Wex's mind messup

I love my not-so-messed-up family

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Sun, 22 May 2011 09:15:00 +0000

I want someone that's like my father, that will always prioritize his children's education;

I want to be like my mom whom support hers husband, because she has no doubt on hers husband, that hers children will get the best ever, that their father will provide;

I want my children to have pure love on their siblings whether they will always quarrel with their on ways in perceiving situations, because they have their own personality but yet their walk of fame are based on each other influence, and they care of each other very much;

yes, it is exactly same as my family that I'm having, and I thank to God for that, everyday,

but I asking for more, for what is lack in my family, not because I'm selfish, because I know I do deserve it, by God Will, because I asking it to my God, cause I know He knows best, and He has power to give the best to me, although it might not be what I wanted,,, I hope I understand and will understand it...

Wex
(p.s dh la lama tak tulis blog, bila first post pn dh merapu, apa daaaa)

Blogger Wex Care

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Wed, 13 Jan 2010 04:54:00 +0000

As blogger, i do care.
thus, here the ribbon as my support for blogger megat and his suffer (Read here).

As i publish this ribbon in my blog until 17/01/10, RM1 will be count by sponsor kbsoccer.net (Further infomation--> [Khas] Ribbon khas untuk blogger semua – Blogger, We Care)

Spam add? no, it's not.

Other than Special Ribbon Blogger We Care campaign by blogger Hydir, Denaihati also have other way to contribute.

Also, personal donation can be make straight to en. megat account.

Tensen

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Sat, 22 Aug 2009 13:04:00 +0000

"There is no "tensen" in malay writing." My Bahasa Malaysia teacher said in spotting several correction in ours essays.
The class is full of laughs... Every one know where the word come from:-UJANG magazine.

Long memory from Ckg Anuar 2001 class

I know the word 'tensen' or correctly 'tension', long before it. But, the real mean of tension come in 2005, the matriculation year, when i met other student from SBP and MRSM. They teach me what tension is.

The meaning become stronger each day since i knew it. Towards 1st year of college, and 2nd, 3rd and now the final yr -the research project, the tense become worst. But what bring the tension more, i'm not alone, the people surround me also have their tension.

I can manage my tension, although most of the time if i cant stand it, i tend to stop thinking bout them- which is the bad way. But what is the harder:- confront with people tension and how their release their tension.

Come on people, release ur tension. Tension is an abstract feeling. The game of mind. Its how u handle it.

With Leeja... hihihi...

p/s pls waheeda no more word 'tensen'.

p/s selamat mnyambut Ramadhan al-Mubarak.. jom perbanyakkan amalan... =)

Crash and Backup

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Mon, 17 Aug 2009 04:15:00 +0000

I havent backup any of my blog's articles yet... Till date, i have created 4 blogs including Wex's mind messup, despite the other blog that im nt interested to write in it (like WMM – may coming soon).

Sad story, my pc was crashed few months ago, cause some virus has attacked my systems (oooppsss); As what is told by the computer repairman. I'd lost all my assignments and all blog's file that i saved. Although, its not affect me so much, but still, i cant refer back all my assignment and some pictures album that i should save into a disk or facebook (hehehe), at least. Thanks God, my current files project are saved in each of my thumbdrives. Although, if it is lost, still not affecting me too much because I just started the project though, i can find back the informations.

But what I want to say is although the crash were not affecting me to much, but still i'd lost something that took my effort in making it and, several memories that now are save in my head. And to me, it is not too important in saving the memories in the hardrive or disc or facebook, because the most important thing is all the memories are much better to archieve through our mind. That what make human very special, rite. Cause if i'd lost all my things in different ways, u know like house burning, flood, or storm (hope not), at least u r save, u can still have it through ur memory.

But come on, get real. Lost is lost. Its never come back, although it can, but its cost me money to backup back my files from my crash pc. Sometimes, to make a blog entry require time, effort and funs... So, in addition to preserve the efforts and funs in my mind, why not i backup all my posts in case these blogs were crash or hack or disappear in mystery ways....

p/s the point is, i want to backup my blog entries to avoid having lost all my efforts and funs in making its. And dunt want to sad or regret if something happen to these blogs. hohoho.....
p/s i know the point is smeared by boring elaborations.... hahaha... its just how i present my point...

Wizda abandonment

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Sat, 04 Jul 2009 01:42:00 +0000

W0W... I'm speechless.... Every words come from my mouth feels not right. I've draft 3 and more entries since last 2 months to express how I've abandoned my blog for 6 months. I've completely left my blog without update for 3 months.

-THE STORY-

Last December, although I've passed all my papers and can proceed into semester 2 of 3r year senior -which I really grateful to Allah for giving me second chance's'- but still my CGP is bad enough to lowered my CGPA and affect my number of subjects I can took. Huhuhu... Started from that I become messed. YES I BECOME MESS UP. Back to when I started my blog -messup girl.

First day of my semester 2 of 3rd year senior, I straight away proposed my supervisor to take me as hers student in neural tube laboratory for my final year research project. Starting from that, I've determined to focus on my project meanwhile getting good grade for my CGPA. Which my final exam results is okay and my CGPA is increase -Alhamdulillah.

Yes, it like I'm blaming my works for not updating my blog. But it is what has happen. And I admit, it is my fault for pending my works a lot. Bad Waheeda.

-MY APOLOGY-

Thus, for whom was visiting my blog for past 3 months, I am sorry for letting u all read my old entries. For whom was visiting my blog for past 6 months, I'm sorry for letting u all read my messing entries. But I really thankful for your visit very much. U know the feeling that piece of thought being read my people -anxious, exposes, relieve, and happy.

-NEXT MONDAY-

Next Monday is the first day for my semester 1 of final year. Although many things has happen (progress and regress), but it is not over, i still have to go through my final year with high spirit.

-NEXT ENTRY-

Yes, I still will not stop blogging.... hoho

April 20 1889

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Mon, 20 Apr 2009 02:00:00 +0000

.... As Rudy slumped into the corner and flicked mud from his sleeve at the window, Franz fired him the Hitler Youth's favourite question.
'When was our Fuhrer Adolf Hitler born?'
Rudy looked up. 'Sorry?'The question was repeated, and the very stupid Rudy Steiner, who knew all too well that it was April 20 1889, answered with the birth of Christ. He even threw in Bethlehem as an added piece of information.

Franz smeared his hands together.
A very bad sign....

in Three acts of stupidity by Rudy Steiner. 'quote; Rudy steiner, pure genius.
from The Book Thief by Markus Zusak

well i'm not going to talk about Hitler. today morning going quite well with all my morning routine - breakfast, toilet business (oopsss heheh), washing cloth (ok not my rountine), bath, email lecture notes to my coursemate, etc. and not to forget, read a piece of note of my Principles of Molecular Biology which is my first paper tomorrow... oooo' ooooo....

.My skill in editing and taking pic is getting worse from day to day. huHU.

Yes, tomorrow is my first day of final examination. so, Hitler is not my priority right now, i having breakfast is also not my main agenda for April 20 2009, but revising my lecture note for my principles of molecular biology should be the main thing getting my attention for today April 20 2009....

still, as i log in the internet, and sending email of lecture notes to my friend, unintentionally, i wrote this entry... heheh...

Hey, why not, don't pressure yourself with paper tomorrow, its not the end of the world. OK it will be yes if i fail this paper and i'm cannot take the advanced course, but still hope it will not happen. cause why?

cause I'd valuable lesson for being panic for my first paper final exam last semester. yes, it is very valuable. it nearly cost me C- (fail, synonym with 'repeating the subject' or worst 'extend years in my course'), but Alhamdulillah, i pass the paper with C.. fuh..

so waheeda dunt panic. and for whoever getting first paper today, tomorrow or the next week, plz dunt get panic okay, even u haven't finish skimming ur notes, hey, at least u know something, lot of things actually, use it smartly in exam. for whom who had done their first paper successfully, congratulation... but for whom who did not done smoothly, dunt worry, tomorrow paper is waiting, get up and pay what u'd lost from last paper..

...
In his new division, whenever he was asked the famous Fuhrer question, Rudy would smile and answer, 'April 20 1889', and then to Tommy, he'd whisper a different date, like Beethoven's birthday, or Mozart's, or Stauss's. They'd been learning about composers in school where, despite his obvious stupidity, Rudy excelled.

in Three acts of stupidity by Rudy Steiner. 'quote; Rudy Steiner, pure genius.
from The Book Thief by Markus Zusak

p.s gudluck for whom having final exam and gudluck to me toooo... dunt get too easy with urself waheeda... be serious but not too serious ok... awak gak yg merana... hehehe okay...

p.s.s i thought i will not getting any exam pimple, yet today it show itself... hi molec si jerawat batu... hahahah... sila merasa geli, sye tak kesah... hehe

p.s.s.s i know, again my cute damn lazy finger, wasnt capital the first letter of the sentences...

p.s.s.s.s i just said that this morning going quite well rite? now it isnt... my internet connection is very slow (because i downloading IE8), its ruin my morning mood.... but, keep steady waheeda... hihi

Hello~ boleh saya bercakap dgn~~

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Tue, 07 Apr 2009 18:56:00 +0000

"hello~~~~~" nice lady voice with rythm
"hello~~~~~" me, also with same happy rythm
note: i'm not remember either hello or assalammualaikum.

