♥　xee　♥

早熟

2015-04-07T11:33:00.000+08:00

就算只是朋友也堅持在左右

有界線就不碰惹為難就不說

懂事的單純快樂不能是你的沉重

像曖昧的片刻有心跳的感動

就算是不牽手只摸摸我的頭

假如別要太多小幸福會覆蓋寂寞

Thank You 2014 • Hello 2015

2015-02-03T00:42:00.002+08:00

Gosh times pass so fast it's now second month of 2015 already! I had a grand total of 2 blog posts last year. Oppsss. My blog, or the blogosphere is literally dying man. Most of my friends who used to blog left their blogs dead already. Though I only blog like twice a year, still better than none right. Think I will have a least 2 blog posts this year 'coz I wanna record down my Taiwan trip too!

Okay 2014 對我來說是人生中的一個里程碑. 首先是留澳四年終於大學畢業了. 畢業前我總是說自己迫不及待的想回家了. 回來的那一天我才發現其實我比想像中更習慣澳洲的生活. 與其說想要永遠待在這裡, 其實我更習慣的是每年暑假回來放假, 然後回澳洲生活. 出國念書前媽媽總是說如果在那邊找到工作就留在那裡,我卻說要回家. 大學的最後一年 honours 的 supervisor 問我要不要留下來做 phd, posting 的 preceptor 也勸我留下來做 intern. 留澳四年我第一次認真考慮是不是要留下來, 爸爸媽媽這幾年卻總是讓我放假就回家. 不管怎樣順利畢業是好事. 爸爸媽媽期待我回家也很久了. 畢業典禮全家人都能參加然後一起去旅行真的覺得很幸福也很感恩. 沒有這麼溺愛我的家人, 我的人生一定不會過得像現在這樣無憂無慮.

另一件對我來說很大也很小比起畢業更多人關心八卦的事自然就是我恢復單身啦. 很大是跟相戀八年的男友分手恢復單身自然是人生的一個里程碑. 單身的意思就是老娘做什麼事都很自由啦. 自由是個褒義詞, 所以單身是件好事啦. 很小是因為其實我沒有大家想像中的那麼難過. 並沒有流一公升的眼淚睡不著的夜. 大概有流三十秒的淚悼念我逝去的青春與愛情, 然後晚上十點半十一点就睡我的美容覺了. 我不會為不愛我的人做不利己的事, 哭哭啼啼也不是我的 style. 夜夜不眠傷心流淚難受的是自己, 傷害你的人一點痛都不會感受到. 大概過於理智也是你覺得我很無趣的原因之一 *苦笑* 所以拜託大家不要再叫我弟弟妹妹好朋友來安慰你們想像中一個人躲在棉被裡哭的我啦. 分手幾乎是每個人必經的過程, 三人行那麼擁擠的愛情丟了我也不覺得可惜. 可惜的是, 比起只是情人, 他曾經是我的家人. 千萬不要以為我還陷在什麼分手的痛苦漩渦裡, 或者恨你還是恨你們之類的. 要知道人生還有很多更重要的事要做啊. 其實大家都是成熟的大人了, 分手也不是什麼天塌下來的大事, 再見面還可以做朋友的.

總的來說 2014 對我來說是我遇到很多好人好事的一年. 家人好友都安康最重要. 2015 會是人生新的里程碑, 終於揮別學生時代, 要踏入社會做打工族了. 2015 的第一個月我就和妹妹去了台灣玩了兩個星期, 希望接下來的一整年也能這樣開開心心的過! Hello 2015, please be good to me! ♥

失恋事小

2014-09-23T19:53:00.000+08:00

You were a piece of me, I wish I didn't need.

As many of you may or may not already know, I'd recently turned single after being attached in a long term relationship on and off for 8 years. 八年的感情, 一起走过的三分之一的人生, 一句我喜欢别的女生了, 十五分钟内就结束了.

我不是那么煽情的人, 不再会为了失恋哭哭啼啼撕心裂肺了. 他不爱我了,移情别恋了,这样的另一半不要也罢了. 我也不是十七岁了, 不会再傻的可以想要去挽留同一个总是在变心的人了. 我失去的只是一个没有那么爱我的人, 这么多年来都是你说走就走, 想回来就回来. 没有什么大不了的, 不值得的人, 多滴一颗眼泪都是浪费.

不怪他说分手就分手. 该怪的是我明知道他是这样的人还给他一次又一次的机会一而再再而三的伤害我. 只是一个人要多没有责任感, 才会在变心后也不愿自己先告诉我, 还要我在察觉他的冷淡后自己去问他是他太忙还是我们之间有问题, 他才说对不起, 我喜欢别人了. 如果我一直都不问, 你要等到什么时候才会自己开口和我说? 被蹉跎的每一天, 都是宝贵的时间.

不是每一句对不起, 都会换来没关系. 但其实你不用说对不起,该是我说谢谢你. 谢谢你耽搁了的虽然是我八年的青春, 但也在还来得及的时候退离我的人生. 你说得最对的话, 就是我值得更好的人.

不管怎样还是希望你和你现在喜欢的她修成正果, 然后你和我就像平行线一样, 再也不要相遇了.

該忘了

2014-04-25T21:05:00.001+08:00

是不是我們該忘了最愛的一刻

找不回每次擁抱缺少的溫熱

也許是我們該忘了越在乎越忐忑

理智拉扯情緒曲折到底怎麼癒合

是不是我們該忘了最當初的快樂

當一切寬容與配合換來挫折

所以我們應該忘了放手是好的

幸福很遠了所以再見了

2014

2014-03-29T12:28:00.001+08:00

Hello my literally dying blog, and whoever is still reading this. Couldn't believe I haven't been writing a single post for almost half year already. The last time I wrote it was early spring, it is now early autumn already T.T Time passes so fast damn.

Okay so a lots happened during this half year, some good some bad. Too much to share too lazy to type hahaha. It was a dramatic summer, and I kinda have a different point of view and expectation since then. I'm quite happy with myself now *insert Pharrel William's Happy* hahaha so yeah life's still good!

