I have personally been thru MANY of the experiences Mr. Levy discusses in his book, and feel now – at this time in our evolution, we must pay closer attention to what is being played out in the world, within ourselves, and within the collective psyche.

For a list of Paul Levy’s essays on this subject click here > Awaken in The Dream

The idea of a psycho-spiritual disease of the soul (which has been wreaking havoc throughout human history) is what the Native Americans call wetiko. 

The term wetiko is a Cree term (windigo in Ojibway, wintiko in Powhatan)

“The wetiko virus is like a parasite that literally feeds off, takes over and aberrates the currency of the infected system. The wetiko-pathogen originally manifests as a disturbance in the field of the collective unconscious of humanity itself, creating the psychic ley lines upon which world events are erected and energized. The origin of this virulent disease is to be discovered within the psyche.

Because of the psychic nature of wetiko, it serves us to understand the psychological underpinnings of the virus, which is to say, how it affects our day to day relationships and lives.

We begin to ‘see’ the bug when we are able to get in focus and recognize its’ psychological signature in both ourselves and others. The fact that the source of the “wetiko-germ is within the psyche which means that the cure for this disease lies hidden within the psyche as well.”

The wetiko psychosis is at the very root of humanity’s inhumanity to itself in all its various forms. As a species, we need to step into – and participate with – our own spiritual and psychological evolution, which means that we must focus our attention on and contemplate this ‘topic of topics’ before this virulent madness destroys us.

“Up until this point in our history we have been too easily distracted by the ruses of the wetiko bug itself. The disease itself is now demanding that we pay attention to it, or it will kill us. Its cure is the most pressing and fundamental issue facing us today.

Author and environmental activist Derrick Jensen writes in his foreword to Jack D. Forbes book about wetiko psychosis, “Columbus and other Cannibals is, I think, the most important book ever written on one of the most important topics ever faced by human beings: why is the dominant culture so excruciatingly, relentlessly, insanely, genocidally, ecocidally, suicidally destructive?”[i] 

Historian Arnold Toynbee points out that “a civilization doesn’t die from being invaded from the outside, but unless it creates culture which nourishes the evolution of the creative spirit, a civilization invariably commits suicide.”

As if possessed – our civilization is, trance-like, sleepwalking in a death-march towards our own demise. The most pressing and inevitable question of our time is not just ‘why?’ but more urgently, how can we stop this seemingly out-of-control, self-destructive, hell-bent part of ourselves?

Wetiko disease is an expression of the convincing illusion of the separate self gone wild. Bewitched by the intrinsic projective tendencies of their own mind, full-blown wetikos are unconsciously doing the very thing they are reacting to while simultaneously accusing other people of doing it.

Projecting the shadow onto others, they will accuse others of projecting the shadow onto them. To use an extreme, but prototypical example, it is like someone screaming that you’re killing them as they kill you.

If their insanity is reflected back to them, they think it is the mirror that is insane. Suffering from a form of psychic blindness that believes itself to be sightedness, full-blown wetikos project out their own unconscious blindness and imagine that others, instead of themselves, are the ones who are not seeing.

“Governed by the insane, self-perpetuating logic of fear and paranoia, those taken over by the disease fear that if they don’t attack and rule over others, they are in danger of being attacked and ruled over themselves. In their convoluted, upside-down, flawless illogic, wetikos’ act to their own projections in the world as if they objectively exist and are other than themselves, thinking that they themselves have nothing to do with creating that to which they are reacting.” (please see Aparticipatory Delusional Syndrome (ADS)).

Someone fully taken over by the wetiko bug is like a kitten endlessly reacting to her reflection in a mirror as if it is another kitten separate from and other than herself. The evil we see in the full-blown wetikos is a reflection of our own evil; if we don’t recognize this, we will just be projecting our shadow onto them. We are then guilty of the very same thing (shadow projecting) we are essentially reacting to and of which we are accusing them.

In wetiko disease, the psyche takes the ‘terror’ that haunts it from within, and in its attempt to master it, unwittingly becomes taken over by it, thus becoming an instrument of terror in the world. We have then become the thing we most feared, ‘creatures of the European nightmare world,’ as we psychologically terrorize ourselves, as well as terrorizing the world at large. 

Wetiko is the bug which feeds the experience of terror within our mind and out in the world, fueling one of its more prominent manifestations in our world today: the ‘Global War on Terror.’ 

