Here’s my leg, just about to go to surgery (I went along for the ride)

Unfortunately when we got to the operating theatre it turned out that my ankle was too swollen to operate on so I’m now on total bed rest, with my foot raised at all times, waiting for the swelling to come back down. When it does – hopefully later this week – I’ll be back to surgery for something called an O.R.I.F. which is a posh way of saying they’re going to put a whole load of pins, a metal plate and some screws in my ankle to hold it all together. Ouch. And then I can’t drive for three months, or put any weight on it, or basically do anything. All of which is a bit difficult for the only driver in the household – with a school run of 12 miles a day – and for someone who doesn’t sit still for more than five minutes I have NO idea what to do with my time. Apart from write and potter online or learn to crochet properly. And learn how to be a mother from a fixed point. I suspect it might actually be quite good for me, in some ways.

So I’ll be here. Not gardening (but hopefully directing the gardening from a chair) and not doing anything too physical. So if you’d like to share with me your tips for dealing with boredom, or your favourite blogs to visit, or anything else at all – please do!

Now that spring is here everyone’s focus is on getting outside and getting the garden in order. Okay, maybe not everyone, but anyone who typically enjoys a spring and summer garden ought to be in that mindset by now. You know the drill: heading to the closest gardening center for a few new seeds for a few of the best spring and summer flowers, planting and taking care of those seeds, and otherwise grooming and re-organizing the garden. It’s a task and a hobby all at once.

There are always fun ways to upgrade the gardening experience though, so that it’s not the same old thing every year. For example, this year one fun project can be to make your garden a bit more accessible. You don’t exactly have to pave a sidewalk from the driveway into the heart of the garden – but here are a few things you can do to make your garden a more appealing place not just to plant and look at, but to spend some time.

Tip 1: Arrange a path or two. I already said you shouldn’t pave a sidewalk in your garden, and truth be told nothing could make it less attractive. But a more tasteful path simply gives you a way to walk in and among your plants more easily. This might mean laying down stones, or even using some new MySmartBuy hedge clippers to make a maze-like path through shrubs and bushes. Really, it all depends on the size and arrangement of your garden.

Tip 2: Invite the birds. Some people prefer that birds stay out of their gardens, because they think birds are messy or loud. Really, this is a silly perspective. The truth is, birds eliminate pests in gardens, keeping your plants neat and healthy, and they also provide a fun natural vibe that nothing else quite can. A trickling birdbath or hanging bird feeder should do the trick, and bring you a few atmospherically friendly chirping friends.

Tip 3: Make it smell nice. Your first thought might be: duh, plant a few roses and the problem is solved! And this is certainly one solution. But think about getting creative with garden smells – even something simple and green, like mint leaves or cilantro plants can give the place a pleasant scent.

Tip 4: Think about props. Too many garden props can be a bit gimmicky, but a waist-high statue here or there can work wonders for atmosphere.The same way art in the house makes a room feel more comfortable, garden props can make your garden a bit more accessible.

Tip 5: Think about furniture. Going beyond props, nothing invites a human presence quite like a nice garden bench – or, if you really want to branch out, a gazebo (maybe with ivy crawling up its pillars). These features give you and your family or guests places to lounge in your garden, so you can actually enjoy it instead of just planting it!

One book.
Two formats.
Three months on.

Approaching 70,000 downloads, and 199 (almost all lovely) Amazon reviews.

To celebrate three months of Sealed with a Kiss being out there in the wild (and it’s been a pretty amazing, whirlwindy sort of three months) you can download the Kindle version absolutely free today. Tell your friends!

For Amazon.com users, pop over here.

And thank you all, so much. I’m in the process of moving all my writing stuff over to the Rachael Lucas author blog so this is probably the last one of these sort of posts you’ll see here. Coming up later this week: cake, cats, and a review of an amazing book I’ve been reading.

I’m mostly behind the camera, partly because I like taking photographs and also because as soon as anyone points a camera at me I tend to pull a ridiculous face, like a five year old.

I took this one myself. I turned 40 this January and decided this was the year I was going to do things – to publish the book, to take up roller derby. It’s the first of May today, five months into my year of being brave. I suppose some people would consider putting an untouched photograph of myself with no make up to be brave, but I happen to like being 40. My mum went on a gap year at 46 and maintains her 40s were her favourite decade. I’m inclined to agree with her. This article about turning 60 says it all for me. I like getting older. I actually like myself more now than I ever have. I don’t take any crap, I’m brave enough to do things that scare me, and I know when to walk away (even if that does mean disappearing to bed halfway through a night out because I’m exhausted by midnight).

This week I’m madly decluttering the house. This is an annual thing for me and always seems to be quite therapeutic, because it reminds me that we don’t need all the mountains of stuff we carry around. With four children living here, and another two some of the time, there’s a lot of stuff which accumulates in corners. I’m recycling, giving things to charity, and clearing my head at the same time.

