♥Smiles; Thoughts; Words; Tears♥

suspense much

2010-10-23T14:59:00.005+08:00

he is still keeping her suspense..

i wonder what exactly happen between us..

i mean things were going so fine before this..

i really thought that he was the right guy..

he seems so perfect and all nice to me..

all the things he told me still floating in my mind everyday..

the sentence he wanted me to remember i got the message & actually understands it...

then i started to fall deeper for him

but when all these are clear, it started to fade away..

he is no longer talks to me like how he used to be..

no more text or smiley faces from him..

i started to feel the ignorance in between..

i wanted to ask so badly whats exactly happening...

is it something that i did that hurt him so bad that he is doing this to me...

if is a yes, i deserve it..

or maybe he is already into some other gal or i might not just be the someone he wanted...

for whatever the reason is, i am sure that it would have be fine for me..

all i need is just an assurance from him

so that i would not have waited blankly for nothing in return instead i could move on...

i did fall for him real deeply

& thats the reason i cried and sad since the day he stopped showing me the smile i used to see..

i wish he knew whats inside me without me telling...

every day i am waiting for him to speak out whats inside him..

& every night all i did is to cry myself to sleep...

all i want from you is just a simple and honest answer : me to move on or stay??

the spell he cast ♥

2010-10-14T18:23:00.003+08:00

there is this girl who misses the smile of this boy

& she has been waiting day after day for him to speak out his thoughts

she wants to know how he felt

is it real for what she knew or just simply her wonders

she wanted the truth

as she already fall & has fall deeply into his spell :)

& it all begin with a smile :)

2010-10-12T23:34:00.007+08:00

sorry for the long term MIA...

was busy with uni life and my own life as well..

fingers had been lazing around quiet alot...

so yeahh....i wasnt on my blog page till lately...

the old feeling of ______ & ______ is back once again...

is suppose to be a short and suspense post..

so gtg for now..

dats all for today... xoxo & love ♥

the truth : she is falling again ;

will he be the right one?

praying hard and wished that it would be a YES...

& you will never know how much you meant to my heart ♥ IMY

♥ obsession of her desired heart

2010-07-31T20:50:00.003+08:00

& i cant keep my eyes off his face, stare, & everything about him..

he is tearing my consciousness apart

i just cant stop thinking bout him...♥

waiting and hunger for more happiness :)

2010-07-29T19:30:00.005+08:00

BidaBong peeps,

sooo hows life been going on???

missing ZYU???

*thanks* :)

how r u, zyu??

doing fine?? missing us??

"for sure lah..with lots of love♥"

im feeling absolutely hyp & happy TODAY...

*why is TODAY have to be in caps??*

FYI, things hasn't been exactly nice since las week...

few of zyu's things e.g.

muah's pendrive

muah's baby blue bottle

got kidnapped by sum evil PEOPLE in my uni...

mr nice person who had been taking good care of my lost

or shud i just called you a THIEF to make things easier...

wow, THIEF... what an exact cool name for assholes rite???

thanks alot for making my life so WONDERFUL,

giving me free lesson to be more alert

so that i wont be targeted by THIEF like you...

i might not be so ~~lucky~~ unlucky to actually know you..

but im still praying hard that

YOU, yes YOU mr asshole

will just fall out of stairs every single time u walk on one

puke after whatever u have eaten

die begging for mercy so that you wont go to HELL for STEALING

KARMA will just haunt you for the coming up life of your totally PATHETIC life...

hope you actually enjoy using muah's pendrive with a heart of guilt...:)

once a THIEF, forever you gonna be ONE!!!

ok, enough with all the cursing and blasting...

he will eventually need to payback someday...

i have faith that GOD will not just let BRADS like him to just walkaway :)

been sneezing nonstop since the pass 5mins..

nose irritation...arghhh!!!

me no likey :(

so lets go back to my AWESOME mood...

mama and papa are all being nice n caring... "me ♥ them so so much"

both are very worry and concern bout me and my life here...

they hardly give me pressures like old days...

