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        <title>Who Do You Need to Confront?</title>
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        <summary>As I was driving to a coffee shop this morning to type this post, I saw a church sign that said "Who do you need to confront?". For the record, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that question, but I...</summary>
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<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><p>As I was driving to a coffee shop this morning to type this post, I saw a church sign that said <em>"Who do you need to confront?"</em>. For the record, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that question, but I was slightly appalled because of A: the nature of the post I was preparing to write, and B: a confirmation of the fact that we live in an age focused on pointing out what is wrong with others while skipping over what's wrong with ourselves. So if you have already managed to <a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=matthew%207:1-5&amp;version=ESV" target="_blank">pry the log out of your own eye</a>, than yes, that is a good question for you, <em>'Who do you need to confront?'</em>. Go for it. But if there is anyone out there like me who has some serious issues to deal with before we move onto others, here's my answer: </p><p><em>Me. I need to finally confront me.</em></p><p>
</p><p>Let's be blunt. I have stuff in my life that needs to be fixed. Lately, I'm becoming more and more focused on actually dealing with the junk in my life and doing less sweeping issues 'under the rug'. Each morning I spend time in my hot-box (the detox sauna) and I ask God what He wants to accomplish in and through me that day. Some days He asks me to have specific conversations with certain people and some days He shows me some scripture that I need to read and think about. And honestly, some days it sucks and I feel crazy for sitting naked in a foil-box while talking to myself. </p><p>But with practice, during this time I've started focused on <em>actually listening</em>. I must say that I've been rather impressed that when I shut my big mouth, God has quite a few things to say to me. Sometimes these words are full of peace and comfort and other times it's discipline. And recently, after specifically asking, it's turning into actual events that God is inviting me to participate in. Ha! I read in the Bible how the Holy Spirit tells people to go this way and that way, or to stop and go talk to this person. So, I'm opening myself up to this possibility and it is turning into quite an experience of trust and boldness.</p><p><em><span style="text-decoration: underline;">(Side-note:</span> I kid you not, the following event actually happened and it proves to me that God has an amazing sense of humor. So I am starting to become very literal in following the guidance of the Holy Spirit. I ask him if there is anywhere he wants me to go or anyone I should speak with. While I am still new to this literal practice, on some days God gives me very clear thoughts of places or people to talk with and it happened the other morning. I got a very very clear picture of an old man on the look-up computer at the public library with the idea of "</em><em>help".<br /></em></p><p><em>So, sticking with my promise that no matter how crazy it seems that I will follow through, I switched my route that morning on my way into work and swung by the library. I nervously walked in hoping the look-up computers were empty but to no avail. Of course, there was an old man, probably homeless, looking something up on the computer and an available computer next to him. CRAP! Now I have to do something! What next? What should I do?<br /></em></p><p><em>So I'm completely freaking out because if I say I'm going to be faithful and keep my promise, I gotta step in and do something. I walk up and stand at the computer next to this old man completely freaking out because I didn't know what to say next! I'm staring at the empty computer desktop thinking about a question to ask (weather? sports? What do homeless people in libraries like to talk about?), when this guy turns to look at me, then looks at the computer and then he points with his homeless and fingerless glove to the desktop icon that launches the library look-up system. "That one gets ya goin'." Then he walked away.<br /></em></p><p><em>I stand in silence. God... you've got to be kidding me. You drag me down to the public library and get me all worked up so that in my big moment of trust and boldness, the point was for a homeless man to help me, the partner of a multi-media company, learn how to use the look-up computer at the public library? Seriously? As I was thinking this, I realized I actually didn't know which icon to double-click and he actually did help me! I kid you not.. this story actually happened last week.)</em></p><p>Anyway... back to the story. <em>"Who do you need to confront?"</em></p><p><em>Me. I need to confront me.</em></p><p>So, the other day God was rather clear when He told me that it was time to start asking for forgiveness. <em>What?! Forgiveness from what?</em> Well, not from stuff that's been happening lately, but from all that old and moldy stuff I've been sweeping under the rug. </p><p>You know what I'm talking about... those moment in your life that you've buried? Maybe it was 5 years ago? Maybe it happened in high school? Those times in the past where you treated someone like complete trash, blatantly lied, stole something, etc... and you know you need to go back and ask for forgiveness? Or another one of my issues is not what I did, but what was done to me. Then I start harboring away all this resentment towards that person and even the mention of their name gets me all worked up. </p><p>God was quite clear in saying, <em>'David, if you want to keep moving forward, if you want to keep pursuing me, we need to drop some of this baggage from your past'. </em>So I did like every good christian does and completely ignored Him.</p><p>The next day I come back to the hot-box hoping that God had already forgot yesterday's discussion. I asked Him what he wanted me to do today and I swear... before I could get those words out of my lips, I heard (again with extreme clarity) <em>"I already told you. I want you to do the same thing I asked you to do yesterday."</em></p><p>Dang. This whole 'God is omnipotent' thing probably includes Him having a good memory. </p><p>I'd like to tell you I got the point that day, but it took me another 2 or 3 days of the same thing happening over and over. So I finally gave up and said...