Watching Dr Phil's Scary Skinny show on YouTube, I was struck by a statement he made after a 24 year old girl with anorexia said she knew she had to get better or die, he said 'You know it logically not emotionally'
Many times I have said I have to stop, have to recover, there is far more to life than an eating disorder, my diary is filled with the same sentences over and over, saying how pathetic it is, I'm 25 and can't eat a meal without purging but I KNOW I can.
Maybe logically knowing it isn't enough; eating disorders take over everything, you are fighting with yourself everyday.
Dr Phil Addressed 3 women from 12 to 24 with Anorexia and bulimia and what scared me most - I'm older than the oldest on the show. But like them I feel I am ready to change. I've posted 2 video's of the programme to show what bulimia actually is.
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This post really hit home for me because I struggle with the same thing. In my personal journal, I write over and over about this gulf between what I know intellectually and what I believe emotionally. I like to tell myself I'm a rational creature, but the truth is I act mostly out of emotion. I'm far less likely to act on something I don't believe emotionally.
For instance, I know that eating regularly, eating healthy foods, not bingeing and purging, etc. is what I should be doing. I know it is within my control to stop my ED behaviors. But do I believe it, on a core level? No, I don't, and that's why I struggle with it every day.
My biggest goal is figuring out some way to integrate my logic and emotion. Here's to both of us being able to figure it out.
"You know it logically not emotionally"
That's a wonderful statement. I've tried to explain that sentiment before and never been able to find the right words for it...saying just that I KNOW but don't FEEL.
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