~Thinking about Being~

Updates

2013-04-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

It has been a while since I last blogged. There are lots of ups and downs. But I have faith that things are getting better in my life.

Just realized that I have not shared some of my Cambodia and Taiwan's photos here. Do keep a look out and I will post them up shortly.

My latest FB profile photo:

Coffee

2012-08-20T01:14:00.000+08:00

Thank you for making this coffee for me! Appreciates it lots! Did you go downstairs and buy the milk? =)

And like your cats too!

Too bad I wasn't fast in capturing the other one with a very cute pose, and you said even when she sleeps, she is in that pose!

It was a great day!

Spring Cleaning in June

2012-07-31T01:16:00.001+08:00

Although it wasn't really Spring in June in this HOT Singapore, I did a small spring cleaning and rearrange some of the stuff in my room. I threw lots of old things away, by remembering a principle that Tsarbomba said before

"If you never thought of it the last few years, it is likely you won't in the next few years. Throw."

I really threw at least 10-12 of the recycled bags....

All these was done in conjunction of the installation of the fibre optics and the cable antenna in my room.

The man fixing the FO with rubbish that I intend

to throw at the recycling bins at the void deck

Finally open net!

In my room, I also managed to arrange for starhub to come and install a new cable antenna for me.

These were not all. I managed to find alot of things that brings back memories:

1.44" Diskette!

My D&T Woodwork in 1997!

Speech Day 2000's NPCC Best Female Cadet Award!

My Game boy, pagers and phones!

My medals!

Unopened Ang Pows from CNY

Finally ... ....

These are some photos of the new furniture in my room!

My new computer cum TV desk! No more backaches!

My wardrobe!

More organized corner

The difference of Then and now!

Looking forward for more changes in my room and less clutters!

Hopefully it will bring me more luck! =P

Black Cat

2012-07-09T00:22:00.001+08:00

I set my eyes on the t-shirt the moment I stepped into Uniquo. The piece that I gotten was the last S - size. Without much hesitation, I went to the dressing room to try out and I love it!

This is the t-shirt design:

The front design

The back

Me!!

(in the dressing room)

I love the cat so much!!!

And I realized also, I look good in RED!!! =D

Of course I purchased it in the end. It was on promotion. $19.90.

Solvil et Titus

2012-07-09T00:12:00.006+08:00

I finally gotten myself a watch after months of consideration. I shall keep the old one in my drawer. I still remembered Vorhees aka TsarBomba accompanied me to buy the watch in town 4 years ago!

My previous watch:

And I am going to proudly present to you my new watch:

$598 after 10% discount

I love it on my wrist!!! And it is PINK!!!!!

I'm totally in love with it!

”不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有”

Time flies. This marks 4 years knowing you, and 5 years being an OT.

I need a break!

2012-04-23T02:09:00.000+08:00

Just edited and almost completed one of my reports for tomorrow(Monday).

Before I go to bed, I am seriously thinking that I should travel to somewhere for a break this May/June. Been busy with work and my dad's 2 hospitalization, I seriously think I need a break.

I am also thinking if I should get a friend to go along or go alone. My mom sure would not allow if it is the latter.

I am thinking of traveling to either 1 or 2 Asian countries such as:

Cambodia

Vietnam

Philippines

Thailand

.... this May/June/July and hopefully a further place like:

Europe

Australia

New Zealand

... ... in December.
Would I get a travel buddy or do I travel alone? To where?

I hope I don't get sleepless night thinking about this.

P.S: Thank God my parent meeting is 10am@AMK. No need to travel there directly from home.

Photos taken from:
Cambodia - http://www.anntours.com/Cambodia/Cambodia.aspx
Vietnam - http://www.lonelyplanet.com/vietnam/images/thanh-toan-bridge-vietnam$25055-15
Philippines - http://travel.nationalgeographic.com/travel/countries/philippines-guide/
Thailand - http://www.nationalgeographic.com/adventure/travel/thailand.html
France - http://www.visitingdc.com/paris/eiffel-tower-paris-france.asp
Australia - http://www.livefortheoutdoors.com/Destinations/Search-Results/World/Oceania/Australia/
New Zealand -http://www.worldwidehomestay.com/NewZealand.htm

Star Awards 2012: Elvin Ng

2012-04-22T22:37:00.001+08:00

Yes!! Elvin Ng won the Favourite Male Characte Award, Systema Charming Smile Award and Favourite On-Screen Couple Award!!!!

He is so charming!!! I can't help but to say, Elvin and Mr Vorhees look so alike!! Their smiles and their hair!!!