<em> "Fine God, I'll do it. What next?" </em>And it was as though a to-do list popped up in my head with 5 distinct things to do. Of course they are all completely embarrassing because each of them is this old and moldy problem that I've been pretending doesn't exist. </p><p>But it became achingly obvious that God was going to take a hiatus from our conversations until I dealt with each of these issues. As I've been battling the decision to drudge up and mend these old issues, I couldn't get this verse out of my head, </p><blockquote><p><em>"Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say?" <br /></em></p><p><em>- Luke 6:46<br /></em></p></blockquote><p>Busted! What can I say to that? It's those short punchy verses that really get me. Not much room for smart-talk and intellectual justification. How can I keep coming back and saying that I believe in, trust, follow, and obey this deity by declaring him '<em>Lord, Lord</em>' (or <em>'Master, Master'</em> as another version says) and completely ignore the blatant things He is telling me to do. You can't even keep a job at McDonald's by ignoring what your boss tells you to do, so what makes me think this sweep it 'under the rug' approach is going to work with God? </p><p>Then I think back to what Francis Chan had said while talking about the Lord's Prayer. Francis, known for pointing out the 12-year old approach to Biblical interpretation, says, <em> "Forgive us our debts as we also have forgiven our debtors."</em> He says that as far as he can tell the word '<em>AS</em>' is kind of like an equals sign. Is Jesus suggesting we pray to ask God for forgiveness <em>equal</em> <em>to</em> the forgiveness that we give to others? It makes sense, right? We wouldn't say to God, "Please give me complete forgiveness, but just be aware that there are some issues I've swept <em>'under the rug'</em> right now and I really don't intend on doing anything about them." It just seems that if I have the gall, the audacity, to ask God for complete forgiveness, I should be quick to offer it to others... but unfortunately, I still find myself struggling with this.</p><p>So, then I decide I'm going to do it! I'm going to contact these people and I'm going to deal with these issues! I thought that maybe be declaring my intentions to participate, this joy would enter my soul and these beautiful letters would come flying out of my hand and I'd skip off to the postbox! It would be like the final 2 minutes of a <em>Full House</em> episode where everyone learns their lesson, has a group hug and then Danny Tanner says something funny about Uncle Jesse's hair.</p><p>This was not the case. Facing these issues sucked and it took days to work through these letters. I kept getting distracted and after a while I would come to the conclusion that all this fuss was unnecessary. I don't know how I got there but I started convincing myself that Jesus had some type of statute of limitations on sin or something. Like if you did it over 10 years ago it doesn't count any more? Ever get that feeling?</p><p>I had to sit there and type out, word-by-word, the dumb stuff I did. I had to say <em>'Sorry that 10 years ago, I...'</em> or <em>'Sorry that I've held these feelings against you and you didn't even know it...'</em> or <em>'Hey, Denny's Manager, here is the $10 bucks I owe you...'</em> It makes me feel like a complete moron. Even though I've buried, justified and negotiated these sins down to 'hiccup' size, they still very real. They are bold-faced sins that I committed in right in front of other people and to be honest, every now and then, they still silently eat away at me at night when I'm laying in bed. Or when I see so-and-so's picture, I fake-smile knowing exactly what that person would have to say about me. </p><p>I can't pretend these things didn't happen. I can't pretend I didn't hurt these people. I can't pretend that God forgot about them because the God who exists outside of time maybe, just maybe forgot what happened 10 years ago. They are real and they are still floating around in my head and I can't move forward until I deal with them.</p><p>I sat on the floor in my office last night trying to figure out how to swallow my pride on yet another letter. The sun had set and I was too ashamed to go turn on the light. And sitting in the dark, the thought entered my head. I can deal with these issues now and humbly ask for forgiveness from other people who have also screwed up, or I'm going to have to explain to a perfect God one day why writing this letter or talking with this person wasn't worth my time. I guess what I'm saying is that obeying isn't always fun. It hurts. But how can I keep calling Him 'Lord, Lord' and <em>continually</em> not do what he asks of me. I really want to be done with that type of convenient christianity. It's not a matter of following out of guilt, but out of finally getting a clearer picture of a life I've been too scared to pursue.</p><p>Sometimes we just need to need to suck it up and obey. </p><p>Considering each of these stories exist outside of Michigan, I've got 5 sealed and stamped letters in front of me and I'm going to go drop them in the mail. Each of them recounts the story in question, asks for forgiveness and has my phone number on them if they want to talk about it. And you know what has happened as I crafted these letters of awkward and forced humility? As I've folded the letters? As I've put stamps on them? As I've prepared myself for phone calls? The guilt and shame of writing those letters is passing and I'm starting to get excited about sending them. </p><p>The freedom is starting to set in. </p><p>Yes, I'm screwed up and I've done some dumb stuff but I'm not running from them anymore. And of course, I'll feel like a complete moron when they open the letter and listen to me recount what a jerk I was, but in the end I'd much rather be a 'obedient and free moron' than a 'disobedient and enslaved fool'.</p><p>I look forward to sitting next to God in the hot-box tomorrow morning when I get to ask Him what issue we'll tackle next. I excited because I know He'll respond. Why? Because He's learning (even if it's slowly) that I'm starting to become a follower who actually does the things He asks me to do... even when they suck.</p><p>Obedience hurts sometimes, but I am yet to find a time when it wasn't worth it. </p><p><em>(<span style="text-decoration: underline;">Side-note:</span> I hope that this doesn't come across as 'holier-than-thou' post. As much as I'd like this to make me feel holy, it pretty much confirms my suspicion that I'm scared to obey the majority of the time. It's just another embarrassing JUMP that I have to take in order to get from here to there. In speaking with Amy last night, she mentioned that she had similar instances she'd been running from. So I thought that maybe sharing my experiences and my fear might help any readers who needed a kick in the butt to make a few phone calls or write a few letters.)</em></p><p /></div>
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        <title>Happy Valentine's Day!</title>
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        <summary>Amy and I will be celebrating Valentine's Day today and I am so excited she is my bride! However, I had to share this card I got from my parents... they crack me up!</summary>
