The Life Intended

The Final Fire the Grid Event - 11/11/11 at 11:11GMT

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 17:50:00 +0000

From Fire the Grid:

Fire the Grid I - Be One.

"Be still thy mind,
Make thee One with the Source of Life."

The earth's vibration has been increasing steadily since July 28, 2009 and many feel it quite acutely. Accelerated consciousness is spreading everywhere as humans become ever more present and accountable for their role in the energetic creation of a new world.

Previously "hidden" or inaccessible portals containing wake up codes for the Soul are making themselves known to many, in ways we had only dreamed of previously.

Today, we are thrilled to share the next date. As some have now realized, the FTG events have been a countdown, beginning with FTG III back on July 17, 2007 and moving forward. The trilogy of FTG events has been vital to begin the healing of the earth grid while raising our collective consciousness to facilitate this transition into a new paradigm.

The next and final FTG energy date is November 11, 2011 at 11:11 GMT.

This date has again been given to Shelley by her guides, wonderful otherworldly beings she has described as liquid light in appearance, and immeasurably Loving. Vibrationally, November 11, 2011 at 11:11 GMT is the most substantial energy date of the three thus far. It will be encoded as the previous two with highly charged awakening potential as a cosmic opening rains down creative energy upon the earth. All three FTG dates have been shared with us so that we might heal our planet all while reconnecting with our Divine origin by truly living the lives our Souls intended for us before we arrived on earth.

As many know, we had little time to prepare FTG II in an ideal manner, as the information was made public but a few short months before the date. For FTG I, we will have ample time to spread the word. We have just over two years of joyful preparation to become a gathering of like-minded humans the likes of which the world has never seen! Although the bar is high after July 17, 2007, we aim to surpass this which is no small feat indeed.

Shelley has described the next date as an unparalled celebration for humanity, and we are planning many incremental stepping stones to build up to November 11, 2011. Over the next several weeks, we will begin to disseminate Shelley's insights, both through the written word and through video filmed this past Spring. We are also considering monthly preparations, likely to be centered around the 11th of each month and concentrating on the integration of principles needed to move forward with facility and comfort. More on this will be forthcoming.

At a personal level, I have never felt such an incredible desire to share absolutely everything I was born to do. Intuitions, knowledge, poetry, my beloved music; all is finally aligned. And it will bring me great joy to travel the world spreading every one of these things over the next two years through speaking engagements, conferences, musical performances and high frequency events.

As I am now quite fond of saying, the message is not the messenger, and never has this been more synchronistic than in this present moment. We have been led most graciously to a great door and we have simply to cross the threshold. All is truly in Divine right order. I believe that when we focus intently on the message and its meaning, we become a proactive conscious cell of Light, radiating outward into the world with confidence and strength. For once we have gained access to important information, does it not become very much our own responsibility? As many are now saying, "the time of the Guru is over."

Fire the Grid has touched millions of lives and we are just getting started. Awakening to our amazing human potential is a contagious bliss, an addictive passion. This movement belongs to each of us. It belongs to humanity. And each of us has an equally important role to play in its manifestation.

We are looking forward to meeting each of you over the next two years in this most remarkable of journeys.For it is the road to a defining moment in our history, a chance to reconnect with our Divine origin and in the process, restore the earth to a state of health and sustainability.

This is a collective path in every sense, and we continue this work with great diligence and honor. For even with Divine intervention, Shelley always told me that her guides advised that we must "put a bit of ourselves into it." It is one thing to walk the path, and still another to know it intimately. The next two years will be all about just that.

We have defined our intention to the Universe and we have chosen to be present and accountable in our actions.

Now we will begin the process of Becoming One. One with the Earth. One with one another. One with timeless Truths. One with the Source of Life.

On November 11, 2011 at 11:11 GMT, we will collectively "Become One" in a manner and in numbers that will change the course of human history forever.

With all our Love,

Bradfield

(for Anael & Shelley)

Official Fire the Grid 2 Promotional Video

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 07:26:00 +0000

The July 28, 2009, FTG 2 event is just days away! Please visit Fire the Grid for all the details and to access a World Clock that will confirm the right time for you to participate in your timezone!

I have posted previous messages about Fire the Grid:

FTG 2 Official News Release ;

The Light of Grace ;

Fire the Grid and Project Cause Update

To see all 6 previous FTG related posts, please click "Fire the Grid" in my tag cloud (right hand sidebar).

Fire the Grid Update #2 -- Official News Release!

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Sat, 21 Mar 2009 19:12:00 +0000

Exactly one year to the date after my FTG update and interview with Shelley Yates comes the following official news release from the FTG Team (released March 17, 2009):

"The messenger continued onward, driven solely by a deeper understanding that upon the scroll in his hand were words more precious to mankind than his own very life..." - Bradfield

Dearest Friends of Fire the Grid,

Since the beginning of time we have had messengers that brought messages from Divine Source to the ears of humanity. I was instructed to be that messenger for the Fire the Grid event on July 17, 2007. I followed the instructions to the letter and we as a group of humans were successful in firing our earth grid. It re-energized the field around our planet and catapulted humanity in a different direction. Together, we have accomplished a tremendous feat in our unity.

Since that momentous day, I have been quite silent, and I am now ready to share with you what I have been doing this past year and a half. Always know that I am but the messenger, and often times, much as in times of old, carrying a message takes a tole on the human body and on our own energy field.

I have been walking the long journey back to me. I have been healing and becoming strong so that I may pick up this directive where I left off. During the last 18 months I have struggled with the mind, body, spirit connection. That has proven to be well worth the effort. I am in peak physical health I have lost 90 pounds and have gained much needed confidence. I have shed layers of doubt and disbelief. I am strong in this new place of physical health and spiritual connection. My life is full and wonderful. I have wonderful friends and a supportive family. I am happy. I am most blessed.

I now bring a new message. I come to you humble and ready to proceed. I have many instructions left to share with the world, instructions to raise and maintain your personal vibratory frequency field, instructions to assist us with this great time of transition, a way to ease the way.

There will follow a series of messages for the people of earth. They come from a collective energy source whose only desire is to see us all as abundantly blessed as I. They have given me the instructions and on March 28, we will post the next series of instructions on the Fire the Grid website.

Annie and Bradfield have supported my return with unwavering faith. They have stood tall through my most difficult journey and I love and thank them both publically here because without them there would be no Fire the Grid in any capacity. So thank you both from the bottom of my soul. I love you. I would also like to mention that both Annie and Bradfield suffered from not being able to reach out to all of you in my time of absence, as from day one, Bradfield was steadfast that the Fire the Grid website was only to contain my words and the instructions which I have directly received from my Light friends. And thus, in their silence, they were honoring this same integrity, as difficult as it was. Both of them want you all to know that they treasure greatly your wonderful support of their music as well as the relationships they have built with so many of you.

I am ready, but asking those I have hurt or let down is a most humbling place to find myself. Yet that is exactly what I am doing. I am asking for your support, support of the messages of love, support of sharing the physical instructions to assist us with the lifting of our individual fields. This in essence will lift the field of the entire planet.

Why do this you ask?
The answer is to help ease this transition into a new time.

In humbly asking for your support of Fire the Grid and its spin off projects, I promise with my best and purest intention to walk always in the light and present truth the best way I can regardless of what form that may take. I am a fervid servant to Fire the Grid and all other endeavours that have been placed in my knowing.

I remember now who I am and why I have come this time. I am willing and open to be led. I surrender to the guidance and the role I play in its delivery.

I cannot say what the future will look like, nor can I become mired in the details of "how" I or any one of us will make something happen. I choose simply to show up and make myself available. I know that I will be led.

Thank you, thank you, thank you my dear friends for all your past support. Whatever paths we choose to walk I will honour them. I love you all dearly and I am sorry I disappeared from your lives. It was necessary for me to retreat so I could become who I am today.

So once again, I say if my message resonates with your knowing of truth (as with the directions of the original Fire the Grid) please join us on March 28 at the updated Fire the Grid site where I will share the details about the next major energy date and what is coming next. http://www.firethegrid.com

We will be also sharing with you many of the thousands upon thousands of testimonials we received from July 17, 2007 onwards. These are precious words to me indeed as they are your words, your own accounts and experiences describing how you lived the Fire the Grid meditation.

We have a lot to do to make up for lost time, but with Divine Source so benevolently directing, all is in Divine right order.

Big hugs,
Samoiya Shelley Yates

Shadow Work and Other Musings

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Sat, 21 Feb 2009 04:30:00 +0000

Is it my imagination, or does time appear to be speeding up? I mean, I'm a few years away from fifty, and yes, I recall hearing when I was a child, that as I got older, time would appear to speed up. And yes, I have witnessed just that -- especially after the transition from childhood to adulthood. However, the time shift that I have been feeling over the course of the last two years is something altogether more intense and different. I mean, I don't think it's an age-related perceptual thing. I think time is truly speeding up.

That said, I can't believe it's been more than four months since I last posted here. Four months and still no material change in my life, though as far as my heart is concerned, I no longer feel the same degree of blockage that I felt four months ago. I feel restored, and in that regard, though my channeling ability is still off the rails, I'm perfectly okay with that. In fact, one of the main reasons I have returned to post a message is that I have finally come to accept that it is perfectly okay with me if I never channel another message ever again. This is definitely a new mindset for me. You see, it was difficult for me to adjust to the lost connection having had the ability to connect with spirit for eight consecutive years. What a wonderful gift that was, and to suddenly lose it, well, I passed it off as a phase that I was going through. Be patient, I told myself, and it will return. And I was patient. And I was patient some more. And then, a shift in my perspective suddenly occurred. And I'm pretty sure I know why it happened.

About a year ago, I woke up unexpectedly in the middle of the night at my traditional 3:30 am hour and soon found myself channeling a message from The Guardians. The message is posted here. In any event, although the message was clearly directed at me as well as others, I failed to understand why the message was directed at me. The advice that came through pertained to something that I had already done. So, why were The Guardians urging me to do it again? Well, rather than confronting that confusion and realizing an answer, I ignored it. And my life unfolded as it did. And then about a week ago, I posted a link to The Guardians message on the social network, Gaia -- and one of the comments I received surprised me. You see, the woman who left the comment indicated that although she had done similar shadow work in the past, she felt the message was a reminder that the time was right to do more. Well, if this comment didn't cause me to stop and think (I know -- that can be dangerous some times, haha). Anyway, my thought was this: How could I possibly think I was done with shadow work? The shadow work that I had done happened five years earlier, and I had only attempted to clear those blockages that had happened prior to the age of twenty. Yes, the process had been extremely successful. But how ridiculous was it to think that I had not collected all kinds of energy blockages since the age of twenty. I mean, we're talking nearly another thirty years since the age of twenty! Consequently, when the penny dropped (upon reading my Gaia friend's comment), I decided I was finally ready to follow The Guardians advice. I even began to think about where to begin -- what experience to dredge up from the past as a starting point -- however, I wasn't able to make any headway that day as my day was full of commitments. Neverthless, it was definitely my intent to begin as soon as I was able, and wouldn't you know it, that very night I had an extremely disturbing dream -- so disturbing, in fact, I cursed and swung my fists with rage when my wife tried to wake me. Thankfully though, she didn't get hurt by my actions. I am also thankful that I awoke with total recall of the dream --and of course, surprise, surprise -- it was all about a very stressful experience my wife and I endured very early in our marriage (nearly twenty years ago). In other words, the shadow work was underway -- and clearly, there were blockages to be dealt with -- major blockages!

