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the second snow in northeastern China, family life likes river floats.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 20:16:00 PST

this is a unexpected post, for latest post just days ago. however, baby recently had a haircut and a bath, which delayed 2 weeks for his heat, too wonderful to miss, just amid the second snow of 2009 in this eccentric northeastern China city.

this week i finally got my google wave, a powerful real time collaborative online publish tool. there r already bulks of talk about the breakthrough the google new service brought, but in my view, its a kind of tool let everyone readily and easily setup a personal forum or chatroom. its really helpful, esp. for a Chinese, who is used to limit their opinions or intimacy within small private groups or forums. that's why in China forum ran so long and still a main social media for most of Chinese Internet users. the freak of China authority also likes to see the limited spread of information as well as public opinions, felt safe trapped them in forums which mostly close and membership required to join communications there. the most popular instant message tool, QQ, also set many limits one can own a group, and the size of the group, and needless to say the backend harsh keywork censorship and event logging for the police.

last week is a more or less miserable week, for i in 2 or 3 days busy in office, where the shit monitor absent for his father-in-law bought a new house, and took him there to help decoration, so the corporate lan wire he occupied can be adopted by me. so i missed waiting and saluting to the tall girl likely newly employed by QRRS, my once and long time employer. the weather also pale, let me felt gloomy. but now, the second snow surely kills, kills the evil and destroys the spies and surveillance cast over me and my Royal of China. i hope i led to the girl steadily, and God grant my beloved sooner joining my new life in this year end.

baby son these days tentatively increases threshold to bail me from approaching or kissing him, who likely contented or was encouraged to show contented with affection from his mother and his mother's family. his mother, emakingir, indeed very cheap, tries all means to cater to baby son's sometimes unreasonable dependence, to smother him in her poison love soups. that's all her and her family's plot to evil convert my baby son into their heir. God sees what a laugh it can be.

last night i taught baby and his mom another lesson, when ema clanged to a hot TV series nowadays on CCTV, the monopoly domestic media, that China nowadays' authority, CCP, mainly got their fortune from being a soldier, so long history of the republic bragging worker, including soldier, and defames scientists as a group. but the world of citizen all animals, none left in the end of their lives, except scientists and knowledge they gathered. baby first refused to sleep alone me, amid his parents, but later did after quite some silent moment echoing my powerful comment.

OK, its time to bid farewell. my dear girls, Masheng, zhou, Taiwan girl, Lü and Jiang, i badly need ur love in this boring season. my road here seemingly leading me toward the girl in my once work unit, but my eyes wide open, my palace spaciously empty for u. i wide and bewilderingly searching u from the vast starry sky. closer to me, my God, my beloved!

From baby son's haircut&bath

playful baby on the snow heap.

From baby son's haircut&bath

baby rest amid the haircut.

From baby son's haircut&bath

DON'T itch me: baby in bath.

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for picasaweb blocked within China mainland, here part of recent photos hosted domestically.

with my toys: baby in bath.

messy hair ends: baby having haircut.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 01:37:00 PDT

these weeks a bit busy, for the freedom world offers so many invalueable stuff. in these weeks, my family sites continued to expand, now including delicious accounts, which now support yahoo account's automaitcally login; tumblr blogs, which so powerful while so fit; seesmic, a twitter client can help me bypass the deadly blocking of twitter from China surveillance; and tweet.im, an autoposting service binding with gtalk account. i also seeing family site expanding within demestically, including 139.com, an affiliate of the monoply company, China mobile, and dii.cn, a twitter clone with neat interface. since yesterday, i felt i should preserve family 2 new namespace, riveryog for me and warozhu for baby son, warren zhu, Hope of China and God of universe, with facebook, the best and largest social network. China surveillance likely blocking facebook's sms service within its sovereign, for i tried several mobiles, none can receive facebook's verifying code in sms. i tried to reach out a Taiwanese among my google contacts, but his mobile also can't receive my facebook's verifying code.

these weeks mostly sunny days. with God's beam, i like to fly at will. China surveillance blocking more and more famous sites, including google sites, goole apps, tumblr, hellotxt, posterous, and yahoo meme, but i was never daunted, each time i lose an open voice channel, i would try to compensate with new reach out to more brilliant western world sites. God's message never fade, or wind-gone, but populate springly. i enjoy seeing my future people voice here now, a missing treat for my loneliness i suffered so far in this eccentric corner of northeastern China. i enjoy the virtual team in God's shine, upon every directions of the globle.