"boleh saya bercakap dengan s%ti waheeda binti mohd z*n"
"ye, saya" me, curious. in my mind, oopppsss i'd replied her with rythm hello~~~~~, ahhh biar lah.
"saya dari pada syarikat ##### sendirian berhad" alamak, it's real from company. i thought its from my fren.
"ah??? syarikat apa?" me, to make sure.
"celcom, wei.... waheeda!"
"wei!!!!" me, screaming. how come, i always be trick by her, several times?
"hahahah... ainiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii" me, continue screaming my fren name, and my mom looking curiously at me.
both of us laughing in the telephone...

last nite, my fren, ainie came to my house to print an apply form. well, generously and willing to see her (miss her), i agree to help her.

she has launch blog before me, ~Dominasi Pertamaku // My First Domination~. then after few weeks, i follow her, start new blog, which is w's mind messup. she are also changing layout, and i've give her few layout for her to try. and, i'd also offer her to use my firebug template, as i want to change to new one... which still in progress, or maybe the project is left awhile... hehehe

i used to be fooled by her for many times. by my matrix and schoolmate, gmah, also few times. and 2times from my ex-rumate, nani. nani, once used to pretend to be dj radio and diamond seller, which i believe... hahaha one sentence that i said to nani several times, when she pretend to be diamond seller —> "sye tak mampu cik" heheheheh. yes, how come i afford to pay for a diamond... hahahhaah tak bleh blah tul nani nie.

ainie has grad from communication in english diploma, and currently on training in call operator service short course at stamford college, whom have nice lady voice. so it's the good excuse for believing hers tricks. nani used to be telekom operator service, which also the good excuse for me to believe hers too. but with gmah, which no experience any of call operator, still i being fooled by her... what the easier target... heheheheh but for whom that i really recognize ur voice, i still can detect u... hihi
note: this also reply to u, aaina... i still remember ur voice... hahaha

p/s my sentences is still messup..... ooopppssss

beated by time

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Mon, 06 Apr 2009 10:50:00 +0000

bape lame daaa wex tak update ini blog... oooo ye, sebulan daaaa....

Well, i'd learned from experience. I became addicted to bloggy, which at first to release tense from my exam preparation (last semester), but then i cant stop... hihi.. Believe or not, at that time, i'd instinct for something bad, my heart beat faster during cliking mouse during bloggy... cause at that time i should finishing my revision for exam final... ok, my bad, not good in managing time....

recently, well not recently, this past 3years, there were several time, i felt that i cant control the situation. which i became panic. at first, i planning my task inside my head. which it should be perfect plan. but well, it is not practical... The real life is different from what we were thinking, but i believe i can make what i planned, by do everything is possible to achieve it. well, i believe imposible thing is possible by God will. kan Allah maha kuasa... why not? but in this special situation, i felt beated by time, i was frustrated cause i'd did everything that i could. well, that's old long story. i'd forget it and take it as valuable lesson.

k back to my main point.
i was not really busy with study. as i thought i was. but, whenever i want to update or change my layout, there always somethings that need my call. one word from my supervisor that always on top of my mind is "priority". whenever i want to play game, then the word pop out - "priority waheeda". yes, sleep is more important and give more benefit to my brain for next morning class. instead playing game, i will doze off in the lecture time... hihi so, sleep is more priority then playing games, although i cant cloze my eyez as thinking that i can get up to more level.

as i starting research this semester (not officially), i really become tied by word "comitment". its teach me of profesionalisme. well as i thought it is. and then as my project mate that has much more step forward, really challenging me. cause from beginning, i really want to do research with Dr Ais, but then i cant commit with it. hey, where goes all my promise to finish whatever task given right away as redeem to get chances doing reseach under Dr Ais?. tercabar nie..

i tried to catch up with her, but the time as the main controler of my research, force me to pend it for awhile. its okay.. no need to rush. officially, my research start on May. wat pe laa nak kabut... hehe

well i'm really sorry for not updating my blog. actually i'd create new blog to test new layout that i'd chosen a month ago. it is my tested blog, as been suggested by many tutor-blogger-sifu. several features is not work, so i'm not transfer it yet to this blog. The test blog i used to test is wex lab test. Just another crap blog i create... hihi

note: actually i want to insert print screen image of 3column header of new layout. but 'my darling' internet explorer not loading it after several attempted. my mozilla firefox is crash, and i'd uninstalled it. now, i am downloading firefox setup 3.0.8 installer...

there is other factors cause me not to transfer the layout yet... it will be other entry.. for right now, believe or not, for a long time, finally i have interest in reading my lecture notes... Apa daaaa..... yesterday morning i dreamt bout my revision planer for final exam... what should i study, which subjects i should start... but the hard question is: can i realize it?... let see how it goes.... heehhehe

bak kata penutup perbahasan sekolah menengah dlu —> nampak nya masa mencemburui saya, maka....

still this blog is under construction.. ok. Insyaallah, i'll post new entry bout new layout. i'd create it, yet to be edit. but waiting for time to allow me to paste and post it...

n one things, till this date i am 22yrs and 7days old...hohohoho...

p/s seems like i'm good in making excuse for my lazyness.. am i? well let me answer it myself... i have been craping a lot... hihi and laughing a lot... ooooopppsss...
p/s betapa pemalas nye sye nak capital kat first letter tuk permulaan ayat...

Under Construction 2

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Sat, 14 Mar 2009 18:49:00 +0000

Despite all my works due this weeK

...I want to change mood from dark to bright...
to get new inspiration
or maybe wizda will be in Bahasa Melayu
glad to and it will be
if wexeeda gets over frustrated/give up/fed up with hers slow progression on english learning
...opppsss wait a minute, did i said GIVE UP???
!!!oh NO!!!
...the word cannot exist in/restrict to/distinct from my vocab...

wex, dunt tense ur self
straight ur postur
hoho okay

p/s maybe my tagline will be change cause my mind no more messup.. but worse, i'm stuck in it... somebody HELP me!!!

Wizda with Wish List

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Thu, 12 Feb 2009 14:58:00 +0000

mmg penat tuk menahan dugaan... sabar waheeda sabar waheeda... baek...

why i list it all... because everyone done it.... kukukukukuh
because all of this lingering in my mind.... let me release it before it messup my mind.... shuh shuh Here they are...

1. I want to lose weight... (hihi malu tuk menyatakan... hehe)
my friend had offer 50% discount gym club. Still, it still very costly for me.. have i mention 'very costly'.. ooppsss sorry, it should be 'very very costly'. If my condition really need me to be in ideal weight, maybe i have and i should to take the offer... regardless the cost.
when i mention cost, i also attract to this HL diet shake... have i mention cost, yes i have.. the cost is not affordable by me.. yes it is not too high, but it is for me.. cause i have no income... but still it still not requirement until it is be so..
but all of that only the options/opportunity to lose weight in faster way... but since i know the cause of my weight problem, i should know i how to solve it.. but it is not easy as i say it is... huhuhu... so as i said it before, if the condition force me till i have to spend some money, maybe i will... huhu

2. Involve in business...

Rasulullah Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam memuji penjual atau saudagar yang jujur dalam perniagaan dan sembilan per sepuluh dari rezeki datang dari berniaga. Berniaga juga merupakan ibadat yang boleh menghampirkan diri kepada Allah.
[grab from menyusur mukim kampung]

My dad really against businesses. Cause there always cheating in business... yes my dad is phobia with business... Tuelaaa spe suruh orang berniaga (sesetengah) tipu pelangan. but not all businessman are manipulate their customers. I like advertising and internet business. But i still hesitate to join it. But still ive try it-->Nuffnang.com.my. When i really confident in business, i'll get active in it... InsyaAllah. Rezeki datang daripada-Nya.

3. Have new spectacle frame.
I had over 1,500 lenses power for both side. I had 'rabun jauh' since i was in standard one... but I start to wearing glasses when i was in standard four. At that time, my lenses power has reach 400 each side. For this glasses, i have wearing for over three years... although the lenses is only little blur, but still, i should change the glass at least 2 years.

4. Increase my pointer/grade...
Yes, my CGPA is at borderline... I'm not telling u which borderline.. hihi.. But if i really want to persude master or research assistant in medical research center or even working in laboratory, at least my pointer should be above 3.00... so, that is my target... So, i'm desperately going for increasing my pointer...