Most of the above article was taken from an essay in Realty Sandwich 

Below is an audio interview with Paul Levy. The radio introduction is nothing short of obnoxious, so skip ahead to the interview portion and dig right in.

Do you think that you are free?  Most Americans would still probably answer “yes” to that question, but is that really the case?

In the film Edge of Darkness, Mel Gibson stated that “everything is illegal in Massachusetts”.  Well, the same could pretty much be said for the United States as a whole.

Our lives are governed by millions of laws, rules and regulations and more are being piled on all the time.  In fact, 40,000 new laws just went into effect in January.

Every single new law restricts your freedom just a little bit more.  The truth is that America has become a crazy control freak nation where virtually everything that we do is highly regulated.  You have probably broken multiple laws today that you don’t even know exist.

We have all become criminals and lawbreakers because almost everything is illegal at this point.  Our politicians are convinced that they are “making life better” by piling gigantic mountains of laws onto our backs, and law enforcement authorities are convinced that they are helping society by “cracking down on crime”, but the reality is that our liberties and our freedoms are being strangled by all of this government oppression. 

This is not the way that America is supposed to work.

Yes, every society needs laws.  But the laws should be short enough and simple enough that everybody can read them and understand them.

In America today, there is no possible way that any of us could ever read all of the laws that apply to us.  Most of us just live our daily lives and try to do the “right” thing.  But there is no guarantee that men with guns will not show up at your door one evening because of some obscure regulation that you have broken.

The following are 19 signs that America has become a crazy control freak nation where almost everything is illegal.

#1 One California town is actually considering making it illegal to smoke in your own backyard.

#2 In Louisiana, a church was recently ordered to stop giving out water because it did not have a permit to do so.

#3 In the United States it is illegal to operate a train that does not have an “F” painted on the front.  Apparently without that “F” we all might not know where the front of the train is.

#4 In many U.S. states is it now illegal to collect rain that falls from the sky on to your own property.

#5 In America today it is illegal to milk your cow and sell the milk to your neighbor.  If you do this, there is a good chance that federal agents will raid your home at the crack of dawn.

#6 In Washington D.C. it is illegal not to recycle cat litter.

#7 It is illegal to give a tour of the monuments in Washington D.C.without a license.

#8 In the United States it is illegal to sell natural cures for cancer – even if they work.

#9 In the state of Massachusetts it is illegal to deface a milk carton.

#10 In the state of Alabama, bear wrestling is completely illegal.

#11 In Fairbanks, Alaska it is illegal to give alcoholic beverages to a moose.

#12 In Lake Elmo, Minnesota it is illegal to sell pumpkins or Christmas trees that are grown outside city limits.

#13 There is a federal law that makes it illegal to be “annoying” on the Internet.

#14 If you register with a false name on MySpace or Facebook you could potentially “spend five years in federal prison“.

#15 In Hazelwood, Missouri it is illegal for little girls to sell girl scout cookies in the front yards of their own homes.

#16 All over the United States lemonade stands run by children are being shut down because they do not have the proper permits.

#17 In Florida, it is illegal to bring a plastic butter knife to school.

#18 In San Juan Capistrano, California it is illegal to hold a home Bible study without a “conditional use permit“.

#19 In the city of Philadelphia, Pennsylvania it is illegal to make even a single dollar from a blog unless you buy a $300 business license.

Sadly, this list of crazy laws and ridiculous regulations could be thousands long.

We are a nation run by a bunch of control freaks who do not care about our liberties and our freedoms.

Every once in a while, John Stossel does some really great reporting.  An example of this is posted below.  In this 40-minute video, Stossel goes into great detail about how almost everything is illegal in America today.  In particular, the first 20 minutes are absolutely excellent.  If you have not seen this yet, I highly encourage you to check it out.

One thing leads to another, and before you know it, the day is consumed with clicks and links. 

This is one of those “gold mines”, and I felt it needed to be passed along. A full study site. I love it. Something to bookmark to come back and pick up where you left off.

So here it is… a gift for you. 

TROM – The reality of ME ~ Click HERE  for Trom Web Site

“The TROM documentary is trying to present, in a simplistic way, the world in which we, human beings, live. The world discovered so far, not some idea or personal choice. Moreover we tried to present alternative solutions to current problems and took into account the future, which promises to be more than interesting. An informative documentary, perhaps shocking and disturbing to many, depending on how you digest the information.

