♥ |.:·.Ş.ђ.ư.y.ΐ.·:.| ♥ ~ like, seriously

Unboxing- Nike shoes.

2011-11-06T22:13:00.002+08:00

Introducing~

My very first pair of Nike shoes. I'm not much of an athlete, and I didn't just bought them for show.

I don't know much about their products, and I bought this pair because I was DEEPLY ATTRACTED by its COLOUR. You'll see ; ]

The box!

The SHOE!

Isn't the colour amazing? Its real sharp =D I love it. a lot. The green really pops =D

The following are photos of the shoe on my foot:

My foot size is not really small for a girl but when I look down at my feet that are in those shoes, I just have one thought in mind. Cute! =D pretty weird but that's all I have to say about it =]

Take 1

Take 2

-Ready for some action now ; ]

--Have to start practising so I don't faint on the run!

Puzzled

2011-11-01T21:30:00.000+08:00

My day today was met with a lot of disappointments.

First of. was late for part time job training. Disappointed at myself for my lack of time management ( I honestly knew better than to leave my house at the time I left this morning.)

Secondly. Took the ktm to midvalley. Was supposed to board on the train that came, but i didn't because I wasn't sure if it would go to the stop I wanted to. Felt that it was impossible that the ktm wouldn't stop at midvalley I went to check on a board at the far end and found out that, that previous train DID stop at my stop and now I have to wait another half an hour (was already late to meet up with some ppl). As if that wasn't enough the train caught some delay at Kepong and the due time for the train to arrive is postponed 10 minutes later.

Third. Reach Mid at 3pm. Rushed to the cinema ticketing counter to get the tickets. Guess what was there to welcome me.

Ignore the passer-by and focus on the counter. It was closed. Due to a FIRE going on inside. Bet the whole nation's gonna know about it from the news. I wasn't much disappointed, more like entertained. Brought a slight smile to my face. (Not a sadist but honestly, how much chance do you have of witnessing this live. Its just utterly unbelievable and not to mention the smell is extremely unbearable! Carbon Monoxide overdose!)

Three and a half. Note that this is just a small thing but i just wanna mention it. Today with an inclusive of me was a three person hangout. We went back to our previous working place(which meant that all three of us were ex-workers there, no wait, One of us actually took back her initial thought of resigning and decided to continue working.) I knew I dressed kinda sloppy(Not actually) but after we left one of us got a text from one of the guy still working there and he complimented her way of dressing and said she was pretty. -.- (No judging please.)

Fourth. Was supposed to head to 1U but then realised the person that was supposed to guide the way was actually joking that she knew the way. Ended up in Sunway instead. I remember I previously mentioned that I loathe Sunway's cinema. The seats are so short they drive me insane. And by the time we reached there, there was only front row seats. Another thing I hated. But nevertheless. I went for the movie. Because one of us felt like watching and I really wanted to watch the movie. and we shifted from mid to sunway for the movie. (Watched In Time by the way. It wasn't so bad...considering Justin Timberlake as the lead. Quite humerous at some parts.)

Fifth. On the ride back home. Although the journey was short but the other two person was gossiping. The person I mentioned earlier that decided to went back working needed an update on the things that was happening there, and so the other person starts talking. For the whole time. I wish I was deaf. The things they said. Made me realized how naive I was. I never knew I was always thinking the best of everyone. I mean, these things were spontaneous. I can't control them. And when you heard that what sort of person they truly were, it gives you this HUGE feeling of DISAPPOINTMENT! It made me feel like an idiot. ( I shall not disclose what I heard because I am trying my hardest to forget.)

In my own writing to emphasize!! ( I know it sucks.)

And finally. I think I'm falling sick with a fever. Eyes has been hurting for eons. Feeling the heat up my face these few days. I hope I'm not falling ill. Will be busy earning money for the next month! >[ Forget the past and move forward!

Done for today.

Anguish.

2011-10-23T09:18:00.002+08:00

It’s not that I don’t want to share anything with you anymore, I’m just at a loss of words for things I’m having difficulty describing!

A lot of things have been on my mind in my absence here. =S Sleepless nights with nightmares. =[

Just got done with my finals. Did not do well on my chemistry paper. =[

Had a great time last night for the celebration of my dear ‘daughter’! ; ] Happy birthday again!

My wardrobe needs a makeover!!! Where to shop for cheap and nice clothes! :’[

Still dreams of studying overseas.

Need a plan to get rich quick! >[

Wants to learn Korean ASAP! =S

Get a pair of Running Shoes! Need them badly for a run in November =S

Be more sporty! Exercise regularly!! >.<

Stay optimistic and fight off negative thoughts!! T~T

Have to start packing! Heading away from town for a breather.

Two months. What am I to do?