This is also the first year I spent Chinese New Year abroad, apart from my family because semester started early. I spent CNY with my friends in Adelaide. They are essentially my family in Adelaide, who make Adelaide can be called my second home. :D Love everyone of you to the bits ♥

I intended to summarize things I'd been up to throughout the past 6 months but a conversation with a friend suddenly stuck in my mind. He ended a long term relationship months ago. I knew it was his girlfriend (now ex-) brought up the break up, but I didn't know why he didn't do something to hold her back. It is not easy to come to decide ending a long term relationship. When we finally had a chance to talk about it, I was surprised by his thought. He said he did try at first, when she brought it up. Then he came to realize they had so many fights (which many couples may also have), it was almost always about the same matters. And then he just thought that even if they make it up that time, the problem is not solved, they will still fight over the same issues, and the vicious cycle goes on. He said it is either one side willing to change, or the other side willing to compromise and accept as it is. But he also knows that if there would be a change, it would have happened long time ago, maybe after the first fight. It wouldn't be until so much fights. It didn't happen, it never will. He just let go. It was something that never occurred to me, that sometimes some people some things will never change, and most of the times the only thing you can control about and change, is yourself. I think what he said is very true, and I'm surprised that how mature his thinking is compared to mine hahaha. There is no perfect lock-and-key, it is always induced-fit.

Okay I end this post with such sentimental flash back lol. It's already end of March but it's my first post in 2014 so I wish everyone reading this to have a wonderful 2014 ahead!

Tada.

温柔累了

2013-12-10T23:26:00.003+08:00

我累了假装接受人都有秘密的
我累了假装习惯了被忽略的不快乐

我累了无力再争执谁给谁负荷
我累了无力去证明比你爱得更深刻

所有独立坚强都不是性格

而是一种温柔想扮好体谅你的角色

September 2013

2013-10-02T15:33:00.003+08:00

時光匆匆匆匆時光不知不覺 2013 已經過了四分之三了啊! 大學正在放春假. 也大概是我 22 個年頭來最勤勞的一個假期了. 1500 個字的 research proposal, 假期結束前得完成 first draft 才可以啊!我都寫得要死不活了. T_T

樂觀如我, 煩人的課業就不提了. 九月過得很開心! 首先是哲俊參加了個南澳校園歌唱比賽. 一路過關斬將到了決賽, 我們自然也一路相伴. 雖然最後沒有得到冠軍, 雖然我的朋友群裡我還是 Mr.Jeff 的死忠粉絲, 你還是我們的 superstar! 唱得很好很帥氣! 我們仍引以為傲!

然後就是 Tiffany 小姐畢業了! Degree 的 convocation, 她還在讀著 master 呢.

Three of us ♥
May, Tiff and yours truly
Congratz my ♥
I wish all the best for you ♥

W/ my favorite girls throughout my years in Adelaide ♥
Love them to the moon and back xoxo

再來就是哲俊決賽的那天 Melvin 的爸爸到了 Adelaide. 比賽結束後我們就跟 Uncle 一起用晚餐. 不是第一次跟 uncle 一起吃飯, 可是這一次跟更多朋友一起, 跟大人吃飯好像也沒那麼壓迫了哈哈哈.

謝謝 uncle! Cheers~

隔天我們就去了 Yorke Peninsula road trip. 嗯, 就是一個非常荒涼的地方,什麼都沒有. 好在風景很漂亮, 拍了很多很漂亮的照片. 比起去哪裡, 更重要的是誰伴著你走過那一趟旅程. :D

Us girls at the caravan park that we stayed for 3 days 2 nights

I have no idea what I was doing with my sunscreen spray HAHAHA

Spot the 小黃花 on HuiRen's ear HAHAHA

My favorite shoot among all @ Dolphin Bay ♥

W/ my girls ♥

Before we back to Adelaide

回來後的隔天就再跟 Melvin 的爸爸一起用晚餐. 晚餐地點在 Shiki Restaurant, Intercontinental Hotel. 如果不是 uncle 請, 大概我們到畢業也不會去這麼昂貴的地方用餐哈哈哈. 每次跟 uncle 用餐都很貴, 真是非常的不好意思.

Us girl at the ground floor of apartment while waiting for 少爺們 get ready

I thought using a manual focus DSLR would be hard.
The waiter proved me using a S4 is as hard by helping us took a blur photo :(

最後就是恩妮今天回馬來西亞了. Harry 終於不用一個人孤零零的等待跟她一起的日子了. 認識了近三年, 恩妮一直是一個很照顧我們, 很善良的朋友. 我們會很想念你的. 你要好好照顧自己.

See you soon in Malaysia EnNi. Till we meet again, ♥

24.09.2013

2013-09-24T21:41:00.003+08:00

在我們生命短暫重疊交接的一年半里

相識相知相惜

而後不因時間距離而變質的我們的友情

數不清多少次感恩生命裡有你的存在

我打從心底的感謝上帝

感謝祂在我生命裡規劃了一個你

筆墨似乎無法描述你在我心目中的位置

生日快樂我心愛的朋友

能為你做的也許不多

但我會一直為你祈禱

但願你一切安好快樂

♥

30.08.13

2013-08-30T22:13:00.001+08:00

過去的一個星期非常忙碌的考試再考試. 考得我都蒼老了. 我寶貴的雙十年華就這樣在無盡的考試中又逝去了一些, 真是令人心酸啊.

明年一月尾就開學了, 而且還是在新年前的一個星期. 我真是傷心欲絕啊. 本來還想著今年要遲些回去, 結果假期短成這樣, 又得一考完試就飛回去才行了.

為不會改變的事一再的難過, 與其說是你的錯, 倒不如說是自己愚蠢. 越在乎的人越是懂得如何精準的劃下傷口. 寬容與配合換來的只有挫折. 不要別的, 只要你將心比心, 有那麼難嗎?

思來想去我也沒有什麼可以為你做的. 做為朋友能為你做的卻一直都不多, 我覺得很抱歉, 也為自己的不足感到很難過. 但是啊不管怎樣我親愛的朋友啊, 小時代的預告片裡我最喜歡的一句話, 我也想要這樣對你說, 不管什麼事, 無論什麼時候, 面對黑暗無邊, 讓我與你並肩.