In any event, once I realized I had some work ahead of me, logic began to sink in. And the logic went something like this: Hmmm. I have been living with some serious energy blockages that need to be released, and yet, I have also been channeling messages for people -- in a low alpha state -- meaning, my consciousnness remains very much aware of what is coming through as it comes through -- meaning, my lower self, the one that is rife with energy blockages could very easily influence the channeling without my knowledge (or permission)-- a very good reason why I may have lost my connection. I mean, it suddenly seemed pretty obvious to me: The Guardians knew it was not in my best interest or the interest of anyone else to allow me to channel. Not that my intent wasn't to be of service and to do good work, because it definitely was. It was about the clarity and unbiased integrity of the information. So I was cut off -- or, some aspect of my higher self cut me off -- at least, that was my realization. And guess what? The moment I accepted this as the reason I lost my connection, I felt suddenly ready to post a new message (here) for the first time in four months. I also experienced immediate movement in my external life (where previously everything was so completely and utterly stuck). So who knows? Have I truly turned a corner of sorts? Well, time will tell -- it always does. In the meantime, I am feeling good and hopeful and positive again -- for the first time in a long time -- certainly since I last posted.

By the way, if I seem to disappear from this site for an extended period of time, chances are you might find me posting on my Gaia blog.

Thanks so much for your patience and support!

Namaste,

Mathew

October 14th Lightship and More

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Fri, 10 Oct 2008 20:26:00 +0000

After several unsuccessful attempts to channel guidance for myself and others, I'm sorry to say but I see no option but to suspend my free channeling offer until further notice. I honestly don't know what happened to my connection. All I can say for sure is that my heart chakra feels closed -- similar to how it felt for many years prior to the intervention I was blessed to receive from my spirit guide and my guardian angel (beginning in 1999). In the meantime, I am doing my best to accept the situation with patience and trust.

On another subject, for those of you who followed my posts about "miracles" (back in June and July), nothing significant has changed for me; I am still very much in a similar predicament as I was at the beginning of the summer. That said, this lack of material change, coupled with several small setbacks, plus my inability to channel has caused me at times to experience intense waves of confusion, separation, and frustration -- feelings I overcame for the first time in my life as soon as the aforementioned celestial intervention began in 1999. Needless to say, it has largely been the reemergence of these old feelings that has stopped me from posting for several months now.

On a more positive note, in recent weeks, I have been excited (as many of you have) about the possibility of a coming celestial visitation. I can't say one way or the other whether a Lightship will indeed materialize on October 14th (as Blossom Goodchild has received -- or before the end of 2008 as several other channelers have received). All I can tell you for sure is that the idea excites me. That said, the unfounded excitement I felt as 2007 transitioned into 2008 (see this post) has still not proven itself in any material way -- thus, either my current excitement has something to do with the legitimacy of this predicted event or it could simply be that I was already hoping for something unusually monumental to occur before the end of the year (in order to justify my unfounded anticipation/excitement at the end of 2007). Either way, one can't deny, these sure are exciting times we live in...

The Light of Grace

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Sun, 06 Jul 2008 15:11:00 +0000

On November 11, 2006, at 11:11 am, my friend, Shelley Yates (of Fire the Grid fame), had a naming ceremony in Bedford, Nova Scotia, where she accepted her spirit name, Samoiya, in front of a small group of about sixty or so friends and family. It was a deeply touching ceremony, full of the most heartfelt emotion; I was most grateful to be a part of it.

That said, in the spirit of the last post, the parable, SAGE WOMAN DREAMS OF GOING HOME, written by Marjorie Garner, and in honor of the approaching one year anniversary of Fire the Grid (July 17, 2008), I am posting the following piece, THE LIGHT OF GRACE, written by Shelley Yates, and spoken at her naming ceremony. (By the way, for a recent (2008) update regarding Shelley Yates, Fire the Grid and Project Cause, please see this link.)

The Light of Grace has found me,
Found me here, far from my true home.
It dwells inside me, within me, around me,
Alive, living, breathing connected and whole,
Divinely guiding my human to the peace of ages.
Swirling, divine light connected to source,
Feeding my loneliness for home,
Reminding me that this is just a journey,
Take not the ride too serious,
For one day soon I will be home again,
And these earthly experiences will be but a memory, a thought.

The knowing, the simple knowing that I am a piece of this Divine Light is sheer elation.
To wake and feel the connection; to know I live whole and that I will never be alone again.
This tickles my senses and spreads a deep joy throughout my body.
Morning tingles lead to daylight joy,
Sincere joy, alive in this human, relishing the moment, embracing the difficulties,
So I may learn something new today,
So that I may touch another and share this blessed light,
So that many may see my stride and know,
That peace exists even for those of us who have traveled the dark road.

I have found this joy in life, this light,
The warmest sun upon my face,
Reminding me that home awaits my return from this most difficult journey called life.
The human endeavor, surly my most challenging choice,
But the loveliest sensations bid me, find peace in the moment,
In the moment lay the sensations that make the journey worthwhile.

All this too shall pass and the lesson will be a piece of me,
To pass and share, to shine light for others,
So they too may find the peace of which I speak.
Joyous lighted peace of the heavenly Divine,
Holding me close simply through choice,
Seek and ye shall find,
Ask and it shall be delivered.

Know thy own light and the truth shall you set you free,
Free to be, alive on this plane with bliss in your heart sharing the journey.
Know thy brethren for they will assist in the tale; creating together.

With lighted joy I take the real piece of me to the front,
Pulled free of the human restraints I now find me,
I bring to you the very best of me, my full potential revealed,
I am Samoiya, warrior for the Divine, seeker, knower,
Sharing the knowledge, sharing the light,
So others too may find the path,
And light the way for those that follow,
Finally, One with Light of Grace:
One earth, One mind, One Light, One race.
Beautiful in our individuality,
Most alive when we share our light with another.

A Beautiful Parable

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Sun, 06 Jul 2008 02:28:00 +0000

The following parable, SAGE WOMAN DREAMS OF GOING HOME, was written by a new friend of mine, Marjorie Garner, of Butte, Montana. It was written at Notch Bottom, on the Big Hole River, near Glen, Montana --- population 7:

The sound of the Big Hole river --- lapping --- slowly moving --- October-like --- the color a deep navy blue. I could sit here and breathe in the smell of sage 'til I fill up with the fragrance --- so big, so strong, that I become part of the sky --- like quaking aspen leaves, floating in the air. And little pieces of me, little round dry leaves will float for miles, --- across the river, into the cottonwoods, over the prickly pear cactus, the juniper, the sage, the greasewood and rabbit bush --- over everything --- until the pieces of me --- the dry leaves ---finally reach the golden eagle rookery.

And a young eagle --- while soaring in the sky --- will say to its mother: “What are all these little dry leaves --- falling from Heaven? They look like aspen leaves, but they’re not.”

And his mother would answer:

“Oh, those leaves are just pieces of that woman who loves sage. I’ve seen her here before. I’ve seen her pick sage twigs and juniper twigs and put them in her pocket. I’ve seen her looking up at us when we’re in the sky, craning back her neck until she fell over. I’ve seen her sitting on the ground, holding sage against her nose, breathing it in. I have seen her tears. I knew something like this would happen to her if she kept doing that, and she probably knew it too.

She loves this place. She loves our sky, our river, the willow, the juniper, the greasewood, the rocks, the old bones, the wild flowers --- everything of the earth and sky she loves. She even loves the little high-tailed chipmunks that scurry around. Those tiny little chipmunks --- you know --- the ones we like to eat for dessert!

I know all this because I’ve watched from the sky, with my eagle eye. I’ve seen her on her back staring at our sky, watching the clouds roll across --- the dolphin clouds, the shark clouds, the lace clouds, the long finger clouds. I’ve seen her face down on the ground, kissing it! Can you imagine?

And that’s where she wanted to be --- a part of the earth --- and that’s where she is now. She breathed in so much sage she turned into floating aspen leaves and became a part of everything --- as we are.

So, my son, the leaves you see floating through the air, they ARE Sage Woman.

I’ve heard her pray for rain, a healing rain, and it would come. Whatever she asked for, it would come. She asked to be a part of mother earth, and --- so --- now you see --- these tiny pieces floating through the air --- these little aspen leaves, they ARE Sage Woman, and

SHE HAS COME HOME.

SHE HAS COME HOME.

*****

A note from the author:

Mathew, by all means, post the Sage Woman story on your website --- a great honor for me. It's odd, but when I first wrote the parable about 13 years ago, many connections of Spirit began to occur because of the writing --- I met people I would have otherwise never known --- people who saw the parable through friends who had copies --- I have never promoted myself --- it is always word of mouth. As it happened, my little grandson was with me and my older son that day --- he was fishing with his dad on the Big Hole river --- and I sat in the jeep or walked around looking at the exquisite beauty of nature in that area.

I had nothing to write on, so I found a big manila envelope in my son's vehicle and began to draw a chambered Nautilus on one side. Then, being fairly bored and too warm for comfort, I turned the envelope over and began to scratch out the feelings I was having at the time. Of course, the woman is me, and the sentiment was a deep feeling I had --- a sadness about what was happening to our Mother Earth, and what was happening in my life. A yearning to "go home." To go home is the yearning we all have, so I guess that accounts for the strong emotional response people have to the story. And the fact that we are all "connected."

When my grandson came back to the vehicle, I read the story out loud to him. He said, "Gramma, I loved the part where you fell over backwards." We had in fact been watching golden and bald eagles that morning, craning our necks back until we almost fell over. The area is filled with eagles, and other magnificent wildlife --- bears, wolves, elk, antelope, beaver, blue heron, and a river so pure and deep blue in color --- filled with native fish. A very, very isolated place --- to get there you must pass over a road filled with boulders and mud --- but, oh, the reward.

So my grandson asked me to type the story up (had no computer in those days) and I did, and sent it to him in Butte, where he was living with his mother at the time. He took it to school. All the English teachers at his grade school shared it with their students. Then someone at the college I was attending asked if they could publish it in a journal, and her husband, who was a filmmaker, wanted to meet me and find out who "wrote that?? Then, I was communicating with a lady who had a website called Sage Woman, and she asked to put it on her site. Then a friend of a friend asked to put it on her website, and a half brother asked to put it in his little magazine, and finally, the best thing of all --- a Japanese lady who was teaching Japanese at the college I was attending --- and who had experienced Hiroshima first hand --- read the story after I had given it to her as a birthday present (not having money to purchase anything for her). She was a very, very reserved lady, and so intelligent and spiritual. She came to school the next day and thanked me for the story, and then burst into tears. She said it touched her at a deep level. I was appointed her "guide" and assistant during her one year stay. It was magnificent to share with her --- I miss her to this day.

Okay, So Where's the Miracle?

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Mon, 30 Jun 2008 00:13:00 +0000

Back in early June I gave a brief account of how a series of fortunate events transpired that promised to keep me afloat until early July. Well, since that time, a series of unfortunate events occurred that worked against that promise. For starters, the two potentials I spoke of in early June both fell apart as easily as they materialized. Then, two other means of financial assistance that I had been promised and counted on, both fell apart without notice. Consequently, four days ago, I found myself in the unenviable position of having to ask my father-in-law if he was in a position to loan me some money. Talk about humbling. Not that he did anything to make me feel uncomfortable. In fact, he was surprisingly understanding, encouraging and kind, and actually offered me double what I asked for (and he is not a wealthy man by any means). So, in spite of my belief in myself and in my alignment with the universe, money did not fall into my lap in any of the ways that I expected it to. So now what? Was it wrong of me to expect a miracle? Should I revise my beliefs because I ended up in a position where I had to ask a family member for a loan? Or do I continue to follow my heart and my passions in the belief that there is no higher road that the universe wills for me to follow?

I would appreciate hearing your responses, whatever they might be. But I will tell you this -- over the course of the last several years I have had many conversations with my wife about this very thing -- especially when we have been close to the financial edge (and yes, there have been several times) -- and my wife has always taken the position that I should go out and get a job -- any job -- regardless of whether I like it or I am passionate about doing it. In her opinion, when you need money, you do whatever you have to do to make money. Funny thing is, I believed this too for more than twenty-five years. And I did just that -- I went out and made a lot of money at the expense of my happiness, at the expense of my relationships with my wife and my children -- and then the angels interceded in my life and slowly but surely, they taught me that there was a better way to go. Consequently, for the last eight years, I have been doing my best to follow their advice, and although it has not been easy, I am still standing, my family relationships are stronger than they have ever been, I have actually completed some creative pursuits that I have never been able to complete before in my life. And perhaps even, God willing, I will soon see some money from these pursuits. In fact, the day after I arranged the family loan, a potential investor in one of my projects materialized and requested a meeting for Thursday of this coming week.