Mean

2011-09-08T23:05:00.003+08:00

"Grrrrrrr...."

This word best describes me.

I am....a mean person. I think.

I have found out that I am extremely talented in pissing people off without knowing it.

Apparently I'm just so so so not sensitive to people's feelings that I don't even know that I've offended them.

Which is to say I'm a mean person.

Mean = Average.

In mathematical terms. Mean is equivalent to an average of a data.

Everything about me is average. Normal. In the middle.

Results for my first semester came out. Not that I have any expectations but I got all Bs. An average result.

Recently. Someone said I'm Normal looking. *sigh*

And as a middle child. I've felt like I'm in the middle since forever. Done playing the role of a middle person too.

-I wish things would change. =[

confused?

2011-09-06T09:57:00.000+08:00

Can you tell me what does this picture says?

I'm not entirely back from the "dead" but I'll try to blog more from now on =D

Some little updates about my life:
-Got a part time job.
-Quitting my part time job =]
- Starting my second semester.
-Which is a short sem =S
~good news is Nov and Dec is definitely sem break =D
~Bad news is long hours of class for 2 subjects only. Which means everyday is gonna be boring.
-Did i mention both subjects are Chemistry related? (God knows how much I suck at Chemistry....)
-Huge gaps in between classes. (Sort of motivated me to get my a** started on driving again!!)
-Watched tonnes of movies in my past three weeks sem break =D
-Gonna watch Contagion this Sunday =D if everything goes well. =S

-Still haven't watch Smurfs yet!! =[[[[(Neil Patrick Harris! Wait for me! >.< )

May 21st

2011-05-22T15:35:00.001+08:00

I have a good reason for putting up that date as post title. (Its judgement day FYI)

May 21st is a pretty good day for me =] And I think there's much to post about it but I can't do that now. Head. Hurts >[ Throat. Hurts too >[

Instead I'm going to rant about my dad.

Communication is not a thing that exist between him and all three of us (my brothers and me) but I'm the only one he talks to most. Usually to "give orders''. I'm like a communicator between my brothers and him. But my dad and I barely communicate.

And recently we needed badly to communicate. And the main issues on debate were:

1) I don't wanna get the stupid government loan because I just simple HATE owing the Government ANYTHING.

2) I wanna aim to get scholarships. At least I have an aim now and am not wandering aimlessly in life.

3) I really really really * infinity wanna go overseas ( preferably UK). And what better way than to go for the twinning programme.

Talking to my dad. Is harder than talking to animals. At least to animals you know that they pretty much all the time can't get what you say. But talking to him. Its more like he's not even trying to listen but instead make you give up trying to talk to him. And because he's already got his own thoughts about the discussion topic he refuses to listen AT ALL. Nothing I say ever gets into his head.

Communication FAIL!

Communication is key to cooperation and cooperation brings harmony. >[ I'm really fed up with the way things are.

May 21st was still a great day ; ] I'll blog about it when i get pictures and stuffs ; ]

College. again.

2011-05-15T13:35:00.002+08:00

-Yesh, so school has started (2 weeks ago). Once again.-

And I realized a real interesting thing about me dealing with another start of college. I am a lazy person. Hands down. And like many others I LOVE ♥ to procrastinate. And having my sem break, you'd think I've done all the lazing around I could but turns out. I got more lazy when classes started.

lazing around~

I couldn't get started on doing anything >[ And now I have so many deadlines to meet. I'm so screwed! >.< (instead I'm here blogging XD) I'm going to get started on a long overdue lab report then. Toodles!

But before that here's a song that really suits my mood *sigh*

I'm not really into the monkeys in this music video =[ They're creepy >[
But the song is pretty catchy =D
Fav line:
Today I don't feel like doing anything~♪
; ]

And one more image to brighten up this post!

This is a dilemma!

A dilemma is a serious situation! ; ]

You You

2011-05-06T00:08:00.001+08:00

-This song has been on my mind since the first time I heard it =D -

Before anyone starts listening to this song, I wanna share a few things about them.
- This song is a hip hop mixed with a "tinge" of rock genre.
- You have to watch this in 1080p ( IN HD!! The clarity is awesome!!)
- Untouchable is a hip hop duo (I'm not sure which two made up this duo)
- One of the three guys in this clip reminds me of David Choi!! (who's coming for a little tour at MY campus! [I'm not going though >.< even though I'd love to ])
-They shot this MV in Hong Kong ( found this out from a comment on YouTube =D )

p/s: the guy with the moustache really needs to get rid of it =] (Top rated comment under the vid on YouTube XD)

I have. Long hair.

Its a WIG!

Not as long as this. Or as straight but still LONG.

And lately....its really bothering me >[

It curls up at the end and because my hair is not of even length....I look like a mess.