小時代

2013-08-14T22:59:00.001+08:00

有沒有人看了小時代? 改編自郭敬明同名小說最近很火紅的一部電影. 與每一部改編自小說的電影一樣, 我都比較喜歡原著小說. 電影刪減的情節總是太多了. 話說回來平均九十分鐘的電影也實在沒辦法概括一本小說的內容, 得拍多長才能把細節都一一說完啊.

故事主要環繞於四個女生之間的友情, 同時也敘述了她們的愛情, 環繞著她們四人以及身邊的人的愛恨糾葛. 四個女生中個人最喜歡顧裡. 也許是因為自己也希望在成長的過程中蛻變成那樣的女生, 理智冷靜, 堅強獨立. 小說故事有點狗血, 情節有些過於戲劇化. 卻是我讀完後會記在心裡的小說, 大概是因為讀著讀著, 總會想起從小到大的好朋友們, 尤其是高中時期的姊妹們吧.

雖然比起電影更喜歡讀原著小說, 還是很期待小時代2: 青木時代, 尤其是飾演顧裡的郭采潔. 柯震東和陳學冬也很帥哈哈哈. 雖然已經讀過小說了, 還是很期待電影中會怎樣詮釋曾經以為無堅不摧的友情,會怎樣被時間侵蝕,被黑暗覆蓋.

也許我們最終都會成長為

自己曾經最討厭的模樣

但在此之前

面對黑暗無邊

讓我與你並肩

十年的你

2013-08-04T17:45:00.000+08:00

飛機一離地，你就離我一個天空的距離了

- 但是, 那一個天空的距離, 也是我一個人走完的

昨天晚上, 我需要你

前天晚上也是, 大前天晚上也是, 大大前天晚上也是

可是, 你只剩下一個電子郵件信箱位址

幾個英文字母，幾個點，一個@

這是一道一萬四千公里的傷口

從飛機起飛的那一瞬間就被撕開，

化作心中持續被撐開的痛

飛機離地之後，你我之間，相隔的不止一個天空的距離

15.07.2013

2013-07-14T23:31:00.001+08:00

Didn't update blog for another month. I'd been busy! Feel like blogging but lazy.

I'm now having my winter break, another two weeks before uni life resume. Exam was over more than a week ago. Last paper was the hardest one. Not sure if I did good enough to pass the paper. Must pray everyday! Pray for my boyfriend whose exam ended few days after mine too! May both of us pass our exams successfully.

Spent my 22nd birthday with exam. This is the first time I spent my birthday during exam period. It is okay with me as I am not a very birthday person. I thanks my parent for bringing me to this world and shower me with endless love, pamper me regardless of how willful I am. Other than that normally I care about loved ones' birthdays more than mine. I actually said before my birthday that I didn't want to celebrate coz I think exam is more important. Still I was very touched that my friends who were also in their exam period planned and surprised me on my birthday. Times were not enough to prepare for exam already yet they willing to spend the nigh to celebrate my birthday. Very thankful to have them throughout my years in Adelaide.

♥

Please pardon we girls were in our pyjamas. It was 12 a.m. we should be in our pyjamas okay.

Not to forget Shiau Shuang and Cheng Yee who also made a birthday call to me. They were having holiday at Cairns.

Sisterhood ♥
Very grateful that I met them during college life and become my loved ones
Am thankful that G8 bond is still strong though we are far apart now
Miss them so much. It's been a long time since 8 of us last gathered.
Can't wait for 8 of us to meet up and travel together again!

Speaking of college life, another very important person in my life also appeared during college life. I'd melted in your voice! How can you be so sweet T_T One of the greatest present I'd ever received. I was very touched. Thank you Jeff. Words ain't necessary. Till the day we meet again, miss ya.

Can't ask for more for being how fortunate I am. To have them in my life, people who I love and love me at the same time. Childhood friends, high school friends, college friends, uni friends, I meet awesome people at different stages throughout my life. Can't ask for more. Am very grateful and I thanks God for everything I have.

Last but not least my dearest boyfriend who felt very bad coz he was also in his exam period therefore can't really do much for my birthday. I find it okay 'coz I understand that the exam is really important to him. I have birthday every year, but he can't afford to do bad in the exam. So I wanna say it really doesn't matter, birthday is just birthday. The only important thing is we are together and happy.

A thousand miles between us now

It causes me to wonder how

Our love tonight remains so strong

The time we spend apart will make our love grow stronger

I wanna grow old with you

I wanna die lying in your arms

I wanna be there for you

Sharing everything you do

One of my greatest wishes

I wanna grow old with you

♥

Okay I wanted to do a short update about my past month but I ended up wrote about my birthday the most. Spent the first week of my winter break travelling in Sydney. Shall blog about that when I got mood to do so. Till then, ciao!

淚若雨下

2013-06-15T19:44:00.000+08:00

但淚水若雨下好像天就快垮

我想念親人想念朋友隻身在天涯

淚水若雨下回家的路更滑

我想到當年阿嬤說的話

再小的步伐

也算是長大

但淚水若雨下好像天就快垮

我還有親人還有朋友算什麼缺乏

淚水若雨下往前的路不滑

才明白當年阿嬤說的話

第一個步伐

這就是長大

14.06.2013

2013-06-14T21:07:00.000+08:00

It's middle of June already! Half of year 2013 had passed. Time really flies. Sigh.

Exam kinda kicks off today. We had our compounding exam today. I'd really stressed over this practical component. I swear I never been so stress in my entire study life. So I'm really glad that it came to an end. Exam today was okay, not too hard. I hope I didn't make silly mistakes that will cost me to fail this course. Must pray everyday! Sigh. Despite Australia being a really wonderful country, I cannot stay another year here like seriously. I can't wait to back to Malaysia for good, back to where my family, my boyfriend, my close friends are, back to all my loved ones for good.

