My 21st birthday, 1991.

I miss her voice.

I plan to add more to it as I remember! So keep checking back!

BEST CURLING IRON!! It’s called HOT TOOLS!!! 

My hair supplements: UPDATED!  Sugar Bear Hair and Biosil hair and nails! 

These are the GG bran crisps Tanya Zuckerbrot of the F-factor diet recommends. They work!!!

I love this lip tint by Trish McEvoy.

I use this mascara every day. And this Eyeliner by Charlotte Tilbury. 

One of the sweatpant brands I love and talked about with Katherine Hahn is Sundry.

I love my Peloton Bike! It’s a game changer in exercise. FOR REAL. 

This pasta pot rules! 

These D’s Naturals “No Cow” bars are amazing. Same nutritional breakdown as a quest bar but VEGAN!!!! 

and this D’s Naturals “Fluffbutter” is also SO GOOD! 

I put this in my coffee every morning! 

My favorite reading glasses!

Both my brother Brian Koppelman and smarty pants Tim Ferriss recommend “The Artist’s Way” specifically the concept of morning pages.  I have this journal and will start using it. I WILL! 

Best dog feeder puzzles!!! Harriet Hutt loves the little reddish/pink one! 

Best nail top coat ever is Seche Vite! It’s the only top coat I use.  And typically I wear Luxedo polish… Always dark on my nails! 

Two lip balm/colors I love: Jane Iredale and this Revlon chubby stick!

OK! That’s it for now, but I do plan to add/update this list!
xo

Dr. Drew on Ben Affleck’s 2 week rehab stint:
“We don’t know what happened but he’s (Ben) talking about it matter of factly, Gd bless him! Just like if he said he went in and got his appendix out. That’s absolutely how people should approach this. It’s like “Hey, I’m getting care, I’m moving on, I’m going to make some movies..” or whatever it is! It’s just part of his medical management. And he had a crisis, a slip, a whatever, and he’s talking about it. Good for him!
There’s no better way to reduce stigma and shame then to have medical treatment of addiction take its place along side of other medical treatment.”

Audio Here!

In an all new EXCLUSIVE SIRIUSXM radio ‘Just Jenny’ interview with SiriusXM host Jenny Hutt, ‘This Is Us’ star Chrissy Metz reveals her outrage at the body shaming that takes place in Hollywood. The actress also discusses the importance of plus-sized women in the business. Check out the interview from SiriusXM ‘Just Jenny’ below. (AUDIO available at the link)  

On the plus size actresses who came before her:

Chrissy Metz: …Melissa McCarthy, Gabby Sidibe, Rebel Wilson all the women who are unconventional or “plus size” if you will, curvy, all of that, they’re like pioneering this way that art is finally catching up to life. And women and people alike are seeing themselves on TV and in movies.. and I love that with Melissa it is never an issue about her weight, it’s like “you’re freaking hilarious and talented let’s talk about that.” So eventually I think that will happen for me. And right now I think it’s so important that we’re having these conversations because when you’re knowledgeable about something the fear goes away, and so many people are like afraid of fat people.
It’s crazy and I hate to say that but until we educate people, until we figure out what the real issue is people are going to be afraid of it. So I am so happy and grateful that those women and men alike, although it’s much it’s much more acceptable for men to be overweight.

Jenny Hutt: Have you met Melissa McCarthy?

Chrissy Metz: I haven’t met Melissa yet!

On body shaming fat and thin actors and performers:

Jenny Hutt: When you see too thin actors or models what do you think?

Chrissy Metz: Right, so it’s the other side of an issue, a disorder a problem. It’s concerning because it’s more about the mental, being unhealthy mentally and emotionally. That’s what’s concerning. I don’t know their plight, I don’t know their issues and it’s very easy to say “oh she’s too skinny” or you hear people say that I’m too fat or I’m too whatever. So I would hope that there’s conversations about it. Hopefully it’s not an issue… I know Kesha was given so much grief about her weight, and like she looks great! Leave her alone. And she’s healthy.

Jenny Hutt: What about Lady GaGa’s being fat shamed at the superbowl?

Chrissy Metz: Ok, THAT made me bonkers, bananas, crazy. How is someone fat if they’re not fat? I want to see someone else get on that damn stage and do what she did! … I think what happens and really what the core of the issue is that we project all of our stuff and our crap onto other people. And if we’re really really genuinely happy with ourselves and love ourselves, you can’t talk sh#* about other people. You can’t be hateful because you love yourself. And we are extensions of each other. We are all connected.

Best celebrity encounters:

Chrissy Metz: Recently Niecy Nash approached me at the Golden Globes and we’re friends and we’ve had lunch and she’s so talented and just a genuine person. Kerry Washington runs by and she’s like “I love you!” Reese Witherspoon She’s like “My daughter and I watch your show, we love you!” Mandy (Moore) and I were at a dinner together, Nicole Kidman is like “Congratulations!”…

To hear audio highlight’s of the Siriusxm interview listen here.

The longer the time without you, the more gratitude I have for the time I spent with you.

I look in the mirror and you’re there. I talk to people and it’s your voice that comes out of my mouth.

I see you. I hear you.

Oh how I miss you.

Happy Birthday Mommy.

I love you.

Katie Holmes new movie “All We Had.”

