted. For those interested and able, you can visit the entire museum for FREE on Thursdays. It's a lovely space perfect for all ages. There is also a cafe and gift shop along with a fabulous range of exhibits all made incredibly interesting by allowing you to interact with and / or enjoy the information with their signage, displays, and media. Here are a few pictures for you to enjoy:

My badge for the day! I love free access. :D

The second recommendation is The Getty Villa:
This spectacular museum is located in Malibu, which will provide a delight on the way there and back as you will be greeted by delicious views of the ocean. Admission is always FREE (you print out your timed entry ticket online & pay $15 for parking.) This space is filled with antiquities dating back as far as 200 BC. They have gorgeous grounds, dazzling statues, and media along with exhibits and interactive tours for you to enjoy. There is a cafe that serves organic foods, a coffee stand, and you can even order a glass of wine or beer if you'd like. My favorite thing was the ability to touch a gorgeous marble statue of Venus. I had never experienced anything like it. Imagine the feel of a human body made out of marble! She felt so real... Here are some pictures. I hope you like them!

Her body feels so real!

I hope you have enjoyed these glimpses of the Skirball Center and Getty Villa. Tell me, are there any museums you like? Which are your favorite and why? If you find yourself going to either of these, I would love to hear what you thought. Thanks for reading, until the next time, BIG hugs.

Magazines. Oh The POWER!

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Wed, 23 Nov 2011 04:22:00 +0000

I have been a lover of fashion magazines for as long as I could remember. Growing up, they were a bit of a luxury. But as a teenager, once I was able to score my mags, our love affair was sealed! Fashion magazines showed me a world I could only dream about. Far off places, unmistakable beauty. Riches displayed via clothing and other material items hinting at an amazing world. A world where adventure, health, beauty, was not only possible but THRIVING! I know this is where my love of photography, fashion, style, and beauty was born. These are things that still bring me great joy.

My first dream ever, was to be a supermodel. I have since been blessed to experience a piece of that dream. My very 1st passport stamp was provided when I was flown out to the Bahamas for a swimsuit shoot and runway show. As for my latest modeling bit, a feature in FHM Malaysia coming January 2012!

That aside, which one of us, woman or man, hasn't seen something in a magazine that just held our breath for a minute? That amazing article of clothing you just know you'd stop traffic with, that gorgeous model's body, that ultra cool gadget, or amazing home you just see yourself living in.

There are people that say that magazines are bad. That they depict things that are impossible. Visions unattainable by most. To that, I say boo.

Who's to say what's attainable and for whom?

My preferred subscriber status not only gives me amazing deals on my beloved subscriptions but also ensures that each month, treasures will be delivered into my mailbox. Pages of dreams, aspirations, knowledge, and beauty. Yeah, I have yet to buy my $1,000 pair of shoes or safari in Africa, but as I look back I see a whole world of stuff no one but me thought I'd be able to do. Who's to say I will not accomplish these? ;)

I am sure you too have done some amazing things. So let's get on with our bad selves and make "it" happen. I'm right here if you wanna tell me about it. Now, back to my magazine....

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Time outs, no corner necessary...

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Fri, 18 Nov 2011 07:06:00 +0000

On my bed, trapper hat ON (what, I'm cold) books and mags at my side, an awesome brownie I am eating in stages like Charlie Bucket from "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory", and my Macbook. I am currently unwinding by perusing facebook, uploading a new picture to some of my sites, eating said brownie, and I will also flip though my mags, and maybe round things out with TV via Netflix. This is me having a time out. Earlier today, I enjoyed a day at a museum. I am not going in to full detail on this because I plan on writing separately about that in another post that will have offerings for you to enjoy if you live here in L.A. Anyway...time outs rock! They are not just for misbehaving toddlers, I find them crucial in maintaining my sanity. It's great to break the norm and reset. Recharge is more like it. Surely, this particular time out has me on my computer but I'm enjoying it in a different way than I usually do, so you see? If you are interested in a time out, there are no rules, just do whatever it is you feel would take you away from your daily routine and give you a chance to experience some of the following:

Relaxation - Joy - Peace - Inspiration - Solace - Empowerment - Relief- etc..