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<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><p>Amy and I will be celebrating Valentine's Day today and I am so excited she is my bride!</p><p>However, I had to share this card I got from my parents... they crack me up!</p><p><a href="http://www.davidvwenzel.com/.a/6a00df351ed66388340128779f2992970c-pi" style="display: inline;"><img alt="Photo(2)" class="asset asset-image at-xid-6a00df351ed66388340128779f2992970c " src="http://www.davidvwenzel.com/.a/6a00df351ed66388340128779f2992970c-500wi" /></a></p><p><a href="http://www.davidvwenzel.com/.a/6a00df351ed66388340128779f3092970c-pi" style="display: inline;"><img alt="Photo" class="asset asset-image at-xid-6a00df351ed66388340128779f3092970c " src="http://www.davidvwenzel.com/.a/6a00df351ed66388340128779f3092970c-500wi" /></a> <br /> </p><p /></div>
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        <title>Say What?! </title>
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        <summary>"In the days of His flesh, Jesus offered up prayers and supplications with loud cries and tears, to Him who was able to save Him from death, and He was heard because of His reverence. Although He was a son,...</summary>
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<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><p><em>"In the days of His flesh, Jesus offered up prayers and supplications with loud cries and tears, to Him who was able to save Him from death, and <strong>He was heard because of His reverence</strong>. Although He was a son, <strong>He learned obedience</strong> through what He suffered. And being made perfect, He became the source of eternal salvation to all who obey Him." </em></p><p>- Hebrews 5:7-9</p><p /></div>
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        <title>Earth Day 2010! A New Dot&amp;Cross Project!</title>
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        <summary>Thanks to all of you who have been keeping up with my blog. I know it has been pretty heavy lately, but today I have a special treat for you! Instead of boring you to tears with another never-ending post,...</summary>
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<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><p>Thanks to all of you who have been keeping up with my blog. I know it has been pretty heavy lately, but today I have a special treat for you! Instead of boring you to tears with another never-ending post, I have a visual biscuit for you to nibble on!</p><p>You may have heard me talking about our new film series with Matthew Sleeth, the author of <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Serve-God-Save-Planet-Christian/dp/0310275342/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&amp;s=books&amp;qid=1265209731&amp;sr=8-1" target="_blank">Serve God, Save the Planet</a>. This project focuses on the relationship between spiritual and environmental sustainability.  It has been nearly 3 years since we began the developing, but I am so glad to finally present you the trailer. I highly encourage you and your church to get involved on Earth Day, April 21, and take part of this simulcast event. I know you will be blessed for getting outside of your comfort zone and starting to ask yourself some hard questions.</p><p>This issue is not a political story. This issue is not a 'crisis-induced' story. This issue stems from a very very old love story that we have forgotten about. It is time the church united together, opens their eyes and sees that God has shown us, <em>not how to 'save the planet'</em>, but how to care for it in the first place. Somewhere along the way we just decided to ignore what He had to say about tending the garden. Why?</p><p>We can't run from this truth any more! I hope this series speaks truth into the your life and is the cause of many changes, both spiritually but also environmentally. Enjoy the trailer! <em>(Click the four arrow icon to see it full-screen)</em></p><p><object height="240" width="480"><param name="allowfullscreen" value="true" /><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always" /><param name="movie" value="http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=9159902&amp;server=vimeo.com&amp;show_title=1&amp;show_byline=0&amp;show_portrait=0&amp;color=c9ff23&amp;fullscreen=1" /><embed allowfullscreen="true" allowscriptaccess="always" height="240" src="http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=9159902&amp;server=vimeo.com&amp;show_title=1&amp;show_byline=0&amp;show_portrait=0&amp;color=c9ff23&amp;fullscreen=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="480" /></object></p></div>
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        <title>Metabolic Medicine 101</title>
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        <published>2010-01-23T16:52:06-05:00</published>
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        <summary>I am super-excited you are here to read this post! Sit down, put the phone on mute, order a venti-grande-jumbo whatever and let's do this thing... Still with me? Cool. If for whatever reason, it's your first time to this...</summary>
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<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><p>I am super-excited you are here to read this post! Sit down, put the phone on mute, order a venti-grande-jumbo whatever and let's do this thing...</p><p>Still with me? Cool. If for whatever reason, it's your first time to this blog and you have little to no idea why you are here, click <a href="http://www.jumpdavidjump.typepad.com/jump_david_jump/contact.html" target="_blank">here</a> to read a general overview of the journey that brought me to this post. If you hate the internet, I have decided to copy&gt;paste this post into a PDF that you can download and read at your leisure.  <span class="asset asset-generic at-xid-6a00df351ed66388340120a802e273970b"><a href="http://www.davidvwenzel.com/files/metabolic-medicine-101.pdf">Download Metabolic Medicine 101</a></span><span class="asset asset-generic at-xid-6a00df351ed6638834012877060094970c" /></p><p>This explanation of how I am choosing to fight my brain cancer is a collection of reading books, research articles and personal cancer blogs. I have also critically considered a variety of documentaries (pros and cons) covering this issue. I am taking into account discussions with neurologists, oncologists, radiation specialists, cancer patients, cancer survivors and the remaining family members of those whose lives cancer has taken. </p><p><em>But know this most of all</em>, the explanation of why I am choosing this path of treatment is that an number of people have joined me in praying that the Living God would give me wisdom in how to address and treat my cancer. I believe in a God who has individually created me, knows the number of days I have left on this earth and has mysteriously allowed / designed this cancer specifically for me. I can firmly say that this cancer, a circumstance that no one (including me) ever hopes for, has become a gift. I am not angry at God. This experience has become an entirely new way to view and understand Him.