The documentary is divided into chapters and sub-chapters due to documentary’s excessive length (13 hours). Also all the parts are connected.

The documentary and website are concentrated, so it is essential to read additional information which can be found in descriptions beside each section and the video player.”

(h) The Reality of Me (2011) Trailer from TROM documentary on Vimeo.

Read more: http://www.thegic.org/profiles/blogs/dolphins-formally-declared-non-human-persons-by-scientists#ixzz1ngXq3QP3

Dolphins are so intelligent that they should be thought of as ‘non-human persons’ and given their own bill of rights, it is claimed.

A coalition of scientists, philosophers and animal welfare groups have come up with a declaration of dolphin rights which they hope will one day be enshrined in law.

This would stop them being kept in zoos and waterparks, and being attacked by fishermen.

Flippin’ heck: A coalition of scientists are calling for a bill of rights to protect dolphins like bottlenose Fungie

Whales would also be elevated above other animals by the list of rules, leading to whalers being classed as murderers, the American Association for the Advancement of Science’s annual conference heard in Vancouver.

Whale watching trips would be subject to regulations which would respect the creatures’ privacy, and developers and oil companies would have to give huge consideration to the effect their projects would have on the animals’ life and culture.

Philosopher Thomas White said: ‘Scientific evidence is now strong enough to support the claim that dolphins are, like humans, self-aware, intelligent beings with emotions and personalities.

‘Accordingly, dolphins should be regarded as “non-human persons” and valued as individuals. From an ethical perspective, the injury, deaths and captivity of dolphins are wrong.’

Those who drew up the bill of rights are known as the Helsinki Group and include UK members of the Whale and Dolphin Conservation Society.

They say that thanks to advances in science, it is clear that dolphins are extremely intelligent, complex and sensitive mammals.

The bill of rights states that every individual member of the cetacean order – whales, dolphins and porpoises – has a right to life.  

It also says that no one has the right to own the creatures or to do anything that undermines their rights, freedoms or norms.

Its authors are using the Vancouver conference to try to get more scientists and members of the public on their side. They believe this is a step towards eventually persuading governments to enshrine the principles in law.

When brain weight is compared with body weight, the dolphin has the second-largest brain on the planet after humans.

The conference heard that dolphins are self-aware – they can recognise themselves in the mirror. 

There are also examples of them grieving for lost calves, feeding ailing pod mates and co-operating with fishermen when there is a meal in it for them.

In Laguna, Brazil, when a shoal of fish enters the lagoon, the dolphins herd it towards the fishermen. Any fish that escape their nets provide an easy meal.

Cruel: The ‘bill’ would make it illegal to keep the highly intelligent animals at waterparks

Intrusion: Whale watching trips would be subject to regulations which would respect the creatures’ privacy

At Dingle, south-west Ireland, a bottlenose nicknamed Fungi regularly entertains sightseers in boats.  

Perhaps the most striking example of dolphin intelligence involves Kelly, a member of a pod at the Institute for Marine Mammal Studies in Mississippi which were rewarded with fish for clearing up litter from their pool.

Each piece of litter equated to one fish. To raise her intake of fish, Kelly tore the litter into pieces and presented them one by one.

One day, she caught a gull and was given a large haul of fish for her efforts.

She then started to use the fish she won for litter picking to lure gulls into her jaws.

She also taught the tactic to her calf, which passed it on to other youngsters in the pod.

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-2104034/A-rights-dolphins-Theyre-smart-treat-non-human-persons-say-scientists.html#ixzz1ngXbahD7

GOVERNMENT RESIGNATIONS

2/6/12
Romanian prime minister and cabinet resign en masse
http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2012/feb/06/romania-pm-cabinet-resign

2/20/12 (GERMANY) GERMAN PRESIDENT Christian Ruff resigns (financial corruption charges)
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2102524/German-President-Christian-Wulff-forced-resign.html

RESIGNATIONS FROM WORLD BANKS:

(1) 9/25/11 (SWITZERLAND) Bank chief resigns over £1.5bn rogue trader crisis
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2041385/Oswald-Gruebel-resigns-UBS-boss-steps-Kweku-Adoboli-trading-scandal.html

(2) 10/29/11 (CHINA) Resignations Suggest Shift for China’s Banks
http://online.wsj.com/article/SB10001424052970203687504577003734190522426.html