all they wanted from me is just try passing every sem,

try to be happy & smile more..*dats what i am actually doing*

n guess what,

my finger-crossing thingy actually works

mama & papa said "YES" :)

altho i know i suck in it

but still i cant wait to join the 4-wheeled crew...

so again, i ♥ papa mama much-o

she says,

"you actually peeped when i leaved,

i really do exist!! :)"

i am not NERDify yet :)

2010-07-21T18:53:00.008+08:00

sometimes things just became sooo PRECIOUS

when you found out that you actually NEED more of them

& is like for the rest of your coming up life...

i miss those good old stoning days..

lazing around, staring blankly at the ceiling, day dreaming

still, time REMAINS to flow so slow..

now,

everything seems to move as if it is being FAST FORWARD sigh

so there she is,

smiling &

still trying to LIVE through the FORMAL-ise life of hers..

not all ;

but certain things really did turn out to be alot better :)

peeps i met are being all nice to me

*fingers cross-ing & praying hard that things would be better*

i start getting used with the DRESS-ing up part...

not that bad actually..

the sad part is the lecturers i had

lectures was not EXACTLY good

shud i just say the LECTURERS seriously need ENGLISH speaking LESSON!!!

* VOTES from MOST of us, STUDENTS*

& im still wondering how they actually pass being a LECTURE...==

i did had fun spending my weekend

with the ones i used to & still loving lots...

thanks alot guys for the wonderful BBQ :)

more outing will be plan i hope

i want more PHOTOS & TIME with u all...

please do save me from being NERDify...

p/s:i am not yet a NERD; prob a soon to be

oh yeah, zyu went for MOVIE at las...

ITS SO FLUFFY, I CAN DIE!!!! *i love u lah,agnes*

i noe im kinna slow with movie lately...

but at least i watched :)

& is SUPER awesome

OMG, is already 730!!

& i shud be studying for 2ml lectures...DAMN it!!

chaoz for now..

will try updating asap...

love ♥

& they make my everything here alot better :)

p/s:credits to JAMIE LEE for the nail polish, zyu ABSOLUTELY love it ♥

2010-07-18T20:34:00.003+08:00

& she is not exactly smiling now...

she is not exactly laughing

she is just not herself anymore..

i need hugs;

not just hugs but lots and lots of 'em...

i wish i was blind,

so that i would not have to see what you have actually did to me..

she started crying again :(

is just might be at the wrong time

2010-07-17T23:13:00.007+08:00

& she said

"please do shower me with love, from the right person

i'm actually tired of falling over and over again "

already the champion or just the start of everything??

2010-07-13T21:49:00.003+08:00

the end for all footbal craze...

CONGRATs to SPAIN, WORLD CUP CHAMPION :)

starting of zyu's 4 years UNI life..

so how was it ??

~~GREAT~~

~~AWESOME~~

~~PERFECT~~

~~FUN~~

yes,

is NOT EXACTLY good or great or nice

i missed the time i had when i was in ausmat

i felt that the people i met here

as in UNI

is like ermmm

not that i wanted to say or comment much

they just seems a liiiiiiiiiiiiiiittle different from those i met...

but then they are all nice people lah...

SOME of them, not all...

i just dun get it

why izit so hard for sum of them to just smile...

for me,

it is normal for us to smile bac when some1 gave u a smile...

is not any EVIL looking or HORNY type of smile...

just the normal ones...

but yet some of them just dun seems to hav any respond to it...WEIRD :(

prob they just dun like smiling i guess...

soooo, eventually avting seems to be quiet in the OK statement...

hope avting will get better soon...

im praying hard for it..really....

i miss my mama n papa n FAM alot...

zyu is not actually feeling very well right now...

so time for RESTie dah...

dry throats is killing me...

good nite people...