5. DSLR camera...
Everyone try to get it and already having it (nono, aeropama, topato, BS etc)... huhuhu i want it too.... heheheh Although i know nothing bout photography. Know nothing bout DSLR.. but hey, i'd join photography club in form 2 secondary school with my dad antic camera which he get from china before i was born... heheheheh I love candid picture, human behaviour theme, and unliving object theme, and also sky... (uh??? pe kes tangkap gmbar langit plak nie.. hahaha best pe ciptaan Allah swt)

6. Swarovski crystal...

huhu i fascinated with its reflected (some of them). And the price range can be afford by me... But the question is- do i need it... and the most important- is it suitable with my style.. I am very confirm my friend will laugh at me.. hehehehe
note: later when ive lot of money (will I?), i want to buy diamond... uhhh from now only in my dream... hahahah
pic: (just example) from ebay by victoryalways66on Feb 2009.

7. Twinmate series NC-8x notebook
huhuhuhuhu i want it i want it i want it... hehehehe easy for me to access wireless in my faculty, and convenience for me to read lot of journals... but the things is, it is easy for me to bring it whenever i go... superlight and affordable for me, and small, thin... with AMD processor... But the RAM and space maybe not so powerful regarding the price...

8. Kaspersky Antivirus 2009 or Bitdefender...
I want to buy it... not using blac* mark*t like two and half years ago.. For half years i have not update my antivirus. I only used portable antivirus for checking my thumbdrive.. So, my driver should be lot of tuttttt..... hihihihihi... so risky of me... with my lecture hall pc have been collecting all the virus from everywhere... hehehe

9. New handphone...

Actually, either HTC touch or notebook... but recently my handphone having problem (manja2 plak ngn tuan dia)... whenever i have out going-call or in coming-call, the caller/recipient cannot hear my voice... what the h*ll is handphone function without voice transmitting... i know, the other function is sms, but my parents dont like to use sms... Also, i used p*rate battery.. so deserve me when in between 4months the baterry getting thicker... so, if i dont get me new handphone, maybe i have to by original battery... T_T aiyoooo duit duit...
note: actually my mom have offer me to buy new handphone, but quickly i change the offer to notebook twinmate... which today it is not necessary for me to by the notebook... hehehe

10. Fully attention into my research project...
I was really gratefull to be supervise by my supervisor... I thought i will never had a chance to get experience working with her... Alhamdulillah... And the scope and my title research project interest me to involve in it... more deep i went, more interest i get to be... and then, end of the month, i had to present it... Dam*, Mamp*s ak*.... so, together for the sake of my health, she challenge me to lose weight to be in ideal weight before the presentation. She want me to be confidence out and in.. yes, i take the challenge.. wish me luck...

11. Balik kampung..
It have been urmmmm, since i was in form 2, i have never back to my parent hometown. Since, my late grandpa death.... and with my late aunt death last two weeks, really i being miss my hometown... But i will only back home with all my family member (i hope)..

12. Kelisa biru
Yes i want one... (tapi mmg klakar laaa klu mintak... ingt pe, mintak aiskrim pe) hihi...
yes i need to drive because tut tut tut... so, waheeda dgr tue, u have to drive!!!... huhu ok!!!

13. Masak...

huhu pe kes nie??? haha... what menu will be in my wish-cooking-list... ntah, just i like to eat... hahahahaha ignore this point. heheh.. oh ok.... sambal belacan thailand (recipies by my frenz Leez*). Or maybe tomyam Leez*, Laksa Inia, nasi goreng a*n. hehehe what if, i ask them to cook for me... n tuk Noeda*, i tak kesah klu nak blnje mee sizling lagi, and cek ay*e hihihi sye sdg tnggu anda blanje sye... hahaha

14. Downloading...
when i get my streamyx... when my mom get hers worker price. i want to download all the movies i like (ok not all, imposible, wex de keje len nak wat). then, i want to watch youtube... hehehe... and put some youtube vid into this blog... hehehe one day one day.... to be soon....

15. complete my comic book...
ok, i lived in dragon ball year, sailormoon and shin chan and penyiasat remaja hajime... hihihi... so i have most of it, or maybe half of the volume, except dik cerdas, only 1more to complete.. hihi so, since i was in form1 i have wish to complete my collection... hihihi... but since i was in *pre-adult time, the wish has wash away little by little...

16. payable host with wordpress plugin...
huhu someday someday... when i have full time in managing blog. Till that day, i will be in wizda.blogspot.com.... n happy with it.... =)
note: i think i want to change another template... oppppsss... hahahah

17. English language both writting and speaking skills..
Not to forget, how important English in my career... uhhhhh.... when i will become NOT speachless...

18. Novels
Reading Harry Potter and recently Twilight... Why was suddenly... ntah I HATE reading... oopppssss hope not...

19. Hadith
Learning hadith with leez*... Uish i really admire for whom know hadith....

20. boyfriend??
ahhhhh!!!!!!! dlm mimpi jelaaa hahahah... tak tringin lagi pd saat nie (uish sombong bunyi nye hehe abaikan)... ntah, tak pham laki nie pe pe'el dorang oopppssss (abaikan)... hahahahah nnt laaa bila dapat seru kut...

Whats more whats more whats more... ermmmmmm pe ek.... *sigh* manusia tak pernah puas dgn pe yang dia ada... ye, sye manusia.... hehehe

For now, thats all... my target was #1 and #4 and not to forget #10... the rest just luahan perasaan... heheh klu fullfill pn takpe, tak kisah dgn pe care... cam org hadiah DSLR camera ke, terbelikan handphone baru ke siap ngn mp3, takpun terbagi notebook twinmate ke... nak wat camne dah ter-full fill kn wish seorang manusia yg tamak nie... heheheheheh

something that stop me from full-fill some of my wish that i can afford it is the phrase "kehendak ATAU keperluan???" hihihihi. For my income situation, sure i cant afford the wishes. And my dad always say "buy if u only died without it".... uish so harsh, just the phrase ok... heheheh pepun kte bersyukur lah pe yg kita ada... huhuhu insaf...

p/s nie bukan wish list tuk barang2 je... nie dah cam azam dah... ntah ler.... hihi

The greatest of Surah --> Al-fatihah

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Sat, 07 Feb 2009 07:29:00 +0000

Al-fatihah untuk Tok wan wex yang telah pergi 10tahun lepas. Dan Al-fatihah untuk Mak Ndak Yam wex yg telah pergi menemui Rahmatullah Ahad lepas. Semoga roh arwahyaham dan arwahyahamah di tempatkan bersama roh orang2 yang beriman... Amin

credit pic: surat Al-fatihah is from Islam-Identity web hosting by arabic2000.com.

My grandpa was told me to read and understand Surah Al-fatihah when i was in standard two... and my School Counselor also stress on the meaning of Surah Al-fatihah. I found this speech from Islamic centre of Rayleigh.. This is Friday Speech by Imam Moham ed Baianonie. More speeches of his Friday speech. This Speech is Intellectual property of Islamic Association of R aleigh (IAR) :

In the Name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

Surat Al-fatiha (The Opening)

(Friday Speech was delivered by Imam Mohamed Baianonie at Islamic Center of Raleigh, N. C., on November 25, 1988)
In the name of Allah, the most beneficent, the most merciful

"All the praises and thanks be to Allah, the lord of the "Alamin" (Mankind, Jinns, and all that exists).* The most Beneficent, the most merciful.* The only Owner (and the only Ruling Judge) Of the Day of Recompense (I.e. the Day of Resurrection)* You (Alone) we worship, and you (Alone) we ask for help (for each and everything).* Guide us to the straight way* The Way of those on whom you have bestowed your Grace, not (the way) of those who earned your anger, nor of those who went astray."

This is surat Al-fatiha, the greatest surah in the Qur’an. Which the companions of the prophet chose it to be the beginning of Qur’an. Also Allah chose it to be repeated seventeen time per day in the prayer and about double this if a person prayed the sunnan. The prayer will not be expectable without it according to the hadith reported by Imams Bukhari and Muslim what the prophet Muhammad (S.A.W.) said: "There is no prayer for whom do not read the Fatiha."
The reader to this surah and any other suwar of the Qur’an should say "Audhu billahi minash shaitanir rajim" Which means, "O Allah, I seek your protection from the rejected Satan." This is not part from Qur’an or a verse but it is some etiquette Allah taught us, when we start reading Qur’an because Allah said in surat An-Nahl, (verse 98) what can be translated as, "So when you want to recite the Qur’an, seek refuge with Allah from Satan, the outcast (the cursed one)". Also it should be said one's feels the danger of Satan as Allah said in surat Fusselat,(verse 36) what can be translated as, "And if an evil whisper from Satan tries to turn you away, then seek refuge in Allah. Verily, He is the All-Hearer, the All-knower"
"Bismalah" which is saying "In the name of Allah the most gracious most merciful." Is it a verse from each surah? or is it a verse from the Qur’an to start each surah with at reading? There is different opinion among the scholars. Most probably it is a verse from surat Al-Fatiha then it will be seven verse as Allah said in surat Al-Hijr, (verse 87) what can be translated as, "And indeed, we have bestowed upon you seven of Al-Mthani (seven repeatedly recited verse), (i.e. surat Al-fatiha) and the Grand Qur’an".