(3) 11/01/12 (INDIA) More directors of the Beed district bank resign
http://www.thenews.coop/article/more-directors-beed-district-bank-resign

(4) 11/21/11 (JAPAN) UBS’s Japan Investment Banking Chairman Matsui to Resign
http://www.bloomberg.com/news/2011-11-22/ubs-s-japan-investment-banking-chairman-yasuki-matsui-to-resign.html

(5) 11/29/11 (Iran) Iran’s Bank Melli CEO Resigns Over Loan Scam
http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xlcznz_iran-s-bank-melli-ceo-resigns-over-loan-scam_news

(6) 12/15/11 (UNITED KINGDOM) Senior private banker resigns from Coutts [a very exclusive private bank]
http://www.reuters.com/article/2011/12/15/coutts-fleming-idUSL6E7NF23S20111215

(7) 12/22/11 (FRANCE) Societe Generale’s Investment Banking Chief Steps Down
http://dealbook.nytimes.com/2011/12/22/socgens-investment-banking-chief-steps-down/

(8) 1/05/12 (UNITED KINGDOM) Chief executive of Saunderson House [Private Bank] steps down
http://www.ftadviser.com/2012/01/05/ifa-industry/people/saunderson-house-chief-executive-steps-down-M0vEWlpbSqKA3OCLZDCcGM/article.html

(9)1/09/12 (SWITZERLAND) Switzerland’s central bank chief resigns
http://www.aljazeera.com/news/europe/2012/01/201219145612935171.html

(10) 1/12/12 (United Kingdom) Lloyds’ head of wholesale quits
http://www.bankingtimes.co.uk/2012/02/01/lloyds-head-of-wholesale-quits/

(11) 1/19/12 (SPAIN) Spanish bank Santander’s Americas chief quits
http://www.expatica.com/es/news/spanish-news/spanish-bank-santander-s-americas-chief-quits_202395.html

(12) 1/20/12 (JAPAN) Normura’s head of wholesale banking quits
http://www.euromoney.com/Article/2959021/Nomuras-head-of-wholesale-banking-quits.html

(13) 1/29/12 (NEW ZEALAND) New Zealand Reserve Bank Governor Alan Bollard to Step Down in September
http://www.bloomberg.com/news/2012-01-29/new-zealand-reserve-bank-governor-alan-bollard-to-step-down-in-september.html

(14) 1/21/12 (Greece) Banks’ top negotiator quits Greece, but talks go on
http://www.france24.com/en/20120121-banks-top-negotiator-quits-greece-but-talks-go

(15) 2/06/12 (INDIA) Dhanlaxmi Bank CEO Amitabh Chaturvedi quits:http://www.livemint.com/2012/02/06160111/Dhanlaxmi-Bank-CEO-Amitabh-Cha.html

(16) 2/07/12 (INDIA) Falguni Nayar quits Kotak Mahindra Bank
http://articles.economictimes.indiatimes.com/2012-02-07/news/31031134_1_kotak-mahindra-bank-falguni-nayar-shanti-ekambaram

(17) 2/07/12 (IRAN) Iran denies central bank resignation rumor (don’t believe until its denied?)
http://finance.yahoo.com/news/iran-denies-central-bank-resignation-164154294.html

(18) 2/09/12 (VATICAN) Four Priests Charged In Vatican Banking Scandal
http://articles.businessinsider.com/2012-02-09/europe/31040509_1_anti-money-laundering-law-vatican-finances-italian-tv

(19) 2/10/12 (INDIA) Tamilnad Mercantile Bank CEO resigns
http://www.business-standard.com/india/news/tamilnad-mercantile-bank-md-resigns/464259/

(20) 2/13/12 (KUWAIT) Kuwait Central Bank CEO resigns
http://www.washingtonpost.com/business/industries/kuwait-central-bank-chief-resigns-amid-political-tensions/2012/02/13/gIQAcxrOAR_story.html

(21) 2/14/12 (NICARAQUA) Nicaraqua Central Bank Pres Rosales resigns
http://www.bloomberg.com/news/2012-02-14/nicaragua-central-bank-head-quits-amid-row.html

(22) 2/14/12 (UNITED KINGDOM) Social finance pioneer Hayday steps down from Charity Bank
http://www.socialenterpriselive.com/section/news/people/20120214/social-finance-pioneer-hayday-steps-down-charity-bank