My tips for getting organised: read these. My friend Alison’s gorgeous blog Brocante Home, and Flylady and Space Clearing. And try and avoid shaving the yak!

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To set the scene, my sister Zoe and I were staying in a hotel overnight in London and trying to have an early night…

Unfortunately I then got out of bed around 11.45. And 12.30. And 1.30. And 2.30, 3, and 3.30. For a couple of days before I’d had a bit of a headache and felt a bit wobbly, but I’d put it down to nerves and excitement. Suffice to say I spent the whole night on the loo, which wasn’t exactly the best way to prepare for 26.2 miles of running.

The hotel had put on a marathon breakfast, and along with about 10 others we stuffed down porridge, toast and a banana. I was retching whilst I ate it (sorry that may be too much information) but I knew I had to have something to eat.

rabbits in headlights: just leaving the hotel

London was full of people carrying red marathon kitbags, and after all our worrying about how to get to the start we didn’t have to think at all. We just followed the rest of the kitbag holders like sheep in trainers.

On the train we got talking to some seasoned marathoners. They pointed out the 25 mile marker and Big Ben, and I said ooh, not long till we’re back there. They all looked at each other knowingly. I recognised that look – it’s the look you get when you tell a mother your birthplan before you have your first child. The look says ‘come back to me once you’ve done it and then we’ll talk’.

lambs to the slaughter

We left the train station and flocked to the start. There were marshalls everywhere, directing us and wishing us luck. Everyone was very jolly and excited, and being British there was much talk about the weather. We’d been promised the hottest marathon on record, and it looked like rain.

Sure enough as soon as we got to the start, it started to pour. We ran over and put our bags on the baggage bus, then queued for the loo. I was so excited and nervous that I hadn’t time to think about how I was feeling, and I was trying to find my lovely Twitter friend Donna who was borrowing an iPhone armband from me.

found her!

Then the klaxon sounded and the race had started.

The pen system seemed to have gone a bit wonky – we were meant to be pen 9, and Donna was pen 8, but they seemed to be letting people in through gaps in the barriers. We decided to tuck ourselves in somewhere around the back, and didn’t go through the start gate until 10.10am (mistake no.1).

As soon as we went through the start something horrible happened. My legs turned to jelly, I broke out in a cold sweat and I felt sick. I tried to run but I felt absolutely awful.

I called Zoe back, and fiddled with my iPhone headphones to try and buy some time, but I knew I really didn’t feel well at all. I realised I’d forgotten to press start on my Garmin, and that I’d forgotten to turn off the auto-pause function, so I had to try and work that out whilst trying to keep moving. I was feeling a bit tearful and sorry for myself.

We stopped at the first loos, then I told Zoe to run on a bit whilst I walked and tried to work out how I was feeling. There were quite a few people who had obviously decided they were going to walk the whole route, including a man dressed in a full suit of armour.

I passed the first couple of miles, with people in their gardens cheering me on and a priest throwing holy water and blessing us all.

So we trundled on. It felt hard, much harder than any of the training runs I’d done in the last few months. Every time I ran I thought I was going to throw up, and my walking pace wasn’t anywhere near the 13:40 mile that I can do when I’m marching along. My first mile took 17 minutes – that says it all.

By the time we were at mile 3 I’d started to speed up, mainly because we were in a race with the clearing up process. The councils in London allow the roads to be closed on the premise that they’ll be reopened as soon as possible, so they start working pretty much straight away. There were two tractors which came along to move all the water bottles to the side of the road, and Zoe and I spent the next few miles leapfrogging the tractors and trying to beat them.

I met up with Jyo from the Runner’s World forum and we had a quick chat, then I trotted off to try and catch Zoe. On the way I met Lucy, aka Spinkletoes, also from Runner’s World, who was having a bad run too.

Mum called to say that they were waiting for us at Greenwich. By this time we’d found a pattern – Zoe was about 10-20m in front, running, and I’d jog a bit then walk as fast as I could. I still felt dreadful but I was trying to ignore it. I high-fived every little hand that was put out for me, and smiled and thanked every single person who stood in their garden cheering us on.

We met up with Mum, Chris and my Uncle Stewart at mile 6. By this point I was feeling confused and frazzled. I didn’t really know where we were, I didn’t know what speed we were doing, I just knew I had to keep on going.

The next few miles seemed to pass quite quickly. I was jog walking; Zoe was in front, running steadily. I chatted to a lovely American girl about not being designed for running but being great at walking. I had realised that if I couldn’t run, at least I could pick off people one by one, so I would walk as fast as I could, then jog past someone, then walk a bit more, jog past another one – knowing that every time I did I improved my placing kept me going.