You get what I'm talking about right?

Maybe you feel like you can't take the time, you don't have the space or money. Well, I can assure you that I have transformed my bathroom into a spa using nothing more than items I already had in stock under the sink or in the kitchen! I've taken time away utilizing my imagination and an iPhone app, freebies also include taking a long walk, writing, or even just laying down with nothing more on your mind than breathing in and out. If you would like me to go into further detail on any of these methods I will be more than happy to share them with you. If you have a suggestion, I would love to hear from you. Tell me, what do you do to time out? Does this help you? Are you new to this concept? What do you think?

May the Om be with you... :)

Culturally cool stuff in Los Angeles....

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Mon, 07 Nov 2011 06:53:00 +0000

Hello loves, I know it's been a while. I've been living and learning. Trying new things and spending time on my craft of acting, spending time crafting my life, my vision. I am enjoying new foods, places, and examining lifestyles that are new to me too. I love to learn and I firmly believe that learning every day keeps me vibrant and alive. Plus, I find it really fun.

In the process of doing new things I've come across some things I'd like to recommend. There is only 1 item on this list you cannot go and do but I am going to include some pics so you can enjoy a little bit of what I've seen. Ok, here it goes!

MUSEUM OF TOLERANCE: I just went there today for the first time and was not only moved but educated on how bigotry affects all people across the world even today. You can learn about the holocaust, about things that have gone on in the beginning of our nation, our recent past, and that are going on now. I found it very enlightening and thought provoking. I was also stoked because I found something I had wanted for quite some time.

BEAUTY CULTURE: I visited this FREE exhibit last week and was totally inspired and educated by it. There were so many interesting perspectives to be considered. Great photography, artistry through makeup, and the dark side of our beauty perceptions and how we feel pressured to strive towards those ideals. The space is stunning and won't take up your whole day. Plus, all you have to pay for is parking. Get validated to reduce the cost of that ( to less than 5 dollars.) :)

TIM BURTON EXHIBIT LACMA: This was my Halloween treat. I have loved Tim Burton's work and have seen almost every movie he has ever been involved with. I have also seen some of his shorts.. Not only was I glad to have a happy Halloween due to this, but the fact Halloween was the last day of the exhibit, only made it more special for me. The link provided above will let you enjoy quite a bit and hopefully some of the photos below will too....

This week I am going to enjoy another museum for the first time. There is an exhibit there that I am very excited to see, I don't recommend things unless I have done them personally so I will let you know how that one pans out once I attend. Hopefully you enjoy some of the great places listed above. A couple others I have been to and liked are The Getty Center & The La Brea Tar Pits.

Here's to learning, art, inspiration, and broadening our horizons. Big love!!! xo

Selfish, stupid, what are they called again? Kids.

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Fri, 21 Oct 2011 21:31:00 +0000

There are many times I'll have the absolutely normal HUMAN overwhelmed, angry, disappointed thought. When these times come, I put into practice the things I have learned and try sometimes with greater ease than others, to make them go away. Then there are times when I'm just human. Not enlightened enough to get passed things that bother me. You know what I'm talking about right? This is one of those times.

Months ago my son left our home. Since than many things have occured. I thought we had made great progress. A phone call that birthed a visit with him here at home and the resolution to keep in touch. I kept up my part of the bargain. Texting, calling.. Then, I said something he didn't like. Questioning him on absences from school. Apparently that was cause for him to banish me from his world. No phone call, text, email back. As connected as we are these days it is easy to disconnect oneself and so he did. I chalked it up to teenage angst. Breathe, let it go.

Today I receive a call from the school nurse. He has a sprain. Has had it since Wednesday. They've approved temporary insurance. Mind you I knew nothing about any of it until today's call. I answered all questions, cooperated, but then of course the truth came out. Who had signed the forms??? Upon my son's lies and the school's inability to follow protocol, suddenly a dilemma emerged. I am left now angry and frustrated. So many needless calls and too many resources for what could have been taken care of easily.