(23) 2/15/12 World Bank CEO Zoellick resigns
http://business.time.com/2012/02/15/world-bank-president-zoellick-resigns/

Did the White House tell the World Bank president that he’s out?
http://bosco.foreignpolicy.com/posts/2012/02/15/did_the_white_house_tell_the_world_bank_president_that_hes_out

(24) 2/15/12 (SLOVENIA) Slovenia TWO largest Banks CEO’s (2) resign
http://www.bloomberg.com/news/2012-02-15/slovenia-s-nova-kreditna-banka-maribor-ceo-plos-resigns.html

(25) 2/15/12 (KENYA) Governor of Kenyan Central Bank to Resign
http://www.centralbanking.com/central-banking/news/2152753/parliamentary-committee-calls-kenyan-governor-resign

(26) 2/16/12 (GHANA) Ken Ofori-Atta steps down as Executive Chair of Databank Group
http://business.thinkghana.com/pages/finance/201202/57429.php

(27) 2/16/12 (SAUDI ARABIA) Saudi Hollandi Banks Managing Director Quits
http://webcache.googleusercontent.com/search?q=cache:ZVfFZypqVIcJ:www.a1saudiarabia.com/4489-saudi-hollandi-banks-md-quits/+&cd=4&hl=en&ct=clnk&gl=us

(28) 2/16/12 (AUSTRALIA) Anz Bank CFO Australia resigns
http://www.proformative.com/news/1470243/cfo-anz-bank-resigns-amid-turmoill

(29) 2/16/12 (AUSTRALIA) Royal Bank of Scotland Austrailan CEO Stephen Williams resigns
http://www.theaustralian.com.au/business/wall-street-journal/andrew-chick-to-lead-royal-bank-of-scotlands-australian-arm/story-fnay3vxj-1226272513981

(30) 2/17/12 (USA) Blankfein out as Goldman Sachs CEO by summer
http://finance.fortune.cnn.com/2012/02/17/gary-cohn-goldman-sachs/

(31) 2/18/12 (PAKISTAN) AJK Bank’s executive steps down
http://www.nation.com.pk/pakistan-news-newspaper-daily-english-online/national/18-Feb-2012/ajk-bank-s-executive-steps-down?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+pakistan-news-newspaper-daily-english-online%2F24hours-news+%28The+Nation+%3A+Latest+News%29

(32) 2/20/12 (RUSSIA) Head of Russian Bank Regulator Steps Down
http://newsley.com/articles/head-of-russian-bank-regulator-steps-down/206711

(33) 2/20/12 (SWITZERLAND) Credit Suisse Chief Joseph Tan resigns
http://www.businessweek.com/news/2012-02-20/credit-suisse-s-private-bank-chief-asian-economist-tan-resigns.html

(34) 2/10/12 (KOREA) Korea Exchange Bank chief steps down
http://english.yonhapnews.co.kr/business/2012/02/10/0503000000AEN20120210005100320.HTML

In the mean-time… this is pretty interesting.

“In the second of a series of four episodes, Turbowolf interview Graham Hancock at The Roman Baths in Bath. Graham Hancock is one of the foremost authorities on Ancient Mysteries, having written numerous bestselling non-fiction books on the subject such as ‘Fingerprints Of The Gods’, ‘The Sign & The Seal’, ‘Heavens Mirror’ and ‘Supernatural’ and, recently, the fantasy adventure novel Entangled. 

Turbowolf released their self-titled debut album in November 2011, a blend of dirty rocknroll, punked-up riffs & psychedelic noise. The band are about to embark on a European tour starting 23/2 in London. Their shared fascination with the esoteric & the mysterious lead to this meeting of minds. 

In this episode Graham & the band discuss the mystery of the possible survival of death by human consciousness, the ancient Egyptian quest for the immortality of the soul, the encoding of advanced scientific information in ancient myths, some of the evidence from ancient Egypt and the Andes for the existence of a lost civilisation, and the danger, unless we change our ways, that our own civilisation could become the next Atlantis.”

 In the second of a series of four episodes, Turbowolf interview Graham Hancock at The Roman Baths in Bath. Graham Hancock is one of the foremost authorities on Ancient Mysteries, having written numerous bestselling non-fiction books on the subject such as ‘Fingerprints Of The Gods’, ‘The Sign & The Seal’, ‘Heavens Mirror’ and ‘Supernatural’ and, recently, the fantasy adventure novel Entangled.