Photo of Elvin, taken from Xinmsn:

His hair and his smile, resemble of Mr Vorhees.

P.S: I wondered if Mr Vorhees still smiles with his teeth like that these days. Remembering seeing a photo of him that he took in 2007/8 with that smile.

Coffee and letter

2012-04-22T17:31:00.000+08:00

A cup of coffee to accompany while I do my work. It would be nicer if it is mocha or cappuccino make with espresso. And I crave for chocolates too! Sigh. But no more chocolates left at home. =(

In another news, last Friday, I received a letter in my letterbox. Finally I'm going to get a fast speed broadband!

Busy week

2012-04-22T13:36:00.002+08:00

Last week was hell lot a busy week. Helped out at my colleague's training at MCYS on Monday and Tuesday.

Almost forgotten I still have intervention sessions at one of the centrew which was closed for a while dued to HFMD and our interventions have to be postponed.

This 2 weeks will be busy as we will be meeting parents to update on the children's progress. Some made huge progress, some little, while some their behaviours are better managed.

Was in office till quite late from Wednesday to Friday. Have to rush out their progress report.

Completed 6 parents meeting from Wednesday to Friday. So far the comments that parents give are good and that their children are either better or better managed.

There is a case where the child is an angel in class but a "devil" back at home. The child listen to the teachers and me. But disregard his parents' words. And everything the educators say all weigh a ton. Come to think of it, aren't us adults the same too? Sometimes we can better accept what outsiders say than someone close to us? And I can't believe he can remember word for word what I told him and he told his mom about it.

"Aunty Xiu Ling say her boss tell her to go other centres to teach other children."

In other parent meeting, I was amazed by what the child told the mom on his own:

"Mummy, today is Friday. I will be seeing Aunty Xiu Ling. I will be a good boy."

It is heartwarming that I had created this positive impact on this boy who is trying to behave well and be a good boy.

Children know it. They know that you are genuinely caring and helping for them or not. They will put in the effort too. These are the little things that are heartwarming for us and that all the things that we had done are all worth it.

P.S: 44 days and counting.

4 years ago

2012-04-20T00:47:00.000+08:00

While posting the last entry, I realize the date today is 20th April 2012.

Exactly 4 years ago, we met. At Cafe Cartel. Raffle City Shopping Centre. White shirt and light blue jeans. U were meeting a friend to collect some CDs at Aljunied. And me? I was shopping for toys for my nephew.

So fast. Time flies.

Edited: The sweet little things that you do, will always be remembered. Things that you make my heart flutter.

Irritating People

2012-04-20T00:39:00.001+08:00

Lately been surrounded by irritating and kaypoh people. Karma?

Anyway, super pissed off by 1 guy today.

Let me vent my frustration:

Come on, if you are really so great, do things on your OWN! Stop depending on people and think and act that you are so blardy clever. Please, we all know what you have.

And we all know that your "oh ya, because I miss you" is all bullshit! Every time or rather ALL THE TIME you come to look for any of us, it is to do a FAVOUR for you!! Don't ever try to sweet talk because it will never ever work on me!

And if you ask for a favour, be humble about it. Don't act like you are a blardy freaking KING that we are obliged to help you. WE ARE NOT!!!!

Stop showing your freaking ATTITUDE and blame it on me for not helping you. Do be aware that if I do you this favour, it will be a disfavour to the other party. Because knowing you, you will endlessly go and cause a disturbance to my friend.

Moral of the story?

STOP being such a leech and act like you are the king. Don't boast about yourself or your things because no one is interested. STOP being an arse that take people for granted and always do things for you. No one owes you a living. No one is obliged to help you. Period.

Uncertainity

2012-04-16T22:24:00.003+08:00

As I was pondering on uncertainty in my life, I saw a FB friend posted this on his wall:

"The only thing certain in life is uncertainty. You have to agree with this."

So what were I pondering about?

"The thing that people are afraid of is not change but uncertainty."

So do I.

等待

2012-04-14T21:53:00.003+08:00

你觉的你这样做对吗？

我为什么还要犯贱自己，对一个对我不理不睬的人付出一切，继续关心你，想念你呢？

咳。。。。

雨后就一定能天晴吗？

黑夜过后一定是日出吗？

为什么我的雨天那么久，我的黑夜也那么漫长呢？

难到我注定不能和你享受天晴和美丽的日出吗？

但是我还是盼望这一天的到来。

会有这么一天吗？

这会变成真实，还是它永远只是我的一厢情愿？

现在我能做的除了等待，还是等待。。。。。。

我相信。。。。。。

P.S:可是有时却等到好累好累，快要没力气了。。。

Crave for Japanese Food

2012-04-12T23:49:00.002+08:00

2 days in a row, I had Japanese Food. I always enjoy Jap Food!