</p><p>Honestly, despite the fiery trials and doubt that continually press into me, I still consider it a joy to face this struggle because above all else, it teaches me to rejoice in the physical and social sufferings that were endured by Jesus Christ. And as the 1 Peter 4:13 says, one day His glory will be revealed and at that time those who suffered alongside Him will rejoice and be glad, because during those fiery trials, they were not concerned about wealth, comfort, social status or even personal survival, but glorifying God with their lives.</p><p>If you're about to quit reading because you think I'm crazy, finish this paragraph and then I bid you adieu. Please know there is a God who, even though it's hard if not impossible to understand, is bigger than the illness, natural disasters, injustice and suffering that any human encounters and somehow throughout these experiences... <em>no, maybe even because of these experience</em>, we somehow begin to understand and even experience peace, forgiveness, love, faith and hope. Personally, given the opportunity to return to my old life with <em>my</em> old understanding of God, I would not choose it. If that makes me crazy, so be it.</p><p>So my wife and I press forward in faith to live the lives that we would never have imagined (mainly because we never would have chosen this), but lives that God has specifically set us apart to live. Should my decisions end in life or death, I am not concerned. However, like the great stories of faith in the Bible, God says in the book of Hebrews that those who live and die lives of faith, that they desire and ache for a better place, a heavenly place and God says that He is preparing that place for them. And when they arrive God says<em> 'He will not be ashamed to be called their God'</em>. So we press forward in faith knowing that no matter the results of our time spent here, there is a better place for us with a God who says that He will be proud to welcome us home. That is what living this life is all about, even when it doesn't make sense.</p><p>Do you see what I'm getting at? Let's be honest... I've been given the opportunity to share my story by writing this post and briefly holding your attention because I have cancer and it's natural for humans to gather around other humans enduring suffering. But the real story is so much bigger than me or my story or suffering.</p><p>Please don't miss <span style="text-decoration: underline;"><em><strong>THAT</strong></em></span> story! If you miss that story, you've missed the point altogether and you'd be better off reading <em>The Hardy Boys</em> right now.</p><p><em>(Exit Soapbox)</em></p><p>God gives wisdom to those who ask for it. We have prayed for wisdom on how to approach this cancer treatment and feel that the Holy Spirit is guiding us to choose this path. We're cool with the fact that maybe you disagree with us or think there is a better option available. Your personal story may have started or ended very different than this so we can only speak for ourselves.</p><p><strong>Diagnosis:</strong> Malignant Cancer of the Brain; Grade II - <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oligoastrocytoma" target="_blank">Oligoastrocytoma</a></p><p><strong>Conventional Treatment Recommendation: </strong>Since the tumor is inoperable and resection is not possible, reduce the size of the symptomatic tumor through an ongoing combination of radiation and chemotherapy.<strong> <br /></strong></p><p><strong>Chosen Alternative Treatment Recommendation:</strong> Considering the symptomatic tumor is the result of cancer causing activities happening throughout the body and overcoming the immune system, focus on returning the body to health by restoring it's natural self-regulating capabilities. (Kinda like training wheels until I get enough speed to continue on my own momentum...)</p><p><strong>Treatment Length:</strong> Up to 18 months</p><p><strong>Basic Treatment Steps of Metabolic Medicine:<br /></strong></p><ol>
<li><strong>Diet - </strong>Similar to my current diet. No canned or processed foods. Everything organic. Cooking with all stainless steel, no microwaves, all filtered water for drinking, cooking, showering, etc...<strong><br /></strong></li>
<li><strong>Detox - </strong>Coffee Enemas and Infrared Saunas. (Yes, you heard correctly. Coffee Enemas! That'll keep you reading!)<strong><br /></strong></li>
<li><strong>Supplementation - </strong>Bolstering body's natural pancreatic proteolytic enzymes through oral supplements. These enzymes focused on entering the bloodstream, locating the tumor and digesting the specific protein of the tumor mass without harming the body's healthy tissues.</li>
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<p>If you are interested in reading more about this alternative treatment, please continue reading or return to the top to download and read later because I'm only gettin' warmed up... </p><p>
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<p /><p>Now, before we get started and before you start to type passionate and lengthy emails, let's get to the disclaimers!</p><ol>
<li>Despite spending one semester in Pre-Med, I am not a doctor. However, I am an Eagle Scout and I spent 3 summers as a lifeguard. I don't know if that means anything to you so I'll let that speak for itself...</li>
<li>If you suffer from cancer and are looking for treatment options, please know that I am not telling you that this is the only way that cancer can be treated, reversed or healed. However, in my personal opinion and the wisdom I've been given, this approach resonates with my understanding of my specific type of cancer more than any other treatment I have discovered to this point. </li>
<li>If you suffer from cancer or another chronic illness and blindly trust whatever you're doctor tells you, I strongly suggest that you grow a pair, start thinking, reading and researching for yourself. Make your OWN decisions. Even if you eventually come to agree with your doctors, it will be <em>your</em> decision, not theirs and your response to their treatment will be better.  </li>
<li>If any of my anatomical, medical or nutritional explanations in this post are lacking complete inerrancy, please accept my apology and refer back to Disclaimer #1.</li>