And I hate tying my hair up. (It makes my head looks weird. =S)

Which sucks more because the weather is pathetic.(Today especially. Its freaking hot. Like seriously!)

I don't remember having long hair was such a bother.. I forgot how I dealt with the annoying curls while I was 14 in form 2. Now it drives me crazy! argh!

(I chopped them off when I was 15 and started leaving it long after I turned 18)

I had the subject Uni Life on Wednesday...Its sort of a .... personal development class...and the first homework was to write at least 2 challenges that I was expecting to face currently in my life.

I straight away had everything figured out, what to write, the anonymity symbol I'd use but I just couldn't get my self started on writing it. *sigh*

gone with the wind~

amazing

2011-05-04T21:56:00.001+08:00

My netbook crashed =D

The emoticon is seriously wrong =] because who in their right mind would be smiling like that when their netbook/laptop/any electronic device crashed. But I was neither upset nor ecstatic about it...I'm just terribly confused like "huh?" But I will say its totally my fault, I must've done some "amazing" thing to cause it to crash....I have no idea what but since i'm the only user its only wise to say its my fault. I don't think the manufacturer or the brand is at any fault at all =] (can someone just get it fixed >.<)

Hm...Its probably a virus?

I have a lot of plans for this semester =S And after my first day back at campus today, it seems that there was more obstacles than meets the eye. I'll stay strong to overcome them =S And to achieve my aim (nothing to do with academic) >.< ugh!! I need to toughen up >.<

*sigh* just my first day back and I'm already let down by someone...I'll stay positive!

Day#7 & #8

2011-04-27T14:06:00.001+08:00

~2 days in a post~

I went out with the same person for these two days XD but we did different stuff =]

On day #7 We went to this place that starts with a P and as soon as we arrived we went to get tickets for a movie~ We watched Scre4m and FYI it was 11:30am .

To refrain myself from scaring myself I chose one without a face.

PLEASE TAKE NOTE:

I DO NOT see myself qualify to review this movie but I'm doing it anyway....no bashing =S

It was the first show and there wasn't even much people around....when the show started there was only 10 people inside the whole hall....Plus the fact that we couldn't get popcorn just sucked =[ All the counter we went was still closed. -.- I wonder what time did they get in....When the first show was as early as 11 or 11:30 and you couldn't even get a simple popcorn ready for sale is just stupid and ridiculous. =[ Plus I was going to watch a horror movie. >[ Which I'd either get bored with or get scared by it, the popcorn just had. to. be. there.

Back to the movie....I think it deserves a 2.5 leh...even though i've read from the newspaper that it's just worth a 1 But then the paper was all about comparing it with the first, second and third movie....And I have not watched them all. I'm not much of a horror fan so I almost never purposely go for a horror flick. And this was like my second horror flick in the cinema. I think its just another classic horror flick with a plot and killer and the final revelation of the killer had honestly caught me off guard. It had some cool cast too...Hayden Penettiere as Kirby, and the person that plays Sidney the main character and also the person that plays Jill's mum(she just made me felt familiar), which after much brain wrecking thought I think she starred in Battlestar Galactica (some Sci-fi series). I think the movie was honestly okay despite alot people saying it sucked....I was frightened a lot throughout the movie, mainly because it was a horror flick and I should just let the expected/unexpected stuff scare me.

Day #8

Went to another mall today~ With the intent to SHOP!

Its a form of therapy ; )

And I bought some stuffs~^^

Clockwise: A beige pouch~
A cardigan
And a T-shirt =]

We both bought the exact same t-shirt XDD I also bought a little something for my mum as her birthday prezzie~<3 hope she likes it ^^

And we had an awesome lunch XD

Carl's Jr~

The fries, as always was awesome ^^

Spent a little too much today though I just bought a little stuff =S Need to earn money badly T~T

Today was fun ^^

Went back to campus today too, to check out the twinning programs stuff >.< but the person-in-charge wasn't in...so I left my contacts with someone there (I was told to do so) so she could contact me when she gets back =S hopefully it's not too late because I'll be starting my first degree year in like next Monday >[ I'm going to give her the whole of my tomorrow(which FYI is my orientation day 1, but I'm skipping =P like all the other ppl are =S) to contact me and if there's still no news I'm going to drop by on Thursday ( orientation day 2 XD) got to get all these things clear =S

~weeeee~

Day #6

2011-04-24T17:02:00.001+08:00

I got lazy yesterday XD

I went out with a friend yesterday and we were just hanging out at the mall =] Nothing much so there wasn't anything to update yesterday~ I didn't even go on Facebook ._. must've been exhausted.

