Man: Wants Threesome! Could this destroy our relationship?

2010-07-08T08:32:00.000-07:00

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I have 3 children, and life seems to be very overwhelming I have a man (boyfriend, significant other, fiance, etc…I just don’t know what to call him any more) We been on, and off since July 2003 Seven years, and I still feel like we are wasting our time with each other.

Finally he has remained out of prison for 2 years. When we have meet each other in 2001 i’ve only seen him a few times though out that year. Basically it was Hi, and bye. I had no attraction to him what so ever though now I think he is sexy/hott.

While in 2002 I saw him a little bit more always giving me his number to call, and I never would call him, then 2003 came saw him around even more still I was playing hard to get. Until one day he grab me, and said I was going to be his one day…a month went bye, and he walked bye me once, then again with his friend him not knowing it was my birthday grab me kissed me, and kept walking.

A month after the kiss I was his 5 month after I find out I’m pregnant. I was working 2 jobs one as a cashier, and he had got me to do stripping prior to our relationship. Only danced for 5 months I hated it even though I was bringing money.

He went to prison due to stolen property while I was 4 months pregnant. Served 18 months. A period of his sentence I broke up with him for 5 months. I had my fun as if I was playing the man role. Had got pregnant , but had a loss. We had our baby girl I believe at that time she was 1 years old, and about 1 month the time he got out. I did visit him frequently, and had put a lot of money in his account. Sometimes I feel that I am his personal bank only it is my income. I lived 1 hour in a half ride from where he was staying when he had got out we were back together. Traveled on the bus to see him… one day we were not meeting up with each other, but I still traveled down, because that is my home town. Was going to the mall with my friend whom is a girl. I had to give him a note, and the DMV Guide book. Surprise to my eyes he was in our spot with another girl now I am not racist, but she happened to black, and he loves to use racist words to describe other makes no sense we are both caucasian/white. I use to only date black, and hispanic men since that time I never felt the same. Well I walked over gave him a kiss, sat down gave him what I needed to give him, and left with my friend furious. I hid hoping he would not see me. He gets up from where he was sitting lifts up his shirt, she touches his abs, then she gets up to walk with him to hide. She is not even attractive looking women. I’m heated not at her, but mostly with him. My friend stayed with mine, and her daughter as I follow they hid laughing at me as a by passed… turned around to find them sitting in front of the waterfront wall smoking weed. I went off on her because she was sitting so close to him… as she stated ” You should be yelling at him not me!” I lost it, because she just seen me kiss him, and knowing I was his baby ma. I dealt with him after that fact of life He Was Cheating. I caught him two other times with her. Seen them in Burger King went in to say hi so he could see his daughter he did not acknowledge. Chased the broad instead. He had a cell phone under my name I called, she picks up, and hangs up, that day I cancelled his line. Wow he calls me finally to state “Why you cancel my cell phone?” That was the end of us for a year with no contact, they break up, and he wound up in another state locked up.

I became pregnant again with another man, and had another lost. I started using drugs, because someone stated to me he was using, but he wasn’t. Thought I was in love with another man who was using drugs…I found out about his drug addiction starting using cocaine. I did things I couldn’t even imagine me doing, because of a man. We broke up because of a Domestic. I still have my child taken care of 3 meals a day, clean, and always taken care of.

