JUSTINELEMENT PRODUCTIONS BLOG

Sheila + Cecil || Wedding Photos || The Modern, Long Beach

JUSTINELEMENT — Fri, 29 May 2020 21:54:13 +0000

Day 19 – My home hasn’t been cleaner, I feel like during this quarantine its either that or the opposite. Starting to organize life a bit and it feels good.

Roxy + Aaron || Wedding Photos || Newhall Mansion, Piru

JUSTINELEMENT — Thu, 28 May 2020 22:11:02 +0000

Day 18 – Not gonna lie, I skipped about 20 days there as I dipped on social media a bit. It’s been a good 3 weeks since I posted really, the time away has helped me figure out things and really get my head straight from all that has passed these last couple months. I’m ready to go into a very busy fall and winter coming up and also ready for the new endeavors coming my way. We also introduced a new puppers to our family, Tohru, a black and brown yorkie terrier mix who is extremely loving and sweet to us. Our wedding in June is also officially postponed to an indefinite date and we are starting to receive refunds from alot of our vendors, (flights proving to still be a problem) but things will work out. Im sure by the time I’m fully caught up with these blog posts we’ll be back on track.

Here is a wedding I did last summer in Piru, CA – Roxy and Aaron were great and we partied hard with them afterwards. I think I even lost my jacket that night haha

Anita + Will || Wedding Photos || Castaway, Burbank

JUSTINELEMENT — Sat, 09 May 2020 03:43:43 +0000

Day 17 – Went grocery shopping for the first time in a long while today. Thanks to everyone who has been sending food over and groceries. Its been really fun playing Chopped in my kitchen figuring out how to make different food with 5 different ingredients :)

Jorel’s Family Photos 2009-2019

JUSTINELEMENT — Thu, 07 May 2020 22:23:23 +0000

Day 16 – It’s been one month now since Jorel left us. Before he was intubated, he insisted he felt fine and it wasn’t anything crazy. So in the two weeks after he told us “farewell” since he was going to be sedated – where we were completely helpless from seeing him or even talking to him – I struggled every day with why he wasn’t getting better. On the morning of the worse day of my life, I was told Jorel is in heaven. I didn’t believe it, i had to wait for my dad to say the words out loud even while he was crying, and even then it didn’t make any sense. He can’t be dead, your brother isn’t supposed to die, not before you raise your kids together, grow your business together, have guys nights out and bbqs together, not before you play basketball when we’re 60 and 65 and I beat you, you can’t die, your brother is supposed to grow old with you. He’s not supposed to die. Those following days I’ve been on autopilot, all while hypersensitive to every moment that relates to my brothers final weeks with us, what he was thinking, where he was going, what he meant when he said farewell, or why he did certain things, ill never know the answers, but I’ll find myself driving the road he drove on the way to the hospital and how he thought he’d be driving that road home after a couple hours after his visit where he thought he’d just get some medicine. What he was thinking, If he was lonely, if he was afraid even though he truly didn’t seem like it. Every day has been bland and tasteless and I’m going through the motions. And although I know time will heal all things, (Believe me I know, and I have an amazing support group of friends and family) in all truth and emotional fatigue, this is really just about how much this just sucks, not just for me but for everyone that was close to Jorel, all of us who were left behind by anyone because of this virus, its not right, its not right and its not going to get easier, for a while, it just sucks. And I’m okay with that.

With that being said, I miss my brother dearly, here are a few photos I took from the years once he started his family. He was one of my first models :)