Finding Your Life's Purpose

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Sat, 14 Jun 2008 15:37:00 +0000

Why should you Find Your Life’s Purpose? by Ineke Van Lint.

Many spiritual traditions revolve around one central question: “Who am I ?”

Even the business world ponders this crucial matter. According to business gurus, the first step on the road to success is asking yourself this very question:“What’s my mission? What on Earth am I doing? Am I in the right place?”

If you can’t answer these questions, then you are wasting 90% of your time and energy doing things that are neither your mission nor your business!

You will feel an inner anxiety, urging you to search for the deeper meaning of your life.

If you consider living to be painful, if you feel dissatisfied, if you feel “there must be more than this”, if you feel out of place in this world, then you have not yet found the purpose of your life.

If you are questioning the meaning of life, if you can’t find inner peace, if you are not satisfied with choices you’ve made in life, if you don’t know which way to turn, if you feel your life is stuffed with things that aren’t of your choosing and that don’t satisfy you, if you often feel burdened and bad-tempered, if you “have everything to feel happy” but don’t, then it is time for you to discover your true self!

Human beings want to feel useful. We long to give our lives some deeper meaning. As long as you have not discovered this deeper meaning, you feel frustrated and on the wrong track.

We want our lives to be worthwhile. This does not mean we need to achieve ‘great feats’ or become world famous. We just need to feel in place and do the right thing surrounded by the right people. It’s about finding out our mission. It’s about finding ‘inner peace’.

Our mission on Earth is twofold. The general aspect is that we are here to learn to bring more love into the world. The personal aspect is that everyone has its own peculiar, unique way of doing this.

Your mission represents the central piece of your life.

The surrounding pieces represent your family, your relationship, your kids, your job, your home, your health, your friend, and so on. The centerpiece holds all of this together.

That centerpiece, that’s you. You are the most important person in your life, and you came to this world to do something important. Otherwise you simply would not be here!

As long as you haven’t identified the centerpiece, you’ll be wrestling with dissatisfaction, powerlessness, frustrations and fatigue.

Some people solve jigsaw puzzles by first fitting all the pieces on the borders, and then squeeze in the piece in the middle. That’s putting the cart before the horse.

These people reason: “When I find the right partner, find the right job, get paid a good salary, have some kids, have my own house, meet some friends, stay healthy, then I will be happy!” But that’s not the way things work.

As long as the centerpiece is missing from the puzzle, you too will feel empty inside. It is your responsibility to discover your mission and get things under way.

Even the cells of your body react to this lack of purpose, this feeling of emptiness. They suffer from spiritual malnutrition, feel useless and bored, resulting in a physical state of sluggishness and lethargy. This physical state will eventually cause several physical discomforts and complaints.

Occupying yourself with “your disease” and “feeding” yourself with medication or other such products is just another attempt at filling the void inside. This is because the status of “being ill” allows you to identify: “I am allergic to this or that, I am a cancer patient, I am an Alzheimer, I am…” Once you have started identifying yourself by your disease, it will certainly be on your mind day and night.

If you are not in touch with your own desires, you will easily fall prey to expectations projected upon you by your environment. If you are not following your own path, then you must be following someone else’s! If you are not clear on your own life mission, you will find it hard to say “no” to what other people want you to do. This undecidedness makes you available for all who cross your path and want a piece of you, draining your energy.

As long as you are not clear on the shape of that centerpiece, you are submitted to others who may not care about what’s best for you. Just like disease, these kinds of negative relationships are a manifestation of low-level energy, showing that you have lost focus and have strayed from your own golden brick road.

Your self-esteem is probably pretty low and you suffer from serious doubts and fears.

The longer you put off the search, the more the feeling that something is missing will devour you. Your self-esteem will only decrease.

The best way to rebuild your fragile self and re-establish an inner sense of security is to make the search for your life mission your number one priority, and subsequently fully dedicate yourself to it.

Why is this so important? Because you can only find real joy in life by discovering and living according to the unique way of your personal evolution.

But, maybe you think, can’t I just continue living life the way I have been all along? My life may not be all that exciting and rosy, but it’s still doable. Can’t I just try to hang in there and keep the status quo?

The answer is “yes”. You can keep living your life in a monotonic, sad, senseless way. But don’t expect any real satisfaction. The need to feel useful is so fundamental that you cannot feel happy as long as you have no clue what you are here for.

That’s exactly the difference between humans and animals. For an animal it may suffice to just sleep, hunt and eat, but humans look for the deeper meaning of life. Humans “know” that we are here on Earth for something more important than just eating, sleeping and working.

Your mission gives meaning to your life. Your mission IS your very reason for existence.

You are not alone in this search. This mission is also looking for you. It wants to be fulfilled by you and by nobody else. It is your personal mission. Nobody else is equipped to do it for you. Your mission will keep haunting you until you take it seriously and start implementing it.

Going against your mission is going against yourself. This is the same as ignoring the call of your soul, as ignoring your strongest desires, as signing a contract for eternal discontent...

You can’t escape your mission. One day you will have to start dedicating yourself to it.

Has this day come for you now? After all, you are reading these lines which shows your honest desire to start looking for the deeper meaning of your being.

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Written by Ineke Van Lint. My main goal is to get your energy and excitement flowing again and to make you create a life filled with enthusiasm, by passing you my energy, experience and tools so you can find your passion and your reason for living and realize your dreams and yourself.

Ineke Van Lint is a practicing psychologist and workshop leader.

She holds a degree in psychology, is an International Facilitator in Kinesiology, an International Instructor in Brain Gym (which is sometimes called Educational Kinesiology), and is a member of Mensa International. She lives in Luxembourg.

Miracles -- An Update

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Sun, 01 Jun 2008 23:30:00 +0000

Just thought I would provide a quick update to my post about miracles. It's June now, and when I posted about my finances back on May 4th, I didn't know what was going to happen to allow me to cover my expenses into June. Well, although nothing major happened to improve my overall financial status, I did have a few minor happenings that are worthy of mentioning. For starters, two of my credit cards automatically extended my credit (without a request) -- so I am now able to cross the threshold into July. Also, because my wife and I patiently waited for four months for our apartment management to arrange repair of a minor plumbing problem, management not only fixed the problem, they decided to reward our patience with a substantial discount to June's rent. Taken together, these three things had a significantly positive effect on my finances. Would I be so bold as to call them miracles? Why not? I didn't seek any of it. And I certainly needed the help. And the help materialized. In the meantime, two other situations have developed that might also provide me with money. I don't wish to speak about them in any detail yet since neither of them are sure things, however, once again, both of these possibilities fell into my lap in the last two weeks without any effort on my part.

In the meantime, I hope you will come back to find out how my family and I will make it through to August. By the way, when I say "make it" I am not suggesting that we are by any stretch of the imagination scraping by. We are not foolhardy with the funds we have, but at the same time, we are not frugal either. For instance, I just made a trip to Toronto last week to help one of my daughters move. And the week before that, my wife travelled to Toronto and then on to Ohio for a Doll Making workshop. In other words, life hasn't come to a stop just becuase our finances are at an all time low. We are simply living day to day and trusting that all is well.

The Lightworker's Prayer

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Sun, 11 May 2008 17:07:00 +0000

From The Lighworker's Way by Doreen Virtue:

I choose to stay centered in the awareness of love, God, and my true self. In this center, like the eye of a hurricane, all is tranquil, safe, and peaceful. My power, wisdom, and peace comes from staying in this center, and I ask for spiritual support from God and his angels to keep my mind aligned with truth. I willingly detach from the material world, knowing that by so doing, I can effectively help others. I trust God to provide my every need, and I allow His omnipotent wisdom to direct me in all ways. I accept a steady diet of love and joy, knowing that I deserve happiness and health. I willingly and lovingly release all ego judgment about myself and other people, knowing that everything I want comes from my decision to experience the oneness of all life. I know I am meant to be a healer and a teacher for God, and I now accept my mission fully without delay or reservation. I surrender all behaviors that would block me from hearing my inner voice, and I happily trust my inner guide to lead me along the lightworkers way, where I joyfully serve as an instrument of love. I release any doubt or fears I may have about fulfilling my Divine mission, and I now commit to staying aware of my inner Voice for God. I know that this is the only tool I will ever need for my own healing and the healing of the world.

Amen

Miracles… Do they really happen and is it wrong to expect them?

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Mon, 05 May 2008 03:17:00 +0000

Having had only three months of paid employment in the last three years, my finances have finally come to the end of the line. Credit cards are maxed, assets have long been liquidated – there is enough credit left to wiggle through May, and maybe just maybe enough to cross the threshold into June, but truly, not a penny more. Game over. Done. Finished.

So what happens then in four, five, six weeks time? Will my family be evicted and forced to live on the street or will some miraculous solution save us? And what is my responsibility insofar as causing a miraculous solution to manifest? Should I begin to do something that doesn’t feel right in my heart just because I have run out of money? In other words, does the apparent severity of my situation necessitate compromising my beliefs and values? Or do I simply continue to do just as I have been doing for the last three years – that is, everything I can do to align myself with God/Love and the perfect/purposeful Universe? I mean, if God is truly the loving, benevolent, compassionate and perfect/purposeful Creator that I know Him to be, doesn’t it make perfect/purposeful sense that this same Creator will always provide me with a means to support myself and my family when I align myself with His will? Or have I completely lost my way on this one? I mean, am I naïve? Am I a spiritual Pollyanna? Is it also possible that I just think that I am in alignment (and that I have achieved some semblance of understanding) when truly, somewhere along the way my understanding has taken a calamitous turn into delusion?

Clearly, I see two choices before me: Continue to trust in my cumulative experience and receiving, or throw in the towel and go looking for a job – any job – just something to get me through this period of financial stress.

Well, believe what you will – but I see this period in my life as a test of faith. And given all that I have experienced and received, I am unable to abandon my beliefs/values/understanding (even if temporarily) just because the material plane continues to persist in reflecting lack and challenge. Thus, I am asking for a miracle. And I have no doubt that a miracle will soon take place.

All is well.

Peace.

Fire the Grid and Project Cause Update

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Mon, 17 Mar 2008 19:24:00 +0000

***NEW March 17, 2009 -- Fire the Grid Update #2***

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If you participated in the Fire the Grid (FTG) meditation as I did back on July 17, 2007 (exactly eight months ago), you are likely aware of the fact that ever since this event transpired, there have been no updates posted to the FTG website nor has there been any news about Shelley Yates. Consequently, many FTG participants have been left to wonder, "Did our actions make a difference?" "Will there be more meditations?" "What is happening with Project Cause?" "And why have there been no updates?" I know I wondered -- which is precisely what led me to sit down with Shelley for a face to face interview on February 2, 2008.

PLEASE NOTE: Although I have been friends with Shelley Yates since October of 2006, (as well as with Bradfield and Annie), this post is by no means an official update to Fire The Grid or Project Cause.

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To begin with, I would like to tell you that Shelley has lost a lot of weight over the course of the past eight months. I am not a very observant person (as my wife will often lament), however, even I couldn't help but notice the extensive weightloss, especially in Shelley's face. Nevertheless, because we had spoken numerous times over the phone before I came to visit, I knew that in spite of how great she looked, beneath the surface was a woman very much engaged in a struggle to find peace and happiness in her life.