By this point I’d lost sight of Zoe and I’d found Lucy again. We marched along together until mile 12, where Zoe was waiting for me with our little cheering gang again, by this time joined by Lorraine and my niece, Mae.

Here we are – Zoe’s already arrived, I’m trundling along – and Lorraine is screaming like a loon. I had a little cuddle and a cry with my mum, then we headed off for Tower Bridge and the second half of the marathon.

We left the fans (as Dad would have said) at Bermondsey tube station and headed for Tower Bridge, which had definitely been moved. It looked a lot closer on the map.

We met up with Lucy again around this point. I was aware there was a sore spot on the sole of my foot and made mistake no2. Let’s go to the St John Ambulance, we said, because they’ll be able to dress the blister properly before it gets really bad.

Cue five long minutes of Ambulance cadets being trained on the job (Right boys, can you get your gloves on, please. Can we have your name and address? Now then, boys, this is a piece of dressing. How big is the blister? Right, how big shall we cut the dressing, then? Ooh, that’s a bit too big, let’s cut a smaller one, shall we?).

Zoe and I sat there being incredibly British and not saying what we were thinking which was ‘bloody hell, hurry up’ and instead just twitched politely.

We escaped the clutches of the SJA people and decided that we’d walk up the hill (slight incline, actually) to Tower Bridge.

The crowds there were huge. People were screaming our names and cheering us on madly, despite the fact that we were walking and I was limping with my wonky Heath Robinson plaster on my foot.

Once we got to the bottom of Tower Bridge and rounded the corner onto the Highway I sent Zoe on without me. I was feeling pretty dreadful, my foot was killing me, and I was secretly wondering if I’d make it round the remaining 14 miles.

I’d heard all about the notorious Highway, which is the point where for a mile or so you’re running along one side of a road, passing the 13 mile mark, whilst on the other side of the road the faster runners are whizzing past having reached 22 miles. I thought I was ready for it, and that it wouldn’t psych me out.

I was wrong. Richard Branson ran past me in the throng of proper, fast runners and I felt like crying. I was on my own, with only a handful of other people, all looking as despondent as me. I had no energy, I knew that Canary Wharf was ahead and that everyone said it was the hardest part of the marathon.

‘Alright love? Crikey your walk’s faster than my jog’

Smiley. Lovely Smiley with a red-painted face, a little man who used to play football and knew Steve Cram. We chatted and trundled along together until I looked up and there was Lucy – she’d grabbed a couple of gels just as they ran out and had waited for me. What an angel. Smiley trotted off, and Lucy and I settled into our pace.

By this time it was baking hot and I was so glad I was wearing a hat. I was feeling really sick and had to stop and retch a few times. Lucy materialised a bottle of Lucozade from I don’t know where (they ran out of that, too) and told me to drink it, slowly. We marched through crowded Narrow Street where drunken spectators cheered us on

‘Come on Rach, you can do it girl! Come on Lucy Lu!’

And on into the Docklands, where our Garmins went wonky and told us we were doing 2 minute miles. By this point the Lucozade had worked and I was feeling better, and we had a lovely chat. Lucy’s husband James had been waiting at mile 17 and he walked back to join us, promising Lucy that he’d walk the rest of the way with her in his Crocs.

Mile 17. The famous Mudchute Runner’s World cheering point. I’d been adopted by Support Group 7 at the last minute. They cheered us, gave us jelly babies, and sent us on our way.

Lucy and I sat down to do some foot repairs. Both of us had huge blisters on the soles of our feet, and we were giggling at the idea of Paula Radcliffe and Liz Yelling sitting on the pavement having a chat and fixing their plasters before carrying on.

Before we knew it – and it really happened amazingly fast – we could see the archway of balloons which indicated mile 20.

I was so excited, realising that I really was going to do it. Mum called to tell me they were between 20 and 21, so I left Lucy and James and decided to start a little bit of jog/walking to get to them.

I spent all that time working out a running playlist and in fact I didn’t listen to music at all from about mile 4. With people calling my name and cheering me on, it seemed rude to zone out and ignore them. There were a lot of people walking by this point, so every time I broke into a run there was a huge roar. It’s hard to explain how it felt: there were so many people who gave me a smile, or a thumbs up, said ‘come on girl’ and ‘Rachael, you’re doing a great job’. I just kept on smiling and saying thank you, and wondering where on earth my family had gone.

Eventually I saw a little speck running towards me – Mum. They were almost at mile 22, having moved to get a clear space to stand. I ran up to them, gave them a hug, and asked how Zoe was doing. I only had a bottle of water left at this point, because all the Lucozade had disappeared, and I’d thrown away the hat when it got cloudy. Chris gave me his baseball cap and Uncle Stew gave me a cuddle and I trotted off, still half walking, half jogging.

