Thoughts of a Fading Hopeless Romantic

We Just Started Dreaming

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Fri, 27 Aug 2010 08:40:00 +0000

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J'aime mes idées noires.

The Heroine

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Sun, 27 Jun 2010 01:00:00 +0000

The old lovers. The alcohol. The cheating. The sensuality. The excitement. The giggles. The drunken calls. The compliments. The obsession.
"I must see you."
"I was always the one."
"I was the writer. You were my muse."
The deception. The laughs. The beauty. The control. The surrendering. The disappointment. The loss of respect. The exciting new toy. The "no more". The lack of interest.
All in one week.
I'm a heroine on the run with a gun.
The owner of your impulses.
But I am now bored of you.

Lost

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Sun, 06 Jun 2010 04:41:00 +0000

By Anouk.

If roses are meant to be red
And violets to be blue
Why isn't my heart meant for you

My hands longing to touch you
But I can barely breathe
Starry eyes that make me melt
Right in front of me

Lost in this world
I even get lost in this song
And when the lights go down
That is where I'll be found

This music's irresistible
Your voice makes my skin crawl
Innocent and pure
I guess you heard it all before

Mister Inaccessible
Will this ever change
One thing that remains the same
You're still a picture in a frame

Lost in this world
I even get lost in this song
And when the lights go down
That is where I'll be found

I get lost in this world
I get lost in your eyes
And when the lights go down
That's where I'll be found
Yeah yeah

I get lost in this world
I get lost in your eyes
And when the lights go down
Am I the only one
Ooh

Loneliness is...

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Thu, 03 Jun 2010 20:09:00 +0000

By far the worst experience ever.
The boy I am in love with wants nothing to do with me.
I can't stop thinking about him.
I can't stop crying.
I can't sleep properly.
I wake up in the middle of the night thinking of you, wondering if you're thinking of me.
Waking up several times and not finding you there.
I can't eat even though I'm starving.
I'm starving and I'm nauseous.
I need some rest. I really do.
And the sad thing is, I only rest with you.
I can't work. I cannot concentrate.
I only think about you.
I need you.
I love you.
My hope is rapidly running out.
My hope, the only thing keeping me alive.
I wish you would just come back and hold me.
Hold me and make everything peaceful again.
Love me the way you did a few days ago.
Bring back the beautiful moments we were growing together.
Bring that happiness again, for both of us.
Help me feel alive again.
I was the one for you.
You are the one for me.
This didn't have to end this way.
This wasn't supposed to end this way.
This wasn't supposed to end. Period.
All the talks and the promises about making this work.
All lost.
I can understand why you're frustrated.
I cannot understand how you can just disappear, without a heartbreak, without being worried about me.
I hope you come back.
Because otherwise you're killing me.
I love you.

Hands Clean

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Wed, 19 May 2010 08:25:00 +0000

By Alanis Morissette

If it weren't for your maturity none of this would have happened
If you weren't so wise beyond your years I would've been able to control myself
If it weren't for my attention you wouldn't have been successful and
If it weren't for me you would never have amounted to very much

Ooh this could be messy
But you don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

We'll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
And I have honored your request for silence
And you've washed your hands clean of this

You're essentially an employee and I like you having to depend on me
You're a kind of my protégé and one day you'll say you learned all you know from me
I know you depend on me like a young thing would to a guardian
I know you sexualize me like a young thing would and I think I like it

Ooh this could get messy
But you don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

We'll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
I've more than honored your request for silence
And you've washed your hands clean of this

What part of our history's reinvented and under rug swept?
What part of your memory is selective and tends to forget?
What with this distance it seems so obvious?

Just make sure you don't tell on me especially to members of your family
We best keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse
I wish I could tell the world cause you're such a pretty thing when you're done up properly
I might want to marry you one day if you watch that weight and keep your firm body

Ooh this could be messy and
Ooh I don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

What's The Reason?

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Sun, 25 Apr 2010 02:04:00 +0000

By Silkstone

Hiding from the blue in your eyes
I never told you that I don't need a reason to be in
Love with the smile on your face
Guess I just want you around to keep my feet on the ground
And I say why can't you tell me
What is the reason
Tell me what is on your mind
I'll try not to be uptight but I need to know now
Tell me what is on your mind

Is it something we've got to mend
Or should we do it over again, do you need some more time to
Learn how to love in return
If only you gave me a sign then I'd know I'll be fine
And I say why can't you tell me
What is the reason
Tell me what is on your mind
I'll try not to be uptight but I need to know now
Tell me what is on your mind

Don't be afraid, it's never too late
Can't bare to see you hesitate
It's a matter of time before you'll be mine
But 'till that day I won't cross the line
Then life will be so much better for you and me
Just let us be

And I say why can't you tell me
What is the reason
Tell me what is on your mind
I'll try not to be uptight but I need to know now
Tell me what is on your mind
Tell me what is on your mind

The Old

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Thu, 18 Feb 2010 20:05:00 +0000

Let's remember.