The meaning of "Bismallah" is to start naming Allah and remembering Him before anything asking Him assistance and success. The prophet (S.A.W.) told us to start any important matter with "Bismillah". The prophet said: "Any important work, which will be, started without Bismillah it will not be complete and without blessing." The Muslim

should start with "Bismilah" to be different than non-Muslims who were starting with the name of their status like the name of Allat or the name of Ezza and they say in these days in the name of nation or in the name of the people.

In spite of Al-Fateha is a small surah but it contains a lot of meanings therefore it is called Umm-ul-Qur’an the (mother of the Qur’an) It contains the bases and the branches. It contains belief, worshipping and sharia. As example it includes the belief in recreation and Judgment. Also it includes the belief in the names of Allah, orders us to worship Him alone. And it includes asking Allah guidance and protection from the wrong path Imams Bukhari, Muslim and Ahmad reported that the prophet Muhammad (S.A.W.) said: "By whom my sole in His hand there is no like this surah in Torah or in Injeal or in Zaboor or in Furqan, it is the seven verses and the noble Qur’an that Allah had give to me."

This surah (Al-fatiha) started with praising Allah and in this there is a lesson to thank Allah for the blessings which Allah gave us. Rahman means with great mercy and Rahim means continuos mercy and Allah is the owner of the Day of Judgment and no body has this as Allah said in Qur’an. And Allah is the only one must be worshipped, which contains the meaning of pure tawhead (oness) and at the end there is a prayer to ask Allah His guidance.

After this supplication we should say: "Ameen" (O Allah, please answer our supplication respond) there are several ahadith mentioned it and in one which was reported by Imams Bukhari and Muslim that prophet Muhammad (S.A.W.) said: "If the Imam said: "Ameen" then say it. Because who ever say: Amin with the angles Allah will forgive his sins.

There are many ahadith reported in the virtue of this surah (Al-fatiha). Imam Bukhari reported that the prophet (S.A.W.) told Abou Saeed (I will teach you the greatest surah in the Qur’an, before you leave the masjid). Then the prophet took his hand and was going out of the masjid then Abou Saeed said: "O prophet you told me that you are going to teach me the greatest surah in the Qur’an." Then the prophet (S.A.W.) said: " Yes, Al-fatiha is the seven verses and the noble Qur’an which Allah had gave to me."

Imam Muslim reported that the prophet Muhammad (S.A.W.) declare that "Allah the Exalted had said: I have divided the prayer into two halves between My servant, and My servant and Me will receive what he asks. When the servant says: "Praise is to Allah, the Lord of the universe", Allah the Most High says: "My servant has praised Me." And when he (the servant) says:" The Most Compassionate, the Merciful", Allah the Most High says: "My servant has lauded Me." And when he (the servant) says:" Master of the Day of Judgment," He remarks: "My servant has glorified Me," and sometimes He would say: "My servant entrusted (his affairs) to Me." And when he (the worshipper) says: "(You) we do worship and of (You) we do ask help," He (Allah) says: "This is between My servant, and My servant and Me will receive what he asks for." Then, when he (the worshipper) says: "Guide us to the straight path, the path of those to whom you have bestowed your Gracious, not (the way) of those who earned Your anger, nor of those who went astray." He (Allah) says: "This is for My servant, and My servant will receive what he asked for."

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Al-fatihah is the high noble gift in Al-Quran. Allah The Most High will answered our doa', so as for Rasulullah. Lets read Al-fatihah in proper tajwid and hope our reading will be more meaningful for us... And Insyaallah, Allah swt always listen to ours doa'...

Mari kita sedekah kan Al-fatihah untuk rakyat Palestine terutamanya kanak2 yg telah terkorban di sempadan Gaza. Semoga roh mereka tenang menerima pelindungan dari Allah Yang Maha Kuasa.

Dan untuk orang2 muslimin dan sanak-saudara kita yg telah pergi. Semoga roh mereka ditempat kan bersama roh orang2 yang beriman. Amin.

I lost RM2thousand!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Sat, 31 Jan 2009 06:47:00 +0000

CUAK abis.... Huhu...huhu...huhu...huhu...huhu... Wex sila amek pengajaran! Baek!

Time: 10.40am
Name: S*** Soliha (My sister)
MEPS IBG :Bank Is*** to C**B
Amount: RM2OOO.OOO
Recipient Account No: 1418********

Email: swaheeda_zin at hotmail dot com
From: Bank Is***
RM2000 has been transferred to your account by S*** Soliha. The update will be after 6pm.
(kind of, I change the sentences)

Ok... Relax... Sleep, Watching TV, Eat Roti Canai + Nescafe ice, Playing, Wasting Time.
Then, check journals for assignment...

Until...

Time: 10.45 pm
Name: S*** Waheeda Binti Mo
Account no: 1408**********
Amount: RM$$$.$$

(suppose my balance amount should be RM2000 ++ instead RM$hundred ++, my original balance)

"AAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?????? Ape kes nie???? EEEEiiiiiiisssshhhhhhhhhh!!!!" monolog silently. It is huge risk to said it aloud. I don't want to worry my dad and mom. The problem will be tornado.

tet... tet... tet... (keypad handphone)
C**B account no: 1408**********

Did I mistaken entered the number while IBG?

(or may be mistaken entered my fren, A*ni account no)
tut... tut... tut... (handphone dial)
"A*ni, nak tanya, no akaun C**B ko bape?"
"Jap... 1408##########"
"Trime kasih A*ni, big problem, doakan masalah ak settle, sori kaco memalam"
"oh, ok"

Open Bank file document.Information Iquiry
Date: **/**/2006
Name: S*** Waheeda Binti Mo***********
Account No: 1418**********
(C**B Permata Kompleks)
It's the right account number, but why?

Statement of Account
Account number: 1408*********
Statement date: **/**/2008

Hey... Why I've two account number?

"Awat laaaa jadi bnde tak best nie waktu2 skang nie???????? Kaco program tul!!!" monolog silently.

*panic**panic**panic**panic**panic**panic**panic*

(climax of the story)

covered by temporarily silent and followed by Em, em, em as for response to the surrounding
with finger and eyez focus on mouse and screen... click click click

Abah (with several documents): nnt kte bawak ***, ***, *** bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla tuk isnin nnt sbb bla bla bla bla bla bla bla (seriously this is wat i heard, I cant focus)
me (muke bajet rilek): Em, em, em, em, em... (try very hard to response but...)
Ummi (focus on tv): Oooo *** berlakon, eh *** nie pn berlakon gak laaa citer nie.
me (muke bajet rilek): Em, em, em, em, em... (also try very hard to response and the results still...)

finger and eyez still focus on mouse and screen... click click click

Time: 12.50 to 3.45 am
me (crying in the heart):
HuHuHuHuHuHuHuHuHuHu
HuHuHuHuHuHuHuHuHuHu
HuHuHuHuHuHuHuHuHuHu
HuHuHuHuHuHuHuHuHuHu
HuHuHuHuHuHuHuHuHuHu

sedikit UJIAN dari Allah swt.
perit. perit. perit. perit dan perit.
Awat laaa ak pi minum nescafe ais mamak ali tadi... kan tak bleh tido... terseksa nye jiwe.
But down in my heart, I can settle this problem. half confidence. Betul ke perasaan nie? What if it is really..... Arghhhhhhhh!!! oopppssss Sabar.. Sabar... Percaya percaya pada-Nya. Stay cool...
note: Mind going crazy but not yet, just messup. But still act cOOL...

Time: 6.40am
me (du'a): Ya Allah, ak sedar Engkau Maha Besar.
Last effort. Then, Tawakal.

Time: 7.03am
me: Abah duet tak transfer lagi.
Abah: Ahhh???
me : Masuk lambat kut. Nie nak cek. Sbb service bukak kul 7 pagi. Abh trun laa dlu. Nnt ummi bising.
(uishh naseb baek dpt cover)

Time: 7.09am
Name: Siti Waheeda Binti Mo
Account no: 1408**********
Amount: RM2***.**

"ALHAMDULILLAH, syukur...."

me (softly for 1-2minutes):
HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...
HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...
HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...HuHu...

Baru ko tau, Allah swt amek balek Rm2ribu dari ko!!! Sedar lah Allah swt boleh tarik balek smua benda milik-Nya. Kita juga milik-Nya. Kita dipinjam oleh Allah swt. Wlupun sehelai rambut, kalau Allah swt nak ambil balik dari kita, dengan senang je Allah swt gugurkan dari kulit kepala kita.. Ye rambut saya gugur. Ooooopppssss...