its also mostly lightened days, with so many games. baby son made every free moment gamed on my new notebook with my companion, imersing in games like "frontline" or "call of duty". play games is my long time dream, esp. when i saw quite less informed persons also enjoy themselves a lot in games, esp. first person shotting. i always love to see the advanced applications of artifical intelligence, or complicate interactive between human and robot or machine system, like games. but previously i always engaged in stuff more concrete, like download, resource management, site building, learning, etc. but baby's invitation these days drew me into hot games so deep and so imersing, that i really felt the world of colorful and possible.

its a bright moment now, seeing sunshine over the trees parrel to office window. dog on facing desk biting heavily, as usual, and the dead roaming in the corridor. i enjoyed so many golden moments in my life. last night, i asked baby son to sleep alone me, he did after some time of play. in mid night, all of us, including his mother, emakingir, woke up, in God's set, to celebrate the love and glory. i just dreamed of a lonely pilot, who fight persistantly. God shown me what's manly and what's the ultimate hardness and grace a blessed can be. i again, after many times seen before in the end of holy dreams, the mightiest God, and the non-impossible.

yes, gays and dogs biting now around. killing them just a matter of seconds. i see my second wife, Masheng, from Japan, changed this morning my bank deposit book into a deposit card, i saw the wells of my family never plentier and stronger.

at noon i again saw the tall girl in QRRS, walking passed my office window. i sticked my head outside of the window, likely she noticed me. she is tall and fit, i hope God don't train more me harsh and coarse with loneliness and ever harder hopes in perished.

Ok, now, Omen, God, save my Empire, bring me my beloved.

From Life as it extends

benzrad, me, proud dad, holding baby son, warren zhu, hope of China, for a shot by emakingir.

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a corner view of south park, near emakingir's house. baby playing his scooter with his mom's companion.

From Life as it extends

bright beaming: baby son, warren zhu, in a lol.

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more of my Autumn weekend hauntout.

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lots of games.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Wed, 14 Oct 2009 21:21:00 PDT

these days i was attracted by recent larger games very much. visiting uncle accompany me playing these games. dad latest also join me to play and thankful for gaming is his long time dream. we never try online game, but dad hope i can enjoy them when i grow up and independent.

these days i also join kindergarten. mom chose senting me to dad's once employer's subside kindergarten, for it runs for quite some years and the facilities strong. we also got grant from the company, as part of its employee's wellfare. i so far don't loathe to join my class every morning.

Ok, now i suggest my recent photos of my bath. dad don't miss any chance to make record of my activites, for as he once told me, he just want never regret for the passing of golden times in our lives, for i m so brilliant.

From Baby Son Bathed In Late Autumn Halo

baby bathed at home in warm late Autumn

From Baby Son Bathed In Late Autumn Halo

baby watching his mom gaming and enjoy team gaming.

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more of my bath.

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a great Mid-Autumn Day vacation with wild games

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Mon, 05 Oct 2009 22:04:00 PDT

these days dad started to try larger and newer games, now that we r equipped a powerful notebook, an Acer AS4736g. dad like the game "Front line: fuel of war" at once, but he likes to play with right mood, while i always insatiable for completing a games in a puff. so later i finished the game with my visiting uncle, let dad at a loss.

these days i also tried using scissor to cut paper. i retouched my paintings posted by dad last time, with ease paste icons. so here dad again publish them.

OK, its time for sports. mom asked me to haunt outside with football now. hope dad got his girls sooner. i love to see his new family with all his favorite hostess.

From warrenzh's works

baby's work.

baby bathed in sunshine.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 01:08:00 PDT

Posted by benzrad zhu to benzyrnill, set to fly, like dragon fly...

baby son bathed in warm Autumn dusk from be21zh on Vimeo .

baby just haunted outside with his grandma, while i busy with posting his recent paintings, as well as my recent photos.then his mother bathed him even there is a boy student receiving ema's tutorial here. i dislike ema don't pay attention to privacy but God shows me it doesn't matter.its a warm Autumn dusk, bright and dry sunshine through the window of our balcony cast a loveable and moving family peace in the house.