The New

Viceversa

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Fri, 29 Jan 2010 06:26:00 +0000

This way and viceversa...

I keep waking up dreaming.
Thinking.
Loving.
Smiling.
Giggling.
Dreaming.
Dreaming.
Dreaming.
This way and back.
Simply put...
Hopeful.
I think I am home.

Mindless

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Wed, 20 Jan 2010 05:21:00 +0000

Heart beating faster. Nauseous. Weaker...

Help Haiti

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Sat, 16 Jan 2010 02:26:00 +0000

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Why

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Mon, 11 Jan 2010 06:49:00 +0000

I've given into you... Because, how could I not? You're so perfect and imperfect it hurts and it's good.

- Me on why we go back

Sexus

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Sun, 10 Jan 2010 19:42:00 +0000

«Don't take it so tragically,» I said. «She's a brave sort, she'll pull out of it.»

«That's what you say! You don't suffer. You get emotional and you call it suffering. That girl's in trouble, can't you see? She wants you to do something for her—not just wait till it passes. If you don't pump her I will. This time you've got a real woman. And a real woman, Mister Miller, expects something of a man—not just words and gestures. If she wants you to run away with her, to leave your wife, your child, your job, I'd say do it. Listen to her and not to your own selfish promptings!» He slumped back in his seat and picked his teeth. After a pause—−«And you met her in a dance hall? Well, I must congratulate you for having the sense to recognize the genuine article. That girl can make something of you, if you'll let her. If it's not too late, I mean. You're pretty far gone, you know. Another year with that wife of yours and you're finished.» He spat on the floor in disgust. «You have luck. You get things without working for them. I work like a son of a bitch and the moment I turn my back everything crumbles.»

From Sexus by Henry Miller

They'll just keep coming most likely...

Anything Goes

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Sun, 10 Jan 2010 19:22:00 +0000

"I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness..."
- Allen Ginsberg
from Howl

Anything can go after that.

"I keep my hands in my pocket, I'm movin' along"
- Bob Dylan

Au Revoir

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Tue, 05 Jan 2010 05:44:00 +0000

Goodbye to the men in my life.
It's impossible to find a perfect one.

The Witch is Back

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Fri, 01 Jan 2010 09:11:00 +0000

It's times like these... That I don't know what I want. A lot of things are clear. Others are just shit. To grow up and be a hypocrite or to stay true to my human nature. I suppose either way someone will end up hurt. I'll gladly confess that being selfish and cold feels better than being a nice person. On the other hand, on very brief moments I do feel like being nice. Sounds disgusting but it's just natural, at least I'll use that as my excuse. I do enjoy seeing some people being miserable. Perhaps I'm becoming worse than I was, or maybe I'm becoming more authentic than ever. The dilemma now is what to continue with. I suppose this year will start with some interesting discovery, though I'm honestly quite inclined to just destroy something beautiful, as I always am.

I wonder where my conscience went. It ran away about a month ago. Barely miss it, if at all. Maybe I am getting what I asked for, to be a cold-hearted bitch. Kudos to me for being so good at getting what I want.

Flying

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 01:44:00 +0000

We'll see what this journey already traveled brings this time. Hopefully something new to learn, or maybe a growing aversion to the abandoned subject. Nevertheless, I might be reporting here. It is time to succumb to one's need of loneliness and enjoy it again. I have no hopes of returning a nicer person, and neither should you.

Ask

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 05:42:00 +0000

http://www.formspring.me/AdrianaLemus

Slow Dancing in a Burning Room

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Sun, 13 Dec 2009 02:10:00 +0000

By John Mayer.

It's not a silly little moment,
It's not the storm before the calm.
This is the deep and dying breath of
This love that we've been working on.

Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms.
Nobody's gonna come and save you,
We pulled too many false alarms.

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

I was the one you always dreamed of,
You were the one I tried to draw.
How dare you say it's nothing to me?
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw.

I'll make the most of all the sadness,
You'll be a bitch because you can.
You try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Because you can't understand.

We're going down,
And you can see it too.
We're going down,
And you know that we're doomed.
My dear,
We're slow dancing in a burning room.