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<p>Here we go.  Yes, I know. You've been reading for about 45 minutes and we are only now getting to the good stuff. Maybe you should check your voicemail, double-check your kids aren't bleeding and grab a healthy, non-processed snack such as celery or some almonds. Deep breath. Ready?</p><p><strong>CHAPTER 2</strong></p><p>Remember that time when <a href="http://www.jumpdavidjump.typepad.com/jump_david_jump/2009/10/scary-thursday.html" target="_blank">I went to the emergency room for the second time</a>? Micah the Magician had been doing quite a bit of work on me including some <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Craniosacral_therapy" target="_blank">CranioSacral therapy</a>. He was working on this the day before I starting having major pre-seizure symptoms. Crap, we jointly thought, somehow by screwing with my craniosacral fluid, Micah has screwed me up and now I'm in the ER. (For the record, later we discovered that his therapy had absolutely nothing to do with my pre-seizure symptoms.) But there was a moment where Micah was so concerned that he started calling other local practitioners in order to find a legitimate Chiropractor who was familiar with Craniosacral therapy. After talking with a few, he found the guy he was looking for. </p><p><em><span style="text-decoration: underline;">(Side-note:</span> From this moment on, this Chiropractic doctor will be known as "Dr. Y". Why? Namely because Dr. X is overused with underworld villains and sounds slightly ominous. "Dr. Y" is underused and sounds more meaningful, you know? Kinda like a name that is part answer and part question. Still mysterious, yet also hopeful.)</em></p><p>Later I discovered why Micah choose Dr. Y. He is Chinese and his wife runs the front office. Micah, my conspiracy theorist naturopath with a distaste for corporations, has a great deal of respect for Chinese practitioners and family-run small businesses. So, I go to see Dr. Y, a random local chiropractor.</p><p>The first thing Dr. Y tells me is that my spine is whacked. I figured this was obvious considered this is what every chiropractic doctor tells a client the first time they meet. <em>"You're broke = you need me. Keep coming back and paying me money." </em>Nevertheless, after showing me that my right shoulder was dipping about and inch and a half lower than my left and my right leg was considerably shorter than my left, I didn't argue. </p><p>After making the adjustments, he bluntly let me know that God shows him things with his patients and he felt that my cancer was mainly due a parasite infection and heavy metal poisoning. <em>WHAT?</em> This guy knows nothing about me and he's already telling me,<em> via divination</em>, why I have cancer which is very different reasoning than Micah's thought about where my cancer came from.</p><p>Not to mention, parasites? heavy metals? Gross.</p><p>He told me that on top of his chiropractic work, He is also trained in a metabolic medicine program that reverses cancer. If I was interested in undergoing this therapy, he would serve as a guide and take me through the program. He gave me a book called, <em>One Answer to Cancer</em> written by Dr. William Donald Kelley that was last published in 1969.</p><p>I read the book. I re-read the book. This book, which is only 36 pages long, essentially recaps EVERYTHING I had been reading in all of the other current-day cancer books. It was so clear, concise, medically justified without forgetting elements of emotional health and stress management. This was the book I had been looking for! It actually made sense while talking about the symptoms of cancer vs. the cause of cancer and about how the immune system is the ONLY way to truly fight cancer without body detriment, and about how the cancer industry is corrupt and despite well-natured physicians, wasn't really fighting to reverse cancer but only prolonging life. He had managed to put into words (in only 36 pages which will probably be shorter than this post) all these nebulous thoughts I had been dealing with.</p><p>While it took me months to think about this and start practicing some of the general recommendations, I felt more and more convicted that this was the treatment I wanted to pursue. How did I know? I am still a very logical person so I wanted to see if there was any truth in what Dr. Y or Dr. Kelley had to offer...</p><p>Apparently, my body does have a parasite infestation. Part 2 of the treatment is detoxification and part of detoxification is cleaning the toxins out of the bowels. We're about to get really personal here so I thought that I just wanted to remind you that this blog has always been full-disclosure. Also, you should know that the 'V' in my full name stands for my middle-name 'Vaughan', which is my dad's name and a family name. Just sayin', if we're going to get more personal we should also know the basics too.</p><p>So by Dr. Y's recommendation, I began doing coffee enemas. I really wasn't surprised he wanted me to do this because nearly every type of natural / alternative treatment calls for enemas because bowel detoxification is pretty-much standard-treatment. So I get an enema bucket and some coffee. While this isn't a Starbucks Medium-roast coffee or anything, it is actually coffee, but I hear if you drink it your mouth turns green. The basic premise is that the coffee, when inserted anally, floods the digestive system and the caffeine is absorbed into the hemorrhoidal or portal veins and stimulates or dilates the bile ducts. When this stimulation happens, it cleans you out and creates an uninhabitable environment for little friends... namely parasites, worms and all sorts of other toxins. </p><p>Why the bowels? By focusing on the health of the bowels your body can absorb vitamins and nutrients you're eating (assuming you are actually eating them). With bowels full of toxins your body doesn't get the things it needs to produce the right enzymes to distribute throughout your body. There is a general theory that the pancreas is the key organ to fighting cancer. Since your pancreas is what generates and releases the enzymes that digest the proteins that form tumors, if your pancreas is not working at 100%, your body's immune system and overall health starts to deteriorate. What are the things that can cause your pancreas to start failing? Toxins! These can be found in impure water, heavy metals, parasites, exhaust, cigarette smoke, processed foods, bacteria, etc...  So essentially, by using the coffee enemas to stimulate your liver, colon and pancreas to dump (no pun intended) all of the toxins in your bowels, you are allowing for your pancreas to start doing it's job properly which includes producing the enzymes to break down protein-based tumors... something my body wasn't doing very well.</p><p><em>Random Question: What is the worst kind of cancer to have?</em></p><p><em>Not so random answer: Pancreatic Cancer</em></p><p>Starting to make sense?</p><p>So, yes... I have been cleaning a variety of parasites out of my bowels. The funny thing is that whenever I tell this to people, the common response is shock that I have parasites. However, what I've come to find out is that we all pretty much have parasites to varying degrees. The real question is, do you keep feeding what they need to live happy in your tummy and continually undermine your immune system? Or are you going to flush them out of your system and restore your pancreas back to it's A-game? Yes, that same A-game that keeps cancer from accumulating in your body...