♥

& they are still the same old pervert n horny ones i know

2010-07-11T15:12:00.003+08:00

spend my AWESOME saturday with a bunch of

i would call them totally PERVERT, HORNy & BOnErish of DUDES
which i actually cant believe that i missed hanging around with them *no offence*xD

still,zyu enjoyed having friends like them with her...
i know
they might be alil out of their minds sometimes
alil crazier than usual
& also pervert n all
but they did manage to make my life here better...:)

so once again, im the ONLY female..
at start,we kinna hav some problems settling down on where to have our so called lunch which ended up having ICE!!!
coz av1 had taken their lunch...xD

here, the TOPIC of the day begin...*unrevealable, only those involves knows*

then POOL...
i suck in that game...
or shud i say i suck in all games that involves BALLS..
was being annoyed by evil MR K & TTG!!
thanks for making FUN..
but still im NOT a CLOWN!!!!xD

lastly, went for dinner in KLANG!!
oh KLANG...
i had some wonder memories there..
cant say it is wonderful coz is not fully FULL!!
i been there once for their famous BAK KUT TEH but ended up NO...
long storyy not gonna replay it again...

n then things get worst..

the TOPIC of the day rises from LOW to SUPER HIGH!!
OMG!! i wish i have an ear pluck or cotton or anyting that could help me go deaf for that one moment..
i would rather act lik sum dumbass who doesn't know what's actually happening..xD

u guys seriously...especially the two mr K!!!
one day, i might just lock u guys up
& make u finish up da topics inside b4 u guys start doing it in PUBLIC!!!;p

yet overall, time with them was GREAT...
im sure im gonna miss mr K lots when he leave...
i bet i will miss the way he ANNOYED me most..xD

"thanks alot of avting yesterday, guys...

is really very nice for all of you to spend your time n welcoming me bac here..:) ♥ "

& at las is coming..
UNI life is officially starting tomorrow...ARGHHH!!!!

what shud i wear???
dress??pant or skirt???
what shud u bring??

who will i meet??
will i be loved, cared & pampered like i used to be in college??

OH LORD, save me from all dis questions!!!

2010-07-10T16:17:00.000+08:00

finally, after so long

2010-07-09T22:13:00.000+08:00

is JULY

& she is in K.L now...

finally, after soooo long...

rite??

FRANKly saying, i would actually pick a NO for now...

altho im sure you know that being here is what i had been longing for since as long as i could remember..

but stilll.... *sad face appearing*

this is not the 1st time i actually left home...

NO..is not..

i had already been here before this...

i had spent almost a year here...

& it was a GREAT, FUN, n mos of all still FUN memories..

i have friends here too..

& they are those COOL & AWESOME type of friends

which i never regret meeting them...

but still i there is STILL a NO inside me..

no more snuggling on my cushy BEANy bEAN...

no more lazing around doing nothing...

gonna miss driving mama, mr KAWAI-neh & FAT FAT...

start missing mama's cooking...

missed hugging my ah PAT...

missing my FRENZ-o who has been pampering me for the whole 7months of me STONEage-ING..♥ muchoo & thanks alot :)

sighhh..

zyu is already missing being all home SWEET home.... :(

i hope things would be lik what many had told me..

them : "everything will eventually get better & im sure u will love the life here..."

me : " i hope so too & i guess that would be your job to make me feel that way :)"

FYI,my uni life is starting lik in another 2 ~~weeks~~ days...

NERVOUS, NERVOUS & still being NERVOUSS!!!

please do wish me luck n pray hard for me...

anyways, the ZYU gtg for now...

tata & ♥ always...:)

p/s : she is with her NEW & IMPROVE lappie now..<3

& is stylo-mello :)

2010-06-27T20:58:00.006+08:00

Things has been pretty great this few days...
sweet, funny, weird, stuff..:)

what exactly happen today
was that me & my FREN-ZO had dis crazy idea of waking up early in the morning (i woke up at 630==) just to have BREAKFAST in a TOTALLY kampung stylo-mello place...
even the toilets were in style as well...xD

like what i said,
crazy ppl just tend to enjoy doing some crazy nonsense...
guess what we did
we actually enjoy standing under the HOT sun for hours just to get some awesome shots
which in the end, for me, it didn't really turn out that perfect
coz i look FAT in almost av picture...*sigh* i hate my jelly belly

thank god that
mr SUN is being all nice to me dis time
NO sunburn just a lil darker than usual...

i guess this coming up part is more to being a total WEIRD-o
usually girls will be totally freak out when there is a beetle or insects...
but i'm kinna INTO insects now...*NO JOKE, im serious*

when my frenz were enjoying their sweet time singing karaoke,
me, on the other hand,
was busy collecting insects for certain purposes!!!xD
not gonna tell, not till my plan actually works...

so i suppose dats enough for today's post...
did i mention that i went for FISH SPA??
is a feeding FISHES with your dead skin treatment...
it was ermmmmm.....
let me see....what exactly is the word...
oh ya..is TICKLISHH!!! :)

few of the SneAk pEaks on KAMPUNG stYlo-mello :)

ARGGHHHH!!!!