Ps: i also just got showered in public bathroom. a nice weekend.

visit this album on google picasaweb .

my paintings No.12

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 01:04:00 PDT

Today, dad got an idea from web that i should post my paintings as my works in times. i admit his suggestion. i will try to record my growth, including my works, here, to share with my people.

visit my paintings at google picasaweb .

here is dad's description on my works hosted on google picasaweb album:

Baby son, warren zhu, 朱楚甲,more and more turns brilliant smart.we together tried so many pc games, whose companion let baby busier. he likes playing with students of his mother here to receive tutorials, and made a lot of fun. i always hope he can draw or paint. he once tried some painting softwares but soon disliked. recently he started to paint on paper with oil pastel his mother bought him. so nice a start. here his works and growth.

my paintings No.11

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 01:03:00 PDT

my paintings No.10

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 01:02:00 PDT

my paintings No.9

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 01:01:00 PDT

From my Oil pastel diary

my paintings No.8

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 01:00:00 PDT

my paintings No.7

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 00:59:00 PDT

From my Oil pastel diary

my paintings No.6

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 00:57:00 PDT

my paintings No.5

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 00:56:00 PDT

my paintings No.4

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 00:26:00 PDT

Posted by warren zhu to warrenzh, worrior of God's biz on the earth

Today, dad got an idea from web that i should post my paintings as my works in times. i admit his suggestion. i will try to record my growth, including my works, here, to share with my people.

visit my paintings at google picasaweb.

here is dad's description on my works hosted on google picasaweb album:

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my paintings No.3

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 00:25:00 PDT

Posted by warren zhu to warrenzh, worrior of God's biz on the earth

Today, dad got an idea from web that i should post my paintings as my works in times. i admit his suggestion. i will try to record my growth, including my works, here, to share with my people.

here is dad's description on my works hosted on google picasaweb album:

Baby son, warren zhu, 朱楚甲, more and more turns brilliantly smart.we together tried so many pc games, whose companion let baby busier. he likes playing with students of his mother here to receive tutorials, and made a lot of fun. i always hope he can draw or paint. he once tried some painting softwares but soon disliked. recently he started to paint on paper with oil pastel his mother bought him. so nice a start. here his works and growth.

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visit my paintings at google picasaweb.

my paintings No.2

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 00:24:00 PDT

Posted by warren zhu to warrenzh, worrior of God's biz on the earth

Today, dad got an idea from web that i should post my paintings as my works in times. i admit his suggestion. i will try to record my growth, including my works, here, to share with my people.

here is dad's description on my works hosted on google picasaweb album:

Posterous Post | my painting series: No. 1

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 00:23:00 PDT

Posted by warren zhu to warrenzh, worrior of God's biz on the earth

Today, dad got an idea from web that i should post my paintings as my works in times. i admit his suggestion. i will try to record my growth, including my works, here, to share with my people.

here is dad's description on my works hosted on google picasaweb album:

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life meaningful under burden

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Thu, 13 Aug 2009 21:01:00 PDT

nearly a month passed since my return. i had great time with my baby son, warren zhu, hope of China and God of universe. my office Internet connection was rid off and i had to stay idle when i was there. at home, the Internet within China mainland also fatally deteriorated, ip and keyword filtering failed most web proxies available in search result. life in China mainland just like in a riot, all things in temporary and transission. hope is all of Chinese in mainland hold full hearted, and enduring of time is a test between the dictation nowadays and perished common social lives. i definitely see the collapse of the dying China political and social architecture.

my life orbits again in a tight loop, between office and my baby's mother's home. i tried hard to live with silence in worktime in office, and admit it can be a beneficial habit, but i really enjoy cyberspace activities. common people, like most of my colleagues, can be dishonest and blacken eyed by the presure of authority's favor or dislike. one of them, namely, my monitor in my office, claimed its rightous that i can't use office Internet now that my home pc connected with Interent, while his pc and all other colleagues' computer all wired and reading novel or watching tv online all days is mainly his activities online. they regard they r superior than me, really cluelessly!

this week can be fruitful. in reading twitter stream after broke China surveillance, i got an idea from peer's id, that i should own an id IIDChina. first i think idchina is OK, but in the process of claiming i gradually chose IIDChina. i soon claimed it from google, where i can only got an alternative for namespace conflict. i tried to expand the name to twitter and facebook, which both deadly blocked within China mainland for months. China surveillance, with its most advanced technology and heaviest investments, now can be fatal to web traffic inland reaching freedom world. i tried lots of proxies, including risky ones, all failed. only with the help of friends abroad, i got my facabook id and twitter's in the title of IIDChina. customization unfinished for access to the sites via proxies severely compromised and lots of operation only led to errs or vain. i also wrote a wiki item on google knol but the next day it was flagged inappropriate and hide from public view. after checked from friends abroad, i assured its google banned it, not google china, which frequent under China authority's harass and had to adopt tighter filtering. now i just doubting if google read it and flagged unproper, or China surveillance reported it online frequently via onsite report function and led google's system automatic or semi-automitic earmarked on my knol.yesterday i designed it a unique logo when i felt flat in office, i like it very much, so does my baby son, who shares the title. God sees my way toward a better and righ world in the shine and shrine of Holy.