As Shelley settled into her couch, I asked her to tell me about her life since July 17th and to explain why there hadn't been any updates to the FTG website. "Ever since Fire the Grid," she began, "I’ve been very focused on my health. I’ve been going to the gym and exercising and I’ve lost sixty pounds. I’ve also been diligently working at refocusing my mind and creating a healthy environment for my children, and in order to do this I had to take the entire spiritual world and set it to the side. I can’t be good to anyone if I’m no good to myself. So I’ve been concentrating on making myself healthy and happy and balanced. And when I finally step into that balance, I know I will be able to do anything. But right now, walking the path is a challenge and I’m like everybody else. I’m trying to meet the challenge head on and be the best person I can be. But it’s not easy."

As much as I was (and still am) sympathetic to Shelley's struggles (and impressed with her physical transformation), I was feeling unsettled and perhaps somewhat agitated by the fact that no follow-up information had been posted to the FTG website since July 17th. Was there anything Shelley wished to say about this I asked? "One thing I’d like to say," she replied, "is that just because someone has had a spiritual experience, it doesn’t mean they suddenly have it all together. That’s certainly not the case with me. You know, I have a real degree of respect for someone who’s walking the spiritual path without any real experience to hold onto. I mean, I’ve had tons of experiences – tons of tangible spiritual moments that I can go back to in my mind and go 'Wow. That was incredible.' And yet, the path is still a challenge to walk because I’m a really stubborn human and a really stubborn survivor. And trying to get my human to trust Source rather than allowing it to rely on its usual survival tactics, that’s where the greatest challenge lies. And I’d lay ten to one that for most human beings who want to be better people, the challenge lies there for them too. Because to surrender and say to Source energy, 'I know that I am being led to the place I need to be right now,' and to do so with faith and trust, that’s very challenging. And that’s why the walk is so hard."

I would be remiss if I didn't tell you that several weeks prior to this interview, I was blessed to experience an unexpected surge of inspiration and excitement when I was granted access to the many thousands of comments that were privately posted to the FTG site in the days that followed July 17th. What an inspiration! In fact, I was so genuinely moved, I asked and received permission from Shelley (and Bradfield and Annie) to organize and prepare the comments for posting on the FTG site (minus full names and/or other personal information). Anyway, I did my part, however, as for when the comments will be posted, I honestly don't know -- I would only like to say that I hope it happens very soon because for anyone who might be uncertain as to whether we actually did a good thing by Firing the Grid, all they would have to do is read a few of the FTG comments to realize that something extraordinary and unprecedented happened that day.

Incidentally, given Shelley's state of mind since FTG, it should come as no surprise that she has not yet been able to read, let alone respond to any of the comments. In our interview, I asked her if there was anything she wanted to say to the many people who had left questions on the FTG site and of course, hadn't yet heard from her. "Only that my inability to respond," she said, "hasn’t been out of lack of respect for people’s experiences or for their ideas or their thoughts." (For purposes of edification, it was clear to me that she was making reference to the fact that by focusing on her health and family, she had literally no time or energy left for anything else. Also, strangely enough, ever since July 17th, Shelley has struggled to write -- even emails have been next to impossible for her -- thus, to write an update for the FTG website, or to respond to participant's questions -- it was (and still is) something she is incapable of doing).

Of course, Shelley's meditations and/or communications with the Light Beings also weren't without difficulty after July 17. In fact, Shelley told me that on the several occasions that she attempted to meditate, her attempts were mostly unsuccessful. As for her meditation on July 17th, Shelley had this to say about the experience:

"When the time for Fire the Grid came, I actually had to do what other people were doing which was to go back and find my simple joy. All I could think of was my children’s faces and their sweet little bodies, and just being near them and hugging them and kissing them and that’s what I spent my time thinking about during my meditation. I felt thankful and blessed that my baby boy was back in my arms, that my baby girl had me back, and that we were, you know, together. And that’s where I found my joy that day and I was able to say thank you. And at the end of the meditation, there’s this long tone [at the end of the "Light & Love" CD], and all I heard was 'thank you.' That’s what I heard. There was no download of information, there was no skies opening or turning pink. There was nothing but a simple 'thank you.' I think these Beings knew I had been through the ringer, and they were like I think we better leave her alone. She’s burned out. As soon as it was over, I went home and slept. That’s what I did."

As for Project Cause, I tried to engage Shelley in conversation, however, she was nowhere near the right frame of mind to think about it. Consequently, I was left with a very clear impression that until Shelley is a hundred percent, or until there is a mechanism in place (a new and free social network perhaps?) that allows all of us who participated in FTG to find each other and to communicate with one other, Project Cause should (sadly and for the time being) be referred to as Project Pause.

As for future FTG events, all I would like to say at this point is that Bradfield and Annie do have information about a second global meditation (in summer, 2009) and hopefully they will make it official very soon -- perhaps when they publish all the comments? As for Shelley, whether or not she recovers soon enough to promote the event remains to be seen. Nevertheless, having experienced this once already, I'm sure those of us who participated in the first meditation are more than capable of doing it again -- whether Shelley is positioned out front as the spokesperson or not.

As for the question, "Did our actions (on July 17th) make a difference?" As I said earlier, for anyone who is unsure in their heart, the FTG comments speak volumes. However, until those comments are made available for all to see, for those who are scientifically minded, I have posted (below) the summary results of Princeton's Global Consciousness Project (GCP) as it relates specifically to FTG. Although GCP is very much a study in progress, I found the results very exciting. Furthermore, for those who are interested in subjective experiences, on August 2, 2007, Dr. Meg Blackburn Losey posted a very interesting FTG follow-up on her website. I have taken the liberty of reposting it following the GCP material.

By the way, if you are interested to know how many people participated in FTG on July 17th, although there is no way of definitively confirming the exact number, based on the number of "hits" and "visitors" to the FTG website over the 45 day period immediately preceding July 17th, and based on the membership of the organizations that actively promoted FTG, it would appear that the number is somewhere between 6.5 and 22 million people. (I think 6.5 million, Bradfield thinks 10 million, Annie thinks 22 million!) Either way, a staggering number of people when you consider that three people organized and promoted this event with no money and no advertising!

Finally, in defense of Shelley and her actions (or inactions after July 17th), I would just like to say that Shelley is truly doing the best she can to deal with her life and to find balance. And whether or not she finds the strength and the inspiration to continue the work she started with FTG, in my opinion, she (and Bradfield and Annie) truly did a remarkable service for the world in bringing together the millions of people that they did. Furthermore, just to set the record straight, Shelley has never profited from FTG, nor was it ever her intention (or that of the Light Beings) to do so. "Billboards for the Cause" (the t-shirts and novelties offered for sale through the FTG website) was something that was implemented well after the launch of the FTG website on the suggestion of a FTG team leader who was looking for a simple way to promote awareness. And even though some profits were generated, those profits, along with a portion of the sales of the "Light & Love" CD, were exclusively used to cover the fixed costs of the website as well as to cover some FTG travel expenses.

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PLEASE NOTE: The following report has been copied in its entirety from The Global Consciousness Project:

Fire The Grid

The "Fire The Grid" event set for July 17 2007 brought a huge number, perhaps 10 times as many as for similar events, of notes from around the world, interested in notifying me of it and asking whether we would look at it as a GCP event. We decided early that it would be included in the formal series, and specified exactly the time defined by Shelley Yates in her presentation and descriptions. Here is an example email, which has the necessary information and some interpretations that help explain how the event is of importance:

Some of you may have heard of this, some may not. But it is simply this:

On July 17, at 11:11 Greenwich mean time (7:11 EST) there will be thousands, perhaps millions of people who will attempt to heal the planet by raising their own energy vibrations and sending them out to connect with those of others.

To join, you don't have to pray or meditate (although if that's what makes you happy, bring it on...:-) Simply engage in anything that brings you joy: listen to your favourite music, hug your children, walk your dogs and let the joy of life fill you up. Thank the universe for this special moment and imagine yourself spilling over with a brilliant light that you send out to connect with that of others.

The idea is this: Everything in the universe has a vibration. When you feel down and depressed, your vibrations are low. With all the problems that are facing us, humanity and our environment, we have all become preoccupied with our difficulties and their associated fears. Slowly, our own and our planet's vibrations have become depleted.

If we can all raise our vibrations at the same time, we can raise those of the Earth and start the healing process. Give it a shot! You've got nothing to lose and everything to gain.

To raise your vibrations on a daily basis do this:

- Be in the moment For instance, we all have put food in our mouths while being distracted. Taste it, feel it filling you up and savour the sensation. Do this with all things as often as possible.
- Give thanks to the universe, even if it's just for a great parking spot

- Love and forgive yourself.

- Live your life to enrich that of others

To learn more about Fire the Grid, you can watch here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cqUAluDvuU4

Or visit:
http://www.firethegrid.com/eng/home-fr-eng.htm

The formal event was defined as the one hour period from 11:11 to 12:11 GMT on July 17. The Chisquare is 3731.7 on 3600 df, for p=0.062 and Z=1.542. This is in accord with the prediction, and is marginally significant.

Below, we provide exploratory analyses that give some context for the formal analysis, since so many people are interested. It is important, however to understand that single events are not expected to answer the subtle questions we ask in the GCP. Because the average effect size is small (Z ~ 0.3) we cannot generally interpret single events with reliability; we need repeated tests of the same type of hypothesis. That having been said, we see that the Fire the Grid event has a positive outcome, consistent with the prediction, and indeed shows a larger deviation than the average.

I encourage people interested in this and other occasions that bring us together to meditate or pray for a better future to trust your/our feelings and direct perceptions of the effects. The GCP analyses are a very interesting adjunct, but they should not be seen as a test of the intent or success of the gathering of minds for good purpose.

The full day of July 17 (UTC) is shown in the next graph, with the hour-long Fire the Grid (FTG) event marked. While the cautions about interpretation of single analyses apply here also, it is interesting to note that the FTG presents a notable "spike" of positive trend on a rather consistent day-long background trend that is negative. For a larger context it is instructive to look at a long term trend analysis that shows some suggestive correlation with polling data that in turn may reflect our communal state of mind. Here too we see a general trend that if regarded as the "true" expectation would make positive deviations more impressive.

Again, we do not believe it is appropriate to interpret single events even though it is tempting to do so when the "picture" looks good. The signal to noise ratio is way too small, and to make claims based on any single experiment in this domain is potentially misleading. It happens in this case that the FTG event is one in a decent size collection we have assembled over the years, and it is consistent with the general outcome. Good stuff, but just the beginning of learning about the stuff.

Numbers Engaged

We have modestly persuasive evidence that the effects in GCP data are a function of the numbers of people engaged. When millions are likely aware of an event and likely participatory in some sense, the effects are larger and more reliable. We don't have an objective count and have to rely on estimates and best guesses for the most part. The Fire the Grid event provided an opportunity to look at web-based counts, as a step toward a useful measure of N. Here is what Google and YouTube looked like over the time around the FTG event.