Reading this, I realize it's just a little drama. A daily soap opera if you will. Things always seem more important than they are. We will all survive. There's just that pain. That pain of being human. The hurt that comes from being there for someone no matter what and having them reject you. The anger of being bothered with the aftermath of that. You wanna be grown, be grown. Work it out. Speak up. Ask for what you need. Take that responsibility. Instead, you just want to be "grown" in the sense that you're not home but still lying, cheating, relying on whoever you can, manipulating, putting people out. It's disheartening. That's not what I taught. That's not who I am. I do not recognize or identify with it. :(

A brilliant acting class I attended this week posed a question that is perfect for this occasion. How do we have empathy for those things we do not understand? All I can say is, I'm working on it.

Health Care in the U.S.. Tee-riffic? Or not.

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Fri, 14 Oct 2011 05:21:00 +0000

I normally do not take on such charged subjects. It easily turns into a knowledge fair where one person's facts condemn another persons experience. However, I find myself typing this tonight with a neck brace on. BenGay, Ibuprofen, and Heating Pad at my nightstand. This after two Chiropractor visits, a call for help to medical officials that happen to be in my family, and eventually a cry for help via Twitter that led me to a massage therapist. I mean, is all of this necessary???

Turns out I have a pinched nerve. :( I am still feeling it's effects (hence the neck brace and other goodies previously mentioned.) Lots of things in my life could have caused this and it could happen to anyone. What's crazy is the "let's try this and wait and see" methods. Then there's the retail approach to medicine that really chaps my hyde. It's like you should know what you wanna do about your problem when you see someone. There is no tell me how you feel and let me tell you how to fix it. Each person I have talked to, Chiropractor, Acupuncturist, Massage Therapist, as well as the info online has their own theory on methods that could be used, every one, toting their specialty as the best thing. In the end, I believe as humans we just want health and freedom from ailments, pains, symptoms, etc. All we want is the answer. Shoot, I don't specialize in healing... Who has the answer?

Am I writing this just to vent? Yes and no. I wonder how many of us are going through this. Do any of you feel this? Are you going through something like this now? Insurance or no insurance? Does that help or hinder you? These may seem like very personal questions but I think the sooner we get over that discomfort in talking about these things, the sooner we will be more comfortable demanding what we deserve. Health, energy, vitality, quality food, and quality healthcare.

I am going to continue to nurse my pinched nerve. I am not a Dr. but will gladly share with you the methods I have pursued.. This pinched nerve is terrible. I don't wish it on anyone. Plus, I am always willing to help people with resources, answers, or just some good old TLC. Remember, I'm not a Dr. I am not giving you medical advice. I'm just sharing with you, my journey and some of the resources I've used. So here it goes....

The Massage Place Went to them today. Awesome. I am not fully healed but I would recommend to anyone living in the greater Los Angeles area. Inexpensive quality massages. Open long hours. Clean comfortable facility, and great staff. I will be seeing them again. Sooooon.

CVS I'm now addicted to this place. They have lots of great products, self checkout, and you rack up rewards with your purchases. Not just coupons but cash back!! Nice. They are open late, some 24hrs. All my supplies came from there.

Chiropractor. Dr. Ed Simon. 30 yrs in practice. Friendly man & staff. Uses different techniques to heal. Didn't quite do it for me. Not sure whether that is due to my condition or his methods. **Update 10/15/11: I called due to onset of new symptoms and based on his response, I am thinking this Dr. is only interested in gaining money by making you a lifetime patient. I have removed his link, and would advise others to be cautious if considering him.

I went to speak with an Acupuncturist but have not seen him yet so I am not going to give that info at this time. If it happens, I'll let you know.

Time for me to lay down.. Thanks for reading. Love and health to you.

The Oncology Ward & The Power of One. Tee-riffic Indeed.

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Mon, 19 Sep 2011 06:22:00 +0000

Written on 9/15/11 6:10 pm.

There is something that happens, sitting here in this hospital. Sure there are joyous moments perhaps in obstetrics where new life greets us providing the sigh of relief after pained moments of labor paves the way. But here, here, there are whispers. Silence. The whizzing of the machine gently coaxing medicine into an IV. I feel anxiety in my throat. Borderline nauseous. The weight has settled in my chest.