Go cry about it - why don't you?
Go cry about it - why don't you?
Go cry about it - why don't you?

My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room,
Burning room.

Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?

Silver Showers

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Sat, 12 Dec 2009 03:20:00 +0000

What am I supposed to say? What am I supposed to do?
This might be the point of no return, where everybody moves forward and you are left behind.
And as nice as it may be to not look back, the past will always come and hit you with a rock.
"As history tells us, those who forget the past are doomed to repeat it"
Over and over.
Well done.

Perhaps you will all be a disappointment. Maybe I look too high. But there is just no actual point at looking down and seeing the same thing over and over. Same pavement, same shit, same kids, same toys... Same dead people in their graves. And that's what you do... You rot like a dead person until the wormy humanity eats the best of you and you completely disappear from the face of the earth. Not really all that attractive I'll add.
So what am I supposed to do? Just be another comformist in the world for a glimpse of happiness? And it will be a very very short glimpse, I know I can't look down for too long without getting dizzy

Perhaps I think too much of myself, but that's better than thinking nothing special at all, staying the same person throughout my life. It's what Anastasia says. I think I'd rather lose you if you'll never evolve. There's always room for improvement and I think in this case we could even fit the whole humanity in it.

I read this blog over and over and I think we're moving on and away.
Don't worry, I'll wave down when I'm at the top.

Happier Lonely Swan

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 02:49:00 +0000

By A Fine Frenzy.

Happier
Quick kid quick, so harsh and cynical
Touches stricken, cold and clinical
What a transformation to behold
But I don't like this new, I want the old

It's not the words that make it final
You've said such things such things before to rival them
But it's how you say 'em now that's changed
Cold but sympathetic all the same

Lie to convince me that I'll be better off
Oh, you go on and I'll be happier, I'll be happier
You go on, yeah, you go on
You'll be gone and I'll be happier

Shoot me with your rubber bullets
Your finger's on the trigger, pull it
I know you want this suffering to end
So it is forgivable my friend

It's all to convince me that I'll be better off
So you go on and I'll be happier,
You go on and I'll be happier
You go on, yeah, you go on
You'll be gone and I'll be happier

Bo-bo-ba-do-bo
Bo-bo-ba-do-bo-da-da-da

Say what you mean, what you mean
Cause you'll be happier without me, without me, without me, oh

You won't convince me, that I'll be better off
So you go on and I'll be happier, I'll be happier
You go on, you go
You'll be gone, and I'll be gone
You go on and I'll be happier, you go on and I'll be happier
You go on, you go on, you go on and I'll go on and I'll be happier
You on and I'll be happier, you go on and I'll be happier

You go on, and I'll be happier

Swan Song
Wretched, look at me, I've lost it, melting on the table
In parking lots and markets
I cant help it, I love you like a starfish loves the salty water
Like a selfish daughter

Yet I wrote the words to the swan song
The author of the wrong
And I said what I said and I meant it
But now I regret it

Foolish, how was I so careless
Pawning off my treasure, the envy of an heiress
Now my dollars are crumbled in my pocket
How can I reclaim it?
What if someone's got it?

When I wrote the words to the swan song
The author of the wrong
And I said what I said and I meant it
But now I regret it

How could the world have turned so ugly
I am dying
Could you touch me again?
Touch me again

When I wrote the words to the swan song
The author of the wrong
And I said what I said and I meant it
But now I regret it

The Beacon
You say your time has come
You're tired of waking up
Don't be obscene, I can't conceive of
Living without you

You say you drag me down
No one should want you now

When I start to cry, you kiss my eyes and say
I'm not allowed to

Burning beacon in the night
Can't feel its heat, or see its light
That single solitary guide, it must get lonely there sometimes

You were a child forgot
Lessons of love untaught
Now no embrace can quite replace
The one that never found you

I was raised tenderly
All that was taught to me
I will apply, your parents tried but they didn't know how to

Burning beacon in the night
Can't feel its heat, or see its light
That single solitary guide, it must get lonely there sometimes

Let me stand by you
The honor is mine
Let me stand by you
Loneliest light, loneliest light, loneliest light

Burning beacon in the night
Can't feel its heat, or see its light
That single solitary guide, it must get lonely there sometimes

Bent

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Thu, 05 Nov 2009 07:23:00 +0000

By Matchbox Twenty.