2010-06-25T15:54:00.003+08:00

dat is exactly what i felt like doing right now!!!!

ARGHHHHHHH!!!!! >.<

SMASH SMASH SMASH the bloody laptop

SPAM SPAM SPAM the stupid fucked up webpage!!!!

i ♥ my mama & papa

2010-06-21T14:00:00.008+08:00

it all started yesterday
when i was fetching mum back from her meeting....
she asked me a ques dat actually caught my attention...

"have you ever wrote something bad or rude to express your anger towards me?" mum asked.

for a minute there, i actually stone...

"have i ever did such a thing to my mum??" in heart i wondered...

i asked her why asking such question so suddenly...
she told me some of her frenz's kids were actually doing dat in their blog & diaries..
scolding their parents with rude words, cursing their mum with the "F-related words"
just because their mum dun allow them to play computer games or mayb to go out with friend...
then, again mum asked me the same question...

& dis time, im actually certain with my answer...
i answered "Nope :)"

i admit that at times my parents's attitude or reatcion really get on my nerves...
sometimes their love seriously had gone over the border...
being all over protective, too caring
but no matter how i would never write such things to express my sooo called anger...
the most i would do is to just lock myself up in the room not talking to the for days
or just show off my ugly sour face :(
i would never ever curse my parents that way....

i wonder how would you feel when someone , someone u actually care was doing such things to you..
how will you feel??
hurt?? disappointment?? sad??

& for what are you feeling,
ur parents will go thru it twice as hard as you were or mayb just worst...
so i guess as a child we shud know whats the right thing to do & whats not..:)

"mama, papa i ♥ you"

"do honor you father & your mother"
HE once siad...

my green green fever

2010-06-17T18:17:00.000+08:00

zyu has been M.I.A for quiet some time
mainly is because her fingers had been lazing around
not wanting to type....*notty notty fingers*
& as for the remainder is because she still haven found herself a new best friend, miss lappie yet *sigh*
still haven decide which brand to get...how lah man :(

sooo is schools hols now, which doesn't really matter to me at all...
i had been having hols & hols & hols & months of hols since the end of AUSMAT...
went back to penang with mum & my beloved cute lil annoying FATx2
had quiet some wonder-FOOD time...
FATx2 is like awesomely cute during da trip...
he is being all nice n damn close to me
& for a second there, i actually felt bad & regret for being mean to him at times..

FATx2!!! thanks for making my hols even better... i'm sorry but still i ♥ you, boy!! :)

photos throughout the trip MIGHT be uploaded * please take note is MIGHT *
there are indeed a few interesting people i wish i could share
some INTERESTING FUNNY & a li~~~ttle bit of WEIRD people
but not for now ;p

& guess what!!!
zyu got her SUPERBly DUPERBly HUGE bean bag!!!
gonna name it BEANy BEAN...
is red just lik my aiya boyfriend- MR PATRICK the DOG
but then is way way way bigger than him...
♥ heart♥ it muchoooo muchhhooooo lotsss....
thanks daddy!!!!

n yeahh, lately many of the MALESS & partly females as well are having fevers..
yes!!! is the officially one and only FIFA WORLD CUP !!!
even disney channel is showing tones of ball related cartoons...xD
im a football dumb,
dun really enjoy watching guys chasing a ball in the super BIG & GREEN field which im totally in love with it...
oh GOD~~~
how i wish i could actually be there in da field,
not for the game but just simply lie down on the piece of GREEN GREEN land...