Practical exam ended today. Written exam kicks off in another week. Exam ends really late this year, my last paper is on 3rd July. I was already at Malaysia on July last year. Winter break is real short this year, so I'm not going back to Malaysia this winter. Sigh. Have to wait until end of this year to go back to my lovely home. Another 6 months to count. D:

Speaking of half of year 2013 had already gone, I'm not sure whether I'd achieve any of my 2013 resolutions. I'd always wanted to try travelling alone, just me and myself, best if can be backpacking. And I really hope that I can achieve this in 2013. So I'm going to Sydney this winter! Not really travelling alone though. Initially it was a back up plan in case of G8 NZ trip can't make it this winter. In fact the NZ trip is postponed so I was planning to go Sydney alone. Out of sudden most of my Adelaide friends planning to go Sydney too this winter lol. So I kinda compromised to make this Sydney trip along with them. I'll be going to Sydney for 8 days, spending the first day by myself, the other 7 days with friends. I'd told my mom before that I wanted to go Sydney alone, but I think she thought I was joking so she didn't really bother me. I think one day in Sydney by myself should be fine, after all I'll be staying with my friends at the night, just spending daytime alone. Even though I really want to try travel alone while I'm still in Australia, as when I back in Malaysia I would want to travel with my family or boyfriend or close friends so I most probably would not travel alone when back in Malaysia, I think my parent and boyfriend will be worried of me. So spending one daytime alone is probably what I can do. I hope I can go one of those markets in Sydney or whatever place that is not that mainstream yet fun during the very one day! Most importantly, stay safe!

I'm kinda broke this week coz we've got Kevin's and HuiRen's birthday in a week. Happy belated birthday to both of you! This year we change birthday celebration style a little bit coz we stay real close this year. In fact we girls are just 2 floors above them lol. So we cut cakes at 12 a.m. for both birthday boys and have the birthday dinner the next day, technically is in the same day. Hope you guys enjoyed the birthday celebrations and like the birthday presents we bought!

♥

最浪漫的事

2013-05-11T23:41:00.001+08:00

Feel like I got a lot to blog about for the past week but didn't have time to. Have no idea why I didn't have time to blog 'coz last week can be considered as the most relax week of the sem so far. No test, only one prac on friday. Tense thursday as usual to prepare for the compounding lab. Sigh. This semester is the first time I truly feeling TGIF. Usually friday doesn't have a meaning to me. I go school when I feel like to, though most time I won't feel want to. I still remember during second half of form 5 I didn't go school on friday anymore. Coz they said you cannot skip 3 days in a row, so I skipped monday, wednesday and friday HAHAHA. Now nobody give a heck whether you attend classes or not. Except this compulsory practical session. And the prac is so tense. Omg still got 5 weeks of compounding prac for this sem, I wish I can pass compounding successfully. *finger-crossed*

I shall just write all I wanted to post in 1 post so I guess it will be a long post.

My country, Malaysia had its 13th General Election last Sunday. I'm 22 this year, and I'm ashamed that I didn't cast my vote to make a slight change for the country. I think everyone, every Malaysian all around the world have their eyes on this GE. Sigh. The result is already out there's no point saying it anymore. I felt so sad and touched at the same time. Sad because the election had so many flaws. Washable ink which supposed to be indelible, rumors of blackout, flooding of bangla into our country etc etc. The most saddening is to see bangla were being protected while rakyat, Malaysian were being harshly treated. My tears almost drop down watching those videos. At the same time, I'm so proud and so touched that we, we Malaysians can be so united. We love this country so much. So many people dedicate their time and effort, hoping that they can contribute to a clean election, a better nation. And the patriotism doesn't not go off after the election, instead it burns even brighter grow even stronger. There are so much I would like to talk about but I think all come down to one, I'm thankful that this election united us Malaysian, like ever. So many Malaysians refuse to accept result of this GE, but I think it's no way we can have a re-election. We cannot do anything but move on. It's almost one week since GE over and Malaysians' ubah spirit still so high. The most important thing now is we Malaysian can always be this united and patriotic, not just during this pre- and post- election period. 民主不是一朝一夕就能达成的. 革命仍须努力.

It was my boyfriend's birthday on tuesday. I'm quite busy this year so I only made a card and a letter for him. The card is not as nice as the one I made last year too. I was very rush on preparing his birthday present because I didn't know how long does it take to reach Malaysia. So I was rushing to complete the card and post it as early as possible, like two weeks before his birthday. I posted it to my friend first and so that he can pass the card to my boyfriend on his birthday. I'm so sorry I didn't have time to make a nice present this year! I'd tried my best T.T However it was my first time writing him a letter, also my first time writing a letter after maybe.. 10 years? I wish he was at least happy to receive something from me although the present wasn't great. Happy belated birthday my love! I wish you all the best in all your undertakings. Stay healthy and stay happy.

Then it was sort of our 7 year anniversay on Thursday. Sort of because we broke up so many times in between hahaha. But don't care, the day we first get together will be our anniversay then. We first get together when we were 15, on 9th May 2006. Time flies, we had already being together with each other for 7 years. Oh gosh, one third of my life I was spending with this man. I didn't know we can get so far when we first get together, but now he just become a part of my life which I cannot afford to lose. We went through a lot during this 7 years. We broke up and we make up. There were times we had fights and tears, there were times we had laughter. We are both imperfect, there were times I mad at him and he mad at me. This is also our third year being in this long distance relationship. I'm thankful that distance separate us physically but nothing between us changes. I think it's true that the quote saying 'It's not about having the perfect relationship, it's about finding someone who will be there through everything without giving up.' I think I have found mine, and I'm hoping that him feel the same. May our love goes strong, and I guess all I want to say to my bf is, I love you baby.

This is one of the sweetest and most romantic songs in this world (in my list HAHAHA) I shall dedicate this song to my bf. 最浪漫的事 :)

我能想到最浪漫的事

就是和你一起慢慢变老

直到我们老到哪儿也去不了

你还依然把我当成手心里的宝

♥

Kangaroo Island trip

2013-05-04T00:33:00.001+08:00

The last time I updated my blog was middle of Jan and now is already May. Very sorry my dearest blog for neglecting you for so many months but i'd been busy. Oh my god I'm already sleepy as I am writing this. I shall just make this post short hahaha.