My Mom is here. I posted news of her cancer, and since she has begun her battle. Just a couple weeks ago she was vibrant. Now she sleeps. She sounds weak, looks tired, and I know she's scared. Her aggressive chemotherapy treatments have quickly taken their toll and due to complications she is here. I type this at her bedside while I wait for her to wake up. The craziest thing is there's nothing I could do really but then there's everything I could do. Convinced one person really does make a difference I bring flowers and positive affirmations.

She likes to laugh. So I will do my best to bring the cheer and remind her who she is when it's hard to remember. I even wore my Sade shirt and sure enough she noticed it right away... :)

At last she woke up. These moments spent talking, listening, have made it all worth it. It is nice to hear her voice and let her tell me what is on her mind. One person can make all the difference. I'm not sure if it was her or me today and that's the beauty of how this works.. :) May you and all of your loved ones be blessed with great health and the biggest love to surround you. All of this, every moment, after all, is a gift.

**Thank God Mom has since been released. She continues her fight. Next, most likely radiation. Prayers for her and all those suffering with cancer would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for reading my blog. Blessings....

Tee-riffic: Sade

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Wed, 14 Sep 2011 23:56:00 +0000

When I was a little girl, my Mom introduced me to a beautiful singer and her name is Sade. I would borrow my mom's cassettes and listen to her music over and over again. Then fast forward to the greatest love I'd known before my husband. He reunited me with Sade and since then I have enjoyed her music in times of love, in times of struggle, in times of peace and relaxation, when taking a bath, meditating, or daydreaming. I have loved her so much. She has uplifted my spirits, coaxed me, made me feel sexy, and has set me free. When I found out she was going to be in concert, I just had to see her. I almost thought I wasn't going to be able to since while she was playing at The Staples Center near my home, I was in Malaysia to DJ. The one night I would be here, the tickets were way too much (not that she isn't worth every penny) still, it was almost $1,000.. but then my hubby had a brain blast and looked for tickets in Orange County so I did get to see her after all!! Not only did we pay much less, but the seats were better than what we would've gotten before, and it was a gift for my birthday!! Thank you baby. <3

I have seen quite a few concerts. Unforgettable shows. But I can honestly say seeing Sade has been a life changer. To sing her songs with her, it was mind blowing. She was beautiful, timeless, classy, and she sounded amazing. The sets were gorgeous, the song selection, divine. I'd never cried at a concert before. Never before her.

John Legend opened and was truly stellar. He sang his hits including an unreleased song called Dream that will be on his new album. I was so moved when he shared this with us and then he sang "Ordinary People" oh, my vision blurred and I thanked God because the last time I had heard that song, I was going through a tough time. I was hurting from the pain of my son's and my estrangement and him leaving my home.

Of course I couldn't help but think of you. I hope you know I take you with me wherever I go especially all places I find inspiring. It's a wonderful life and there are so many blessings waiting for us. I bet you didn't know you were at a Sade, John Legend concert but you were!! Hope you enjoy the vid, it was made with lotsa love.

So One of My Agents Unfollowed Me On Twitter! Tee-riffic, What Does That Mean?

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Sat, 10 Sep 2011 00:33:00 +0000

Trolling the Internet late at night via my iPhone has become somewhat of a ritual these days. Not sure how healthy a habit it is but still, it's something that has me pass the time until I get tired. Last night I noticed one of my agents no longer follows me on Twitter and I actually felt weird about it. When I checked out who they follow it made sense, the list is short and it is comprised of people that are very close or a direct part of life. Still I couldn't help but feel a little sad, questioning myself, did I tweet too much? Was I not interesting enough?

Ahh, the mania that social media can encite. Once my logical side kicked in I realized that perhaps it is best after all, I tend to speak on many things not just acting and I also like to interact with people on Twitter. I can see how that may be a turn off to someone that follows few people.

This whole thing seems sillier and sillier the more I write about it yet I know I can't possibly be the only one who has had an experience like this. Tell me, have you ever had your feelings hurt by social media? Has there ever been a time you may have needed to talk yourself down after something Twitter, Facebook, or even myspace related happened?