More awareness than ever before in our human history – of those things “non-physical” i.e. time contraction, high/low energy swings, strong feelings, odd sensations, clarity of other’s needs, strange dreams, weird kind of dizziness, strange sounds everywhere – The thing I referred to in an earlier post as the “alchemical meat grinder”. I just put a title to what I’ve been reading from other peoples comments and hearing about from clients, and feelings within myself.

Which brings me to the title of this piece… “DO NO HARM”

Just a little background on the statement… I began with this thought in my heart sometime last summer after an experience I refer to as “the event” (not the TV show, although that was very interesting)… but something way personal for me – a full on paradigm shifter. 

As I moved into this year - just within a short 4 weeks, that statement continues ticker-taping across my mind more and more. I have said before how it goes…. “Once you stake a claim on a belief or a truth, the testing begins”. I understand why the testing must happen, and I know it will continue until my reactions fall in alignment with the truth – but WOW this is hard.

The constant awareness of opposites was the first to show up. The “us and them” factor followed and is closely tied to “who would I be if I had nothing to fight?” I began to realize how absurd my internal voices were and how they are constantly trying to solve the never ending non-solvable “who-dun-it” mystery, by subtly blaming myself and others for my misery and mistakes. Exhausting I tell you! – and not only that, but I think it is exactly WHY I feel exhausted most of the time. (searching for the “thing” that’s causing my discomfort)

I’m being gut level honest here, I have not a clue how to shut off the crazy banter in my head, but the gentle ticker-tape reminder (Do No Harm) along with a strong “I’m sorry” (Ho’oponopono) is helping little by little. 

I am spending more time alone, wanting more time with the feeling of not harming. It takes a concerted amount of focus to stay still in the mind, not an easy task at all, and to add a little personal info – it is NOT meditation. This is what I’ve got to throw at it (the mind-muddle), it’s my little piece of participation, activism, and responsibility. I take it VERY seriously, as the cosmic “testing” will attest. 

I figure, with anything we do in accordance with a higher law or understanding, comes the contrast – just as stark. It’s how we do it down here. I expect it. I often fail the test … but I won’t stop trying.

 Take the time … it’s worth it, and inspiring.

“Brilliant Noise takes us into the data vaults of solar astronomy. After sifting through hundreds of thousands of computer files, made accessible via open access archives, Semiconductor have brought together some of the sun’s finest unseen moments. These images have been kept in their most raw form, revealing the energetic particles and solar wind as a rain of white noise.

This grainy black and white quality is routinely cleaned up by NASA, hiding the processes and mechanics in action behind the capturing procedure. Most of the imagery has been collected as single snapshots containing additional information, by satellites orbiting the Earth. They are then reorganised into their spectral groups to create time-lapse sequences. The soundtrack highlights the hidden forces at play upon the solar surface, by directly translating areas of intensity within the image brightness into layers of audio manipulation and radio frequencies.”

Brilliant Noise from Semiconductor on Vimeo.

If you would like to know more about the Saskatchewan people, and the Manitoba communities, what they are doing, and what we can learn from them (as we should have done from the beginning) click here >http://www.onscreenmanitoba.com/videos

Their work to save our relationship to the Earth, Creator, and our plant world is as valuable as it gets. I am so greatful they are filming and educating us in this way, as we have lost our ability to “walk” and go to them. 

They have NOT given up as many would assume. They are gaining ground in the film and documentary industry, using it wisely, and trying to help us all.

Gilakas’la (Thank you) 

 (I guess things only happen when the real “fuck-it” comes.)

 I couldn’t do it anymore. I literally had succumbed to: “this is how it’s going to be, so learn how to live the rest of your life just getting thru the day”…. and then – for the umpteenth time, I wept.

Thru the night, I would wake up, have that thought, “this is just how it’s going to be”, cry uncontrollably, and fall back to sleep.

This didn’t just go on for one night; this went on for days and nights. Then more days, and more nights …

Then something different happened-

 I awoke the next morning in the usual manner, “fuck-it”– “I have struggled with this pain all my life… I’m exhausted from carrying around these feelings, while pretending I’ve got my shit together in front of everyone else”….

I took a deep breath, a sigh actually; and as I laid there swimming in my “head-soup” and snot…  something weird happened (more like a feeling really) it made its way thru the mud of my mind and into the conversation. I heard it loud and clear.