I am back in Adelaide for about 2 months now. Weather now is just nice, I love autumn and spring. Not too hot till you sweat like raining, not too cold till you have to wrap yourself like bak zhang, the weather is just nice. Third year in IBPH is just mad hectic and tough. Overload with tests and compounding practicals. Stressss lol. I hope I can pass this year successfully. I shall work harder to not disappoint my parents who always have high expectation in me.

There is nothing much to talk about studies except stress and hectic. Mid term break ended a week ago. We went to Kangaroo Island during the break! Okay I know Kangaroo Island this name is very not chio. That is not an island fully occupied by kangaroos okay. Resident on the island told us the island is named after kangaroo because when the settlers first landed on the island kangaroo was the first animal they saw and there were a lot of them thus kangaroo was given the honor hahaha. Not sure if it is true and didn't bother to check it out either.

It was an 4 days 3 nights trip. This trip is slightly more expensive than our previous road trip because we have to take ferry to reach Kangaroo Island. Return ferry fare to Kangaroo Island from Cape Jervis with Sealink is about A$98. Not sure if the price varies with season. En Ni and HweeSim gave us their entertainment book vouchers so we have a 25% off of our ferry fare. Thanks a lot to them!

We set off around at around 8 a.m. in the morning. It was a lil bit late than our estimated time so we skipped one bay we intended to stop by during the journey drive to Cape Jervis.

Us girls on the ferry

Us girls selca-ing on the ferry hahaha

We were staying at Cooinda Holiday Village. Very cheap accommodation. Only A$130 per night for up to 5 persons. It is like a fully equipped cabin house with 2 small rooms, 1 small kitchen and a small living space. Small cozy accommodation, I like hahaha.

We reached Kangaroo Island at around 1315 and took another 30 mins to reach our accommodation. Another thing with Kangaroo island is, there was totally no Vodafone coverage on the island! No phone calls, no 3G, no internet, we were totally isolated from outside world for almost 4 days upon departed from Cape Jervis. Oh my lord.When I finally was able to call my mom 4 days later, she told me my sis said I might get eaten by black bear already =.=

After having our super late lunch we went to Emu bay. Among the 4 days at Kangaroo island we only saw 1 Kangaroo trying to cross the road. But we saw hell lot of pelicans there. Scenery at Emu Bay was so so only thus we didn't spend much time there. We took a few, errr actually a lot of photos there then went to buy our dinner before headed back to where we stayed.

This kangaroo is highly educated.
It knew to stop when car was near and only crossed the road when it knew the car was stopping for it.
It should teach the other kangaroos how to cross the road
so that less kangaroo will be knocked down by cars and died on the road.
Everytime went on a road trip must be seeing kangaroo corpse on the road. Super sad.

We took a lot of photos there, but I like this the most

The next day we went to some landmarks of Kangaroo island, the so-called icon of KI lol. We first went to Flinders Chase National park to purchase our admission tickets to those places. Forget about the price but I think it was not expensive. Perhaps Around A$9 pp?

We wanted to go Admiral Arch next but without internet we sometimes took the wrong turn. With a wrong turn we took that day we reached this light house. Super cute lighthouse! Not sure if they still using it.

HuiRen is one small dot there hahahaha

We then went to Admiral Arch, one of the icons of KI. We saw many seaseals there. Omg they are damn cute lar. Lazy lazy like that laying on the rocks doing nothing. Very enjoyable life ar these seaseals. Very ho mia. Eat full lie there sunbathing nia.

Seaseal, seaseal, and seaseals

Us at Admiral Arch

We then moved on to the Remarkable Rock. Too some photos and left. We didn't stay there long, because our maknae Melvin was attacked by a bee accidentally! Was not a big deal but we were plain worried so we left after awhile and went to the visitor information center to check if it's fine.

Remarkable Rocks is remarkable because.. I dont know. You tell me?

Errr not sure what they were doing hahaha

Gwiyomi!

Then we went to a Koala Walk. We did see like 3 or 4 koalas in total? But then they were damn high, like damn high you can only see a lump of living being up there. There goes our precious A$6 not even clearly see where are their butts. We then went to Kelly Hill Caves. Speaking of which, I find out they got weird naming system on this Kangaroo Island. This Kelly Hill Caves which named after Kelly, you might think Kelly was the first settler or whoever first discovered the cave or what. But hell, Kelly was a horse. Someone rode his Kelly and fall down to the cave years ago. He somehow managed to climb up the hill and found the others trying to retrieve his beloved Kelly, but magic! Kelly disappeared in the air. Kelly was never seen ever after and in order to commemorate this freaking horse, the cave was then named Kelly Hill Caves. If one day ah pui fall down to a longkang and disappear in the air I shall named the longkang ah pui longkang also. If you don't know who is ah pui, ah pui is a cat of my sister's back in malaysia hahaha. The cave tour was interesting at the beginning but started to get bored as we stood longer and longer in there. The tour was about 45mins at a cost of A$16. Anyway it was my first time entering a cave so I find it quite interesting.

As daylight saving ended nights come really early. Around 5 or 6pm it is totally dark already. It was quite dangerous to drive in Kangaroo Island because there are a lot of unsealed roads, hardly got any streetlight, kangaroo or wallabies appear from nowhere. So we usually end our activities around 5 or 6pm and head back to where we stayed. Second night we got Chef Frankie cooked pasta for us! Very very delicious.He is working as a chef at Italian restaurant and we very honored to have him cook for us for free hahaha.

Third day we went to Seal Bay Conservation Park. We saw a lot of seaseals, sealions and seabulls there. Omg we got real close with them. Very worthwhile trip. A$26 for us at student price I think.

Real poser

THIS CUB IS MAD CUTE

Then we went to Little Sahara for sand boarding. Very fun! We rented 2 toboggans and 1 sandboard for whole day. I tried both and I find both very fun! Stand up board is harder to control but I think more interesting.

I trying the sandboard!
Only succeed fully skate to the end twice. Very hard to balance,
Frankie was quite good at this though.

Us at the peak!

You can't see our face, but it was KamYoke and I trying the toboggan together.

