“I have had dreams, and I’ve had nightmares.
I overcame the nightmares because of my dreams.” ~Jonas Salk

Same Old Me

My mind is scrambled
Nothing makes sense
The letters written down don’t make words
The feelings are too tense
My body tightens
A belt around my heart
Almost ready to explode in my chest…
Just to get some rest.
Squeezing out my soul
Dripping out of my brain
While my thoughts
Slowly drive me insane
Trying to keep it in
Trying to fight the fight
And bring it all back within
This is what you see
And all it is to you… is the same old me.

by Matthew Henrickson

Why would you want me…
When I don’t even want to be around myself?
Too messed up to even figure out what is wrong
My mind is dry
My heart is broken
My throat is shy
I regret what is spoken.

Our future unclear
I know this isn’t right
But in the back of my mind
You are worth the fight.
When I’m with you
It feels like it should
But when you leave me
I know we never could.

This has to be worth it
Otherwise I wouldn’t care
I catch myself watching you sleep
I can only stare.
I know you can’t
And I know you won’t
But I just want to hear the words
Just this once
Say what you truly feel
Exactly… what I want to hear.

by Matthew Henrickson

Keep Dreaming

I don’t want to sleep
I don’t want to dream
I don’t want to see your face…
Every time I close my eyes.
Even if you are sleeping next to me…
You are still in my dreams.

by Matthew Henrickson

One More

One more time
One more kiss
One more night
One more…

I’ll only ask for one more…
Once more.

by Matthew Henrickson

Oh Well Oh Well
by Mayday Parade

When you’re alone, do you think of me?
And my diamond rings thrown out to sea
And when you love, do you love for me?
Like harmony, a never ending dream

Oh well, oh well
I still hope for the best
Say goodbye and send me off with a kiss farewell
And I promise I’ll be just as strong as I can be
Maybe you could get some sleep tonight

So here’s your song, it’s twisting me
I’d give anything to make you scream
And I’ll just smile and make believe I don’t feel a thing
That doesn’t work for me

Oh well, oh well
Guess I’ll see you in hell
There’s a pretty little picture that’s in my head
And I’m starting to dream
Changing colors while I sleep
Maybe I’m just wasting time

Sit still and listen to the soundtrack
I’ll tell you how I took one straight through the heart
And it’s not easy to talk about
So we all scream loud

And that was it, I had made it clean just across the street with my new wings
So I’ll just fly and hope that I remember the good times when it’s done
Oh well, oh well
I can’t live with myself
As I’m climbing in your window to get to your bed
And I’ll be what you need
You can call me anything
Just as long as we’re still friends

Sit still and listen to the soundtrack
I’ll tell you how I took one straight through the heart
And it’s not easy to talk about
So we all sing

When she smiles, it’s got nothing to do with me
I’m not the one who sings her to sleep
And I’ve been talking to God
Asking for just a little help with you
But it’s hopeless

It’s not the first time, but this one really carved it in
Tell your new friends that they don’t know you like I do
It’s over
I wanna see you again
I wanna feel it again

Oh, it’s not the first time, but this one really carved it in
Tell your new friends that no one knows you like I do
It’s over
I wanna see you again
I wanna feel it again

I’ll keep you warm, safe in my arms
Till heaven calls, keep holding on

Apparently this has been her more popular song so far, but I still prefer Messed Up In The Head. I added the youtube at the bottom of this post again.

Beggar
by Alexandra Govere

I am just a beggar
who’ll accept anything I can get
and if i must i’ll steal the rest, it’s true

so you can let me have your heart
or i can snatch it in the dark
but either way, i’m getting all of you

gimme everything that you got
gimme every piece of your heart
gimme everything that i want
and don’t ever tell me to stop

yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

used to have a better name
before i gave myself away
and clearly, i gained nothing in return

now all i wanna do is take
a hundred hearts, and watch ‘em break
and how you feel is none of my concern

gimme everything that you got
gimme every piece of your heart
gimme everything that i want
and don’t ever tell me to stop

yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

remember when we lived for each other, like
like when we used to give to each other right
you and i swam in the summer nights
so lovey dovey, we kissed in the candlelight
love turned into like
turned into fights
turned into goodbye
turned to attack
turned into black
now it’s regret, and i want you back, just

gimme everything that you got
gimme every piece of your heart
gimme everything that i want
and don’t ever tell me to stop

yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Trying To Forget
by Matthew Henrickson

Already in too deep
Faced with your secrets to keep
I knew what it was before we started
Too good to be true and soon parted
Showing me a feeling I forgot
The comfort I desperately sought
I lost it so long ago, I forgot how it felt
Being numb so long is how I dealt

I can only put that guard back up
Going numb once again
So I can live again
And fall asleep tonight

My mind is playing tricks on me
Becoming obsessive with it…obviously
Allowing my focus to remain
Only on this pain
As I toss and turn trying to forget…
You are just fine… I bet

Lost and Found
by Matthew Henrickson

You looked into my eyes
You looked into my soul
You saw what was there
The pain I’ve buried so deep

You gave me what you could
Maybe it was what I needed
And you left in the night
Because you were never mine to keep

You let me be myself, there was no games to play
I let you in my head, I didn’t think you’d stay
I didn’t think I’d have to worry
That I’d see your face in my sleep

If you watched the last episode of the real world you heard this song and probably liked it. After doing a search I found her Youtube channel, but no lyrics posted! Below I think I am pretty close to the song. I also included the Youtube video at the end.

Messed Up In The Head
by Alexandra Govere
featuring Pat Monahan and Kevin Whan

if you see a shadow
while you’re warm in bed
will you pull your blankets over your head
like i do
when you hear the wind blow
does it make you scared?
will you throw a pillow over your ears?
like i will

i don’t need no superhero
i don’t fall for supermen
i believe true love is equal
i want somebody bad
i want somebody as
me me messed up in the head as
me me messed up, and as scared as
me me messed up in the head as
i want somebody sad
so he can understand me

i can tell you’re crazy
cause i’m crazy too
maybe we could feel totally sane
together
i don’t need amazing
all i need is you
baby we could be totally plain
forever

i don’t need no superhero
i don’t fall for supermen
i believe true love is equal
i want somebody bad
i want somebody as
me me messed up in the head as
me me messed up, and as scared as
me me messed up in the head as
i want somebody sad
so he can understand me

maybe i’m a looney after all
throw me a room with padded walls
tell me could you fall for someone crazy
i’m crazy yeah
i don’t wanna take these silly pills
but they say my babe ain’t really real
got me looking stupid, foolish
is there anybody who is

This isn’t the first Real World cast member I have featured for their songs and lyrics. I also have some Brianna Taylor lyrics posted!