</p><p>Next. I made a infrared sauna. It sits in our guest bedroom and if you ever spend the night at our house, you get to sleep next to it. Another toxin issue (outside of the bowels) is sweat. Your body naturally releases toxins through sweat so the thought behind the sauna is to given your sweat glands a kick in the butt and get them working overtime. I spend about 40 minutes a day in my little ghetto guest-room sauna. There are 3 infrared bulbs producing serious amount of heat than cause you to work up quite a bit of sweat! Then you hop in a cold shower and rinse all that sweat off of you. It seriously feels fantastic and has become one of the better parts of my day. I get to spend 40 minutes each day, uninterrupted, thinking and praying... doctors' orders. <em><br /></em></p><p><em>Quick Thought: </em>Many people who die of cancer don't actually die from cancer, but from toxemia, a collection of toxins within the body that after time pile up and shut down the bodys' systems. Why does toxemia happen? Because no one ever took the time to focus on getting these toxins out of the body. They just kept piling up until they overtook the body.</p><p>In addition to parasites, I am waiting on the results for my heavy metal test which is another type
of toxin. If Dr. Y is right, I'll probably have a build-up of heavy
metal in my body which will need to be removed. But that's more for
later...</p><p>None of my doctors have been concerned about heavy metals or toxins. No one was interested in what my bowels were up to because according to my doctors (yes, the same doctors who don't think what we eat is related to cancer) aren't interested in the causes behind my cancer, only the obvious symptoms of the cancer = tumors. They are interested in prolonging my life by creating a life-long need for them to continually shrink my tumors whenever they start to grow, instead of training my body to do the fighting itself. This is why we all hear story-after-story of how tumors shrink but then grow back a few years later! Why? Because conventional doctors are treating symptoms, NOT the causes that underly the symptoms!!!</p><p>So do I have any personal medical evidence behind this? Well, part of this was to get a blood/urine test done through a Cancer Profile Marker Test. These are the numbers by which we can measure the cancer's activity in my body (again, something my conventional doctors weren't interested in doing... or if they did test this stuff, they never told me). I will continue to routinely do these tests to measure the levels of certain things in my blood / urine to figure out if the cancer is growing or receding. </p><p>These urine tests are pretty much prohibited by the FDA. Why? Great question. Why would a urine test that is about 99% effective for determining malignancy within the body be outlawed by the FDA? Because you don't need a doctor, a cancer hospital, an ER, nurses or fancy buildings. Yes, for a small fee, you can perform malignancy tests through urine that only requires simple lab-work! But instead of testing urine for preliminary cancer tests, we make sure any any woman past 30 or 40 starts getting mammograms every year to determine preliminary risks for cancer. Seriously? You figure out if someone has cancer by routinely giving them heavy doses of radiation? Just recently if finally came out from one of the major medial clinics like MD Anderson or whatever is starting to realize that the ACTUAL mammograms used to test for breast cancer are the ACTUAL reason the cancer develops in the first place.</p><p>Seriously! I feel like I'm taking crazy pills!</p><p>It turns out that from a simple urine test that could have been taken at any point in time, I learned, with 100% accuracy, that I have malignancy in my body. And it also would have shown up if I'd taken this test 5 or more years ago when this cancer was growing in my body. The other interesting thing? My insurance won't cover this urine test. I can easily easily get my insurance to pay around $80,000 for brain radiation, but I can't get them to pay $100 for simple lab-work... which a logical person could surmise would essentially keep them from having the pay the $80,000 down the road. </p><p>In addition, with the blood work we learned that my <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Parasympathetic" target="_blank">parasympathetic</a> nervous system is compromised. In fact, the tests show that I produce the same amount of DHEA-S (an adrenal hormone that is anti-stress, pro-immunity and increases longevity) as, and I kid you not... a 75 year old.  But what does this mean and does it have to do with anything else related to what is wrong with my body?</p><p>According to <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Parasympathetic" target="_blank">Wikipedia</a>...</p><blockquote><p><em>"Sympathetic and parasympathetic divisions typically function in opposition to each other. But this opposition is better understood as complementary in nature rather than antagonistic. For an analogy, one may think of the sympathetic division as the accelerator and the parasympathetic division as the brake. The sympathetic division typically functions in actions requiring quick responses. The parasympathetic division functions with actions that do not require immediate reaction. A useful acronym to summarize the functions of the parasympathetic nervous system is SLUDD (salivation, lacrimation, urination, digestion and defecation)"</em></p></blockquote><p>Anyone notice anything interesting about the end of that description? A poor parasympathetic system harms the digestion and defecation systems in the body, thus enhancing the effects of other indirectly related issues such as parasites and/or heavy metals. Everything that is going wrong in my body is loosely related to decreasing the efficiency of my liver and my pancreas. I don't mean to make all of this complex stuff too over simplified but could if be that if we can fix the pancreas, can we reverse the cancer?</p><p>Looks like this is turning out to be closer to a Hardy Boys case after all...</p><p>This is where Micah's analysis comes back into play. He recognized that my body is always stressed out and that the main emotional concern I always face is worry and anxiety. From this blood work we can confirm there is actual scientific medical facts that support this issue emotional issues that I'm having by always being too stressed out, not being able to focus, etc...I will continue to work with Micah to make sure that my diet is right for my body and blood type. I will also continue to work through the emotional issues surrounding the increased levels of stress and worry which are proven to cause progression in tumor growth. </p><p>I know this is so much information and I could just go on for days and days. But let me try to sum all this up.