What were taken back by Allah swt for overnight?

my sister's RM2thousand (amanah orang)
My parentz and sis trust
My credibility on Online banking is doubtly
personal saving RM2thousand that i might be replace secretly to covered up the lost
my smiles, word, sleep, appetite, tv. Cause i had over-ate, over-sleep, over-watching.
my study time. Cause i'd waste it for many days. (actually I take caffeine to stay overnight)
My confidence to be responsible

Beb, Rm2thousand. It is a big deal for unemployed, no-scholarship, and no-income like me... with saving for the course-fees. Money is big matter especially Money that is not mine.

note: I had 2 account number for the same account is because, the bank branch that I registered is moved and transferred me to other branch. So as my account number. Although i used my old account number for business, it will automatically transfer to new account number. And the funny is, it has been years the account number changes, but my 'ignorance' make me 'blind'. Padan Muke!!!

p/s Anyway, nothing wrong with my transferring process. The only fault was my IGNORANCE. oopppsss OK, its my fault.

Sorry the entry is english-malay mixed... Caused i'm not thinking in english but i try to write in english. Still malay is my language. And when I re-read my entry, I feel funny with my english language construction, hahaha... Sorry, just bare with me...

Wizda is The Doers???

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Tue, 09 Dec 2008 16:30:00 +0000

It is me and my dam* low confident to try something, stop me to try interesting outdoor activities becoming fully The Doers...

I found this 'game' from Noktahhitam posting together with Online Driving Safety Test by The Car Connection.

The analysis indicates that the author of http://wizda.blogspot.com is of the type:
ESTP - The Doers
The active and play-ful type. They are especially attuned to people and things around them and often full of energy, talking, joking and engaging in physical out-door activities.

The Doers are happiest with action-filled work which craves their full attention and focus. They might be very impulsive and more keen on starting something new than following it through. They might have a problem with sitting still or remaining inactive for any period of time.
Analysis
This show what parts of the brain that were dominant during writing.

Find out your blog on Typeanalyzer.com to find what type is that your blog?

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Oooppsss I'm someone that is active and play-full but also i still can remaining inactive for any period of time in condition my comic, television and PC online with me. Other than that, when electric blackout i'm someone who cannot remain inactive... Yes, it is problem for me...

And also, I like something that action-filled work, something that i can apply what i learn and see or hear and I can confront it for hours without sleep... continuing continuing again and again... hihi... Cause that I find reading is little bit boring, I cannot concentrate more that half hour. I lose focus when just seeing article with full of word, even my own writting... Sad me...

Yes, I'm talkative, joke and big laugh without worrying the due assignment... and i like to smile wider and full energetic to something that is not stay steady... I like something that changing and unique and different... And enggaging with outdoor physical activities, just me and my dam* low confident to try something, stop me to try interesting outdoor activities becoming fully The Doers... But someday when there is nothing to stop me, I'll be fully The Doers..

OOOOPPPPSSS!!!

Note: writing style on a blog may have little or nothing to do with a person´s self-percieved personality.

So, there is nothing to do with my self-percieved personaly as i wrote above to my blog analyzing... hihihi Just when i read the analyzer report, just realize how my low confidence has stop me from being The Doers...

******************__________________*********************

But do you predict me as what i wrote above when u read my writing and my blog style???
ME think NOPE...
I see me as more to depress college girl with no confident at all... On harsh word, I called my self little bit useless... Ooopppssss too harsh... The girl with no experience for life to contribute to critical analytic thinking... That's why you can see I'm quite carefull when stating one statement as i have no courage and knowledge to hold my statement. I'm more to "haha hihi huhu hehe" person...

Driving me Crazzzy

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Tue, 09 Dec 2008 03:12:00 +0000

Semoga selamat hendaklah pemanduan kami dari kecelakaan jalan raya. Amin.

Who make me crazy... no body just every body who irritated when I'm not driving...
Why it is so hard for me to press the speed pedal and let gear pedal slowly??? It is so hard???
Maybe now it is hard for me, maybe in other times, later it maybe easy for me, and somehow I'll be very easy with it... yes I'm dare to say this. ooopppsss. I just need some courage to be ignorance. Ignorance to who??? Ermmm. It is hard to be ignorance become miss watever and miss lantak laaa...

One of my best friend once said:
FIGHT THE FEAR!!!
Huhu Ok...

Who make me crazy... no body just every body who pushing me when I'm not driving...
Come on, even my dad doesn't push me and let me decide myself... I have my own reason, why it is so...

Who make me crazy... no body just every body who tension when I'm not driving...
Do u have to drive me everyday? no rite... aiyoyo...
klaka laaa korang plak tensen, sampai wat ak tensen... kan dah susah... kaco tul hidup ak...

Please 'everybody'.. please don't make mess to this unimportant thing... aiyoyo... I know why u feel like this, but at least can u give me some space... unless u have to provide me a car or drive me every time... If u do, I want blue Kelisa, ok.. hehe

note: just ignore wat i mumbling above... just me who is coward to the life... huhu. But really i can overcome this, just don't feel need 'support' which mess all thing up.. trust me, it worsen me. I don't need negative energy to push me. Cause i already full with negative core.

You scored a 72% (B)! Your driving level is: a little risk

Created by The Car Connection

I know I'm not dangerous, cause I'm not driving for long time... hihihi

But why want to be dangerous and risky? My dad always said: "Try to bang ur head over the wall, how do u feel?"... Of course it is hurt. And it is so in accident with of course a lot more. Huhu...

FireBug

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Mon, 01 Dec 2008 17:51:00 +0000

...Wex with new Determination for Changes... ...But what I want to determine about?... ...What I want to Change to?... ...But for sure, this week, I will be quite depress, I hope I can control myself... ...And be determine for the changes...

Actually i already finished editing my new layout last week... ooopppsss heheheh Just I'd no mood to go online when thinking that my last sem results will out this week... Thinking bout how d*mn i will be if i had to "R". If i will, i hope i can still finish in 4yrs not extend to another year. huhu...

The new theme is 'Firebug' theme, orinally from Blog Oh! Blog for wordpress blog but has been converted by ThemeLib to bloggers users... ooopppsss heheheh.... Is there anything related to firebug in firefox add-ons... ermmmm I think no... This theme is dominant by grey textile background with green-leaf, blue and red-dark-pink and white... However the firebug 1.2.1 Firefox Add-ons is for web development tool for edit, debug, and monitor CSS, HTML, and JavaScript live in any web page.

Before i choose firebug theme, i had found this Theme Dreaming World. So beautiful with rainbow at the header... The theme has light-dark-purple and black and orange... Like in the dawn. And the other one is Theme Freedom. Also, Wordpress blog. With blue-green and green-leaf combination. And of course with black. But, both theme is provided for blog hosting owner. Huhu... Maybe other time, i will have chance to use it...
Note: I'm not remember where i get those themes.

So, now... Bye-bye my former theme...

Angelina Jolie Theme to Firebug theme
From theme by [finalsense] to theme by [Blog Oh! Blog converted by Themelib]
From 2frames to 3frames
From dark black to grey textile
From tagline [~lalala~ ?when will i change? ?when will i be determine? ~lalala~] to tagline [YES. I'm Determined. I Want to Change. Now]

But,
the background, still dark
the snow, still on... hehehe
and
WEX is still WEX.. hihi

For sure,
I'm DETERMINED for CHANGES...

p/s huhu... so miserable waiting for results... How can I throw out this 'waiting' from messup mind?... I used not be like this... huhu

Under Construction

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Sat, 22 Nov 2008 10:40:00 +0000