There was nothing much for yesterday but today~ I'm gonna buy my family dinner =D We're heading out to this place that sells western food. =] This was actually for my younger bro that came out of National Service recently, but we just haven't got time and now we're finally going to get it =] And with my mum's birthday just around the corner we're treating this dinner as a sort of celebration for her too~ ^^

steak~<3

~got to get ready now~

Day #4

2011-04-22T23:15:00.002+08:00

-getting hectic now-

=S

This morning the sky was bright early. Just right to take a pic using my not so good quality 3 mega pixel camera of my phone. I wanted to take a pic to enter this contest that a YouTube celebrity made.

I checked the vid like 3 or 4 times just to make sure and I did NOT hear him say any deadline. PLUS there was actually a location at Malaysia and its so friggin NEAR my house. This was the thing I referred to in my previous post. This is the thing that I'd have to be stupid to have missed it. So I took this chance! I went down to the where the map told me to and look for the sticker. It was GONE =[

I was emo-ed T~T

*sigh*
At least I gave it a try =]

And I decided to camwhore on the way to my mum's shop XD

Anticlockwise: (1)ooohh am I at the beach? It's so sunny
(2) It would be cool if I really am "hm~"
(3) Look what the sun did to my complexion~I look so fair XD

And then I went to practise my driving at my brother's campus, where happens to have a vast unused area (more like abandoned) with some obstacles so I could practise turning and stuffs. At the end of the "lesson": I'd hit a car if I were to try reverse parking. And I couldn't get the clutch feel. (I'm driving a manual.) The engine died twice while I was remaining stationary trying to move on a slightly sloped area. It didn't die any other time while I was practising to how park and moving on a straight road and turns and on a more slanted slope.

Dream car?

And then I met up with an awesome High school friend XD my "daughter" XD We hungout at the air-conditioned study room for about 45 mins and then went back home~ It was short lived and we just talked about stuffs XD Hope we could hangout at the mall soon~ >.<

-I got my netbook But I forgot to document the grand opening of it XD So there's no pic to show =P (I'm just obviously being lazy ) But just so you know I'm blogging with it now. (My first Blog post using my Netbook~<3)-

~<3

-Someone made a Promise with me today o~ "You better not break it!!"-

Day #3

2011-04-21T09:13:00.002+08:00

I'm going to share something with you =]

Please do give it a listen =] and take note of the lyrics =] I think the lyrics are amazing =D (if you couldn't catch what they were rapping you could go to YouTube directly and check this song out, the lyrics are at the description box =D ) I wish i could leech off on this pride =D But i think it's mainly aimed for Asian Americans =]

No blasting music through headphones today =S The netbook was supposed to arrive =S I wouldn't want to miss it =S

I wish mine were as cool as this pair >.<

Hadn't had breakfast >.< *sigh* no idea what to eat =S It's like i've tried everything nearby....that nothing is worth the extra work to get it =S Not to mention that there's nothing left at home that I could even cook (Plus i'm not supposed to leave the house until the netbook arrive....=[ *sigh*)

Yesterday while i was doing my final net browsing before deciding to go to bed I stumbled upon something amazing =O And I thought...This could be my big break =D But i'd have to leave the house to give this a shot. But I can't leave the house. And none of my other siblings wanna help me > [ This chance is within a grasp's reach and I'd be stupid to let it go....No matter what I say I'd still have to wait for the netbook to come before I leave the house....But time is of the essence, I might be too late then....=[ Shesh Why is chance and life contradicting each other? =/

If they contradict each other would I lose the other?

Day #2

2011-04-20T13:22:00.000+08:00

~2nd day of holiday~

Wanna know what I had for breakfast? =D I had some dark chocolate with a cup of carbonated drink XD I was stuffed =S with just three pieces of choc (actually I got full on my first one =S but I took the whole thing out from the fridge and because there was just three pieces I thought I should just finish it =S) I feel awful now =S and indecisive on that i should eat later >.<

I'm just so capable of taking care of myself ; D I so wanna move out and live alone(or maybe with some roomies) >.< There's nothing wrong with my current place, except that I feel like I need to break away from my....shell? To obtain something mentally a physical action is needed to make it more apparent =D I'll probably move out after degree =S I think it's really late because I'd be like...too-old-to-live-with-my-parents age at that time XD Maybe on my 2nd year =D

Malaysia....