</p><p>I am choosing Alternative treatments because conventional treatments aren't concerned with any of the urine / blood work that shows serious issues with other parts of my body. Conventional doctors want to shrink tumors while it appears that if I fix the causes such as parasympathetic issues, toxicity, pancreatic enzyme deficiencies, etc... my pancreas will begin to heal itself and produce the enzyme needed for my body to self-regulate and break down cancer any time it rises up in the future.</p><p>So, to recap my treatment plans...</p><p>1. <strong>Diet</strong> - Seriously, people... We should all be doing this. This isn't a cancer treatment. It should be a life treatment. Watch <em>Food, Inc.</em> and get over your selfish need for hyper-convenience and start protecting yourself and your family.</p><p>2. <strong>Detox</strong> - Since my body is already overcome with toxins, I need to start getting rid of the heavy metal, parasites and other dead-cells that my body hasn't been efficiently disposing. Hence the need for the coffee enemas and the ghetto guest-room sauna. But so far, so good!</p><p>3. <strong>Pancreatic Enzyme Supplements</strong> - Since my body isn't producing enough enzymes to break down the tumors, we are going to help it out for awhile. These supplements are completely natural (thus not patentable, thus not profitable for big-business pharma companies who have turned a blind eye towards them despite their efficiency). I will be taking about 120-150 pills a day which will kick my pancreas into high-gear. After about 18 months, when my pancreas is toxin-free and back to working order, it should be able to take over the job and start producing these same pancreatic enzymes itself = self-regulating the body and the immune system to handle whatever problems (including new cancers) that may arise.</p><p>Yes, it is going to cost a substantial amount of money and no my insurance company won't cover any of it. Why? Great question! It's a fraction of the cost of conventional treatment and this treatment has been shown over and over for terminally ill stage IV cancer patients <em>including</em> Dr. William Donald Kelley who was given 2 weeks to live with Pancreatic Cancer. Yup, after performing this treatment on himself, he overcame the most dangerous type of cancer to live over 40+ years and essentially die of old age.</p><p>So... basic questions you may have:</p><p><em>1. Where do I get this coffee for enemas?</em> </p><p>I don't know right now. I'll see if there is a website you can order from and let you know.</p><p><em>2. Can I take this Cancer Profile test?</em> </p><p>Technically yes, but the labs are super-picky about accepting labwork because they are always being hunted down by the AMA, NCS, etc... In other words, the powers that be don't want people to know that preliminary malignancy tests with an extremely high efficiency rating and zero risk can be done with a vile of urine and a FedEx envelope.</p><p><em>3. Where can I get this 'One Answer to Cancer' book?</em> </p><p>I actually don't know. Dr. Y has them in his office but I can't find them online. I'll see if there is a source. If not, I'll just buy a bunch and start sending them to whoever wants them. However, I think Dr. Gonzalez has pretty similar information that is more readily available.</p><p>4. Is this similar to Dr. Gonzalez's treatment?</p><p>Very similar. <a href="http://www.dr-gonzalez.com/index.htm" target="_blank">Dr. Gonzalez</a> was a student of Dr. Kelley's. He was also recently featured on <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=63OIXnTliA8&amp;feature=related" target="_blank">Larry King Live Debate</a> with Dr. Burzynski and Suzane Sommers (I know, I know... Suzanne doesn't help the credibility factor). He created his own version of Kelley's treatment and began creating his own pancreatic enzymes. He technically carries on Dr. Kelley's tradition, however, Dr. Y was trained by one of Dr. Kelley's own students so I will be actually going through the original treatment.</p><p><em>5. Can these enzymes get into your brain past the blood-brain tumor to break down the tumor?</em></p><p>Yes. All enzymes will be IN the blood so they'll perfectly slide through the blood-brain barrier to reach the tumor and break it down as opposed to other types of silver-bullet treatments that have trouble passing through the BBB.</p><p><em>6. What did your parasites look like?</em></p><p>Come on... Now that's just too far. Just kidding, I'll explain it later on.</p><p><em>7. Who is Dr. Y?</em></p><p>At this point in time, I don't want to publicly share his name. He is already being watched from the conventional treatment centers in our area and I want to protect him. However, I will discuss with him if there is a way that I can pass along his info to you if you are interested in treatment.</p><p>So, that's enough for today. I'm sure this will stir up a variety of questions, but that should give an overview of what I'm about to undergo. I also plan on getting much more detailed about my actual food, my detox details, etc...</p><p>If you are one of the few, the proud, who have made it this far in post, I sincerely salute you. I have to go pass-out now from exhaustion...<br /> </p><p /><p /></div>
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<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><p>Have I ever told you about one of my all-time favorite Bible stories? It's a random one...</p><p>In 1 Samuel 14 (this is pre-King David), we find Jonathan, the son of Saul leading the Israelites in their fight against the Philistines. But similar to David, Jonathan had a courageous understanding of what it meant to have the Living God on your side. He knew that this Living God kept His promises to the Israelites and He had instructed them to fight the Philistines despite the fact that the odds of a successful victory were, statistically speaking, ridiculously low. Considering these odds, Saul and the Israelite army camped out, waiting to see what was going to happen next.</p><p>Yet Jonathan (who actually trusted that God would do as He said He was going to do) went to fight anyway. And maybe this is why I like this story... Jonathan had so much courage that the Lord would back him up that he didn't wait for the rest of the army. In fact, he didn't even ask Saul the King if he could go fight, because he knew what Saul would have said, <em>'No!'</em>. I suppose he took the approach that it's easier to ask for forgiveness than permission and decided to go fight by himself. So he grabbed his armor bearer and the two of them approached the enemy ranks. And I'm blown away by what Jonathan says next...</p><p>
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<p> </p><p><em>"Come, let's go over to the outpost of these enemies.