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PLEASE NOTE: The following article has been reprinted in its entirety as it was originally posted on Dr. Meg Blackburn Losey's website Spirit Light Resources :

August 2, 2007

Greetings to each of you! Much has transpired since our last transmission! First of all, the most asked question that I have had since July 17th is DID WE FIRE THE GRID?? The answer, unequivocally is YES!!! So what happened? What continues to happen? Ok, here goes ~ As we all came together to Fire the Grid on July 17th, the intensity on Universal levels was amazing. If you could hear it (which I could) our Oneness sounded like a huge humming that had a pulsing rhythm. We were not only addressing the earth grid, but the Universal consciousness as well. As the humming intensified, the fabric of creation slowly rose, like a huge wave. The wave changed frequencies, changing to higher and higher vibrations as it rose. At about the 45 minute mark, the wave collapsed from a convex rise to a concave trench-like form. Next, I watched as the convex format began to shift and change, the frequencies continuing to rise. And then it all smoothed out like calm waters. This was one of the most powerful events that I have ever witnessed. We unified the earth grid with the universal mass consciousness, something that has been lacking for eons. And as we did, the earth grid had its own reaction. Many described seeing or feeling blue lights that went on one right after the other. Every sector of the earth grid that wasn’t working, that wasn’t lit, awoke. The field of blue energy that occurred (which by the way is a very healing set of frequencies) expanded and then the entire grid glowed golden. That’s right. We brought the frequencies of our very source to the earth grid. We are powerful in our being and even more powerful when we unify for the greater good. We did this with intention, with passion, and with Grace. So now what??? I know that many who participated may have expected immediate results. In many ways we are seeing those. The earth has begun to rebalance. If you watch the earthquake patterns regularly (which I do) you would notice that the pattern has shifted slightly and that there is movement in areas that we don’t normally see. The intensity of the pacific ring of fire has changed as the ring has shifted slightly as well. The intensity of lightening has become greater, with huge lightening storms occurring as the grid balances. There have been great releases of the electromagnetic energies from within the earth. This is a sign of shifting and changing. In fact, these releases have been so prevalent that most of the people I have shared healing sessions with of late have partial or full reversal of their chakra systems. This has been consistent across the board. Before we fired the grid, I was only seeing this in the earthquake zones. And then there are the space time relationships. How many of you are seeing things? They are there, then they are not? People, animals, indescribables? The dimensional barriers have thinned even more, and there are communications going on that are easier to relate. And the elementals have been hugely active. Have you seen the little squiggly patterns in the air? Little spirals covering your entire field of vision? Those are the basic elementals and they are alive, awake and active in the way that they were when our original root races existed on our planet. And in the news, politicians exposed, injustices being made right or at least challenged. And this is just the beginning. Energetically, we have experienced many changes. Our overall frequencies have been amped up considerably. And we have been refined. Many of you might have noticed how much more sensitive you are to things. That is because you are more accessible. When we fired the grid, we experienced a major cleansing. Our particulates have a different mathematic ratio than they did before the event. The very fabric of our manifested selves in relation to all creation is now spread farther apart, allowing information to flow through us more freely, uninterrupted (unless of course we are kicking and screaming, resistant to the very changes we intended!). And speaking of energetics, remember that this kind of work always has a trickle down effect. As the energies of what we have done reach our earth and therefore our experiences, the effect will grow and grow, becoming more and more sound and obvious. Don’t think for one moment that you didn’t make a difference. That we didn’t make a difference. All I can say is I am honored and privileged to belong to the One of which all of you are a part. The most important part of this entire event was the unification of peoples across the globe for the intention of love. As we united, there were no boundaries, no differences, no fear or defenses, only LOVE. And that is huge. It is the beginning of the unification of humanity for the greater good of all. And what better service is there than to intentionally change the experience of every being in our world and beyond. We are Blessed.

The Guardians of the Light

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Mon, 17 Mar 2008 18:38:00 +0000

Who are The Guardians of the Light?

Dear Mathew, The Guardians of the Light are pleased to have this opportunity to address this question. We are an energy that has been present in your plane or dimension since the dawn of time. The reason of our being is to oversee the progress and the evolution of humanity. Yours is a very special race that has been undergoing many trials and tribulations throughout the ages, and we, The Guardians of the Light, have been with you for all those trials, guiding and assisting in the many ways that we are permitted, always encouraging, always seeking to honor and uphold the tenets of free will that have been established for your plane, and coordinating our efforts with those of other realms as well, those of the realms of existence that are beyond the reach of the human capacity to communicate. So we are between two worlds, in a sense, bridging the human world to other realms, while acting as overseers of the human realm. This is who we are. God bless, The Guardians of the Light.

Please note: This post was previously called "Q&A With the Guardians" however, effective February 23, 2009, I omitted the questions and answers section of this post.

Free Channeled Guidance

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Mon, 03 Mar 2008 16:55:00 +0000

UPDATE: Effective October, 2008, I am no longer offering channeling services (free or otherwise). Please see this post for further explanation. Thank you.

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After dedicating the better part of the last eight years to cleansing, purifying and transmuting personal negativity (while in tandem, striving to re-align myself with the vibration of my highest, truest self), I woke up the other day to the realization that I have overlooked the obvious for several months now (if not longer).

In the process of my re-alignment, if not for the channeled guidance that I have been blessed to receive, for all my recent bouts of uncertainty as to who I am or what it is that I am supposed to be doing with my life, I have never been more consistently peaceful, strong, happy, excited, and hopeful as I am today. In fact, coming from the frustrated, angry, depressed and hopeless person I was (for nearly two decades) prior to the intervention of spirit in my life, it is hardly an exaggeration to classify my personal changes as miraculous!

All that said, ever since my family made the move to Los Angeles (back in July of 2007), I have found myself surrounded by people who channel. And being focused as I was (and still am) on my personal goal of developing and producing uplifting films, I felt certain that my filmmaking ambitions were the reason. However, after feeling stuck for a period of the last several months, the penny dropped the other day when it suddenly occurred to me that maybe there was another reason for all the channels in my life. And maybe that reason was because spirit was trying to inspire me to take my own channeling abilities to a new level.

Feeling suddenly excited by this realization, I arranged to meet with Darryl Anka for lunch. Of all the channels I had recently met (or spoken with -- there were seven), Darryl was the one I knew I would feel most comfortable confiding in (please read this story about synchronicity and Darryl Anka for further clarification). You see, as much as I had channeled countless messages over the years, I felt like there was something I needed to learn about channeling that was keeping me from reaching out to others; and who better than Darryl to discuss this with? Anyway, after spending a few hours together, Darryl helped me to understand that I had already been guided to know everything I needed to know about channeling! The only thing that was left for me to do was to publicly state my intention and let the rest unfold as it may!

So here I am -- offering my services to anyone who would like free channeled guidance. The way I envision this exchange taking place is through email. All that I require from you is your full name, your geographical location, your email address and your question (or questions). I will then do my best to reply in a timely fashion. Please be assured, all personal information will be kept in complete confidence. I will, however, retain the option of posting questions and answers in a way that does not reveal your identity. As for how to contact me, given that I moderate all comments before they are posted to my blog, if you include an email address and/or other relevant information in your comment, I will save this information but will not post it.

Looking forward to hearing from you,

Mathew

Synchronicity: Gotta Love It!

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Sun, 13 Jan 2008 04:28:00 +0000

The Backstory:

A couple of months ago I woke in the night and felt compelled to do something I had never done before -- namely, to channel messages for some friends. In the end, a total of five messages came through -- each signed off by a group soul that identified itself as The Guardians. Now, I had received messages from The Guardians in the past, but because it had been quite a while since the last occasion, I decided to Google them to see if I could find any recent references. And I found one: a woman named Laura who had been channeling them semi-regularly over the course of the last few years (see this link). Anyway, the more I read Laura's messages, the more certain I felt that we were channeling from the same source. I then decided to check out her links and noticed that one of them was Kryon -- a channeled being to whom I had recently been directed by a random email from a friend of a friend. Upon further investigation, I found a link to another channeled being named Bashar. Not knowing anything about him, I decided to check out his website and soon found that I resonated so completely, I enthusiastically wrote about it in a post called Darryl Anka and Bashar.

Meanwhile, in what I thought was a completely unrelated event, I posted back in October about my first meeting at the Institute for Spiritual Entertainment (ISELA) -- see Who Am I and Why Am I Here? As I wrote in my post, when I left the meeting that night, I felt so strangely and overwhelmingly sad and confused, and I didn't know why. And I couldn't settle myself down to sleep that night until a time prompt at 1:11 that morning seemed to turn things around. (If you don't know the synchronistic significance of 1:11, see this post of mine.)

Okay. Now the story:

About a week ago I suddenly wondered if there had been any more ISELA meetings (since the one I had attended back in October). In order to find this out, I visited the ISELA website and began reading the home page. After a few seconds, I realized that I was reading a summary of the last meeting -- the very same meeting I had already attended. Nevertheless, something compelled me to keep reading right up to the end where it summarized the moment where this producer stood up and talked about a project he was working on -- a mockumentary about life after death. The reason he was speaking was that he was looking for people to attend a read through of his script, and as much as I found his project interesting, I was feeling very tired that evening, and didn't feel like making a commitment. Well, wouldn't you know it, when I read the summary, I couldn't help but notice that the producer's name was Darryl Anka -- the very same name as the man who channels Bashar. Could it be that in a completely different context I had passed up an opportunity to meet this man two and a half months ago -- the very same man that I had been enthusiastically endorsing in my blog just two weeks ago?

I immediately Googled Darryl Anka and found the film career of the producer I had seen at ISELA. But there was no information that linked him with Bashar. And the Bashar website was based in Hawaii -- not Los Angeles. So I wasn't convinced. But then I came across some Bashar channelings on YouTube and I was pretty sure the man who channels Bashar was one and the same as the man I saw at ISELA. Too weird! I decided to send an email to the Bashar website.

That night I got a response from Darryl. Yes, he was the same man. We traded a few emails and discovered that we live in the exact same suburb of Los Angeles. We were practically neighbors! We arranged to meet for coffee.

After coffee at The Coffee Bean (I drank juice), Darryl invited me to stop by his house to pick up a script he had written. (Actually, he gave me two scripts). I went back home and over the course of the next 24 hours, I read the scripts. (One was the mockumentary that he spoke of at ISELA. The other was autobiographical). Well, I have read many scripts in my day, and let me just say that good screenwriting is not as easy as it looks. But Darryl and his writing partner (Tracy) are very good writers. (I shed a few happy tears at the end of his autobiographical script).

Long story short -- I can't say with any certainty why the Multi-verse brought the two of us together, but let's just say I wouldn't be surprised if at some point in the near future we collaborated on a film project! Also, the thought crossed my mind that maybe the strange sadness that overcame me the night of the ISELA meeting had something to do with the connection I had failed to make that night.

Too cool!

By the way, although I let Darryl know I was available to meet at the drop of a hat, the soonest he was available to meet was five days after our email exchange. Guess what date that was? It was yesterday -- January 11, 2008 at 10:00 am -- aka: 1:11:1:1

Healing the Old Wounds

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Sun, 30 Dec 2007 19:22:00 +0000

About five years ago, I had an experience where I was guided by intuition to write down in as much detail as I could remember, every last painful experience I had from early childhood through to the age of 20. It took about a week to flush out every last one -- every last hurtful, shameful, guilt ridden memory -- but I did it -- and through the process, I discovered a lot of painful memories I had long buried. Needless to say, I shed a lot of tears that week. And yet, as every tear fell, I forgave myself and I forgave everyone else who played a role in my memory, and I moved on to the next. Well, in all my 47 years (thus far), this one process did more to change my life for the better than any one thing I have ever done. (And all this from someone who had a pretty good childhood!) Anyway, last night at 3:30 in the morning, I got out of bed and channeled a celestial message from a group soul that identifies itself as The Guardians of the Light. Here is the message:

There is a great divide that exists between the heart and mind of humanity at this time and we wish to fill the gap -- to bridge it so to speak -- by welcoming humanity to reach out to spirit, to express their innermost fears and desires, in whatever way they feel most comfortable, but to express them in a physical way, and know that they are heard. This connection, this reaching out, and this bridging the gap, is the beginning of a healing; a healing of the collective heart of humanity. It is essential for the heart of humanity to heal, and until the wounds are expressed, until the anger is expressed, until the tears are shed, there is little we can do to help in a meaningful way. Unfortunately, it is the wounds that close the heart, and a closed heart is not welcoming to assistance from those in spirit who are able to help, those who vibrate in the frequency of unconditional love. Therefore, our message to you and to all who read this, is to find a place of peace and solitude, and reflect on your hurts and your struggles and your sorrows, and express them. This is soul work. This is the work that you must do to connect, and to allow us to help you. Express, release, and begin the healing process. It is work, yes. It is not something that will come without pain, however, please have faith and trust in love -- know that it is there for each and every one of you – and begin the process of healing the old wounds; not only the wounds of your childhoods, and the wounds of your life experience, but the wounds of history, the wounds of your ancestors, the wounds that the generations have carried forth and passed on throughout the ages. The cycle of hidden pain must stop, and a new era of open and honest expression must be birthed. Now is the time. Now is the right time to heal and to progress and to evolve into the beautiful beings that you are. You are beings of divinity -- beautiful expressions of the divine -- talented, special, unlimited and eternal. Go forth my children and express your sorrows, and birth the divine beings that you truly are. God bless and God speed.