Unagi Don from Old Kallang Airport Road yesterday

Fried Seafood Udon

This morning, I'm craving for sweet stuff and I got myself:

Tau Huey with Gula Melaka!

Sweet to the max!

P.S: Got to sleep early soon. Going to be photographer for tomorrow's Organization Excellence Day @ HQ Tiong Bahru. Borrowed aZ's DSLR but ..... camera left 2 bar battery, no spare battery and charger inside. Think gonna just save the DSLR for the GOH tomorrow and the rest of the event have to use my Canon S95.

Raw Injury (not for the faint hearted)

2012-04-12T23:41:00.000+08:00

I had a minor injury when I went for my session yesterday. I scraped one of my right toes against a chair with rusty legs. It happened when I wanted to shift my chair towards the table but one of the leg of the chair was still above the ground and my leg was right underneath it. When I realized the leg of the chair was almost landing onto my toes, I quickly pull my right leg away, thus the scraping of my skin. I think the injury might be much worse if chair was to land completely on my toe. To make things worse, we were all not wearing shoes since we were at a childcare environment.

Below is the photo of my injury after a day:

Still raw and the skin is dangling from it

Draw something.

2012-04-11T01:29:00.002+08:00

I have stopped playing Draw Something for a few weeks already. Simply because the words have start to repeat themselves and there is no more excitement playing them, getting bored of it.

But yesterday suddenly thought of just trying to see Mr Vorhees plays with it or not. Wanted to add him long ago but thought that he might not play since he doesn't have an iPhone. But I forgotten that he has a "modified iPhone" or rather an iPod.

Below are some of the picture that I drew weeks ago. Can you all guess what are these picture that I drew?

1)

You may leave your answer here at the comment.

Have fun guessing.

P.S: I wonder if the guy's Issey Miyaki's perfume smell nice to you.

Coffee and biscuit

2012-04-10T13:39:00.001+08:00

Coffee to start my day at work

This sail/ boat on the chocolate biscuits sure reminds me of you.

Waffle and nothing else

2012-04-10T00:36:00.003+08:00

This morning and afternoon, I just had the above waffle and coffee as my brunch(breakfast and lunch). Normal as I may seem, but seriously I'm lost inside, with the matters of the heart. Perhaps suffering from some internal bleeding too.

Hoping these sweet stuff will sweeten my day for a moment.

Food aside, perhaps sometimes keeping busy may be the best option, to prevent myself thinking too much.

”我还能怎么做怎么做都是错”

P.S: I think he is back. Happens to see 2 of his characters online. But still "ignoring mode"- Day 32. Hopefully he takes some photos like his last trip and hope that he can share them too. Sometimes he can take really nice shoots. I love all his sunsets/rises photos that he showed me before, including the header of the blog. Love it to the max.

Tired and insomia

2012-04-09T07:52:00.000+08:00

Couldn't sleep last night. Must be the late coffee that I had and the late sleeping on Friday and Saturday. And of course thinking and missing someone.

Slept almost 3 plus on Friday and Saturday because it was only 9 plus in the evening in certain country.

P.S: Got to go and get ready for work. Have a make-up session for a child in AMK this morning. Gonna replace the child session as I was on urgent leave 2 weeks ago.

Bourbon and Cola

2012-04-08T00:04:00.002+08:00

This has been lying in my fridge since CNY.

Wanted to share this with Vorhees for his birthday, just like last year. But it didn't happen this year.

So I am here drinking this and youtubing songs, facebook-ing, and logging into his DGN's characters for the Easter Event. At the same time, missing and thinking of him, across the oceans. (i.e if he is away for work)

When are you coming back or are you already on the plane back to this little red dot as I am typing this?

P.S: It has been 30 days and counting...... since we last chatted.

心太軟? 难道就要这样算了吧吗？

2012-04-07T20:46:00.000+08:00

Last night all of a sudden thought of this song - 任賢齊-心太軟

你总是心太软 心太软 
独自一个人流泪到天亮 
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人 
我知道你根本没那么坚强

 你总是心太软 心太软 
把所有问题都自己扛 
相爱总是简单 相处太难 
不是你的就别再勉强

 夜深了你还不想睡 
你还在想着他吗 
你这样痴情到底累不累 
明知他不会回来安慰 
只不过想好好爱一个人 
可惜他无法给你满分 
多余的牺牲他不懂心疼 
你应该不会只想做个好人

 喔，算了吧 
就这样忘了吧 该放就放 
再想也没有用 
傻傻等待 他也不会回来 
你总该为自己想想未来

Retail Therapy

2012-04-07T19:13:00.000+08:00

Had been busy with my dad's hospitalization that I didn't have time to post this up.