facebook, twitter, blogger, picasaweb, and yesterday i found yahoo profiles, these sites' been blocked in China mainland heavily troubled Chinese surfers, and again remind them how barren the China landscape of produce of voice or content. China dying in aridity since the fall of Ming Dynasty, and continued suffering sacrifice with the tasteless and tomb berthed dictator then and now.

Ok, its time for break. i know the coming gathering of my love, while the dark of China to been blow apart, shift and gone. i know my new marriage scheduled and my fiancee already in her wedding dress. yes, i received my God's notice, i received the omen in red.

logo of site IIDChina, at http://facebook.com/iidchina ,or http://groups.google.com/group/iidchina .

beautiful sunset in Qiqihar, near Autumn.

colorful clouds near dusk in Qiqihar, China. its near Lunar Autumn.

dearest baby son, warren zhu, Hope of China, God of universe, ate corn cake in Holyland bread shop.

holy stream, holy moment of baptism in Lun river.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Thu, 30 Jul 2009 01:02:00 PDT

ema suggested to haunt Lun River after all her pupils left. i hesitated but couldn't let baby alone. so we together launched. in the river baby really had a good time! he enjoyed the water so much! i kept on shot. neighbors likely including some evils and dogs surveillance us. one of 2 men babbled and claimed too brutal, just let us know. God sees the beautiful scene!

for youtube banned in China for a long time, i had found other video hosting site to post my video of baby playing in the river. so i found vimeo, and registered some family frequent accounts. but this moment access to it unstable, China surveillance likely dog chasing after us and ruin any way i can make use of. however, this video is available, as vimeo email to report me this message.

the dark over China Internet sky really sick and thick nowadays. i bet its resolved with the collapse of dictation in China, the dogged land and my vested kingdom from God and my ancestor.

view our happy moment with water in Lun river of Heilongjiang, a tour of an hour bus from ema's house, aside the city of Qiqihar.

http://www.vimeo.com/5830120

the same movie hosted on flickr, shorten for the site's limit on length of movie.

http://www.flickr.com/apps/video/stewart.swf?v=71377

http://picasaweb.google.com/benzillar/NewTrackAfterReunited#5364025922584177570

http://picasaweb.google.com/benzillar/NewTrackAfterReunited#5364024672350407250

visit recent album including our happy time in Lun river, at google:

http://picasaweb.google.com/benzillar/NewTrackAfterReunited

bye, all my beloved, time left for us is bounty while words between us is peculiar. join me my beloved, sooner the better.

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dad's rage

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 21:53:00 PDT

a childhood pal, now hostile to me.

befriended villagers.

my childhood pal, once glass ball game champion.

our mountain, mostly hided by the evil dark house.

benzrad, me, in a pose, with a fly near my left eye brow.

it all started when i sang in front yard of my past dad, God's old house against threaten of violence. my mother, now turns clear, a life time spy and betrayal of my family, and dark witch chaser, evilly sat in the door facing the evil dark house owner's room just in front of my dad's house. i sang for my girls, but the profaning from my mother and the evil dark house owner turns intensively challenged me. in the last fight, my mother gave up and retreated to house. i sat there in the front yard in solitary. i felt God never let me do anything i dislike, and more important, the pure glory of my Royal forever untouchable. i reviewed my turning stronger missing for my baby, and decided its time to reunite with my baby and his mother. so i at once informed ema and our baby son about my decision in front yard in sunset. ema in doubt as usual, suggesting me later to return. but my girls, in holy message let me know its right to leave the evil land.

in the coming days i more and more see through the dark on my mother, and my past dad's struggle with the nearby enemies of his Empire. i got clearly the evils of the neighbors exerted on my old dad before his past by. my mother never belong to my dad, she lived in her family name, Hu, the same of current China's President. she lives lifetime in dark, in chase of her taste of ugly things and dark witch. she ruined most of my dad's children, let them abnormal, except my elder sister, my past eldest sister in her prime time, my kid brother and me. my kid brother still in missing road toward union with my dad, but this moment he is wrong. my mother don't love me, too. she in fact only love herself. in my life she exerted lots of obstacles just prevent my insight of her evils. she humiliated my family a lot with her foolish and selfish behaviors.