The Guardians of the Light

The Excitement Continues

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Thu, 27 Dec 2007 23:08:00 +0000

As I previously mentioned (in The Coming of the End of 2007), I have been feeling a palpable sense of excitement regarding 2008, and in light of recent developments, I thought it was worth mentioning this again. First of all, it is so unlike me to feel a lasting sense of excitement about anything. Rightly or wrongly so, I perceive my most frequent emotional state as being generally neutral, and as much as I long to brighten myself up, it has been a life-long struggle -- at least, to do so in any sustainable way. So what could be the difference these last few weeks?

Although I have no way of proving this (or anything on this website, for that matter), I am convinced that a significant energy shift has taken place. And I have received agreement on this from two members of my family, as well as from a dear friend -- all of whom are feeling a similar sense of excitement. I have also come across a few channeled messages that echo these same feelings. One example is the following message that was sent to me by a friend of a friend who knew nothing about what I was feeling, and who had never before sent me a channeled message. (Please note: When you click on the preceding link, you will be taken to a blank page where an audio file will load. It should take about 4 minutes). Thus, the timing and content of the message was a true case of synchronicity. By the way, the message (from a spirit entity known as Kryon) is a bit evangelical in tone for my taste, however, the content of the message relates to this new energy that some of us are already feeling.

Further to all of this, the last two nights I have had lucid dreams that were unlike anything I have ever experienced before. The first one involved surrendering to an incredibly powerful energy that spun me in the air. The feeling was indescribably amazing -- not frightening in the least. Unfortunately, because I was in a hallway (in my dream) when the spinning began, a splinter of fear caused me to at one point worry about colliding with the walls of the hallway -- and unfortunately, that fear woke me from the dream. Nonetheless, the energy of the spin was so powerful that when I awoke, an overwhelming sense of gratefulness caused me to shed a few tears.

The very next night (last night), the dream I had was a flying dream unlike any other I have ever had -- and I have had many. The colors were so vivid, and my awareness that I was dreaming -- so keen -- again, it was indescribably amazing. Also, the dream lasted for a very long time (for a flying dream), and when it ended, I felt truly grateful for the experience -- and also grateful (and excited) to find myself back in the 3D world.

Anyway, just a few more reasons to be excited!

Darryl Anka and Bashar

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Fri, 21 Dec 2007 16:15:00 +0000

This is just too good not to pass on!

Last night I came across a (free) trance-channeling audio recording on the web of an entity named Bashar. (Please note: Once you click on the Bashar link, you will need to scroll halfway down the new page, click on "Listen to an Intoduction from Bashar." Then, click on option #2.) Not knowing anything about the current world of trance-channeling, I had never heard of Bashar. But a series of synchronicities led me to find the Bashar website where I listened to a 12 part introduction and boy was I pleased I did. Not only was Bashar funny and entertaining, but he also scored 100% on my truth-meter -- which is to say, everything he said was in harmony with what I have learned thus far through my celestial teachers and my life experiences. Needless to say, I would highly recommend having a listen to all 12 parts!

*****

Here is a video I found on YouTube of one of the above mentioned audio files.

Bashar: Finding Your Highest Excitement

Bear in mind the old adage: Don't judge a book by its cover! Admittedly, the personality of Bashar is exceptionally spirited and the Irish-sounding accent oddly comes and goes, however, when you truly listen to the content of the message coming through, whether you believe it is Darryl Anka putting on a performance, or whether you believe an ET named Bashar is speaking, truly listen to the content and let your discernment be your guide as to whether the content has value for you. In other words, to quote another old adage (I seem to be fond of them this evening): Please don't throw out the baby with the bathwater. God Bless

The Coming of the End of 2007

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Mon, 17 Dec 2007 20:48:00 +0000

Looking back on 2007, all I can say is "Thank God it's nearly over!" What a tough year its been -- and from what I've heard from other lightworkers -- a tough year for many -- especially the last quarter of the year -- WOW! For many, myself included, no matter how diligent we were at maintaining a positive and loving vibration, regardless of the circumstance, nothing seemed to improve. In fact, many aspects of our lives seemed to get worse.

For me, extreme money problems plagued me the entire year, and I'm not out of the woods yet, although a temporary solution seems to be taking shape that will at least cover me to mid-2008. (I mentioned in previous posts that I own shares in a private company -- well, one of my partners has offered to buy my shares -- and, well, given how cash strapped I am, it seems the perfect time to sell). So, my prayers are about to be answered -- and as a result, I will have enough money to continue to follow my passions into the New Year. Did I mention how excited I am about the prospects of 2008? I can't explain it, other than for the past few weeks, amidst a barrage of extreme and unusual (for me) mood swings, I have been feeling a sense of growing excitement about 2008. It's as though my Higher Self knows that all the struggle and blockage associated with 2007 is about to give way to synchronicity, flow and abundance. I swear I can feel it, it is so pronounced. And since I began to mention this to a few other lightworkers, I have heard that I am not alone with these feelings! Thank God!

Who Am I and Why Am I Here?

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Wed, 17 Oct 2007 16:56:00 +0000

I've never been one to gloss over the truth and I'm not about to start now. Ever since I began to diligently align my thoughts, words and actions with Divine Love (for the past several years now), I have gradually witnessed my material life fall apart. Quite literally, my career has withered away before my eyes. And although this hasn't been the most upsetting part of my journey (I have long felt that I was in the wrong career anyway), what has been most upsetting has been the fact that following my passions hasn't led me to a new source of income. You see, part of my journey involved taking a huge leap of faith by moving my family to Los Angeles in spite of having extremely limited financial resources to get there and stay there. Nevertheless, everything pointed in that direction (see Angelic Intervention), so we did what we had to do in order to make it happen -- we sold our possessions (many for 10 cents on the dollar) and we made the move.

Three months later, here we are in Los Angeles, and although it feels great to be here, I am no closer to generating an income from my passions. In the meantime, the more clearly the limits of my credit facilities come into view, the more anxiety rears its ugly head -- and the more I wrestle with that age old question: Who am I and why am I here? The ridiculous thing is, I have been guided by spirit to pursue my passions, and I have been counseled by spirit that by aligning my intentions with Divine Love I will be provided for. Given the incredible spiritual experiences I have had over the course of my life, I have learned to embrace this counsel. It makes absolute sense to me and I continue to embrace it in spite of the pressure my wife (and the bills) exert on me to go out and get a job. Unfortunately, I just can't go out and find myself a job strictly for money -- not if money is the sole motivating factor. It is simply not possible for me because to do so would mean negating everything I have been guided by spirit to learn. In a sense, my entire world view would crumble. (For those of you who have seen the movie "The Matrix," I have taken the red pill, and there's no turning back.) Thus, I suppose it makes sense that while I have been recently suffering anxiety flare-ups (on two occasions so overwhelming that I resorted to burying my head in a pillow and screaming at the top of my lungs), I have also been experiencing an unmistakeable resurgence in time prompts -- specifically, times ending in multiples of 11 such as xx:11, xx:22, xx:33, etc. (For those of you who don't understand the significance of time prompts, please see 11:11).

Bearing all this in mind, yesterday night I decided to check out the Institute for Spiritual Entertainment Los Angeles. It was my first time attending one of their meetings, and as it happened, it turned out to be the first time they were using a new speed networking format similar to speed dating. Consequently, I met 18 people of various backgrounds in about an hour. It was a buzz to meet so many new people in this way, however, by the time I got home at 10:00 pm, I felt confused, sad, and lost. And I had no idea why. And I wondered if it had something to do with the choice I had made to speak about my passion to produce uplifting movies as opposed to my deeper passion of pursuing The Life Intended.

Nola headed off to bed a few minutes after I got home, but because of my emotions, there was no way I was ready to do the same. Instead, I sat in the dark where I prayed, meditated and contemplated life. Then I took a long bath. Then I sat in the dark and contemplated life some more until I suddenly wondered what time it was (the last time I had checked a clock it was 10:22). Not having my glasses on, I had to step within a few inches of the microwave before the digital display came into focus: 1:11. Given the state of confusion I had been feeling for the last three hours, to see 1:11 immediately created a mixture of feelings -- on the one hand, I felt comforted, on the other, I couldn't help but think the Universe was playing a cruel joke on me. So which one was it? I immediately went back to the couch where I sat down and contemplated my crazy life for another half hour until I finally felt a sense of peace wash over me. And I was still feeling that same sense of inner peace this morning when I happened across a website called The Nibiruan Council where several articles spoke of common challenges shared by lightworkers across the globe -- including issues with money. (See Running Out of Money?). I can't say that I was in complete agreement with the views expressed on the site, however, just to know I wasn't the only one, well, it was a comforting discovery. Once again, time prompts and synchronicity to the rescue. Thank you God! And thank you angels!

As for the next set of bills and how they'll get paid -- stay tuned!

Supernatural or What?

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Mon, 01 Oct 2007 14:05:00 +0000

The following personal accounts (of mine) have been extracted from a letter I wrote in July 2006 to the author of the book "The Sins of Scripture" in response to the author's claims that there is no such thing as supernatural phenomenon:

The first of my so-called supernatural experiences occurred when I was a 21 year old agnostic (24 years ago). I was naively fooling around with "automatic writing" one day when I unwittingly set in motion a harrowing experience. Having purposely placed a pen in my hand and invited a ghost to write a message, if in fact ghosts even existed, after no more than five minutes of waiting, a wave of pins and needles suddenly entered my body through the crown of my head. Moments later, the pen began to move, and in short order, I had a collection of drawings which I excitedly brought over to my parent's home (to show my eldest sister).

After a rather anticlimactic presentation, I left the drawings in my parent's sitting room (a room that adjoined my parent's bedroom through an open archway) and went back to my apartment. In the meantime, my sister decided to take a nap in my parent's bed - a nap that lasted about an hour, abruptly ending when unintelligible mumbling sounds suddenly became a very clear command to "Get out! Get out! Get out!" Although justifiably spooked, my sister left the room and passed the whole thing off as an odd dream. Later that night, when my mother arrived home, without knowing anything about my sister's dream or my visit earlier in the day, my mother was assaulted by a most vile and repugnant smell the moment she opened her bedroom door. Immediately calling for my sister, my sister soon verified the foul odor for herself, and as she did, she suddenly recalled my visit earlier in the day and the drawings I had left in the room. A half an hour later, the smell hadn't abated when I arrived, having been summoned by my mother to come over in order to remove whatever it was that I had brought into her house. Interestingly enough, while standing in the room feeling angry, ashamed and afraid, I witnessed the smell get noticeably worse as my mother and sister prayed to God for help. That night, we all slept in my sister's room, half expecting more to happen. Fortunately though, the night was completely uneventful. The next morning, the smell was gone and at my mother's behest, I burned the drawings in the fireplace. [Please see The Ghost That Started My Journey for more.]