If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk

If I need some other love
Give me more than I can stand
And when my smile gets old and faded
Wait around I'll smile again

Shouldn't be so complicated
Just hold me and then
Just hold me again

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

If I couldn't sleep could you sleep
Could you paint me better off
Could you sympathize with my needs
I know you think I need a lot

I started out clean but I'm jaded
Just phoning it in
Just breaking the skin

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

Start bending me
It's never enough
I feel all your pieces

Start bending me
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in

Shouldn't be so complicated
Just touch me and then
Just touch me again

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

Can you help me I'm bent
I'm so scared that I'll never
Get put back together

You're breaking me in
And this is how we will end
With you and me bent

If it were for me

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 06:42:00 +0000

Is it so wrong to want to help your friends but not want them to help you? Is that really friendship and are there different kinds?
I find myself listening to you and your issues. Helping you out however I can. But when it comes to my issues I like to keep them to myself.
Because I don't think you can help me or because I feel this is something I have to help myself alone.
Because my issues are much deeper and difficult that just friendly advice won't do.
Because my issues are something I can hardly understand myself and I'm pretty sure you don't understand them. Because I've told you and you didn't get it. Or I haven't told you because you have your own issues and you don't need another person to lean on you when you can't even hold yourself.
Because if I told you them your whole perception on the world would change. The friend you thought you had that encouraged you to never give up has given up herself a long time ago.
Because it's easier to solve everyone else while I put on hold my own solving.
Or because I don't want to solve myself and love this chaos that is me.
Whatever it is, I am here for you.
Because if it were for me, I'd have left long ago.

F

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 06:09:00 +0000

And I say F this fucking world... But then I see him and I kind of don't want to anymore. And I want to enjoy him more and to love him more and to be his again. So I remain.

Care for the Environment

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 17:57:00 +0000

http://www.blogactionday.org
Blog Action Day - October 15th

I’m a dreamer. I’m an idealist. I’m utopy. And just like me there are several here. This news article is created for people like me, people that know they are the future and want to improve it. This news is for the people who are capable of doing something big.

Environment

The first thing we need to know is the Environment. The Environment is all living and non-living things occurring naturally on Earth or its regions. The environment is not limited to flora, but it also includes fauna. This means that it is not only plants that we should care about but also animals.

Animals

We have the bad tendency to forget about the rest of the animals when we think about the Environment. There are thousands of problems that affect animals that we just let happen because we either don’t know or simply don’t care.

What are these issues?

Animals are treated in several inhuman ways daily, such as their living in slaughter houses, farms, etc.; the horrible ways they’re murdered to obtain their skins, how they are mistreated by people at home and on the streets, animals used for lab testing, etc.

Sustainability

Sustainability is a system that needs no input or output. We used to believe that the Earth’s resources had no limits. Now we have realized that these do have limits. These limits are mainly driven by population growth. There is currently a debate on how high can the carrying capacity (how many people can it handle before running out of resources) of the Earth go. This averages 12-16 billion. We’re already at 6 billion.

What are we provoking?

With our energy consumption, fuel consumption, industries, the way we handle waste, etc. we affect the Earth. The consequences for this are several: toxicity, habitat loss, climate change, etc. Here’s a great way to explain what this is all about: Design Can Change: Issue.

What can we do?

I believe that we shouldn’t let our world suffer. Without any positive change in how we affect the Earth, we are just working towards our self-destruction.

Here I leave you with a few links of information. Please do not let the foundation or company stop you from doing anything on this matter.

Animals: (Warning: It may contain quite strong images)

People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals (PETA): The animal rights organization
peta2.com: Interviews, Giveaways, and Free Stickers
Caring Consumer: A Guide to Kind Living
GoVeg.com: Vegetarian and Vegan Information
Greenpeace

Global Warming and Animals:

PETA2

Graphic Design and Architecture:

Archinect : Features : ShowCase: LILYPAD (Proposal)
VINCENT CALLEBAUT ARCHITECTE PROJETS TOUT
Archinect : Discussion Forum : General Discussion : What is your favorite LEED building?
Archi-Green: Sustainability Through Architecture
Hamzah & Yeang Sdn. Bhd: Bioclimatism
Design Can Change: Graphic designers unite to address climate change
The green living manifesto: One movement, one goal: truly sustainable living.

Green Websites and Initiatives:

How to make a green home:

Take Action Against Climate Change: Yahoo! Green

Celebrities’ Initiatives:

Special thanks to David Maynard, from the Woodbury University, for giving a class about Sustainability in my university on 2008. The graphics were based on his illustrations for the class.

Thoughts about love

noreply@blogger.com (Adriana) — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 05:58:00 +0000

How do you feel about love?
What do you think about love?
What makes you fall in love?
What makes you fall out of love?
What is love to you?
What represents love?