They moved us onto the pavement for a bit because lorries were clearing away the barriers. The whole way round I felt a bit like I’d missed the party.

I was still picking off people but feeling a bit faint, hot and sick. I could see a girl in the distance who was on her own, and I managed to catch up with her and have a chat. Somewhere around this point Paula from Runner’s World appeared with the bag of crisps I’d requested for salt. I grabbed a few, and caught up again with Suzanne, who was to be my companion for the rest of the race.

We made it onto the Embankment (they’d closed the tunnel for cleaning, so we were shepherded onto the Embankment itself and were speedwalking along dodging puzzled tourists). Big Ben and the London Eye were in the distance, but seemed miles away. I wanted to sit down. Our hips were aching, our feet were burning, we were more tired than we’d ever been before in our lives. But we kept on walking, one foot in front of the other. We talked about Eddie Izzard, and how we’d have to do this all over again the next day if we were him.

Then we were back on the road. Suddenly there were crowds of people cheering us on again, and telling us we were nearly there. Big Ben was upon us and we turned the corner to a huge roar.

March march march, and we’re overtaking lots of other runners who are shuffling along. March march march, and Buckingham Palace is on the left. All around me are people who are exhausted beyond belief. There’s a man I’d seen right at the start, with a t-shirt on saying he was running in memory of his dad. I put my arm around him, and say ‘we did it for our dads’ and he smiles at me, unable to speak.

I hear a shout and it’s Mum, Chris and Stewart. From somewhere inside me I gather everything I have and run to them, throwing the baseball cap at them, and race towards the finish as fast as I can. And then I’m over the line, and someone puts a medal around my neck, saying congratulations, you’re a marathon runner.

But look, look. Sunshine and shoots and tiny baby clematis and spring. This is a post brought to you from the Department of Cheering Upping.

and a daisy – the first one in the garden, waiting for some sunshine. That’s just how I feel.

No words today. Just pictures.

I’m also failing TERRIBLY on my post-every-day mission. So here’s a little update.

Given that I look like I’ve been dragged through a hedge backwards and have out of control eyebrows, I thought perhaps I should try and make an effort to make myself a bit respectable. There’s a gorgeous day spa near our house, so I pootled in, hair unbrushed, no make up on, and managed to bag a last minute appointment.

The spa is breathtakingly beautiful. Set in an old synagogue, it’s all stained glass windows and floaty music and candles.

The beauty therapist opened the door to a gorgeous treatment room.

Therapist: “If you can just take off your top, and slip your bra straps off your shoulders. I’ll step out.”

Me: *removes top, slips bra straps off shoulders, stands awkwardly in room*

Therapist (on returning to room): “Er, if you could just get onto the bed?”

Therapist leaves room.

Me: *gets onto bed thing in manner of person at doctor, wondering about shoes on covers*

Therapist returns.

Me: (Feeling like a complete moron) “Gosh I feel a bit awkward with my shoes on this nice blankety thing.”

Therapist: (looking like she’s wondering if there’s a secret camera in the room)
“Er, if you could just slip your shoes off and pop under the cover? I’ll give you a moment.”

Me: *Lies down on bed in awkward manner, with cover half over my body in the hope that if it’s not right it’ll look like it just sort of fell there*

Therapist: (slightly exasperated but hiding it well) “We’ll just” (pulls cover up over my chest) “cover you up. Have you had a facial before?”

Me: (gabbling) “Gosh yes heaps of times. Well, once. My sister’s a beauty therapist you know she worked for Virgin as cabin crew and now she works for Aveda which is nice because I get lovely presents. Have you tried Aveda stuff? It’s lovely.”

Therapist: “If you could just lie back and close your…(I swear she was thinking mouth) eyes.”

Me: (three seconds later) *BIG SNORTY SNORE*

Therapist: “All finished. We’ll just do your eyebrows…”

Next stop nail salon. I was wearing the remains of last week’s dark purple nail varnish and my fingernails were filthy. Oh, and I have a giant festering cut on my thumb from a roller derby fall.

Nail bar man: “You’ve never had gel nails? Ooh, this is going to change your life!”

Me: “Er. Right.”

Nail bar man: *files fingernails with alarming machine*

Me: (inwardly) “Eek”

Nail bar man: *shaking my hand in most unrelaxing manner* “Relax your hands!”

Me: “I didn’t know they were tense!”

Nail bar man: “RELAX YOUR HANDS”

Me: (Trying to think relaxing thoughts) “I’m trying.”

Repeat x 35

Lovely nails completed.

Nail bar man: “You see! Life is transformed, yes?”

Me: “Can I get back to you on that in a couple of weeks?”

I can’t help thinking some of us are designed to be low maintenance.