My second supernatural experience occurred a year later at the age of 22. I had been struggling with unhappiness and depression at the time; however, it had never occurred to me that dropping out of university was an option. And then suddenly it did. And I was immediately overcome by an unexpected flood of joyful tears that was soon followed by a strange vibration that occurred in both of my arms. It was as if my arms had suddenly fallen asleep although I was sitting on a window seat at the time, and the circulation in my arms was perfectly unimpaired. In any event, with my arms suddenly vibrating in a very strange way, I watched in amazement as they slowly began to rise up from my side, gradually moving towards one another until my hands firmly came together in an obvious position of prayer. The vibration then continued for several more seconds while I unsuccessfully tried to pull my hands apart. You see, I still considered myself agnostic at the time, and once my hands came together in prayer, something unexplainable seemed to tell me to get on my knees and pray. But I was so full of ego and pride that there was no way I was going to bow down before God, whether God existed or not; I just couldn't understand why an intelligent being should need to submit and pray. So I refused. Instead, trying with little effect to pull my hands apart until I suddenly had another unexplainable thought: I was dying -- at which point, my hands immediately fell to my sides and the strange vibrations immediately ceased. The effect of the impeccable timing between the thought that I was dying and the cessation of all the unusual sensations wasn't lost on me. Just like that, I truly believed I was dying. And the experience didn't end there. As it happened, over the course of the next two hours, I went on to experience an acute fever and a remarkable visitation by an invisible being who told me he was there to escort me to the other side. Of course, I was anything but cooperative. In fact, most of the two hour ordeal was spent fighting for my life with someone I have since come to think of as the Grim Reaper - a spirit I never actually saw although I telepathically spoke with him as clearly and unmistakably as if he was standing in the room beside me. He was hardly a loving or a patient being; on several occasions he tried to forcefully pull my spirit from my body (through the general region of my solar plexus); a rather unpleasant sensation that caused me to thrash about. Furthermore, when my thrashing seemed to prevent him from taking me to wherever it was that he seemed intent on taking me, he resorted to threats. Needless to say, when the experience finally ended, I could no longer call myself agnostic. (The experience ended when in a fit of frustration, the Grim Reaper threatened to take my father instead of me. Previous to that, all threats were aimed at me and me alone; however, as soon as a threat was leveled at my father, I agreed to go peacefully. Moments later, my fever broke and my experience was over.) By the way, I may have experienced an acute fever (it climbed as high as 105), but I remained fully conscious and aware of what was happening at all times (my family trying to reassure me that I was going to be okay, the doctor that arrived and diagnosed me as bi-polar and left a prescription to be filled). The fever simply created the right conditions for my consciousness to clearly communicate with both the spiritual and physical dimensions at the same time. I never did have that prescription filled. And incidentally, I never did find the courage to drop out of university. [Please see The Grim Reaper and Prescient Dreams for more.]

One year to the day later (without being aware of the date until after the fact), a set of unique circumstances led me to feel a sudden urge to pray for the very first time since my experience with the so-called Grim Reaper. Not wanting a repeat of the traumatic experiences of the preceding year, I immediately capitulated by kneeling down and bowing my head to the floor for the very first time in my life. No sooner did I do this, I began to weep from the very depths of my soul. Moments later, the following words spilled forth from my lips: "Why are we so bad? Why are we so bad?" At the time, I hadn't the slightest idea what those words meant, or why I was saying them. All I knew for sure was, I was crying and speaking words that weren't a function of my conscious awareness. Moments later, my confusion was overshadowed by an unseen force that suddenly began to press down upon my back, having the instant effect of paralyzing me; quite literally, I couldn't move a muscle. A few seconds later, my head was firmly grasped by unseen hands that turned it to the side where my eyes immediately beheld a bearded man kneeling on the floor beside me. The man was already gazing into my eyes the moment he was revealed to me and for reasons I can't explain (other than to admit to the immense love and compassion I felt pouring into my soul from his incredible eyes), I immediately knew this man was Jesus (even though I wasn't a Christian nor had I ever had any form of religious education or training). Not a single word was spoken and yet I was filled with a euphoric feeling of calm. A second or two later, the man I recognized as Jesus turned his head away from mine and bowed it to the floor in prayer, and as I saw him do this, my head was turned away to face the floor once again (where it had last been prior to Jesus being revealed to me). [Please see A Beautiful Being's Message for more.] For the next two or three minutes, I remained paralyzed while a movie suddenly played on the screen of my mind. In this movie I was shown a frightening scene of urban warfare in my home city (at the time it was Toronto, Canada), accompanied by a frightening soundtrack of human distress. I thought I was being shown a vision of the end of the world although this was never confirmed. And then the paralysis ended and I was released from the floor. Mind you, the experience didn't actually stop until another forty hours had passed, during which time several events occurred that I would also classify as supernatural. But it would serve no purpose to discuss these additional experiences because I have already given you the highlights. Furthermore, just in case the thought might have occurred to you, none of my experiences happened under the influence of alcohol or drugs, nor do I or anyone in my family have a history of mental illness or substance abuse. These experiences simply came from nowhere, and left me to my own devices to sort them out. And while nothing supernatural happened again for the next twenty years, armed with nothing more than my own personal certainty of God, Jesus and the need for prayer, I tried as best I could to live my life, always wondering why I had been so blessed to have the awakening that I did. Suffice to say, finding answers to the question "Why me?" has been a journey without end.

In closing, all I wish to add is that unlike many who look to religion (and other external sources) for answers, I have spent the last twenty five years looking inward for answers (ever since that first ghost experience). As a result of this practice, I have been guided to find my spirit guide and my guardian angel and I have been taught more about life and love than I ever imagined possible. And because of all that I have learned and experienced, I clearly appreciate and understand the need for religious reform. And I applaud your courage and the efforts you have made and continue to make in support of your convictions. In recent years, I found forgiveness in my heart for myself and for all those who had harmed me in some way during the course of my forty years of life. Soon after, another supernatural event occurred in my life - an experience that left me knowledgeable about something that is conspicuously absent from "The Sins of Scripture". I had always believed the devil was a mythological creature. And then I had an incredible experience that unequivocally taught me otherwise. Evil is a real force in the world. It seeks to destroy life and love and it derives its power from the negative thoughts, emotions and actions of human beings, whether here in the flesh or deceased. I would never have understood this had I not been blessed to experience life in a supernatural way. Consequently, just like life and love, I now know so much more about the nature of hatred and fear than I ever imagined possible; not only why it is so pervasive in our world but why it is so essential for us to strive to align ourselves with unconditionally divine love and to trust and abide in that love above all else. [Please see Anatomy of a Spirit Attack -- Part 2 for more.]

*****

Having reread the above extraction just today, I realized that I should also have included reference to the 1111 phenomenon -- something that had first come to my attention in dramatic fashion in August 2005, before once again overwhelming me in a similar way in July 2006 -- right around the same time the above (letter) was written.

My First Psychic Quest

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Tue, 25 Sep 2007 01:53:00 +0000

(Updated February 7, 2008)

"If you choose to be involved," my spirit guide said, "so be it. If you choose to abstain, so be it. My plan is very simple. It is to set up a phone call between the Mullah and yourself. You will instruct this man to lay down arms and to change his ways because it has been willed by Almighty God. This is as simple as the plan needs to be. It will frighten him to be contacted by a stranger. He will have to decide what to do as a result of this contact. He is a very religious man. It will shake him to his core to be contacted in this way."

I was further told to instruct the Mullah "to have Osama [Bin Laden] make a [New Year's] proclamation that Almighty God has delivered him a message of peace. That all arms are to be set down and peace is to rule the behavior in men’s hearts."

I didn't immediately commit to carry through with the quest, however, I did make it clear that if I was going to do it, I would have to do it from a payphone.

"That will be fine," my guide responded. "You will need about fifteen dollars in change."

The date was December 31, 2003 and although I found the whole thing rather unbelievable, I channeled an overseas phone number that began with the numbers 0118731097. Furthermore, I was told that Bin Laden was hiding somewhere in the hills of Pakistan and that I had only one hour to complete the assignment.

The first thing I did was check the world area code listings in my white pages for an area code beginning with 873. When I found no such code, I decided to call the long distance operator from my house just to see if perhaps there was a new (unpublished) area code. On the phone, the operator was very friendly. After a few seconds she told me that the area code 8731 was in Marsat. "In Marsat? Where is that?" I asked. "Just a minute," she said. "I show it as somewhere on the Indian Ocean." I asked her to spell it for me and I soon learned she wasn't saying "in Marsat," she was saying "Inmarsat." I had never heard of such a country. And I was confused as to why I was being asked to call a location on the Indian Ocean. That was certainly nowhere near Pakistan.

I decided to Google "Inmarsat" and I got thousands of hits -- but they all referenced a corporation. I tried "country of Inmarsat" but I still got that same corporation. Finally, after much frustration, I looked into the activities of the Inmarsat Corporation and the penny suddenly dropped. Inmarsat was an acronym for International Marine Satelite. And 8731 was one of Inmarsat's satelite telephone exchanges. Okay then. Confirmation number 1.

I then decided to Google "the Mullah." I had no idea who "the Mullah" was and I was surprised to get hits. In fact, the first six hits all referenced a man named Mullah Omar. I opened the first link and soon discovered that Mullah Omar was the leader of the Taliban and a close personal friend of Osama Bin Laden. The article described him as very religious, and mentioned how he often looked to his dreams for guidance. A little further in, the artcle mentioned how the Mullah and Bin Laden often took fishing trips together and that they stayed in touch by satelite telephone. Bingo. I decided I had all the confirmation I needed.

To make a long story short, I quickly showered, gathered up my fifteen dollars in change and headed out to the nearest payphone. Unfortunately though, the phone wouldn't let me pay with change -- my choice was to either use a calling card or a credit card. My heart sunk. I was nearing the one hour point and I had to make that call. It was my personal fear that had led me to the phone booth. My spirit guide hadn't been the one to instruct me in that way. So I made the decision to use my credit card. I entered the phone number but the call wouldn't go through. I then called the overseas operator, gave her the number, but still the call wouldn't go through. The operator asked me why there was a "0" following the area code. She told me the "0" wasn't necessary and asked me if I would like her to redial the number. I declined. I had received the number that way for a reason. I just didn't feel right changing it.

When I arrived back home, an hour and five minutes had elapsed. I immediately sat down at my computer and channeled my spirit guide. My first question was to ask if I should retry the call without the "0" in the string of numbers.

"You can relax Mathew," he said. "This is not to be at this time. You have tried to follow through. You were acting from your heart. That is beautiful. We all wish for peace in the world. An endeavor such as this would be useful and good."

"I am thinking that maybe this situation is a result of my ego," I replied. "Does it not seem egoistical to think that I could make a phone call to a “received” number and have an impact on the world stage? Now that the number has failed, it certainly seems that this was all an exercise to show me that I have a fantastically demented ego."

"Yes and No. You have an ego, of course. Everyone does. That is not a bad thing. It is not an act of an egoist to wish peace in the world. It is the act of a believer. This is not egoistical. This is beautiful. God bless you Mathew for trying."

"But what is the point of trying if there is no satisfactory outcome?"

"I don’t know. Perhaps the answer will become evident at a later time. For now, you have done your best. You can do no more than that."

"Okay. But I feel very disappointed. Oh well. If it was God’s will for me to connect with the Mullah, it wouldn’t have turned out this way. It appears as though it was God’s will for me to show my willingness to do such a thing, but nothing more than that. I accept this outcome although I do wish and pray for peace in the world and an end to terrorist activities."

"We all wish for this Mathew. You are not alone in this regard."

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Months later, when I heard about the reward money being offered for information leading to the capture of Bin Laden or any of his top lieutenants, I wondered for a moment if perhaps I should pass along the phone number I had received (without the "0"). But upon reflection, I knew it wasn't the right thing to do. My quest had been to instigate a change in the world using peaceful means, not to condone an act of violence. Besides, I knew enough to know that violence of any sort would only ever lead to more violence. Thus, I decided to keep the number for myself, and to wait for the day when perhaps I would be called upon to continue the original quest.