Tee-riffic: International Baby!

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Wed, 17 Aug 2011 06:51:00 +0000

Goodness gracious I am feeling so blessed, so happy, so excited. Life is good and God is GREAT! So many of my dreams are coming true and I am just over the moon about it all. For some time but especially this year I have been dreaming about travel. I have been blessed with quite a bit throughout the United States. I've been to some places in Mexico and got my 1st and only passport stamp to date when I went to the Bahamas but my visions have been set on going International.

Next week is my birthday and I have gotten the loveliest gift. I have been booked to DJ in Malaysia!!! I will literally be DJing the night before my birthday and I can't help but feel that this is such a special gift. No need to worry, all of you are invited. I'll take you in my heart and be sure to capture as much of the goodness as I can to share with you. I am so intrigued with all of it. Everything about this trip will be new to me, I've never been on a flight that long, my lay over is in Hong Kong, the food, the currency, the sights, the sounds, I can't wait to drink it all in! Just thinking about it fills me up with giddy and I don't take off until Monday!

There was a time in my life when having a car seemed big, let along thinking about planes and passports and the world beyond L.A. As a very young mommy there were so many times I felt on the sidelines, many times I sacrificed for my family. Sometimes things are tough that's true but if there is something you dream about, keep going! Believe, always believe because you can and will do it. Open yourself up to the magic and blessings all around you. I promise you that there is a big heaping bunch of goodness with your name on it. So keep on reaching for it. I'm right here, cheering you on!

I would like to thank Johnnie Walker Malaysia for this opportunity. This Black Circuit event is going to be amazing! Find out more about it HERE. Below is my shout out to Malaysia.

Tee-riffic: My Big Baby, Las Vegas, & Feeling Rich.

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Mon, 15 Aug 2011 08:12:00 +0000

Thursday was wonderful, my son came over and we had a visit that lasted 5 hours.

It had been months since I'd seen him last. The gist of what had happened referenced here. A call the night before his visit finally put it all out on the table. It was amazing to listen, talk, and share. The biggest revelation was seeing that God had what's best for all of us in mind. Surely I carry that in my heart but to see it materialize and recognize it, that's an amazing feeling.

Tomorrow my baby starts his senior year in high school. Funny thing is he's not the only one growing up. When I had kids I was a kid myself. I remember hearing time would pass quickly. I couldn't even imagine that then. Now here I am, in a childless household with a life full of never before's and first times. Part of the reason I couldn't write this sooner was because of a whirlwind trip to Las Vegas.

I just got back last night and found myself eating out for breakfast today, going to the movies, and then shopping. What is this magical life???

A lot of us have heard the adage "one day at a time." When you're in the thick of things, hearing that can be annoying. Or maybe like me, you relate that saying to addicts fighting drug addiction. I can tell you by experience that magnificent things do happen one day at a time. At one point I had 3 jobs, was taking business classes at Pierce College, and raising my two babies alone. A diary entry recalled me getting to work late after dropping my kids off at school, praying for good money from the double shift I'd signed up for. Turns out I had promised to take them to Universal Studios and needed to make up some rent money I spent in keeping my word. One day at a time. All of these are reasons why I look at the world with wonder. I've lived through miracles, I've seen God work in my life.

If you are in the middle of something, don't lose hope. Keep going. There will be a time you look back proudly at the trail you blazed behind you. As for me, I'm slightly older than a high school senior yet it turns out I too am graduating, and I'm throwing my cap in the air, ready for this new life, right now.

Tee-riffic: Weekend Gift

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Mon, 08 Aug 2011 06:00:00 +0000

Thank you to every single person that sent my Mom and Grandma prayers after reading my last blog post. It was touching to hear from so many of you. I really appreciate every kind word and thought sent.

Entering this weekend, I had some private time scheduled. My husband was going to be busy with long days of shooting a BBoy event on both days so I let myself really take in that privacy.. I slept in, did research, ate what I wanted, took time to create, spoke to my Mom on the phone and my amazing friend Min. I did some "work" too, it's in quotes because really, it was a joy. I got to record a promo for a DJ gig I have coming up. I also found some new inspiration.