Recently some articles have reported that our beloved country here is pricey to live in. They even provided examples, which given the fact that I'm still on my final years on being a teenager I have no idea how to prove if it's true or even care if it's true but if it's true we're totally screwed! Compared to other countries we have poor purchasing power. You know what that means? It means the money we earn (annually) is literally barely enough to cover our expenses. Which means the pay rate in our country is LOW and the items are priced too HIGH. How can we live here >[ The government should make a change! Somebody should do something about this >[

Don't say the above is not related to us, we live here...and we're the victims. =S I really wanted to head out overseas =] It's not that I think it's better there (even thought it's a proven fact that it is) I just wanted to get away from here. This statement sounded like anywhere will do as long as its not here but that's not true, I have places I would NOT like to live in, but the others would be cool. *sigh*

I need a plan to earn money >[ Nothing is easy here and I think every success is short lived here. =S The first thing I'd do when I have money is not leave though =] Plus i'm not business oriented =S How do i make money?? Some country have it better...It's not conservative as it is here and the generation is not as diverse as it is here....Most of our generation is still very...narrow minded...in some ways. The fact that some ppl are showing that they are not as conservative as it seems does not make them less narrow minded ( I think this two issues are related.) Some people are still incapable of accepting some new quirky ways things work right now. Which brings the whole country down because it limits the whole generation! (?) (I don't even know what i'm saying XD)

~ Will I be able to earn enough money before my 2nd year? =[~

Positivity

2011-04-19T20:09:00.001+08:00

-I realized that i've been real negative lately-

Well it's not just lately but my whole blog is filled with negativity. BUT I'm gonna change that =] Negativity is not good =S So referring to the title of my post! I'mma be more optimistic now =]

This change of attitude is probably because of my sem break =D and guess what~ I finally finished my FOUNDATION year!! It's not much of an achievement because i'm still lagging behind a lot of my old high school mates....If only i started earlier....But then again let's move on =]

This is my SHORTEST sem break EVER! I think. Because I hear orientation is next Thursday. But I'm still psyched I'm having my sem break =D even though it's like so uber crazy short. ; ] So, I should ring some ppl up for hangouts =D I should put my time to good use =d because when i start degree....maybe i'll get pessimistic again XD lols Let's make a vow here XD I'll TRY to be an OPTIMIST no matter what FOR A WHOLE YEAR. =]

I've been spending today, my first day of holiday at home, in front of the computer, browsing for videos. For hours! And since it was all comedic stuff I literally lmao. But it was boring at home. and i also realized i desperately need some sunshine and exercise =S

I keep feeling like i have to wrap things up, like put a conclusion or something because its like my last foundation semester and like i need to do something about it 0.o And also because of this i'm having a lot of plans, to take up some sports, to change myself to be a better person, to do well in my future studies, to do some outrageous thing that you wouldn't believe me even if i told you! Life suddenly feel so short that i have to have fun with it.

So this is all for now...I'm still having outrageous plans in my head right now that seem so absurd XDDDD Enjoy your life =]

One more thing =DDDD I'm expecting my mail delivered netbook this week =D i'm not really a huge fan of this model my bro helped me ordered but he kept pressuring me >[ because my father kept urging me to get one >[ so like yea it was a random pick (actually it's the exact same model of my bro's netbook, mine is just a different color, plus it's not shiny =[[[[, but i'll totally heart it =D i have plans for it ; ] I hope it lives up to my expectation =D ) It's supposed to arrive at like Wednesday or Thursday =D i could totally update more with a netbook =D

~<3

Tools

2011-04-08T14:09:00.002+08:00

-Tools come in real handy when you need them -

And apparently i am one.

I helped at the first placed because She asked (like some despo) and I don't feel like studying(finals are around the corner, as a matter of fact this Saturday).

I take notes in class because there was something on the board and it seemed disrespectful if i don't copy it down. Which means if i totally hate the lecturer i won't give a sh!t about crap He wrote on the board. I'm not a good student because I don't go for classes on time. Whether or not it was the delay of the shuttle bus, I could've chosen to take a taxi if i wanted to be early. Which i never once did. They're a waste of a resource i lack greatly, money.

I hate that some ppl shamelessly ask the wrong questions to the wrong person. How would someone like me always has answers to your questions? For god's sake, We're both selfish people. But I wish you'd just respect me some more. Like i did you. It's the freaking least you should effing do.

I fell sick two days ago. On my first day off from classes and i think my body just couldn't get used to the heat (I know it's hot as hell EVERYDAY, but when i'm in college i'm subjected to air conditioning almost constantly.) And I think my body is really sensitive to temperatures, i need a jacket even though it was just a chill to 98% of the population. On my first day of falling ill, I woke up feeling like i've been HIT by a CAR. My joints are aching so badly it's hard to even move. I got up eventually and went out with my mum. After breakfast she told me to get some rest and see how. So i did. and i woke up feeling a tiny bit better but still awful. So my mum brought me to the doctor's. On the ride there. She turned on the air conditioner. and i IMMEDIATELY felt my temperature drop. and felt A LOT better but not completely well. I didn't tell my mum.