Our laoda. One word, Yeng. Hahahaha laoda please don't kil me lololol.

Then we went to Vivonne Bay. We planned to swim and play water there but the water is too deep D: So only HuiRen, Melvin and Kitt went down to the sea.

Very very beautiful bay. Photos can't tell how breathtaking is it.

Can you see how clear the sea water is.

We headed back in the evening and as usual, we had barbecue during the last night. Didn't take pictures this time round and I can hardly remember what we ate.

Fourth day was the day we came back to Adelaide.Before coming back we went to a lavender farm. To our disappointment it was already the end of lavender seasons so we didn't manage to see purple sea of lavenders.Sigh. And there goes our A$2 for entry.

I like this photo we took in lavender farm. Cannot see face clearly. Very pretty. Hahaha

After that we went to Island Beehive. Bought honey ice cream and it tasted very good. Went to another lookout point but I forget the name already. Headed to ferry terminal and came back to Adelaide in the noon. Very grateful that the four days we stayed there were all sunny days with good weather. Not too hot and not too cold. Can go all the places we planned to go do all the activities we planned beforehand. The day we going back to Adelaide it started to rain already. Thanks god. He must had heard our prayer.

Overall it was a very fun trip. I think it was the best among all of our trips, though we got no mobile connection there at all. A very very beautiful island with nice people on it. I'll miss all the fun we had there.

Okay I thought I would keep this post short but it's mad long now. I shall just stop here. Kthxbye

Update

2013-01-13T17:29:00.001+08:00

Wow time flieessss. It's now already middle of Jan 2013. 2012 was considered a good year for me. Family and friends are healthy. People who I care are still with me. I passed second year of IBPH successfully, though second sem results were quite terrible. Can only blame myself for being so lazy. But think positively, this had taught me to be more hardworking next year haha. Hopefully I will lar, I think I will lol. May 2013 bring much happiness to my family and friends and all my loved ones stay healthy. May I be stronger, be more positive and stay who I am.

Don't have much to update. Guess the place I'd been travel to most frequently is Singapore. And after years of travelling to SIN finally I'd been went to Bugis st. for the first time! Quite a nice place to shop for cheap women clothes and accessories, most clothes price range between $10 - $15. But it was very crowded. Plus the weather is very hot and there is no air con.Maybe because CNY is approaching so many people went there to shop for CNY clothes.

Was quite busy for the past one week. Went to Malacca AGAIN with ChinDing and Florence. Sze Shiang went to Hong Kong for a business trip so she didn't join us. We tried foods we didn't try the last few times we went. Zhe Jun was here in Johor the day I back from Malacca. Feel very bad that I wasn't free for 2 days among the 4 days he came T.T After back from Malacca I joined Zhe Jun and Melvin to Universal Studio Singapore. I'd went there with my family before Christmas so it was the second time I went there in like 3 weeks time LOL. USS was fun! But the admission ticket is not very cheap, one day admission is at $74 for adult so might as well get an annual ticket if anyone would like to go more than two times in a year.

Planning a trip to Phuket with my bf. I'd always wanted to go Thailand but my mom simply doesn't willing to let me go. Thailand is in chaos in her humble opinion. She was afraid I might get bomb-ed there. I'd thus missed the last trip to Phuket with my fellow G8 members. Surprisingly she didn't say no to this trip. Saying of this missed Phuket trip make me kinda miss my fellow G8 members too. Hopefully we get to meet before we all went back to Aus and NZ respectively.

Okay very lazy to write already. Didn't take much photos or didn't take any photos at all during all those outings with family and friends so have nothing interesting to share. Shall share a song which I was quite addicted to and am still think it's a nice song after repeatedly listened to it. Beware it's an very emo song lol.

Don't think I'll update very frequently

Am getting back the habit of writing diary

Back!

2012-11-30T10:15:00.001+08:00

I'm back in Malaysia! Already back for almost one week. Had a simple dinner and dessert after the last paper of sem 2. Then back home and stayed up all night to pack all my stuffs. Gonna move out next year so have to pack the whole house. I was totally exhausted but I had to pack coz I'm going back to Malaysia the next morning, within 24 hours of my last paper. I'm efficient like that lol.

All exam papers are super duper hard. I totally got no confidence in any of those papers, especially Pharmacy Practice 2. I just want to pass the papers pleaseeeee.

Went to MingHui's cousin wedding the next day I back in Malaysia. The bride is so pretty! The newlywed looks very sweet too. Wish them 百年好合, 早生贵子. Didn't get to attend my own cousin's wedding but I'm not really close with cousins so doesn't really matter lol. Wish them lead a blissful and happy life ahead. And treat my cousin well, make her a blissful woman.

I'd cut my hair short! Not as short as I wanted coz the hair stylist refused to cut short hair for me. You know hair stylists always have their own opinions right... I wanted a really short hair but didn't get to. But still my hair is considered very short compared to my previous length, just slightly below my shoulder. I actually wanted it to be just below my ear but.. Doesn't matter. My mom and aunt already got really shocked to see this length hahaha. My hair usually grows really fast. Shall see how fast it can grow before CNY and before I get back to Aus.

Things are doing..not so well? When you thought things will get better but they just don't, the disappointment is so much amplifying. I wanna play it cool, but I'm losing myself. Such a dilemma, to follow le mind or le heart?

老婆生日快樂啦

2012-11-14T20:50:00.001+08:00

正所謂 '平時不讀書, 考試徒傷悲'. 真正是自食苦果啊. 離考試只剩下一個星期了, 但是就算每日每夜廢寢忘食也是不可能讀完的, 所以我也沒有嘗試這樣做. 真是死定了. Internal assessments 也都差得慘不忍睹. 真是每個 sem 都可以很驚奇的發現自己還可以更懶. 也沒有辦法了, 只可以祈禱老天可以保佑我. 拜託拜託, 我只要及格就好.