the neighbors' evil also gradually turn clear to me. the most ugly that needs action is the front and behind house owner, one is called Zhu zhongcai,朱中才, the back neighbor, and the dark house owner, a former slave before the new public. they spy my dad, God's life for decades, trying mimic the holy spirit, just in aim to hurt my dad. the dark house owner is also a freak, a rapist, with which my mother more and more turned into his victim. Zhu zhongcai once was a elementary school teacher in the darkest period of China under abnormal mao's influence. he claimed my name has problem and my parents changed my name accordingly. now his grandsons all steal name space from my family. for example, among the villagers, seldom has the mid name like mine, 子(in English,son), but his 2 grandsons all adopt it from mine. even worse, the second grandson steal one of my dad's name, 明, the second Dynasty of Zhu's. they openly profaned the holy, and risk to see if we kill.

now its kill time. my mother died in lack of blood, or anemia. she shouldn't bury with my dad, God. zhu zhongcai's family, including all his family, and the family of his 2 brothers, die soon in their burning house. the dark house owner, the evil still spying, dies in the ruin of his house and by hits of flocks of falling stones, both in desert, let dog and flies and mouse to lick. his offspring all died in the same way. their house all vanished and our mountains of my dad stand again in front of us.

the another back neighbor, the elder son of my past uncle and his evil family, esp. his fat and abnormal wife in family name zheng, die now. his fat wife died in water prison, die of cold and dark. himself and his sons and his larger family alive, die of infection of mad dog, or rabies. some die of rotten blood, or sepsis.

its my order of kill. i m leaving the land evil prevails, and abnormal or distort rampant. the land will be clear and clean after wiping ordered here, and my dad's glory manifests clearer in the sky and in the air, on his land.

baby bathed in warm early spring night

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Mon, 16 Mar 2009 00:21:00 PDT

This days family life restored to harmony. baby accepted to join kindergarten in day time, and energetically engaged in gaming in night. i read and search for resources to download, and made index of them. i sees no harsh in God's setting.

last night baby son was bathed. soon after bath he asked to watch a Chinese war movie, "assembly", and got a bit cold. its really a enjoyable moment for the family to see growth.

dogs in office biting all days, last Friday they should saw their failure fatally. they r in fact the dead. i got view that the dead female, Fang, ceased to pest my family, and my baby now under my beloveds' attending, which r full of love and pleasure.

last night God's way again haunted my dream, in which i likely reviewed my affair with my once girl friend, a Liu, when i studied in Nankai Univ., i got know that how fertility important for my Royal and people, how fertile female loveable than any others with other merits.

its sunny now, since morning, in which i dozed for some time till a guy visiting the office and interrupted my mindlessliness. then all the morning busy with trying find a solution for my English version windows xp to support Chinese, and email client to support gmail&yahoo. i see the light after days of finetune.

ok, its a nice day to babble here with u, my most beloved. returning to normal life can mean lose for me, for in the moment i heard ur call was such a loving feeling that i don't want miss. i forever love u and looking every possibility to reunite with u, to start my new life.

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4th snow in Qiqihar&its eve on Women's Day

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad) — Sun, 08 Mar 2009 18:53:00 PDT

A Japanese house now occupied by a high rank cadre of the ruling party.

we ready to treat ourselves for Women's Day upon ema's suggestion.

these days i a bit idle, waiting for something. ema reconciled and did her part of duty swiftily. i sorted my stuff and prepared for something. Yesterday is International Women's Day, ema claimed we will dine out, near 5 pm. a cop on his bike awaiting just outside of the garden near emakingir's house, and left before we arrived the cross of the road near he stood. i shot some photos in meal in a nearby restaurant. when we left a single female departing before us and let me doubting if she wanted to show me something. the night at home was peaceful, ema played game for 2 or more hours, while baby watched aside. i watched tv. when we went to bed, its warm still. but in dawn i listened to the wind whirling and very sleepy. when i got up i guessed it snown. after seeing the new snow i picked up my camera again. its 4th time i brought my camera with me in office. now the sunshine like the golden sugar liquid, and warm like baby's soft and wet palms. and i know i was blessed and saved. my fiancees, my most concerned, coming closer than any time when in barriers.

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