Katie Holmes stopped by SiriusXM’s Just Jenny show to talk with Jenny Hutt about Katie’s directorial debut of her feature film “All We Had.” During the exclusive interview airing today on SiriusXM Stars channel 109, Katie also talks Dawson’s Creek Reunion and which actors she’d love to direct, and her mommy-ing philosophy.

Some highlights of the interview below:

Jenny Hutt: Since you started directing…Who are three actors or actresses you’d just LOVE to work with?

Katie Holmes: Wow, I think Marion Coitillard, Al Pacino and Viola Davis….I watched “Panic In Needle Park” as a source of inspiration for “All We Had,” and he was just so good in it.

Jenny Hutt: When I said I was going to be talking to you again, people were like “Dawson’s Creek!” Reunion?! So any closer?

Katie Holmes: I don’t think we’re going to do a reunion.

Jenny Hutt: Oh, So sad!

Katie Holmes: I know,

Jenny Hutt: Do you still talk to anyone still from there (Dawson’s Creek) or you all just grew up?

Katie Holmes: We did grow up but we see each other every now and then and I think that the charm of the show was Kevin Williamson’s writing and it was of that time. And it gave teenagers this voice. It was a very very special time…special show. And I loved every minute of it.

Audio: Here.

My son.

As leader of his high school’s Democrat Club, my son Jacob Hutt was asked to share his thoughts after yesterday’s election results at a school assembly today.

With his permission, I am now sharing them with you.

“I have to be true to myself and say I am saddened by the results of the national election.

            However, to those who share my views, it’s ok to be sad but it is more important that you take this time for self-reflection and to heal wounds. Where you perceive an injustice, challenge it. But take this opportunity to understand why this happened, why half the country voted this way. Whether you feel that some of the words and actions of the President-elect were horrifying, irredeemable, your neighbor valued these concerns less than what they saw as an injustice against them, a need to be rectified. Step outside your bubble and reach out to those who you haven’t truly had a conversation with. To make lasting change, you need to make an effort as a collective group to understand why the other side felt so angry, why they felt they were being excluded from the system. And remember that it was only a few days ago that you prayed that should we win, the other side will be able to concede gracefully and stand together with us for unity.

            To those who supported the President-Elect, congratulations on your victory. Your voice has been heard. But please have compassion for those who now find themselves feeling like they no longer have a place in this country. Please understand that they see this result as an election calling for the suppression of their identity. It is your job to reassure them that despite your differing convictions, this is a country for everyone. You cannot effectively govern without half the nation behind you.

            To all, Trump is the President-elect. But, no matter which side you see it from, half the country is not evil. And neither side can be so easily summed up as absent minded bigotry or hatred. We are all people. We are all Americans. We are all members of this community. And we will work through the divide. In the spirit of teamwork, reach beyond your lane, speak with those you disagree with, look inside yourselves, and ask how you can help others. Let us be a model community for the nation as a whole. “

Jacob Hutt, Class of 2017

Jacob articulates what I am feeling way better than I can.
How are you feeling after this election?

Audio Here:

I hated every single minute of  her Boot Camp too.

Then again, I hated every single minute of everything back then.
My mom was dying, and I was fat.
I was fat, and my mom was dying.
Those two irrefutable facts made up my existence.

So my experience in Lisa’s army-esque obstacle course boot camp class was doomed from the start.

Being overweight was bad enough. But to make my life even more intolerable, Lisa required me to wear hideous army fatigues while working out.

2008. In fatigues. my sister and me.

By required I mean I signed up for and paid Lisa for a six-week course that mandated certain clothing be worn and certain exercises be done, like the rope swing. There were also monkey bars to climb, hurdles to jump, push-ups to do and walls to scale.
I signed up for her class with my friends and my sister. My skinny friends and skinny sister. I was the fat girl with the dying mother in a sea of skinny girls.

I hated Lisa.
I thought she was mean in part because I hated the clothing she forced me (I agreed to) wear.
And I was furious that I was unable to hoist my heft over a hurdle.
I felt insecure, loser-like, foolish, angry, nervous, sad and desperate.
And somehow all of this was Lisa’s fault.
I don’t remember the moment I decided I hated Lisa. I just know that I did.

Eight years later and sixty-seven pounds lighter I see Lisa from time to time in another exercise class.
We don’t speak.
My friends adore her. They think she’s great.
I think nothing. I just have this yucky feeling from back then.

Well, eight years later and sixty-seven pounds lighter, I found out that Lisa has been holding a grudge against me for the past eight years.

Back in 2008 I emailed a former instructor of hers and said some really mean things (about Lisa.)

I didn’t remember this until she told me. Today. As we were both signing into an exercise class.

Lisa remembered because she read the emails I sent back then.
She hadn’t had the appropriate opportunity to mention them to me up until now.

The past eight years whenever Lisa has seen me anywhere, she’s been feeling angry and hurt.

She thought she tried to help me jump over the mini moat and mighty hurdle. I thought she was mean because I couldn’t do it.

I am cringing as I write this because I am so not a mean girl. And yet,  when I went searching through my old emails, I found the emails and the unfortunate realization that I was such a mean girl.  I trashed Lisa in two emails.  I am embarrassed.  And I am sorry.

I let my sadness and my insecurity dictate my perspective and my behavior. I was an asshole. Being sad inside can do that.

Today, when someone is overtly nasty to me, I understand it probably comes from a darkness within that person. And usually has very little to do with me.
I know this because I’ve been there. And hope to never be there again.

*Lisa’s name has been changed.