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On January 13, 2008, I asked my guide if he could offer any clarity with respect to the Mullah incident from a few years ago, and whether there was ever going to be a continuation of that quest. Here was his response:

"Yes Mathew. I do have some insight. That occasion was one in which you were required to learn the difference between something that is in alignment with the All of All and something that is out of alignment. You learned through that experience and it wasn't to be - in the sense that you were never to actually connect with The Mullah - although you were given information that led you to believe that indeed that was going to happen. As for a continuation, because a mission such as that would be classified as interference, it is unlikely to be invoked. There would be too many negative repercussions if love and light were able to interfere on such a level. For now my friend, suffice to say, we are able to counsel individuals and groups on how to live a better life, however, we are unable to take matters into our own hands, so to speak, and force change upon a group or an individual - certainly not by using another human as a means to accomplish such ends. If influence is of order, then conventional means such as dreams or "accidents" or the like are the way we are able to "influence." That is the way it has always been and that is the way it will continue. Perhaps there will be a day in the future when this will be different, but for now, the status quo shall remain in force."

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The following article is from Andrew Collins' website http://www.andrewcollins.com/:

WHAT IS PSYCHIC QUESTING?

If found in the Oxford English Dictionary, 'psychic questing' would be listed as 'using intuitively inspired thoughts and information for creative purposes, be it the exploration of history, the search for hidden artefacts or simply the quest for enlightenment'. It can begin with a strange dream, a visionary experience or an overwhelming compulsion which prompts the person to embark on a sequence of discovery. This often involves uncovering confirmatory facts, visiting sites and places revealed only by intuition and communicating with perceived external forces and influences through either meditational practices or magical processes. Often this takes the form of contact with a so-called genius loci, 'spirit of the place', or site guardian, which provides information in order that the quest might continue on to the next level. However, psychic questing does not have to involve outside exploration. It can simply revolve around archive research or just further magical or psychic experiments which all help the quester to gain a better idea of what they need to know.

In Tibetan Buddhism psychic questing is known as the Terma ('hidden treasure) tradition, and whole books have been written on the processes involved and past great achievements in this field. Those monks who become involved in Terma hunting are known as Tertons ('treasure finders'). However, similar methods of discovery have been used for thousands of years by enlightened individuals all over the world. There are many recorded instances of holy men or women being inspired to find hidden relics (e.g. Joan of Arc), occultists using necromancy to find buried treasure (e.g. John Dee and Edward Kelly) and psychics being brought in to uncover archaeological remains (e.g. Frederick Bligh-Bond).

Meonia fore Marye

The modern revival in psychic questing began in October 1979 with the discovery by Andrew Collins and Graham Phillips of a short steel sword of unusual design, bearing the copper-plate inscription 'Meonia fore Marye' on its blade. It was found behind the dry-stone foundations of a footbridge at a place called Knight's Pool in the English county of Worcestershire As the weapon also bore a monogram at the base of the hand-guard which resembled the personal insignia of Mary Queen of Scots, it was felt that the sword had been cast originally in the late eighteenth century by supporters of the exiled Stuart dynasty of British kings. However, the example in question was, it seemed, a copy cast in Victorian times, very possibly for use in pseudo-masonic ceremonies.

The discovery of the 'Meonia Sword', as it became known, was followed just days later by the retrieval of a seventeenth-century brass casket in which was found a small cabochon stone in green agate. This was located by Graham alone at a spot on the River Avon, not far from Knights Pool, known as the Swan's Neck, so named because it resembles a gigantic swan reclining into the landscape (as seen from nearby Bredon Hill). Since Graham, Andrew and their colleagues believed that the swan was a secret code-name for Mary Queen of Scots, they became convinced that the 'Green Stone', or 'Meonia Stone', had once been in a finger ring worn by Mary Queen of Scots. After her death, they felt it had passed into the possession of Robert Catesby, the leader of the so-called Gunpowder Plotters, who with his co-conspirators, including Guy Fawkes, was caught attempting to blow up the Houses of Parliament on 4 November 1605, hence the British tradition of Guy Fawkes' Night. Thereafter the stone was concealed in the Worcestershire landscape by Humphrey Packington of Harvington Hall, a Catholic sympathiser, where Andrew later found that a legend concerning the existence of the stone had lingered through to the last century.

Gradually, over the years, an intriguing story emerged to explain the origins of the Meonia Sword and its accompanying stone. Through psychic work and historical research Graham and Andrew developed a mystical lineage, known as 'the Heritage', which began with the fall of the pharaoh Akhenaten and ended with the revival of ancient Egypt in occult circles during the late nineteenth, early twentieth centuries.

Over the years many more artefacts would appear under mysterious circumstances, including six more swords, all identical to the first. The seven swords were brought together for the first time by Andrew and his friends in August 1992. It is a story told in part within Andrew's book The Seventh Sword (1991), and in Graham's work The Green Stone (1984). Andrew has since gone on to work with a number of what he terms 'direct information' psychics, and is now considered to be the pioneer in this field. Since the early 1980s he has run a group which specialises in developing psychic faculties called Earthquest. This he runs from his home town of Leigh-on-Sea.

Questing Conference

Prior to 1998 the Questing Conference was billed as the Psychic Questing Conference, since it contained lectures in which the speakers spoke of how their historical work had been inspired originally by intuition, dreams and psychic work. However, as the alternative history field became more popular it was necessary for authors such as Andrew Collins and Graham Phillips to strengthen their cases for an alternative history of the world by excluding any references to psychic work. Thus the whole air of the lectures changed, and Andrew agreed that it might be better to drop the 'psychic' element from the conference's name.

Yet at the Questing Conference 2002 it was felt the right time to reintroduce certain elements of psychic questing back into the conference, which is why Andrew asked some of the country's leading exponents of the subject to give presentations which might help people better understand this important subject.

BOOKS AND PUBLICATIONS

Andrew Collins is accredited with having coined the term psychic questing in the 1980s, and has written various books on the subject including The Sword and the Stone (1982), The Black Alchemist (1988), The Seventh Sword (1992) and The Second Coming (1993). Other key books on the subject include Graham Phillips' classics The Green Stone (1984) and The Eye of Fire (1988), Bega and The Sacred Ring by Alex Langstone (1992) and The Sun and the Moon: The Hill and the Well by Michael Smith (1997). All of these books are non-fiction, but read like supernatural thrillers.

Follow Your Dreams

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Sun, 23 Sep 2007 00:34:00 +0000

I came across an inspirational article by psychologist Ineke Van Lint while surfing the web today. I have reprinted it (below) for you to enjoy because as you will see, it very eloquently summarizes much of what I am trying to say and demonstrate here in my blog.

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Everybody has goals and dreams. These dreams are at the center of who you really are. It is the core essence of who you are as a person, and the very purpose of your BEING. What you are dreaming of accomplishing in your life is God’s way of getting you involved in his Master Plan. You were gifted with a set of dreams and talents, in the hope that you would act out these passions, follow your dreams and thusly move forward in life.

It’s really a great pity that we’ve been told already since early childhood that we should stop dreaming and start “living." What a mistake! Living IS dreaming! This is exactly why we are here: to pursue our dreams! Not for selfish reasons, but for the sake of everybody. By following MY dreams, I am becoming a better person, a happy person, shining brightly like a sun, lightening up the lives of those around me. If I decide to forget about my dreams, then I will become like a plant without water or sunlight, leaves hanging down, begging for water and looking rather miserable. Am I of any help to myself or to the world when I abandon my dreams?

Your dream is the reason for the way you are! Your dream is not a coincidence. Your dream IS who you are. You SHOULD pursue it! Your dream gives you a sense of meaning and purpose, and drives you on into your chosen future. Your dream IS the meaning of your life!

Why then does it seem to be so difficult to follow your dream? First, because of the anti-dream-program running in your head, a program installed when you were just a kid. Second, because your dream is always outside of your comfort zone. Pursuing your dream requires conscious effort, growth and change; this can feel somewhat uncomfortable in the beginning. You may experience some fears and worries, but this is normal. Don't focus on the fear, but focus on the dream. This way the dream becomes more important to you than the fear. Spending your life in fear and worry surely isn’t part of the Master Plan.

Ask yourself this question: “What do I really want? Realizing my dreams, or getting stuck in my fears? Do I choose to follow my dream and harvest satisfaction, freedom, happiness and abundance? Or do I lock myself up in my room with my good old irritation, lack of energy, fear, fatigue and depression?" The choice is yours.

As long as your dreams appeal more to you than your fears, you will find the energy and courage to move on.

Your dream is your calling, something you HAVE to do to fulfil you. COMMIT yourself to it with your entire being. Express your faith in the Master Plan. Say, "I don't know HOW I will do it, but if I just believe in it and follow my dream, then the Universe will show me, step by step, how to proceed." Have faith, take action, and then watch what happens.

Your dream is linked to your mission here on earth, your unique calling in life. The seeds of your dream have been sown in your heart and mind, and it is your job to help them grow, to develop your talents. Usually your dream will involve being of service to others to make their lives easier, better, more joyful and more beautiful. What is YOUR contribution to other’s lives? Exactly how do YOU make their lives better? What do you ADD to them? Is it beauty, joy, enthusiasm, faith, music, art, paintings, fragrance, motivation, a smile, some hope, self-esteem? What is your specialty? The key is making some contribution to the betterment of humanity.

CHOOSE to follow your dream. It is your responsibility. You must do it. It’s part of God’s Plan. This is His way of helping this planet uplift it’s energy. Isn’t it wonderful? By following your dream, not only do you please yourself, but you are also uplifting the whole of humanity! If you ignore your dreams, do you realize how many people will be affected? It is God's Plan and therefore it can never be selfish.

The more you pursue your dreams, the more exciting your life becomes! God is going to use you in ways you never imagined possible. And the only side effect is: feeling GOOD!

Get your dreams off the shelf! Put your goals in front of you, and follow them. Focus. Strive. This IS what you should be doing, this IS what you are here for! You are here to dream, and to live your dreams! Live them out and live it up! This is how things were meant to be. It’s time to get back to basics. The essence of your life is your dream! What have you always been dreaming about, ever since you were a kid? Visualize it, define it, and then go for it! Become happy and share that happiness with the world.

My dream in sharing these articles is to help others discover their reason of being here on earth, to help you discover your own unique talents, to help you realize your potential and to help you manifest your personal dreams.

Ineke Van Lint, psychologist, is a spiritual and educational coach and an expert in enthusiasm. She’ll guide you to find out who is the real you and how you can achieve happiness and success. Grab your free e-course about The Purpose Of Your Life and free inspirational quotes at www.theenthusiasm.com

Mutual Dreams

noreply@blogger.com (Mathew) — Sat, 15 Sep 2007 01:52:00 +0000

On December 14, 2003 -- exactly one month prior to the experience I refer to as A Mystical Wake-Up Call -- I woke up remembering a dream in which I was holding a very small amoeba-like creature in my hand and felt very protective and worried that this creature might not survive in my care. As is my custom, I wrote the dream down in my journal. A week later, I happened to mention this strange amoeba dream while on the phone with my sister Anne. Well, you can imagine the shock when Anne excitedly told me that she too had had the exact same dream. Like me, she had written her dream down and had referred to the creature she had held in her hand as "an amoeba" too. What makes this even more unusual is that my sister and I hadn't spoken for several months prior to this conversation. We were also living 800 miles apart in different countries. Furthermore, one might have expected a strange phenomenon like this to have happened on the same night. In our case, however, we had our respective dreams several days apart from one other.

Well, having an open line of communication with the realm of spirit, I couldn't wait to hear what the the angels might have to say about this. Here is the explanation I received:

The amoeba that you both saw was a human being in embryonic form. You are both nurturing yourselves into a blooming flower. Embryos by nature are delicate and susceptible to harm. You both experienced this in your dream. Your protective instincts were very strong. It is God’s will for you both to experience the power of nature and nurture at this time in your lives and growth. This will assist you later when the two of you will be teaching others.

And --

You are both of the same soul family and as such, it is possible for you to share experiences in the realm of spirit. This is intentional to support and confirm your experiences with one another. There is nothing like a little proof to acknowledge our efforts and guide us to more sincere attempts to [live The Life Intended].

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For more information on mutual dreaming, check out Here Be Dreams.