表妹最近結婚了! 說是表妹, 其實也只小我一個月而已. 去年的情人節求婚, 今年的 20121110 偕手步入人生的另一個里程碑. 結束快八年的愛情長跑共結連理. 多令人羨慕啊. 二十一歲結婚是我可望不可及曾經的夢想啊. 想來我們家該有愛情長跑的基因. 表姊的快九年, 表妹的快八年, 我分分合合的快七年. 人生有多少個七八九年可以揮霍, 可以用來跟一個人相處啊.

明天就是我老婆二十一歲的生日了! 我們相愛了這麼多年, 沒有什麼是平時不能說的, 也沒有什麼是得生日才特別說的了. 所以啦老婆, 生日快樂. 祝願你早日找到你的如意郎君的同時跟我相愛一輩子. 我愛你 ♥

下個星期就要回家了. 本人非常之焦躁. 因為明年的住宿還沒有安排好啊. 啊啊啊真是令人煩惱啊.

說到煩惱, 本人每天都有要一把剪掉那三千煩惱絲的衝動.

Want U Back

2012-11-03T12:02:00.002+08:00

Remember all the things you and I did first

Now you doing them with her

Remember all the things you and I did first

You got me got me like this

I'm so in love with this cover!

Hannah Trigwell has fabulous voice!

This song is on play like a million times per day.

I'm totally addicted with it.

Arghhh exam is so close, just around the corner

I just screwed a test yesterday.Sigh.

It carries quite heavy weighting

Thus will have quite an impact on my final grade of the subject too

I really need to pray hard that I can pass the test and thus the course *fingers crossed*

Yeah it wasn't quite a big deal and he didn't mean to but...

I could not pretend that it was nothing, in fact it's something to me.

I'm a little lost in handling this. I'm sorry if I'm making him upset too.

I was just...too upset with it.

You clearly didn't think it through

'Cause I had everything for you

And now I don't know what to do

You might be with her

But I know we could work

I Don't Need A Man

2012-10-19T12:25:00.000+08:00

miss A returns with 'Independent Women Pt 3.' Title tract of their latest mini-album is 'I Don't Need A Man'. I'm not a big fans of miss A but this song caught me instantly. Y'all who know me will know why. For all the independent ladies, here you go, I don't need a man. =)

Beach day

2012-10-18T22:49:00.001+08:00

Very sien with the black colour background already. But I don't wanna change the whole blogskin.. So I just changed background colour to white hahaha. Made some slight changes with the template also, might not noticeable since the changes were all quite small. Took me sometime to edit the html. It's been too long since I last edited my blog template. Totally forget about html codes already.

Did I mention that I already booked my air ticket back to Malaysia this summer? As soon as exam timetable released, I booked my ticket back to Malaysia the next day after the last paper. Thanks God direct flight with Singapore Airline was not sold out yet. Gonna back to my home sweet home in 37 days. But I'm not sure if I'm moving next year.. If I'm moving next year, I'll have to postpone my date back home. I can't possibly clear all things in less than 24 hours before I back home, can I? Arhhh but I wanna go home...

Enough of mumbling. Harry was flying back to Malaysia for good three days after we back from Port Lincoln. As we were all going to send him off, LeeSha suggested we could go picnic at Glenelg after send him off. Suggestion was approved immediately lol.So we just brought all our picnic and barbecue stuffs all the way to airport. Poor Harry who already checked in and passed the security check, was asked to come out as we couldn't possible pass the security check since we were carrying knives with us hahaha. I think all the pictures taken were using Harry's and Kevin's camera. Since we all wore quite casual LeeSha just checked in at the airport saying that we're going to Hawaii lol. Some people really believed =.= As if we're that rich travel to wherever we want.

LeeSha prepared all the foods so we just start to BBQ when we reached. The weather was nice, the foods were nice, we were happy hahaha.

BBQ-ing!
I think most pictures taken during the BBQ session were using Kevin's camera.
This photo was taken using ZheJun's camera.
Since Kevin didn't upload any photo, I can only steal from ZheJun's facebook lah hahaha.

After we finished our food we moved to the beach side to play some games and have some water activities. I think when boys go to beach they must throw each other into the sea. Apparently HuiRen was the first victim.

Then when you go to beach, you must bury someone with the sand. We did not just bury someone, we buried all the boys.

Huge project to bury these big boys.
Poor HuiRen got buried in turtle style. This is the only way he could look at the camera.
Kevin and Melvin look rather comfortable with the sand pillow though.

And then we played Frisbee. Wasn't a day for frisbee 'coz though the weather was nice, it was a little windy. So we played some other games after frisbee. I think the most exciting game was 'Eagle catches little chicken' LOL. Totally back to school days.

Just when we girls thought we were not going into sea 'coz it was getting late, we heard the boys shouted 'time to play water!' Since most of us did prepare extra clothes, those who did just go into water. It was fun! The waves were quite big! But it's safe as long as you don't go too far. We just have to know the limit :)

The boys never get enough of jumping.

We girls sitting like a boss in the sea.

All of us before back.
Not quite sure who did this but certainly those who did not join us into sea.
Most probably May.

After we had some rough showering, we headed to Chinatown for dinner. Had our dinner at Ba Guo Bu Yi. Most of the other restaurants were quite full, unable to accommodate us big group of people. After the dinner, we headed to K-box to sing karaoke hahaha. Totally exhausted after a long day out but we all had fun :D

And then it was the last day of our mid-term break.. Horrible terrible vegetable uni days resume again. I don't wanna study arhhhhh!

Port Lincoln Road Trip

2012-10-13T21:58:00.001+08:00

Mid sem break 结束也就是开学已经两个星期了. 放假的两个星期里我们去了 Port Lincoln! 3 天 2 夜的 road trip, 很大部分的时间都花在驾车了. 所以才叫 road trip 啊.

从 Adelaide 驾车驾到 Port Lincoln 不休息的话也要大概七八个小时. 原本计划是早上五点就出发的. 大概是睡眠不足漏掉这漏掉那后我们终于在六点多出发了. 同行的有 Lee Sha, Yee Ling, Kam Yoke, Hui Ren, Melvin, Shee Hwa, Kevin & Kitt. 2 辆车 9 个人, 负责驾车的就是 Shee Hwa & Kit 啦. 九点多的时候到我们的第一个休息站, Port Pirie. 是一个很小很小的城镇呢.在 mcd 吃了午(?) 餐后我们就继续前往 Port Lincoln 的路程了.

