nah, i am pretty sure she still fucking hates me (hey isnt that a papa roach's song?).
i think the 'missing her' part only gets worse when I started my new job/life here in Toronto. Alone, new company, new city, 0.321 friends, it gets kinda lonely here and can't help wondering what life would have been if I'd been good to her.
keep thinking 'what if this', 'what if that' and before you know it I'm already half way through all the Celine Dions' records. So much for 'Life is simple, you make decision and never look back'. Never look back my ass.
it's ok. i'll be allright. she will be allright. everyone moves on. even jerks move on. Just a Rambo living in a pink pony world.
whilst not on the same sorta token, two years back i never really got over a chick who I thought was perfect. We were both 24 back then and she moved across several oceans for a job. Drank myself to sleep at one stage in that part of my life and really didnt know how I got thorough work and post grad studies unscathed.
We basically did everything a couple, heck married couple did behind closed doors whilst she wanted us to act like friends (no hand holding) in public/in front of our mates. Anyway, push came to shove and she ditched me - ironically for not going public about it all... it was a fuck up...but nevertheless on both ends I think!
On the bit about "out of your league" what do you mean specifically? Maturity wise? Career wise? Earning potential? etc.? If anything is to go by, there is a phase of this mentatily I believe in a lot of guys...probably more so Asian guys due to lack of mental strength and negative thinking instilled by years of Asian parenting.
I too experienced this...everything she did was just magic and golden and I seemed like a bloody commoner next to this queen I had created. After the break up, I still held these thoughts...only time erased all this, the next women I met were just as equal if not better than she was and today, I still think shes above average but no where near what i thought she was back then...