I made it!!

Wow. 40. A year that I never really worried about like many others.
I had my life crisis at 25, saw how silly that was some time later, and never sweated where I was in life to that magnitude again. Sure, I had a few check-ins along the way. Those are needed to make sure that where we are is still providing the level of enjoyment that we want. Our threshold of happiness. What we believe is needed to continue.

Last year I dedicated my year of 40 to pleasure and pain. I went out of my way to be a bit more social than usual, meeting new people and expanding my circles in the communities that I was already a part of. It was a wonderful year. I experienced great pleasure. I experienced great pain. I’d say that was a successful year.

This year I would like to focus a bit more on my knowledge base. I’d like to enhance my studies in the ventures that I once started previously such as my herbal and yoga studies. I’d also like to add more if I am able. I definitely want to expand on my writing skills. My cooking skills is also on the list. I’ve already settled into this mindset of learning for the winter. I hope to continue this through the spring, summer, and autumn months.

With a new decade of Life comes change. I have a feeling that I will be going through many of these changes in the next couple of years. As with everything that comes my way, I will be grateful and excited for the new opportunities presented to me.

Here’s to another year. Another decade.
Continued Life.

Cheers!

I will say that it has to do with my overall health and mental state. The Powers that Be know I could always use a little help in that department. I have noticed a small change since starting over the weekend. I seem to be a little more alert. I do not worry as much as I usually do. Anxiety has decreased slightly. I seem to want to do things. The only immediate and annoying side effect is that I am unusually tired….all the time. Mind you, these are only slight changes. Well, the tiredness is major. I probably will not see any serious changes for the better for another few weeks. I need to keep at it…and power through the exhaustion.

I am also diving into a yoga challenge that a dear acquaintance of mine found on Youtube. She started on Day 1 and has been going strong ever since! She inspired me to give it a try. My official start day was this morning. For everyone else following along they are on Day 15. To catch up I decided to do two-a-days until the end of the month. Yes. I know. Ambitious. Lol. But yo…guess what? I did both Day 1 ANNNNNND Day 2 today. Boom! I am pushing to keep that up. Despite the tiredness I feel great!

You guys should really check out Adriene! I’m loving her vibe.

My decision.

Making it was very difficult for me. It made me realize that I could not manage everything having to do with Me by myself. To be honest, I sort of feel like I failed at Life. That’s something I need to get over really quick. If anything, I’m taking an active role in making my Life better for Me. I’m doing whatever is necessary for Me to manage Me efficiently. In my case that meant surrendering to an option I was vehemently against for several years. Way out of my comfort zone.

I’ve done it.
I’m doing it.
Let’s see where this new road takes me.

Namaste!

Awful.
Magickal.
Hurtful.
Blissful.
Heartbreaking.
Enlightening.
Enraging.
Educational.

2017, as were the years proceeding it, was all of the things mentioned above. The cycle truly continues but in different ways and in different situations. This is the beautiful and sometimes frustrating thing about Life. I like the saying, “The more things change, the more they stay the same.” Things change all around us with time and circumstances. The majority of the time the outcome and the feelings associated are about the same. Patterns. We as humans really love our patterns.

This past year for my year of 40 I set an intention. A year of pleasure and pain. I am still within that year since MY year does not start for another few weeks. For the calendar New Year though I’ve already started my reflection. Affairs of the heart are at the top of this reflection session with my heartbreak taking center stage. Yes, I loved this year. Deeply for me. The time with that gentleman felt like home . . . until it didn’t. I do not regret a single second of that interlude. I am the better for it.

I have met and have made some stunning connections in 2017. Couples that make me smile when they display the affection they have for each other. Men and women who are strong, gentle, and completely badass with everything that they do. Humans who are not afraid to be vulnerable and are as much of themselves as they are comfortable with. These are my people. My hope is that these connections carry over into the New Year.

My reflection period will continue until my official year begins. My intentions for the coming year will also be drafted and put into the universe. An immediate wish that I have as I move into this new decade of life soon is that I am more forthcoming with my thoughts; for my own personal journal as well as these online pages. I may have wished this previously. Nothing really came of it. I felt that I had nothing to write about. Nothing worthwhile to share. Looking back though, I had SO MUCH to share! Fear. It’s an interesting thing that can have so much control on one’s actions and perceptions. I’ll work on that.

I’ll leave you with my wishes for all of your dreams to come true and your intentions to bear fruit for your Life harvest! 2018 will be a great year for us all. I’m sure mine will be as I described here. I am totes cool with that.

Happy New Year, Lovelies! I’ll see you on the other side!

Love & Light.