几点到的 Whyalla 我倒是不记得了. 很漂亮的一个地方呢. 虽然也是人烟稀少很偏僻, 不过风景真的很漂亮呢.

是不是很漂亮. 可惜风有一点大, 所以也没有拍什么照, 也是我懒惰拿相机出来啦.
其实那天我已经觉得风很大了, 可是两天后我才真正知道什么是风大.

在 Whyalla 逗留了一会看看风景拍拍照后我们终于驶向我们的目的地 Port Lincoln 了!

这次住的地方是 Cabin house. 男女各一间. 每间两房一厅, 可以容纳至多五个人. 厨房设备也样样齐全, 非常便宜的住宿. 每间一晚 A$ 150.

大概弄好住宿后我们就去填饱我们快要饿扁的肚子啦. 晚餐就在 Port Lincoln Hotel 解决了. 来到 Port Lincoln 要吃的就是海鲜啦.

驾 &/ 坐了一整天的憔悴得我们大家

如果说有什么活动是我们 road trip 必定例行的就非钓鱼莫属了. 吃了晚餐后女生们就回去休息. 男生们就开始准备晚上钓鱼的用品. 那天晚上是冷到一个不可以. 在我们女生们先行离去前也很失望的没有掉到任何一条鱼. 我的鱼饵倒是被吃掉了不少. 令人失望啊.

隔天一早就是去 Port Lincoln 也定要去的 Swim with Tuna 啦. 天气很晴朗的一天, 风也没有前一天那么大了. 大概坐十五分钟的船到海中央的一个 Tuna farm. 如果只是观光而已 observer 的价钱是 A$ 60, 如果要下海 swim with tuna 的话就得付多A$10. 当然价钱也因公司而异.

Tuna Farm

Yours truly, LeeSha, YeeLing & KamYoke

Kevin, me, LeeSha, YeeLing, KamYoke & Kitt

金主 Mr Chua

HuiRen's back, Kitt, Melvin, Kevin & SheeHwa

The big tuna !!

下海跟 tuna 游泳的时间不算很长. 大概就15-30分钟而已. 浮潜装是很安全的, tuna 虽然大到不像样也不会攻击人. 不过因为是大海中央所以要下海还是要有一定的勇气的. 毕竟一眼望下去也看不到海底啊.

跟 tuna 们游完泳后我们就取下一个目的地啦. Coffin Bay, 堪称死城. 要找个地方吃东西也非常的困难. 还没去前看照片时很漂亮的. 去到后也不过尔尔. Coffin Bay 著名的当然也还是海鲜啦. 尤其是 oyster. 我们大老远的去了当然也得尝尝啦. Oyster 嘛我是不常吃. 常吃的男生们倒是说的确很新鲜. 可以接受但不能吃多. 腥味也不是每个人接受得了的. 再来生蚝其实是非常不卫生也不健康的. 多吃无益大家还是少吃得好啊.

想来 barbecue 也是我们 road trip 必有的活动啊. 从 Coffin Bay 回来后我们就开始准备晚上 BBQ 的食物. Kevin 和 SheeHwa 则再接再厉的去钓鱼希望我们有海鲜烤. 因为有厨房兼厨房用具可以准备的食物真的很多呢.

超多食物. 猪扒羊扒. 结果都吃不完.

钓到很多虾!
开玩笑, 虾米都没有钓到. Woolworth 买的.

好不容易抓到的螃蟹正在被解剖

第三天早上就启程回家了. Road trip 嘛当然要走走停停啊. 于是乎离开 Port Lincoln 前我们就去了 Winter Hill lookout point. 风景很漂亮, 可是风大到一个不可以啊!

随强风飘扬的头发啊

我们的车门 T.T 直接被强风吹坏 T.T 幸好我们有买保险不用赔钱

Kevin 跳超高!

团体照

过后就一路驾回 Adelaide 了. 也是我第一次在澳洲驾车. 大家都累到一个不行啊. 很好玩的 Port Lincoln 之旅. 三天两夜实在太短了. 还有很多地方都还没有去呢. 很所以我们的打算是下一次达飞机去到了那边再租车. 要去玩的地方有的计划实在太多了可是没有钱啊!

24.09.2012

2012-09-23T22:30:00.001+08:00

Mid sem break 已經過快一星期了! 這一個星期做了什麼呢. 好像沒做什麼, 可是又好像一直出去. Harry 和 Khen Pey 都畢業了. 這個星期分別為他們倆 farewell 了. 下個星期就分別回 Malaysia 了. 說到回 Malaysia, 我的機票都還沒買呢. 最近又花了這麼多錢, 看來我得游泳回家才行了.

Harry oppa 終於戴上他 Master 的四方帽了!

下個星期又要去 road trip 了. 這次再接再厲駕到更遠的地方, 一路去到 Port Lincoln. 三天兩夜的旅程. 天氣預測似乎會很冷. 真是令人傷心啊. 應該是趟溫暖的春天之旅才對啊!

今天是 Mr.Jeff 的生日! Happy 21st birthday to you my very friend! I'm sure you'd have blasts and enjoy your big day with your friends over there, receiving lots of loves from family and friends. May all your wishes come true and I hope you stay happy, stay smart, stay awesome, stay who you are, stay Jeff! Enjoy life, take good care of yourself there!

静一静

2012-09-02T09:22:00.000+08:00

我想自己静一静.

忘不掉的过去是负荷, 抹不去的回忆是疙瘩, 就算我再这么努力想要放下想要前进, 却也还是无力.

不是什么大事, 不是什么了不起非得过不去的事. 只是在那瞬间剩下的只有累了. 不眠的整个夜晚我还是不明白为什么相爱那么容易, 相守那么难.

而我现在只想自己静一静. 不想说什么,也没有什么好说的. 只是因为太过在乎, 才会因为这么小的事就崩溃. 这么小的一回事, 小得你也不觉得那是一回事.

自己一个人静一静, 也许明天就好了.

♥ xee ♥

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