“I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”

EXCUSE ME? (as though I was speaking to someone else in the room)

“I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”

I sniffed back the drool, adjusted my body in the bed and listened again… no words this time, but a flash of memory – my foster mother throwing a glass of whisky at me, it cracking against my head (I was 4 years old) … and then those words – almost like a whisper – “I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”

I think I must have been in some kind of shock or something. How in the hell do those two things go together in a thought? Seriously…WTF???

Then another horrible image (private)… then the words again… “I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”

“Okay”, I said out loud … “what the hell is this?” – more mind-mud – “you’re just makin’ that shit up… you’ve heard too many spiritual woo-woo statements, and that one just stuck….” Hang on a second; I need to hear that again… I need to UNDERSTAND this!

Silence.

Nothing… so I got up, made myself a strong cup of coffee and decided to just type the words into my computer. (side note: I often use my computer like a tarot deck when something strange pops into my head – I do a search on it… it’s weird… I know… it’s just my thing. But you would be shocked at what we “pick up” on the airwaves). Anyway….

“I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”… BLAM… the words Ho’oponopono show up. Wait a minute; I’ve seen this before. This has got to be in the list (up there) of things “tried and failed”. I know I’ve done this before… haven’t I?

The first web site I hit was > http://www.idreamcatcher.com/hooponopono/

I read it, and I suggest before you continue on with what I have to say here… you read it too. And take note of the guy who brought it into the “market”. I have a little something for “Joey” at the end of this article.

My mind starts spinning fast. I start to think, holy shit… what if this were the only thing left to do? THE ONLY WORK WE NEED TO DO, to help us all get thru this massive transition…. This 2012 crash and burn alchemical meat grinder! (more on that later)

What if we could actually DO THIS and it would work? At the very least, maybe it would help us get in touch with a deeper more meaningful way to deal with all the wars and personal pain, and planetary changes?

What the hell… It couldn’t hurt!

So I started. And something wonderful happened to me. I began to feel lighter, less heavy, and less sick inside. I tried it on every negative thought… they abated. I tried it with my water… it tasted better… I tried it with my clients and friends – they lightened up! On and on… now I’m doing it all the time. Inside my head, quietly and privately… taking responsibility… by just saying the words.

“I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”

My personal results have been astounding so far. I am actually starting to feel something changing inside. I can’t explain it (nor do I really want to) but it’s better than crying myself to sleep at night in misery. A lot better!

I do want to state here, that this is a work in progress. I’m not sure I’ll ever be a “happy-happy-joy-joy skippy girl”, but if I can get that 51 % positive thing everybody is talking about… I’ll take it!

So I had my friend Tom put a little “widget” on this site to keep pumping the vibration out there and onto the net. I also decided to make this my “little mission”.

I’m going to “pay it forward” and use it with everything – personal and public. I claimed it as my medicine, and whether it “gives” me something or not, I’m going to do it anyway. No expectations.

If I’ve learned anything from this life – I know this… once you stake a claim on some truth or belief, or make a resolve, you can bet your ass you are gonna be tested on it! How else will you know unless you’re given a way to try it out?

So let me be the first to tell you, I HAVE BEEN TESTED… and after another failure (as it would seem)… I went back to the statement – “I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”, again a change inside me, and again another test.

And so it is.

The only decent video I could find explaining the story behind “Ho’oponopono” is the link just below. The problem I have with it (there’s always something – right?) is that this guy (Joe Vitale) has used it – capitalized on it to make money – and gotten himself some pretty “eye candy” from the looks of the photos on his web site… But what the hell right? … everyone deserves to make money – so HEY Joe –

“I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”

http://yogaofalignment.com/2009/05/20/hooponopono-i-love-you-im-sorry-please-forgive-me-thank-you/

I found a few other links with some good info on this old wisdom; it’s been around for a while so it looks like people have their own way with it. I’m good with that – whatever works right?

http://www.thereisaway.org/Ho’oponopono_cleaning_meditation.htm

The basic meaning of the word Ho‘oponopono – given by the Hawaiian culture, (and loosely translated) – means “to set things right”. The basic concept behind practicing Ho‘oponopono requires you to first realize the immutable fact that your entire existence comes from within, not from anything, anyone, or anywhere – outside of yourself.

Read more here – http://tribes.tribe.net/hooponopono/thread/96903cc1-435b-47f5-8b08-8e70ff6228b5