YEaHhhhhh....
My Blog is under construction...
HIHIHIHIHIHI
Wex with new face with new messup blog... will me be more messup this time???

~~~lalilu...
will i change??? will i'll be determine?
or may be i will be determine this time???
lalilu~~~

...sorry for under-construction links and changeble contents...

soon
very soon
very very soon

mE Comment

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 13:42:00 +0000

To whom has problem in loading comment of Intensedebate.com in my entry page... Especially with slow internet speed. Sorry =(. Keep reload (F5) for second time. It will load later.. However, most of the time, intesedebate.com working very well.

Blogspot user has quite confuse comment box for commenter. Either, it will direct to new page or direct to new pop-up window. In addition with irritated verifying code by commenter to avoid spam (yes I don’t like spam and it’s a big problem to me). But, sometimes those problems are not really problems to some commenter (like me) but still lot of commenter seriously disturb by it. Many articles have been posted in many blogospheres either how unfriendly Blogspot comment is or how to make friendly setting for comment box in Blogspot. Aiyooooo...

So, several month ago, I had found in alfatih blog bout stick the comment box to the article page. You can go to draftpage of blogger to set the setting. Check alfatih post about the setting for further setting. Easy tutorial provided to enhance your comment. And many other blog tutorial provided the tutorial. After few month using it, i'm quite satisfied using it. Then, I saw CommentLuv.com embedded into most wordpress users. The services quite good, as host can reply to the commenter comment. Then, last month, from Locho e, he has suggested to use InstenseDebate.com.

[Quote open]
IntenseDebate provides many new features meant to inspire discussion and easily follow the conversation.
In order to better organize the discussion, we've implemented comment threading which allows users to directly reply to one another.
Users also have an identity that spans across all blogs powered by IntenseDebate. Along with this is a reputation value, based on the quantity and quality of the comments users make, meant to give an overview of a user's commenting history. Quality is determined by the users through comment voting, which also serves to move the best comments to the top.
With all of our comment systems being interconnected, we make it easy to track users and their activities across all blogs using our system by providing email and rss notifications.
In short, IntenseDebate has completely transformed the commenting experience.
IntenseDebate. Value Your Voices.
[Quote close]

When, I blogging last month… I found entry by Lonchoe bout IntenseDebate (after I read entry bout ISA for aeropama, hehehe). Lonchoe said that InteseDebate offer implemented comment threading which allows user to directly reply to one another. Quite, interesting features offered to blogger users. So, of course excitedly I registered after highlight the warning alert by Lonchoe during setup the installation. But, IntenseDebate had problem in their server on that week *I don’t know*. The installation activate code will be send much later. I wait, wait, and wait. No mail. Sokay. I just registered and modify my profile in IntenseDebate. Then Friday, after my cellular Molecular Biology test, back in home, I open my gmail. Toing... There was my InstenseDebate activation code.

So, I install as what been suggested (take template setting and new post setting during installation). Alhamdulillah, settle then, without any problem. And, I thought since I choose new post setting, so later I’ll test my IntenseDebate application in my blog. Toing… suddenly, my “Going to final…” got first comment by aeropama and follow by Alone through IntenseDebate threading comment. Alhamdulillah, it’s going well. And the background of comment is still black, nice.

Then, I test to open in Chrome Google and IE browser. It is smooth loading in Chrome but slower in IE. Of course because of my TMnet dial-up is slow, but still…. It is slower compared to Firefox. And when I test my comment in Firefox browser, it’s sometimes, no comment is loading, and so, I’d to refresh my page. But, I hope and I’m sure, faster internet speed (broadband) may have no problem loading my page.

Then two of my friends, had problem in comment me. The threading isn't loading for the entry page for long time. And my friend assumed that my entry has no comment box. I really worried bout this problem. Cause after several times, I opening my entry with my slow internet speed, the loading for intensedebate comment is very-very-very slow, and sometimes, no loading at all. Then, my other friend, quite confuse with the threading format. I don't know... maybe several times, can get use with it.

For bonus, IntenseDebate also integrate with Askimet and spam protector *I used to visit Askimet page before, they don’t provided their services for Blogger.com, I was disappointed. Thank God, IntenseDebate integrate with it*. So, you can avoid using “verify word” in comment post.

p/s I’m going to change to new 3-frames themes *I like the new themes I'd found it before i went to my final exam. So, I’d to reset all my html code and widget. But I don’t know bout my IntenseDebate thread, what happen if I uninstall it, before reinstall. Do my comments will be deleted? aiyoooooooo. But maybe i just add the new frames to my current themes..

Tagging #2

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Tue, 18 Nov 2008 16:31:00 +0000

Tagging time... my 2nd time tag by !x0r@. And as i promise to do this tag; 2nd things after finishing my last paper... and my boring time, and to release my headache... Here it goes...

1. What’s your ambition?
I want to be doctor. uish so serious? Hehehe
When I was in standard 1 (7years old), first time I expose to word ‘ambition’ by my class teacher; I wanted to be teacher, police and doctor. Because I thought, after I being doctor, I will be police and then I proceed to be teacher. So, when my student is injured I will treat them, when my student is naughty, I will punish them with my police skill. Hihi. So many career I thought I should be… hihi
I used ambitioned to be astronaut. When I learn bout ‘buruj’ and read sailormoon anime in standard 6… heehe.
And when I was in form 3, after PMR. I really like math, and would like to proceed to account. But I don’t have courage to do that. Although, I have chance to get to Technique School in Cheras in Account stream.
Then, in form 5, I really like additional math; and want to proceed to engineer field. And although I was offered to physical stream in matriculation, I was really frustrated and ‘susah hati’, till I was converted to life stream. From that I knew that I really want to be doctor.
Thus for now, I will involved this medicine field although I will not be a doctor. But still I’m not give my hope to be a doctor… Insyaallah.
note: opppsss sori merepek plak...

2. Who is more important to you? Boyfriends or friends?
I don’t have boyfriend. So I don’t know either boyfriend will fully distract my attention from my friends. But I know, my friends are important peoples in my life.

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
Two… in lower self esteem with despite my faith… Astarghfirullah al-azim. But of cause, I’m not dare to do it…Haram beb.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
No. But sometimes I have when I’m not care or not think what will happen and what people think of my actions. Hihi.
But for now, my self-confidence is really low till sometimes I cannot look into people eyes and feel weird to walk on the street. Damn…

5. How many babies you want?
Oooooppss… I want more than three. But it is Allah willing.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Is there is others believing in seeing rainbow after the rain.
But I like to see rainbow. Although, the colour is not shed but still I love to see it. My dad always showed me rainbow, silver cloud, ‘pokok hujan’ and moon.

7. What is your goal for this year?
Have fun in doing research project. And get A for my course subjects. And losing 12kg.. hihi.

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
Hmmmmm… NO. But maybe I will believe it.

9. What’s a perfect girlfriend / boyfriend like to you? (List 10)
-Understanding
-Understanding
-Understanding
-Gentlemen
-Responsible
-Not gossips
-Guide me and my family
-Able to be my ‘imam’
-protect me physical and emotional
-Sense of humor.. hihi tapi bkan menyakat lebey2 ek..
note: Am I so demand? To me the most important, he is understanding.

10. What are you really afraid of?
Snakes…dog…huhuhu
Warning: tak bley wat bergurau ek…

11.What is your current hate?
Sulking people (tulun laaa.. rimas sye)... disturb my tv mode...

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hates you?
Ish tak baek benci2 nie… plz get rid of it…plz manage ur hateress… aiyoooo.... Istirghfar laaa banyak2….

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Oooooooooopppppsss… of course yes. Cause our meeting is destiny to be. And there is always effect of the friendship. The friendship is somewhat factor for life-script writing. Without friendship, I will be someone not me… hahaha

*14. What is your recent night dream?
Two times i dreamt bout ghost haunting me during prayer and during bathing.. (tak basuh kaki, tensen sgt sbb stadi).. Quite scared... huhu... before this i had dream chasing by bird... hihi... And going to sunway lagoon with my sis.

15. What do you crave for the most currently?
Wanted (Angelina jolie movie); Dark Knight (batman) James bond 007 (QOS); madagascar2.
KFC(new chicken ball sticks); Madagascar sets of McDonald; pizza.
But the most is ABC.

16. Most unexpected gift you received so far and when?
Birthday surprise from Ayue… of course really unexpected, because it surprise party… ape laaaa hahahahah
But I used to get two large pieces kit kat chocolate from my classmate, Anis when I was in standard 3. It is my first birthday present I had from friend. And it sooooo sweet… because at that age (9years old), chocolate supply from my dad was limited (two bars a month).. hihihih

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words:
-girl
-student
-sister-daughter
-blogger
-single hehehe