I had received my shopping items from gmarket few days back!

Guess what I bought?

I bought my Benefit Cheeks and Lip Stain and a small cute blusher brush! Both cost me about S$59.

Then what is it in the other envelop?

It is .......

My fake eyelashes, mascara and eyelashes applicator!

It was until this afternoon that I have some time to try to use my fake eyelashes. I am still a noob in it!

It is not difficult to tell which eye had the fake eye lashes right? ;)

I'm beginning to love my fake eyelashes!

Dad is discharged

2012-04-07T01:22:00.002+08:00

Dad has been discharged last Wednesday. Thank God for allowing us overcoming this calamity.

Although it was really very tiring to travel twice a day to the hospital for the first 4 days, I guess it was all worth it, being able to stay beside dad. I realize that I had been so busy with my own life that I failed to see how much dad and mom has aged and that Dad is going to turn 68 soon.

It was also during his stay at the hospital that we had the longest conversation ever. Chatting about his work, my work and also his grandchildren. Although dad is a man with few words, he pretty aware of what is happening and also remembers significant events in the family.

No one is going to know what is going to happen next. I will try to spend more time with my dad and mom. Hopefully to be able to bring them overseas, at least once in their lifetime.

P.S: A photo that I secretly took when dad is finally able to sit up in bed. My Dad is someone who doesn't like to take photos.

One of dad's daily routine - reading 新明日报。

I begin to realize the traits in the guys that I fall for, are those similar in my dad's, for e.g. stubbornness, man with few words, doesn't like to go out, doesn't like to take photos, ego... and these are just few examples. Not too sure if these are just coincident.

Roller Coaster Rides

2012-03-31T17:28:00.000+08:00

Last night I dreamt of taking roller coaster rides again.

Perhaps this is a depiction of the things that are going on in my life. The ups and downs that are happening.

Hopefully, I will turn out to be stronger after each and every incident.

What doesn't kills me makes me stronger.

P.S: Going to visit dad again. He has been transferred to a normal ward yesterday afternoon. This morning he is allowed semi-solid food by mouth. He hasn't be given any food or drink since Thursday. But while I was on my way back after my morning visit, the ward called me and told me that dad will be transferring to isolation ward as they need to isolate him as he has been coughing and that to test his mucus for infection and TB. Hope things get better.

A&E and High Dependency Ward

2012-03-30T09:33:00.024+08:00

Yesterday 11plus at night, Dad complained of blood in stool and shortness of breathe (SOB). He was so lethargic. I called and booked a cab to send him to CGH A&E. When we reached A&E, it's about past midnight.

I quickly go and register him. Luckily, we did not need to wait as his was emergency case and he was pushed in to see the doctor immediately.

I was shocked to see his vital signs. His heart rate was 140+ and his BP was 70+/40+. His SpO2 (amount of oxygen in his blood) was also low. Thank God we sent him in early. I cannot imagine if what could have happened if we sent him much later.

After consultation, he was pushed to another room for further assessments. Doctor came in and out about 2 times, updating his status. He was given 2 packet of blood for transfusion due to lost of too much blood which resulted to his low BP and hemoglobin. A&E Doctor reported that he needs to be warded and may be having HEART FAILURE. The 2nd time he came out, he said that the specialist (gastro) on-call doctor will be coming down to see him. After that, the staff nurse came out and asked me to do the administration for dad's admission.

She said that dad has to be admitted to high dependency ward for close monitoring.

Soon after, he was pushed up to the ward and my mom and I followed shortly via the visitor lift. The nurses and doctor was preparing him into the high dependency ward.

The doctor updated his status. He reported that dad's BP was still consider very low and was consider critically ill or sick. He even asked us to prepare for the worse. When hearing this, my heart sank but still remain calm and hopeful.

He then said that he has KIDNEY FAILURE. But yet when I asked if my dad can pass urine on his own and stuff, he said can. Sigh.

When we left A&E, it was already 5 plus in the morning.

When I reached home, I quickly grab a nap and woke up at 8+am to sms Sunita to tell her that I would be taking dependent leave. And to cancel all my therapy sessions with the pre-schools. I also messaged my brother to tell him about dad.

P.S: I also smsed someone who I thought will show some concern but he didn't reply.
Edited: I wonder if he is in Singapore or whether he has received my sms. Maybe he is still angry. But I'm tired already. Too many things happening. Do whatever you want.

*~Thinking about Being~*