Perhaps the Lord will act in our behalf. Nothing can hinder the Lord
from saving, whether by many or by few."</em></p><p>In other words, Jonathan not only believed that God was on his side, but he was actually going to act on it. He knew that no matter what the odds were, no matter how the military ranks stacked up, that God is pretty much going to do as He pleases and nothing, no enemy, no science, no physical parameter can stop God from accomplishing what He promises to accomplish. He can win a battle in any way He sees fit. </p><p>Pretty gutsy to believe. Even gutsier to act upon...</p><p>So in support of Jonathan, his armor bearer says,<em> "Do all that you have in mind. Go ahead; I am with you heart and soul."</em></p><p>What an entire army was hesitant to do, was taken on by two warriors who were not afraid of death and who were not concerned about whether or not the Lord would keep His promises. They simply moved forward, went ahead, not because it made sense or because they were the stronger army, but because it was the right thing to do. You probably know the ending of this story, but if not, <a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1%20samuel%2014:1-23&amp;version=NIV" target="_blank">read this</a>.</p><p>In light of a story with so much raw faith required, I have trouble even correlating it to my story, but nevertheless, I use the faith of men like Jonathan to encourage me in times like these.</p><p>Amy and I have been praying for the Lord's guidance. We have asked that He show us which paths to take and we believe He has done so. And through a series of random <em>(see: divine)</em> events, we have stumbled across and studied a unique path to alternative / natural cancer treatments that will require multiple forms of risk and personal sacrifice.</p><p>I kinda feel like Jonathan looking at this enemy, a physical illness, declaring that the Lord has called us to take this crazy path going against modern medicine, against the wisdom of my doctors and against the desires of many people who truly love us and wish we would re-consider conventional treatment.</p><p>But as far as I can tell, the Lord has not instructed me differently; I am on the same mission. I will continue to glorify God and obey His guidance by fighting this cancer alternatively, because I believe that a victory over this brain tumor can only be attributed to God's direct intervention and the the fulfillment of the promises He has made to Amy and I. </p><p>In the story of Joseph in Genesis, Joseph recounts in chapter 50 and verse 20 the circumstances that lead to the culmination of the crazy story that God lead him down. He recalls to to those who hurt him, <em>"You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of <span style="text-decoration: underline;">many lives</span>." </em>I love this. At the climax of Joseph's story, it becomes clear that the plot was never to save only <em>his</em> life, but to save many lives. Please do not be confused about how I am viewing my own story. I do not see this as a battle to save my life, but a story being told by God to save, as Joseph said, <em>many</em> <em>lives</em>. I have no doubt that God will continue to show Himself through this story. Above all else, I pray that you see His promises fulfilled, I pray you see a Spirit who moves in super-natural ways and I pray that <em>your</em> life would be saved.</p><p>So as the Operation 55 Zebra story continues, I can't sit back like Saul waiting to see what happens. I must move forward. I have made a decision to follow God down a specific path of treatment and trust that this path I am about to walk has already been prepared for me. </p><p>In Micah 2, it says that the Lord I serve <em>"will burst all confinements and lead [His people] out into the open. They'll follow their King. [He] will be out in front leading them."</em> The way has already been prepared and my Lord has already gone before me. I also know that I have several 'armor bearers' that are with me; my wife, my business partners, my family and maybe even you, who can all gather around me and tell me that they are with me, heart and soul.</p><p>The overall details of the treatment plan will be posted tomorrow. It might be a slightly long post so I'll also include the cliff notes at the beginning.</p><p>I end with the words of Psalms 20 that have been ringing in my ears for nearly 7 months:</p><blockquote><p><em>5 We will shout for joy when you are victorious<br />       and will lift up our banners in the name of our God.<br />       May the Lord grant all your requests.<br /><br /> 6 Now I know that the Lord saves his anointed;<br />       he answers him from his holy heaven<br />       with the saving power of his right hand.<br /><br /> 7 Some trust in chariots and some in horses,<br />       but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.<br /><br /> 8 They are brought to their knees and fall,<br />       but we rise up and stand firm.<br /><br /> 9 O Lord, save the king!<br />       Answer us when we call!</em></p></blockquote><p /></div>
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        <summary>"If I had really cared, as I thought I did, about the sorrows of the world, I should not have been so overwhelmed when my own sorrow came" - C.S. Lewis</summary>
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