18. What have you done to yourself to make yourself happy?
Blogging and surfing internet. Hangout with friends. When I with friends, I forgot all my problems.
Smile with positive thinking with faith to god… (bkan snyum tanpe sebab… tue giler)…

19. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
Wife. Mom. Medicine workers/scientist/doctor. aunt of my friend’s children. Aunt of my sister’s children.

20. Describe yourself in 3 words :
Spectacle… Chubby… Messy… hihi

Instructions:
Remove 1 question from above and add in your personal question.Copy and paste these 20 question in your blog. Tag 8 peoples back:
-Soleeha
-Aten
-Aainachentak
-Inia
-iniA
-aainachentaK
-ateN
-soleehA

heheheh cukup tak 4*2=8 kn? hehehehe
Klu anda rajin... sila buat ye...

Boring... jom maen tagging...
Hanyut dlm mase, ilang sakit kepale...

FinallY

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Tue, 18 Nov 2008 10:26:00 +0000

=].Hope this semester break, I can get my self fresh and get back my spirit. Be cheer without pressurE.=)
.Insyaallah.

...It's finally oveR...

Final exam of Semester 1 2008/2009 sessioN
.. It's oveR..
.It's oveR.
.. It's oveR..
...Just finished my last paper 7hours agO...
.Alhamdulillah. Syukur sangat-sangaT.

Such the *pressurize moment I ever haD
I thought it never be over.. huhuhU
I never thought I will been this *tensionous conditioN
Cause I thought I was managing it welL
and pressure and tension is .bull sh_t. crap.
...But It's oveR...
... It's oveR...
.. It's oveR..
. It's oveR.
It's over

But, why I still feel the pressure? Why I had this head ache?
Plzzzzz stop tochering mE
...Tenangkan lah Jiwa ku...

p/s Just registered for facebook... Tomorrow is hangout time... hihihi

My deTERMination

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Sat, 08 Nov 2008 13:39:00 +0000

I'm determine to:
*not blogging/online (exception to check email/comment/offline YM) till 18th November 2008... (leh caye ke nie??? hihihi)
*n not sms (exception to important/emergency notifying) till 18th November 2008...
*n of course no outing/hangout till 18th November..(sorry bond007)
*n lastly, not eat anything except my mom cook till 18th November 2008- means no buying food like roti canai (exception to nescafe ice mamak), nasi lemak, nasi kerabu (eh, pekenemengene ngn exam nie.. hihi).

Pic: Jude Law as Jerome 'Eugene' Morrow in GATTACA movie.
From Sciflicks.com:Pictures courtesy of Futuristic Societies, Gattaca Official Website, MovieWeb and Columbia Pictures.
Some quotes from the movie:
Eugene Morrow: If at first you don't succeed... try, try again.
Vincent Freeman/Jerome Morrow: You want to know how I did it? This is how I did it Anton: I never saved anything for the swim back.
Vincent Freeman/Jerome Morrow: I was never more certain of how far away I was from my goal than when I was standing right beside it.
Some Fact from the movie: The winding stairs in Jerome's apartment have the structure of a double helix, like DNA. (This Monday I will have Cell Molec paper, Chaiyok2! Waheeda).

Song i heard right now: Beyonce - If I were a boy. (Tetibe rase sedap laaa plak suare Beyonce)

My first paper was (T_T)

With 4essays of 30marks each and 2essays with 15marks each... (i need at least 3essays of 30marks each to pass this paper)...
Really frustrated me, why this happen after i gain all my spirit. This is really my favorite subject.
Then the next day, my second paper was just ok... (the preparation was not satisfied me, i'm not done the best i can, i should being better than that)..

Why this happen? I was eagerly searching my study rhythm (techniques) and when i find one, and i think it is the best, i was confidence with it, till i realized something is not right with it... When i realized it, it was late, but not too late, but what frustrated me, I was 'unusual panic!!!' (my heartbeat was fast, till i can heard my heartbeat and nonstop for hours). It should not happen... But this is very good lesson to me.

After rethink again (muhasabah diri), maybe it is good thing to me... This how god help me... somehow, i see how 150marks for 6essays may save me; the panic girl. How ungrateful I am... Astargfirullah al azim.
But till now i still not mention "R" word. Cause i really scare it will become reality... If it occur, It is nightmare, I will need new plan.. I had to build everything back... But when i check again, it is not too bad... i can 'adjust' it.. But still the 'damage' is permanent.

So, for next becoming papers, I'll not depress for what had happen. I'll not put too high expectation on me.. cause i can't bear with my own expectation... Now I'll stay relax, ease my mind, do not pressure myself. Cause I know, I am good, and I can do this...

'During struggling answering my first paper, I'd determine to:
*not blogging/online (exception to check email/comment/offline YM) till 18th November 2008... (leh caye ke nie??? hihihi)
*n not sms (exception to important/emergency notifying) till 18th November 2008...
*n of course not outing till 18th November... (sorry bond 007)
*n lastly, not eat anything except my mom cook till 18th November 2008- means buying food like roti canai (exception to nescafe ice mamak), nasi lemak, nasi kerabu (eh, pekenemengene ngn exam nie.. hihi).

I really hope, my first paper will pass... plz... huhu

"Kita hanya mampu merancang, Allah swt yg menentukan segala2nya"

p/s Waheeda ease ur mind... ease ur mind, ease ur mind, ease ur mind... ease ur mind waheedA.

Selamat Ari lahir, Soha...

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Sat, 01 Nov 2008 02:55:00 +0000

I'll STOP NEW POSTING for awhile. Cause i'm on final exam n desperately need to aim A's. Directly after my last paper immunology (Nov 18th), Insyaallah i'll start posting and may planning to change new template and several features..

Hihi... I know, i had said i'll stop posting for awhile. But this is an exceptional... Special posting for my sister Birthday... Epi beday soha =)

Khas untuk adik ku, Siti Soliha Mohd Zin yg hari ini dh genap 19tahun pada 1 November 1989 jam 11.00pagi....

Soha, sntiasa seorang insan yg menemani akak. Rakan peneman hidup akak..
Soliha sntiasa cantik di mata akak... jgn rase idung anda kembang ye... org yg jeles je ckp idung anda kembang.... hihi.. dn jge rase keseorangn ek, kami ada, Allah swt ada.. k...

Abah sntiasa doakan agar soha selamat idup ini... Insyaallah agar soha selamat di akhirat jua.. Sntiasa diberkati Allah... Amin.

n as always, Ummi sentiasa buat pulut kuning tuk soha... kali nie, special termasuk muffin cokelat...

01.11.1989 sentiasa menjadi salah satu tarikh keramat akak... Selamat ari lahir adik. Semoga, kemesraan kita tak pernah luntur. Wlupun mungkin kte berjauhan dn mungkin akan lagi berjauhan. Moga perhubungan persaudaraan kte sntiasa kukuh, dn memberi manfaat kpade kte dn kedua ibu bapa kte.. Insyaallah...
Sesungguhnya, kehadiranmu membawa rahmat ke dalam hidup kami. Insyaallah..

Ya Allah ya tuhan ku, lindungi laa persaudaraan kami, dan bimbinglah persaudaraan kami ke arah keredhaanMu. Amin.

Sebagaimana namamu Soliha, indah diberi... Moga amal ibadat soha bertambah lagi sebagaimana bertambah nye usia soha... Dn bertambah murah rezeki dn panjang umur.... =)

Soliha goodluck. Kami sntiasa mndoakan kesejahteraan soha.. Chaiyok2!

p/s klu gado, baek balek ek... akak ade soha jelaaa nak gado nak maen... hihi
p/ps Mesti soha geli kan dgr akak jiwang skit nie.. hahahah... akak pn geli...

Going for the final..

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Sat, 25 Oct 2008 04:09:00 +0000

Tapi boleh ke, wex bertahan? Kepale hotak kadang2 bercelaru gak nie... oooooppppsss..... hik3

yeah.... semester is end... oooopsss... nt yet... remember you'd final exam waiting for u, Waheeda.... oooooppppsss...

okay semester is not end yet, but the classes is end. Yeah!!!!!!

note: although, there will be a replacement class next Tuesday 3pm. it okay as i want to go to faculty for revise my pathology slides.

So, today, starting my study weeks. Before, start the miserable day - final on November 4th to 18th. I'd plan carefully like last semester. Yes, it's work. As the results, i got lot of B instead of C before. So, now, I'm targeting A. Yes, sound very confident, right. Let me be very confidence as i can before it will fall like waterfall, on the following week. I need luck...

So, for this semester i take 6 subjects which is start with Pharmacology on Nov 3rd; follow with Epidemiology the next day. Then, the 2nd week continue with Cellular Molecular Biology; Microbial Infection; and Pathology. And finally end with Nuclear Medicine; and Immunology on Nov 18th.

But as carry mark is take through this semester classes, i already lost A on Nuclear Medicine. I only can target as B+ as max as i can. huhuhuhu... I really hope i can score cellular molecular biology and Immunology till this point. And still has hope for pharmacology and epidemiology. And for recently Pathology test this Wednesday, i do quite bad. I don't know, how my carry mark will affected.But for Microbial Infection, hard to comment. Cause as i do quite bad on 3 CONASS (CONtinuous ASSessment). Fuhh... i don't know how my carry mark is. But, i hope my practical report and assignment can cover all. Although, seems like my report and drawing (pathology practical) is quite messed up with bad handwriting, but still I'm doing all with whole my heart... Uish sound serious. heheheh

Okay, as summary for this ended classes of this 1st semester of second level in Science Biomedicine in University Malaya (My Third Year); I can say that, i have been through quite different emotional. Sometimes i can control positively, sometimes i cannot which ended up with bad effect to myself. But what make me proud, is this time i can control some of it, which in my freshie year, i wrongly control my tension. And as for marks of my CONASS, i get better, but still get some bad marks.

So, for this following weeks, i hope, I'm not lost confidence and lost focus like i was in second year. REALLY HOPE SO.

For who are going for final exam, next week or following week :
VERY GOOD LUCK! DON'T GIVE UP AND DO VERY BEST =)

p/s To Faten, sorry for not company for the gathering today (Saturday). Hope u have fun =)