It has been really nice to take it easy like this. Sometimes all the answers are in the stillness, the doing nothing. Isn't life funny that way?? Cheers to the quiet moments, hope you had a weekend gift too. xo

Cancer.

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Sat, 06 Aug 2011 06:39:00 +0000

I knew when she called something was wrong. I could tell in her tone that the news wasn't going to be good. She requested a conference call my brothers, me, and her. She wanted to let us know what happened at the oncologist's office.

My Mother has stage 4 throat cancer. Surgery is out of the question. Aggressive chemotherapy and radiation are on the menu. There'll be a couple ports, losing of hair, a feeding tube, and then what she will face after surviving the treatment, the loss of the ability to make saliva and experience taste.

Fuck..

I'm listening just listening. Then I ask my questions. I don't break down. There's talk of an advance directive. She laughs & tries to make jokes while explaining this to us until she reaches the subject of her mom's offer to help. Her Mom, my Grandma, just got diagnosed with cancer of her own. It's in the blood. Multiple myeloma.

There is a moment when I crack a little. Reminding her to focus on the positive, give herself the best fighting chance, she won't be alone through this. After the call the tears come. Putting myself in her shoes, imaging how one could handle this news. I feel sad. I feel scared.

My Mom and I never had a relationship. There were glimpses when I was a little girl but after 9 and my parents divorce everything changed. So many crazy things happened, I've long considered writing a book about it. My grandmother on the other hand was the only female in my life. The constant. My teacher and advisor. Now they both have cancer and soon will be fighting for their lives while the "medicine" alone puts them on the brink of death.

There is nothing Tee-riffic about this. She won't be able to make saliva. Or taste. Fuck. I never even consider that being a possiblity. I am so grateful for my health right now but why does that gratitude seem so inappropriate?

I'd like to say my superwoman attitude kicked in and I dove right in offering to help as caregiver. I didn't. I need time, prayer, and the chance to do what I know I can for her right now. I'll be there, I'm just not sure how close I can get to all this. All I know is that life is precious, true love is forever, health is a gift, and everything can change in an instant.

If I could be so bold as to lean on you right now, I ask for prayers in their honor. To those who have done it, thank you so much.

Blessings and the greatest health to all of you. Always.

Tee-riffic: Yes Darling, Let's Do Lunch

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Wed, 03 Aug 2011 22:58:00 +0000

Hello!! In my home office now, chewing ice and freezing cause the air is on. Giddy from life, love, and the way things turn out if you do what you gotta do and then let them happen. I have plenty of projects I will be announcing this week ( DJ & Actor related) in addition some opportunities that have me over the moon happy. Last two days were funky, then POW clarity. It all came to a head when I went on my errands for today...

First, went with my hubby to Central Casting. It is a place for those in Los Angeles to register for extra work on sets. Hubby acted some as a child but is re surging his career and starting from scratch. Finding myself there was surreal as it brought me back to the struggle of acting in the beginning. The process? Long and arduous. We didn't get seen today because the line was too long and I had an appointment at 1:00.

From there, we drove off to my appointment. A scheduled lunch with my agent. At which time, I was able to enjoy delicious healthy food, amazing uplifting conversation, outdoor dining on the patio in shaded warmth. I love my agent. Shoot, I love my agency. Before I was with them I had been signed three other times. I had even had a couple managers. Things didn't happen instantly, some hard decisions were made. Some sacrifices too. I shed some tears. There was even a time I contemplated quitting. Now I find myself doing lunch with my agent, driving around town with my husband, enjoying freedom, health, love, and the delicious blessings that I believe are bestowed on me from God.

I am a person just like you. Living the best life I can create for myself. Here's what I know works.

If there is anything you wish to do, do it.
In the middle of something you love but facing fear & uncertainty? Hang in there.
Getting the feeling you should make some life changes? Make it happen.
You have everything you need right now to usher in positivity and goodness. So, take action!

And then, for heaven's sake darlings, let's do lunch.