Let me explain the behavior of my mum. (I'm sure she seems nonchalant about me being sick, don't tell me you haven't picked up my subtle signs of implying this ._.) She thinks it's just the usual thing i go through. Because apparently, i really do fall sick every time i'm about to have exams. and she knew i don't drink much water. And i'm the one who frequents the doctor among my other siblings. which means i'm the one with the weakest immune system compared to any living thing. Therefore she was being skeptical from the start.

The doctor said i'm DRY. He didn't emphasize on this but in my head his words bring a huge impact and i'm immediately in denial and mentally objecting this absurd theory. I got my meds and my mum dropped me home. I fell asleep immediately when i got to my bed.

I also felt that me being ill at this bad timing made me in an very cranky mode. I have mood swings constantly. And I'm not one who would control it. Of course when i'm outside facing people i'll tone down but if i'm at home i'll just lash out ignorantly. I'm not really spoiled but the only time i get heard was when i'm being unreasonable.

I should study. NOT!

2011-03-15T20:41:00.000+08:00

-I suppose i only blog when i'm emo.-

I'm sorry but i didn't mean to. It just so happens that on this very period that i've been away the few happy moments i had are short lived and recently (more like today) i got up on the wrong side of the bed.

Nothing goes well. Like today for instance. I'm not someone who shows that i care on a daily basis or ever. But i really do. My brain is just real occupied by myself. Not that i'm only worrying about myself, or that i'm a narcissist, I just think of a lot. And more often the not it revolves around people around me. My head just goes through all the tiny details over and over again, thinking what went wrong( if we had a fight) or what should i surprise you with today(if i have the time to think of you) or what were our last conversation and how should i start this next one. Yes apparently my head just love doing these petty precautionary steps. Because words can hurt some people.

watch what you say.

Words are a form of communication. They get your message out. And more or less there would be a reaction and apparently I have the tendency OVERREACT. I get real hurt by JUST WORDS. I mean. You have a brain right? why not use it to think through your words and carefully bring out your meaning. There's no need to be offensive and hurt someone else's feelings. You're not just being insensitive. You're being rude. A barbarian that acts without thinking and barbarian way of thinking should extinct. Because you won't survive in this world if that's how your brain works. It's just so frustrating that even at this era. Some people are still so... under-evolved. I would say this particular person is retarded (no offence).

~i'm being skinned alive by lab reports, assignments, presentation, and midterms (Finals are pretty soon) at these few weeks, so....I'm sorry to be leaving this blog un-updated for another long period of time. It's my final foundation sem. Bear with me please T^T.

Last semester.

2011-01-14T15:56:00.003+08:00

I have come to made a hypothesis of my last semester.

Based on the few things i will mention below I am deducing that my last foundation semester IS going to be a HARD one.

as a side note i need to explain to you what PASS is, it stands for Peer Assisted Study Session. They select subjects with HIGH FAILING rate and opens a class, conducted by a senior, so it's a great help to us since, a senior has probably JUST gone through the subject and KNOWS the hardship of the subjects, so it's easier to nail down the problem and eliminate it.

So then. For Physics and Calculus. Some ppl from PASS came in at the end of class and recruited us. Which means high failing rate for the two classes lorh(which means it'll be blardy hard lorh =[ )....But the classes just started...both subjects until chapter 2 only....how i know if i don't know the other chapters and only needs help then o....They have a registration dateline, so now, torn between going or not going lorh =[

Why does Physics and Calculus has to be in my last semester TOGETHER =[[[[[[[[

Calculus is derived from the word hard?

Physics makes no sense?

Update.

2011-01-12T20:03:00.001+08:00

I finished my first book. Well...it was weird. I think the author is obsessed with huge age gapped love relationships. And the plot was so twisted, the ending was stupid.

And so my new semester starts. I am pretty much still not in the mood to study, i think. Because there's no other explanation to my reluctance in accepting what is thought in lectures =[ For this semester....i can feel the pressure....i think i put a great amount of it on myself....and i hadn't ever did that. Which makes every thing....slow...>.< and ihateslowthingsbecausei'mnotsomeonewithpatience. and i was made leader of my bio lab group. and today i found out what the catch was for the extra 1 mark for being the leader. ( i was late for class and in such a blur i accepted.) So many responsibilities leh....(If it was the old me i'd just do it and not think much but since I'm giving myself alot pressure, i think of all the things i have to do and become like this>>>>>@.@) I'm so gonna freak out. =[ AND read below:

ShuyiW Jan 7, 2011 1:22 am

Hello, my name is Shuyi.
Would be taking Biotechnology for my degree. I'm fairly interested in Biology but my grades on this subjects weren't really great all along(still pretty shocked by my Gen.Bio1 result). Would try my best to score well on this subject with your guidance =]

His reply:

Shu Yi: I hope you can repeat your good performance and achieve your record breaking A+ in my subject. (FYI: no one else has achieved an A+ for Gen Bio 2)

~end~

You should've guessed that ShuyiW is ME and it's a requirement to post what i did as an introduction of myself to my Bio lecturer and so that was what i typed and my Kor helped me spell and grammar checked.

and then my lecturer's reply was so shocking.....I felt immense pressure right after i finished reading it....

