Wild Goddess Life

(Just like) Starting Over: Major tweaks to weeding the cancer garden

wildgoddess — Tue, 21 May 2013 16:02:48 +0000

Hi, I’m Talyaa, and all my cells are turning inside out. We got some bad news last week. I went in for a CT scan of my head to prepare for the Cyber Knife process that was supposed to zap the shit out of Fucker Bear. Cyber Knife is a kinder, gentler radiation robot thing [...]

A typical day of championship cancer winning looks like this. Part One.

wildgoddess — Fri, 17 May 2013 22:15:18 +0000

For those playing along at home, a recap: In July 2012 I found out I had Stage 4 cancer. In a single moment my life changed forever. Cancer — melanoma, a killer — had spread to my brain. Doctors expected me to live only a few months. They sent me home to die, with a [...]

My Mother’s Eulogy

wildgoddess — Thu, 16 May 2013 16:32:16 +0000

My mother’s body was buried today. I wrote something to be read at the service since I can’t be there. Jane Elizabeth Harrer, March 21, 1935 — May 2, 2013. Child of the Depression My mother, Jane, was born during the Great Depression, the younger child of Clarence and Beatrice. She grew up in [...]

Leaving (…not on a jet plane)

wildgoddess — Sat, 11 May 2013 00:19:50 +0000

I am a bad, bad person. Bear with me here, I can hear your thoughts. Stop saying in your head No, Talyaa, you’re not bad! and just let me have my belief, will you? Bad, bad, bad. Why bad? Because I am a Leaver. When things get tough, the tough get going. Going far, far [...]

Farewell, Mom: Jane Elizabeth Asbury, Mar 21 1935 – May 2 2013

wildgoddess — Tue, 07 May 2013 04:08:59 +0000

I’m half an orphan now. Maybe I’m being dramatic, but goddamn it my mother died last week and I now feel as if my umbilicus was ripped out by its roots and I’m floating, unanchored and adrift. Motherless. I hate this feeling. I know it will change, and I knew my mom would die some [...]

They Say It’s My Birthday — Birthing My Next 50 Years

wildgoddess — Tue, 30 Apr 2013 16:56:11 +0000

As of today I’ve lived on this planet in this body for FIFTY YEARS. (pardon me while I chant omg omg omg and hyperventilate into a paper bag) It’s my birthday. I’m having a birthday and eating sushi and getting wee gifts and thinking about the cake I’m not having, and my mother is dying. [...]

Reboot Required: This Is Not How I Want To Live

wildgoddess — Sat, 13 Apr 2013 01:20:23 +0000

My-neighbor-the-doctor posted a piece today on the words we use to describe our relationship to illness and disease. Battling cancer. He gave it a good fight. Bring out the big guns. Help fight cancer! I’ve always hated the war words. They never felt right. I reposted the piece (go here and read it) and added: I am [...]

Scan Day Results — Full Moon Edition

wildgoddess — Wed, 27 Mar 2013 23:59:26 +0000

Yesterday was Scan Day. For those of you who have ever had worrisome alien things happening in your body or the body of someone you love, you know what Scan Day means. For the rest of you, well, Scan Day is a test. A Life Test. Remember your SATs? Number 2 pencils, a graphing calculator, [...]

Niblets and Old Lady Arms

wildgoddess — Mon, 18 Mar 2013 22:51:29 +0000

In the April of your 49th year, your breasts will slide down your chest. It won’t happen all at once, but there will be a day where you will wake up to find that your left breast isn’t where you left it last night. No, your left breast will have fled south for warmer climes [...]

Asking and Receiving

wildgoddess — Wed, 06 Mar 2013 22:50:56 +0000

I watched a TED talk this week that blew my mind. Amanda Palmer’s The Art of Asking. Brilliant. Perfect. And oh so connected to my recent experience. Perhaps you’ve seen our plea for help? Help Continue the Grand Love Story of Kahuna and Akua. Yeah, that’s me. Akua. We posted the plea to Facebook and [...]