update Oct26th'08: sorry for repetitively using negative word in my blog (eg. miserable, damn, etc). Yesterday I'd read bout advantage using positive word (I'm not remember where i read it, sorry). Like using 'Fantastic' is more excited compare using 'good'. Because the pronunciation itself represent the positive energy... so, today i feel incredibly fantastic bombastic tic tac toe... But still i cannot avoid to use 'those' word when I'm really in 'those' mood. Try my best to have positive energy... SmiLe...

Out of Routine

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Fri, 24 Oct 2008 00:02:00 +0000

Out of script:
The picture is nothing related to my article.. hehe.. Just my mom with hamper she got last saturday.. Such the luckiest mom i have. And luckiest daughter i'm to have her hamper content. Ooooppssss heheheh
"Soliha, Ummi sruh mms gmba nih kt soha, tp celcom akak problem."

K, bact to actual script:
Through my second level in biomedicine course in university Malaya, unconsciously, i made 'new routine' into my life. I woke up 6.15am every morning, get ready to classes with mum heavy breakfast. Went through 30minutes traffic jam in 2 busy traffic highways. Get to busy schedule lecture on morning before noon. And on afternoon, continued to 3hours practical class straight 4days (except Thursday). My dad fetch me at about 4.30pm, then 20minutes in light traffic jam. Fetch my mum from work and went through median traffic jam (cause we used highway tolls which cos RM3.20 each trip). And then have dinner at 6.30pm. Then, get to PC, connected to Internet, check friendster, check television programed in utusan.com.my, and read some article in syok.org. And surprisingly this semester, i do not even care if i missed any programmed on television. It is not me. Then, get a 'glance' at the exercise, assignment or practical before get to bed at 10pm before wake up at 6.30am next morning. And if it was exam nite, i will get caffeine and wont sleep the whole nite to cover chapters for the exam. Fuhhhh hate this routine...

And now what happen? I'm tired of these routine. it is not my routine. I'm not build these routine. it is based on my "must-have-A-results" for my CGPA to prove to anyone that I'm not stupido. It is not me. It was not me. Routine is not me. It tide me off. Although it (routine) has always being master to me even in small matter things. Like should i use the second line to start new writing in new nice book. So, the next chapter, i HAD to start at the second line not at first line. If not, it is not my fave book anymore. What the heck. Come on, it is not going to be noticed by other people. Damn, im such chronic perfecto-person... Damn it is not me. Such created dilemma by me.
note: Sometimes, I'm not such perfecto. I still can controlled my self.

And now, for this week, after i get nuc med results this Friday, i think, my uncomfortable routine is not enough to get 20 over 20 marks, instead i got 5 over 20marks.. Damn again... So frustrated. Tired of these routine. It is not work.

Now, i'd stop my routine for a whole week, relaxing my mind from those routine. But... it getting worst... my job is never-done until i get to my routine. Damn, i hate my routine.

Hope, to have no routine to i'd tp depend on.. Still hoping... Not stop from hoping... Something i have to do... Come on Waheeda...

Post-script: actually it is not the 'routine' fault. It is my fault for not have extra full effort to my study. Yes, you have put 'lot' effort to yours study, but, Waheeda it is not enough. It is just me, that is hate my routine. I have no fun in my routine. To readers, just bare with me.. thank you for doing it.. So, for me, i have to put very extra effort to my study. Get extra 150% effort. Now i am at 10% effort. ooppsss.... hehehehe

Ahhhh... Let get its done, girl...
Ermmm Okay...

wizda in wordpress.com -- maybe

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Tue, 21 Oct 2008 03:44:00 +0000

I feel like I want to migrate to wordpress from blogspot platform.. seems like i can do more in wordpress than in blogspot... ahhhhh.. i don't know, i like "blogspot" domain very much. I don't see "wizda" is suit to "wordpress.com". I see "wizda" more to "blogspot.com". don't ask me why, me myself, don't have the answer.

But more i'm in blogging, i see more blogger's blog, seems like wordpress have more things to offer to blogger than blogspot.

And, since i using entry expand html code, its quite irritating me with the code. The blogspot editor, keep put the "span class" code everytime i edit my post.. i has to take long time just to post simple entries. (by the way i'm 'cerewet').

Wat i like 'bout blogspot?
First, ~http://wizda.blogspot.com~ it just feel right. I like the "blogspot.com" domain. Maybe the word "spot" seems like my blog is being spot (?????)... hahahah. Just my personal opinion and my main reason why i still staying with blogger.com.
But when i try with ~http://wizda.wordpress.com~ it not sound bad.. W to W... ermm... maybe.... By the way there is direct URL name that can be used to direct to the blog URL. I may using it... Or maybe just used paying hosting... wow wow... i'm not really so serious in blogging. Tak sampai seru lagi... hahahaha

Second, i really like my background Angelina jolie template.... hehehe. I found Angelina Jolie template in short period, n without wasting my time, i just like it and apply it. The black background just expressing my sorrow feeling. Yes, i may look happy in real time, (asyik hehehehe je), but i'm truly just have whole this black-negative thinking whenever i felt give-up. But the main thing i like bout this template, is the Angelina header. 1st because i like Angelina Jolie (especially her eyez, i'm not into her sexy lip). 2nd i like her maturity. then i like her involving in charity. but most of all, i like hers family with multi-racist children. she makes it seems taking adopt child as something very easy and acceptable for parent/single-parent. coz it is not easy to just accept somebody to our life more over to love by whole ur heart (maybe it is easy for some of u, but it is not for me). Although, she were with brad pit; ex-Jeniffer aniston (which my favourite Hollywood couple, beside beckham-victoria)... I hope i can used Angelina Jolie template on wordpress. I may used it for some times, before i switch to 3 frames template to put more widgets in it... by the way, it is why i want to use wordpress- more widget.
note: these things i like about Angelina, maybe it is being truly from hers but it may otherz reason to do it... i dunno... ahhh just Hollywood, im not 'puja' it, just take it as for spending my time.
another notes: i always look happy, always hehehehe cause i want to pull out and stream out my positive energy to everyone surround me. It keep me feel positive and give me strength to do things that i really miserably doing at.

Third, i like my widget in blogspot. although i know, wordpress has more far interesting. Still i like my blogroll (roll-roll-a-blog)... instead telling reader/visitor blog that i follow, i used it as feeding for me. Hope wordpress as that functions... Also, at some point, i may be like to add advertise scheme. Although it is not near this time. But i would like to feel that experience.

Why i fed-up 'bout blogspot?
First but not most, my "span class" HTML code for expand entry. I really like this function, but when come to posting the entry, the code keep delaying n wasting my time. Although, i like playing with HTML code, but if it is frequently, i will keep wondering, it is wise for me to wasting my time in playing html code, instead i should do revision for my study, exam.. u know my real life - student life. Or i may have to repeat my course again.. I don't want it to happen. It is not 'fun'. It is miserable.

Second, i'm not satisfied with the dashboard post editor. The compose editor and the html code editor is not well-on-going. As i change to Arial font, the Html code is ignore the instruction. As the results, when i preview or publish it, it comes out with the default font. How frustrated i'm. As i said before, i'd to again edit my post ~ then it is the time where 'cerewet-waheeda' come to dominant the 'messup-waheeda'.
note: i know, i know, i should report it to blogger.com.

Third, there is not many spam control or comment stacking or other features that provided for blogger compare to wordpress. There may be have such a features (i know it just the matter how seldom u googling), but it is better for me, to just register in wordpress and start using the askimet or watever features provided? But still, this is not blogger.com fault.

Three versus Three [3-3]....
WooooooW..
cannot decide now...
it seems really tight

By the way i kept stressing here, i still like blogspot over wordpress. But it may change when i using wordpress later. Like i said before, it is difficult to accept something new into me. Especially with something that i already have bad perception. Tapi, tak kenal make tak cinta.. kan?

So,
To anti-blogspot pro-wordpress: don't too happy, i still like blogspot
To blogspot-lover: don't be sad. its not blogger fault. maybe it is, maybe it is not. Blogger still my favourite.
To wordpress-users: wait for my participant =)

very very out of topic: i type this quarter of this entry last nite before i has little unstatisfied things with my mum. To avoid anything worst, because im really in bad mood, i sleep very early. Then, this morning, my fren, Fatin_wordpress comment on my "Teringin-nak-terase Ringan" entry said that she has tried on blogspot. hihihi.. versus me... Gudluck with new platform Faten_blogspot. Yes Faten, blogspot is easy to handle through my 5 months blogging experience.

HALAMAK!!!: while final-editing this entry, I am registring new blog in wordpress.com ooppppsss Just to check out, is wizda.wordpress.com is available for me... Yes it is, and it is on now, waiting for me for put entry on it... Oooopppsss so suddenly. Later on, i ll managing it. Cause tomorrow 8am, Pathology test is waiting for me... And more, Final is almost week to go... I MUST SCORE IT!! toing toing toing!!!

Teringin-nak-terase Ringan

noreply@blogger.com (Wexeeda) — Thu, 16 Oct 2008 14:19:00 +0000

...knape berat sgt nih...
.bdn berat. otak berat.
...nak terase ringan...
.nak berlari2. sronoknye.

!!!WOIT!!!
ape 'feeling2' nih.... g wat immuno report... ade 4 report menanti tuh... sok kul 9 kne hantar....

!!!BAEK!!!