<3

Tee-riffic: Awkward

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Sat, 30 Jul 2011 06:12:00 +0000

Say you're up for an opportunity alongside someone you really like, care about, or even love. You get the opportunity. Everything goes well. As a matter of fact it is quite literally the answer to some of your prayers. Naturally you are feeling amazing. High. Exhilarated.

Until you aren't. Your person didn't get it. As a matter of fact their experience was quite the opposite of yours. It was bad. They feel bad. Now, so do you. Shit.

Awkward. Now what? Not only is your moment completely taken away but you genuinely feel bad. You're on console mode. You mean every word, but it sucks. You wish your person would have gotten a chance too. And as sad as you are for your person, you're happy for you and want to give this blessing it's full light.

I wish I knew what to say and how to make this better. This happened to me today and it was further exacerbated this evening when the situation came up again while speaking to a friend. I love my person. I'm sorry they didn't get it. But I also feel they should buck up, these things happen all the time. Remember my magical day as an Actor last post? I didn't hear anything from any of those opportunities. I could sit and feel bad or defeated but I don't. Who knows?! I may or may not get any of them. I had fun and most importantly I tried. There have been countless times I have been in the presence of this same person and they have gotten praise or opportunities that I didn't get. I didn't make that mean I am not good enough. Why on Earth would I do that? Why would any of us? We are all amazing wonderful beings.

Cheers to that. Cheers to you. Cheers to my person who is still amazing. And by golly, cheers to me for getting this lovely blessing today. I am excited and super grateful. Thank you God. I may not have let it shine bright, but I have been beaming about it. All day.

Tee-riffic: Auditionlicious. A magical day In the Life of An Actor

noreply@blogger.com (Teemaree) — Sat, 23 Jul 2011 05:18:00 +0000

3 audition notices last night had me picking wardrobe, mapping out my locations, running lines, and getting to bed early. Today was amazing from the start. Here's how it went down...

Woke up showered, dressed, headed out to eat:

Once done, loaded up my car and drove to my first location. Ran lines the whole way there. Parking spot was found right in front. YES. First audition had me pregnant. Complete with strap on belly. I also had a set and props. Awesome. I felt good and had fun. *Preparation is everything... ;)

Back to car for clothes, off to change at facility bathroom. Headed out to next location. Arrival? On time. Parking spot opened up right before me. YES. On way to studio, 3 beautiful white butterflies encircled my path. Is this really happening?? It did. Thank you God. I seriously reached out to one inviting it to land on my hand. A little Disney sure but hey I'm a "seize the day" type so why not try right? There was a slight wait but no shortage of entertainment. A phony cricket had me and many others fooled. I almost screamed. Thank goodness I didn't. There were child actors dressed up as ladybugs and bees, a casting director that wasn't having the best day somehow making it all seem so comical. What a wonderful life indeed. I got to play. I had fun. I interacted. So fulfilling..

Audition #3 was also on the west side. One of my loveliest friends lives in the area and she had been on my mind. I got to visit her and spend some time. A cherished few hours and delicious Thai lunch later, I was off to what I thought as my 3rd and final audition.

Enter the casting office and there's an explosion of sound. Like a hen house. Just a bunch of ladies, a lot of New Yorkers, and a little chaos. It was awesome. While waiting I greeted some of the casting directors I know there and got invited to audition for another project. YES!!! Amazing. I ran back to my car (where I *have some spare clothes for surprise auditions) and changed my top to read for this new project. I then was up to go in for what was originally my 3rd opportunity. I left soaring with the clouds. Happy, grateful, excited. I love what I do. I had never had 4 auditions in a day before and to have so many other amazing things happen, I was and still am on top of the world. So much so, I just sang all the way home.

The items in this blog that have asterisks are tips to fellow actors.

To those that appreciate the photographs, have iPhones, and wish to create their own or "follow" me and all my pics, go to Instagram for fun, fun, fun!! I'm teemareedotcom :)

Perspective is everything and while I get to be a lot because I'm an Actor, what I choose to be most is happy. Won't you join me??

Big love, enjoy your weekend.