Did i typed something wrong? T~T

and something happened in between larh...before he gave his reply there was a really long period of silence (i submitted real early and he only goes through them probably on the dateline or a few days later) And in that long period of silence, an education fair was held in KLCC which i went with some friends. and we talked face to face. I had no intention of making it known that i was his student and i was playing a role of a translator for my friend to communicate to him. But in the end i spilled the beans and he went>>> 0.0. And since then He Made It a point to remember my face and name. =[ And then i was late for his class for the 2nd time.

pressure pressure pressure =[

For this semester, my final semester, it feels like everything is gonna be hard. I have to work extra hard. =[ I'm already starting to worry =[ I failed to get the time slot for my desired tutorial group. I already feel like a failure.

Yes, i do feel ignored. =[

books ; ]

2010-12-08T20:15:00.002+08:00

I love reading, it's somehow empowering (?) XD

When I went shopping with my mum and bro i also got a couple of books from the bookstore ^^ Which i'm going to share below~:
Book#1:

Her Fearful Symmetry by Audrey Niffenegger

but i prefer this cover better >.<

Book #2:

The Left Hand of God by Paul Hoffman

Book #3:

Girl in The Woods by Jennifer McMahon

Book #4:

City of Thieves by Cyrus Moore

I stumble upon these books randomly =] I was mainly looking for books that are not in a series. It just so so so tiring to be chasing the next episode, and usually It starts off nice and in the end it turns crappy =[ (like that awesome book with the You-know-which-guy ending up with the wrong girl, Ginny ) So I kinda developed a phobic on series.

The books i chose this time are more of the creepy, thriller style XD I can't wait to get started =DDDDD

So much been going on recently...and just yesterday around 7pm I got a call from my dad saying that my uncle(my father's younger brother) has passed away at around 5 pm. Will be going to the ceremony later and on Friday there's gonna be the sending-off ceremony thing. And Thursday, I'mma die because of Chemistry =[ Started revising but i'm still procrastinating. on Chapter 1. I'm hopeless =[

-RIP-

Recently...

2010-12-07T15:30:00.000+08:00

-I'm having my finals =] -

And I'm here being reluctant to study and blogging =D Things just got so boring between me and the book, there was just no chemistry XD Which is the subject I'm supposed to be studying cuz I'll be having it on this Thursday and I haven't even started on a single thing on it. =[ It's hopeless, the lecturer is a newbie, She's got no freaking idea how to teach, and frankly speaking I haven't really learned anything =[ AND chemistry is my WORST subject =[ I can't afford to fail. But i can't study myself because I have no idea what the hell it is =[ No matter how i study.

So anyway =DD there's a total of 4 days for my finals, and Day 2 has just passed, so I have done Malaysian Studies, Algebra & Trigonometry and Computing Studies, 3 out of 5 of my subjects this semester. Didn't think i did well on Algebra =[ yesterday, so i was kinda sad yesterday night >.< But i got over it this morning XD It was all my fault =[ *sigh* I went shopping with my younger bro and mom the day before to buy my bro his prom clothes. and my mom bought me some stuffs too XD Thanks mum! <3

Yay to shopping XD

Don't you just feel good when you're out shopping? I just feel real bad about using my mum's money >.< So I told her to get it from our joint account(made when i was still very very young) after my paycheck got through =D I'm such a spender >.< the money i've earned will be spent before i even save enough to get the iPod Touch I'm craving~ >.< That day I went to check the price, and till this day, it stands a pricey RM 1,079 . And i'm quitting after this month.

I needs money lots T~T

Fail =[

2010-11-02T19:42:00.001+08:00

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My math paper is etched with careless mistakes =[[[[[[[ I wanna get full marks T~T The question are so freaking easy and if i still get them wrong it'll be the second freaking time I lost mark because of careless mistake =[ And the fact that it's because of a stupid careless mistake is even worse than not effing know how to do =[

There's probably a lot going through my mind. Like worrying whether my phone will be stolen because i left my bag outside the exam hall.(From what i was reminded, and just from the day before, a lot of ppl has lost their phone just like that.) But then again I feel like I'm finding excuses to cover up for my mistakes. Which made me blame myself even more for my mistakes =[ If only I've choose to ignore my nagging feeling of my phone might be at the rick of being stolen and stayed and stared at my answer, i'm sure i'd find my mistake =[

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Why can't i just score a perfect score for once =[ argh!!!! It's not like I care so much about the marks. I don't used to be like this =[ Careless mistakes are unforgivable. And i want an A for my freaking maths. Because I'm pretty damn sure i couldn't get A for the other subjects.