& she loves GREEN!!!

you were never mine

2010-06-17T17:45:00.006+08:00

& she says " is time for a .full stop."
♥累了 ;心也淡了♥

& im always your eraser

2010-05-31T11:44:00.006+08:00

M is for Monday
the cycle is back to its origin...
i wished weekends would come a lil faster & leave a lil slower...

las weekend is actually been queit tiring for me
mum wasn't around...
soo yeah.... i'm their temporary driver...
fecthing them to tuition, football, movies....
no more naps from 5-7pm...
no more waking up afta 12pm.. :( sigh

besides driving, zyu spent most of her time stoning in msn...
chatting with mr fat-TARD, ms JLEE, mr KSHAK....
& also with her handi-crafty... :)

oh ya, shared something quiet nice with mr KSHAK during the weekend...
gonna post it here as well...
please do take note below....

& i wanna thank XIOwYin for her "SMILE"...
not bad lah for da 1st time...
nex time i recommend you another recipe...
might be better...:)
anyway, still thx for avting lah gal...
♥ love you....

listen & look closely,

there is something that she's hiding

i actually miss talking to you :)

i ♥ my EYESOREs!!!

2010-05-27T11:27:00.005+08:00

& part of the merde still continue...
lappie is still in repair...& is for the 2nd time...*miss my lappie lots*
considering whether to get a new one...
but still have to talk to dad before deciding...
been spending alot lately...:(

kinna under some movie madness...
wanted to go for movie so so sooooo badly...
but then dunno who else to go with..
all been busy with life, exams, work...

i wanna watch ROBBIN fighting with his hood...
i want to see SHERK living happily forever after...
i wish i could share my popcorns with the hot & charming PRINCE PERSIA.....

miss BI!!! please balik lah cepat....
u still owe me movie remember???
anyway,wanna wish you all da best in ur finals weii...
add oil or fire or watever that keeps you motivated...xD
good luck & love always...

& zyu had made herself an EYESOREs♥ !!!
now she is totally under some EYESOREs's spell...
crazy & obssesed wih it...xD

love it muchhooo muchhoo...♥

p/s : wat is EYESOREs??? collections of awesomely cute & adorable monsters...

half of my ♥heart♥ make sures that you smile;

another half of it make sure that im happy always....:)

it had been a MERDE-ful week :(

2010-05-18T16:20:00.006+08:00

im clear that SHIT does happen in life
but it has been tooo much of S.H.I.T happening in a week :(
i'm starting to HATE it

i seriously need some "fragrance or perfume" to cover up the "aroma of S.H.I.T"

Days without LAPPIE

2010-05-17T13:16:00.004+08:00

is been days since the las time my lappie left *sigh*
yeah, it is old & sick...is time for it to be treated...
days without it was wellll...not vry well...
i cant spam & chit chat with friends in msn b4 my sleep...
i din really get to update my blog & also the latest gossips...
i cant facebook & update my status...:(
i miss staring at it blankly thinking on what else to google...
zyu want & needed her lappie alot...

my dear lappie, i miss you much ♥

mum just called lik 5min ago...
telling me that my lappie's harddisk gone case...
no more backup on all my data..
songs, photos, files all gone case..:(
felt like crying now...not really a good day to start a week...

i dun text does'nt mean im not talking to you,
i jus simply want you to miss me more..:)

is called SPACE

2010-05-11T22:18:00.004+08:00

did you see this??
is called SPACE
i need my SPACE
SPACE to clear my mind
&
to be all alone :)

is you i saw

2010-05-05T23:17:00.005+08:00

she lie down on her cossy warm bed

staring blankly at the ceiling

& you came into her mind

she started smiling because she misses you

she fell asleep thinking on what to reply

then she saw you in her dreams

telling her what she wanted most :)

what you left behind

2010-05-02T22:06:00.003+08:00

i love the way you brighten my day when is dark & stormy

i love the way you make me feel soo warm during the cold weather

i love how you playing hide & seek among the clouds & view the world from hide above

i love how coloured up the sky with your yellow gold colour

but what i hate most about you

is the pain that u had left behind

ArGhhh!!!

-sunburn, the pain is killing me-

& she said

2010-04-30T10:48:00.007+08:00

"i want toys that talk, walk & do cool stuffs like those in TOY STORY... :)"