Those two things often happens to me.

When i was still in Junior High, i kept blabbing to my mom that i wanted to get my own driving license.  And my mom and dad even said that im a BRAVE girl, that means they have FAITH in me[right?] and they believe i will do well when i had my own hand on the wheel.  So I gained my confidence through that support and kept blabbing and blabbing. But the weirdest thing is that even though they had said like that, unfortunately they still have some DOUBTs in me.

When it was holiday season for student like me, and it was the perfect time to take a driving car private course, i requested directly to my mom to get me one[private course]. But she answered, “Just wait a little moment. Your body is too little to drive a car. Do it later, when you are going to reach 17, okay??” And i believe her, because she is my mother, who knows me extremely well than i myself. Then i wait until i grow bigger and looks mature enough to sit behind the wheel. So i asked her again and hoping that she will let me through this time. But numerous time with the  same question, im still..still..got the same answer and even similar words and expression with before. My mom even add, “What if those policeman saw you? They will think you still a kid trying to drive a car. Get over those mind.” and, “Moreover the place to make driving license is so far far away.” and, “Not now, dont you know how expensive the driving course is??” etc. So i had given up to drive a car by myself.

These time, we have an automatic motorcycle. And to be honest i have no problem when i first try riding it. My sist have problem, a little shaky, because she cant ride a bicycle. This makes me confidence because it means mom will let me drive motorcycle as our transportation in COLLEGE days. And my sist keeps practicing her riding skill. Time to release us to the ROAD. When i was riding it alone, there was no problem at all. But when i have someone hitchiking in passenger seat, i got really shaky. She sees it, and the result is she didnt let me drive it. Until now. The reason is so so simple, because my sist have a little more weigh than me and she is TALLER than me. And now, she MAJOR her driving skill.

Im so  Helpless. I know i can do it. But they [my family] dont even believe in me. I know they did it, because they LOVE me and CARE about me and even makes me as their PRECIOUS little girl. So, These days i often cross my finger, hoping that someday they will let me, ONCE, driving the motorcycle by my own POWER.

Because my whole appearance, people often do the same things as my family did. Once, i want to join a commitee in my Faculty and i signed as a security division. Just for info, My body is so tiny and my face looks like a little KID. Close friends of mine, even said that im too FRAGILE.

And VOILA, they[the commitee recruiter] rejected me, by only looking at my appearance.  This kind of thing doesnt happen to me ONCE, it happen TWICE!

no! THIRD

no! FIFTH

no! too many times..isnt it TOO much??

i always HATE when people start to JUDGE me only by my COVER..thats not the right thing to do, i believe..the fact is that, they dont even know who I am, what i can actually do.

but bad things always comes with some GOOD things..God always BLESS me time to time, and He is the only one to have FAITH in me. And He never changed.

lately, i got some recognition for my ability, and i able to do my very first commitee successfuly, last year. This can happened because im being blessed with many good FRIENDS of mine who know me inside-out. They know i can do things well. Thats why i treasure my FRIENDS, after my Family, because we are BELIEVING each other. I heart you my dearest FRIENDS. And i always Heart my FAMILY.  And my DEAREST Father.

So, please, do not underestimate me anymore.

Like Indonesian proverb says –> Tak Kenal Maka Tak Sayang.

So get to know me, and you will know who i really am.

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