And lastly

2010-10-31T20:44:00.000+08:00

It's almost two months of a hiatus period 0.0

I guess there's just not too much to update about >.< Assignments and lab reports coming and going, my life has been pretty much boring >.< But then again I've been doing this part-time job, selling ice-cream(gelato to be exact). Which would prolly get me killed if my dad were to ever find out about it =D The pay is RM5 per hour...which i think is quite little. So imma search for another one too. I'm not really sure why i wanna work. If I don't work it's not like I wouldn't have enough money to spend or I feel guilty(or whatever that feeling is) for asking money from my parents. I'm working just to fill my time... And the more i work the more i feel like spending it on luxuries. As in things i don't really need and are just there for show. It's tempting to spend money when you have it =[ And the greed for more money creeps in with it as well =[ I started making a list of what i want instead of the more realistic what i need.

Should i find another job that pays more? Or should I just focus on my studies?

2010-09-05T21:27:00.002+08:00

I've watched another movie in the past week, it's called Repo Men.

Because the trip was spontaneous and so the movie was randomly chosen. A little because there was Jude Law larh =P

But i would not recommend nor rate this movie. Because it left me hanging. I felt weird after watching it....You could take a go at this film....at your own risk.

The film made me felt a little nauseous and like i wasn't ready for something like this. Not like nauseous because of disgusting more like for an unexplained cause. And the ending was....not as i expected so it made me felt like i wasn't ready for this type of movie. and I was WRONG for watching this movie because of Jude Law.

And then i read the book

It left me hanging again(as in sort of confused). I just finished the book yesterday(after reading it for 3 days, 2 to be strict if you're counting in hours) and with a lot of things to blog about but right now. after 13 hours of sleep ( and i slept at around 1 am and i was surprised I freaking slept for so long >.<) I seem to forgot what i wanna say. The book was not a bad read. It was made into a movie. I'm not sure if i would watch. I couldn't pinpoint what i felt after reading it. You could also give the book a try =] but I think the setting was in Sweden, so the names and places are hard to....read.

So two weird happenings. that left me hanging this week.

Films.

2010-08-29T11:54:00.002+08:00

Went for some films lately because of sem break and finally being able to hang out with some people.

Watched the ever awesome Inception

Great cast ; ] The plot was intriguing and very much confusing but all in all it's a great show =D

8 out of 10 though.

Watched Vampires suck too.

and like the name of it, it sucked too. total waste of money. There were some funny moments. but it's all shown in the trailer. And probably because some idiots sitting somewhere around me kept going "what the..." (she seriously stopped at the.) and some idiot were laughing when the humour point wasn't even shown. -.- I spent my time feeling like killing them. So I'll raise the rating from a 3 to say....3.5 XD

3 3.5 out of 10.

Watched Salt too.

Nice classic story. Action packed to say the least. Very twisted, a good watch =] The ending was a surprise to me not that I hadn't expected that. I was focused on the great acting of the cast, they really lead you throughout the whole thing with a sense of attraction and curiosity.

8.5 out of 10 ; ]

Watched Grown Ups

This is also another classic =] very heart warming, the ending that is. It's a real comedy =] and I find it pleasing that Adam Sandler wasn't overly dramatic with his acting (unlike Jim carrey, is that even acting??) Which gave this show it's whole subtle comedic value =D and of course the cast was also a great one =D

9 out of 10 =]

And now something personal about my life.

At around 8 something yesterday night someone sent me a text to ask me something and since i've changed a new phone I've totally lost all the old numbers that used to exist in my contacts and I AM STUPID to not save the numbers in my sim card. But I was polite enough to try not to offend said person and ask about their identity.

I told my mom. And after a moment of silence she said it was my fault. AND I wasn't even blaming anyone for this whole ordeal. And I admit I was stupid not the save the numbers but do I need to hear that from her -.- That's why I always say we can't communicate. -.- and She said I was trying to distance myself from this family. I was offended. It's a normal trait for a typical middle child larh. Go google -.- and I wasn't really offended. It just sounds weird out loud. And about the phone number thing. She said it was my shitty fault for not remembering who that number belongs to. And I was like "So I was supposed to remember the numbers for the whole of my contacts?" I didn't know that my brain was supposed to be used in this way -.- And it's a whole lot of numbers, not that I'm in constant interaction with them but I just so happen to have them.

And after 12 hours and counting. I've still got no reply from said person. =.=