Still using drugs at the time, and with the girl we had a threesome with my boyfriend at the time I was cool with her until she didn’t follow the rules. I basically pimped the girl, because I didn’t want to do the dirty work for drugs since I had income. Dumped her right on her ass. Had a new girl to do the work… she just made the money for our supply. I meet a guy looked about 28 he told me his real age 36 I was 22. He happened to be a drug addict to heroin I didn’t find out right away, then he gets locked up, after some time he’s been in prison I was thinking of getting him named tattoo on me, but who do I bumped into before hand yes my baby daddy I thought that this was faith we got back together as I broke up with the drug user. I was off the drugs I never purchased drugs on my own I felt uncomfortable buying knowing I had a child, but being a ex drug user, and off for a couple of months knew the other man was coming out he treated me good minus the drugs I was missing the communication, and connection with him. Where I started pulling myself away for my baby daddy to be with the other. I hated how my baby daddy was always trying to hurt me emotionally using his verbal words as weapons. I attacked back with mine telling him I loved the other man, locking him out of my apartment, and this went on for weeks… until he lost it punched me down to the floor chocking me, then he wanted me remove my clothing to wash up in the tub. I manage to redress myself pull the fire alarm as he jetted out of the house I went to the hospital, because I knew he was around the corner, and would be back when I got home my back down was busted down a knife above the door in the hallway out. Basement door unlocked he was not in my house not knowing, but I locked the basement door called the police, and told them I believe he is down in the basement I was right they locked him up. I was with the other man when he came out of prison I wanted another baby, and I became pregnant I had a baby girl again… When I found out I broke up, because I wanted better for my children. Things around my house where disappearing I had enough. Started talking to my first baby daddy again while he was in prison for the Domestic against me. We had a no contact order. He knew I was a month pregnant with a child that was not his. Once he got out of prison we been together ever since 2008 my baby girl was 2 month old he been there for her ever since. He couldn’t really be there for his first, because he was always in and out prison for 3 1/2 years. We recently had a baby 4 months ago. He always used his words to emotionally hurt me. Has not put his hands on me for 2 1/2 years. I been clean off drugs for 5 years straight. My usage time was for 3 months, then on and off within the year of 2005. I can’t stand it I give him everything, and then not feel appreciated. He recently started working as of June 2010 Asbestos, and Demo … I don’t expect anything from him except respect. We had a house phone, and girls from craigslist escort would call, and he would lie to my face… The girl gave me my address, and everything I researched her, and her number this happened while I was pregnant with his child. I let it go she was not the only girl who called. No more house phone we each have a cell phone under my name. He been with me 2 years straight. I have passwords to his e-mails, and everything else. As he has my passwords to certain accounts like e-bay, pay pal, and my gmail. I check when I suspect something is not right… History, etc… He downloads porn gets secret accounts, and I found him using adult web chat on my laptop. About last week I needed my cover up to feed my baby, because she is a breast fed baby. He did not expect for me to be coming home a half hour from the time I life. My door was locked I sneaked my key in as both of my children are still walking upstairs from downstair 2-5 years of age. I have the baby he shuts t.v off computer off, and is scared holding his pants as he finished masturbating in our family living room. As usual denying to me once again I hate the lies… He just believes he is that good, and I must just be that stupid. I rather he tells me what he is doing so I don’t find out on my own everything would be at ease. He refuses to leave me I give him an option to be happy with out me, and he could see his children when he would have time since he claims to be anti-social he doesn’t do fatherly things anyways… Trying to make him leave on good terms. I been a single mom on my own which seems easier to live with out him, and not to deal with the pain/suffer that I deal with being with him. He been asking for years about a threesome. I care, love him with all my heart, and it hurts me every time he ask. Expecting me to find the girl. I said only if he married me since he gave me a ring September 21,2010, but he didn’t even ask me to marry him… I got this ring when I kicked him out… now every time he got kicked out before he would become obsessed persist on calling me though out the day/night. He actually had money at that time of no work due to selling cars, and trash from the trash. We talked when he got me from dropping our daughter at the bus stop for school. The only thing he knew to do, because I meant business is he took me to get an engagement ring never tried putting it on my finger until I try to give him the box so he could do it the right way. He said ” I promise to always be an asshole.” That wins the award. I didn’t even want it at that point. This rings been off my finger 20 or more times I can’t even count anymore. I believe I deserved the ring, but don’t want the man behind the ring. I was joking about marriage he already believe he owns me, because he named is tattooed above my ass. He now know that the police are a threat to our family, and that is no longer an option for us to split up. What do you think a threesome could actually separate us? Since I am not down for it. I’m bisexual, but my feelings for this man is indescribable. I love to communicate, and that is another problem we have… He’ll communicate with everyone, but me! It comes to a point where I don’t care what he has to say anymore, because he refuses to allow me talk. Also consist on asking for massage when he won’t return the favor knowing my back hurts from carry children all the time. I feel as if he is the biggest child. I will have to start another blog…If not I will keep on. Please feel free to get back on any of these subjects, but the one I am focus on is Do you think a threesome could make him get out of my life? I try to give him the best xxx, but he just lays there most of the time… I could imagine him only being more into the other girl, although he says it is not true! Thank You for your time of reading my blog : ) xoxo